Hey, where is my knife?

The first day Baby Bear left, I missed him.

The day after Baby Bear left, he missed him.

On the third day after Baby Bear left, I miss him, miss him, miss him~

But in fact it's not exactly like this, at least on the first night when Ji Kai arrived in the neighboring city, Li Weidu definitely tried something new.

Pick up the phone and close your eyes.Listening to the sexy and deep voice, fantasizing about the scene described in detail, and then feel intimate and obsessed as if you were there.

"The bathtub is silver, and the hotel's bathrobe is very soft, dark gray velvet texture. It sticks to the chest and rubs against it... It's a little swollen, it's just a strap, and it comes loose with a light pull."

"...I didn't wear anything inside." The low and soothing breathing sound, the magnetic voice was transcribed by the mobile phone, and it was almost bone-numbingly magnetic and seductive.

"Weidu, think about it...Where do you want to touch me first?"

Li Weidu was played with in the air every day and couldn't bear all kinds of injuries.Obviously, during the actual battle, he can serve Baby Bear thoroughly and comfortably every time, but why is he always teasing him at such a time...

After sweetening, getting bored, and finishing, I still feel reluctant to hang up the phone.

"Then, let me sing you a lullaby."

It's fine to be able to draw, but Li Weidu discovered that he, living, but, also, can, sing, sing!

The hypnotic serenade was sung very well.Lying on the soft bed, Li Weidu seemed to be floating in the moonlit river of stars, seeing the golden and fat little stars falling in waves, and his eyes were brightly shining.

What is worse than professional singing?If my baby bear goes to sing, will Zhu Ling still have something to eat?

"A little farewell is better than a newlywed."

Mr. Li secretly felt that it might be good to do this once in a while.

As a result, early the next morning, the cold reality taught him to be a human being—nothing is good without the baby bear, not at all!

After breakfast, I came to the company. The glass window was facing the bustling and splendid landmark tower of City S. I was just getting ready to deal with the squeezed business when the secretary called and said someone was looking for him.

The person who came was the old housekeeper Fu Bo.

Li Weidu's father has been busy with work, and his mother is always talking about locking herself in the room.Apart from Ye Yan who was by his side in childhood, the old housekeeper Fu Bo often took care of him like a kind grandfather, bringing him a little bit of family affection in the gloomy years.

Therefore, he will definitely not lose face to that old man.

He took out the good tea from his collection and brewed it for him. The fragrance of the tea was overflowing, but Uncle Fu was so trembling that he dared not sit down, let alone drink it.

"Young Master, Master and Madam told me to invite you back to have a meal at noon today. You, you just do yourself a favor and don't embarrass Old Ah Fu, right? The Master has specially ordered that I will take you back no matter what..."

Li Weidu was a little confused.

He softly comforted Fu Bo, who was full of ditches and tangled faces, and didn't understand why he said the word "madame".

"Fu Bo, you used to only call my mother 'Ma'am'."

The later woman, he will always only call her 'Miss', even if she flirts at him all day long.Even Aunt Bai, Fu Bo only called her 'Ms. Bai' all the time.

"Master," Fu Bo hesitated, "it's Madam, it's Madam, she's back."

Li Weidu frowned, not understanding.

"Master, Ma'am, she's back! Old Fu couldn't believe it before, but she is indeed back! She's back in our house!"

……

The mountain road leading to the villa on the mountainside was a bit bumpy, the weather was gloomy, and the air was full of the astringent smell of the coming mountain rain.

Li Weidu will never forget the eternal nightmare in his memory.

In the gloomy villa, the thunderstorm couldn't cover up the cries like ghosts.The little boy walked up to the second floor with a trembling body, and saw where his mother was lying, there was a lot of bright red blood on the ground.

Regarding this memory, for so many years, my father has always insisted that he remembered it wrongly, saying that he had a problem with his brain, that he had delusions and couldn't distinguish between dreams and reality.But Li Weidu clearly remembered that he was so frightened that he fell down the stairs and scratched his ankle, and there is still a shallow scar there.

Later, when the ambulance arrived, the man in white rushed in, and my mother never came home.

Others said that his father killed his mother through domestic violence, and the police didn't care about the rich and powerful. 20 years ago, City S hadn't developed very much, and this incident was well known on the streets and alleys.

[Stop playing with him, if you accidentally offend their family, be careful of being thrown into the river to feed the crocodiles! 】

Throughout his childhood and adolescence, Li Wei had trouble making friends.All the classmates and teachers were afraid in their eyes, and kept a respectful distance from him, a "child of a murderer".

Soon after my mother disappeared, everything about her in the whole family disappeared, as if she had never existed.

When he was young, he used to cry to find his mother, but every time he was beaten and scolded by his father full of alcohol, even the woman he found later followed suit. Hong Kou burned a cigarette on his arm with a fingertip. Each scar.

Gradually, I stopped crying and making troubles, and became numb, and even no longer remembered what my biological mother looked like.

Until many years later, my father changed one woman after another, and suddenly one day he returned to his innocence as if he had received an oracle.

Suddenly turned that house into an altar, hung a large portrait of his mother sincerely confessing, showing his deep love, and it is said that no matter how messed up he was outside, he never brought anyone back home.

All of this made Li Weidu feel extremely mocked.

……

Uncle Fu looked at the young master leaning against the window, his eyes dimmed, lifeless as if he had fallen apart, and he couldn't bear it.

He spent his whole life serving others honestly, but he didn't know what to say to comfort him.

When the master brought his wife home a while ago, he was no less shocked than the young master.It's exactly like the astonishment of seeing the dead come back to life.

But there is no way to talk to others. In the whole family, he is the only 20-year-old servant.There was originally a cleaning maid who was also the master's mistress for many years, but because of the return of his wife, that person had been driven far away by the master and sent away.The flowers and plants outside have all been cleaned up and disconnected.

...remember that night 20 years ago.

Madam bled a lot, and kept crying and going crazy in the hospital, saying that she was going to leave. The master asked several people to watch her together.

But Mrs. escaped from the hospital anyway.It was raining heavily outside, and the river embankment next to it was swollen. Many of them split up and flashed their flashlights, but they couldn't find her. Later... beside a big rock by the river, they found the shoes that my wife was wearing that day.

All these years, everyone thought that she was forced into a corner and jumped into the river to die by herself...

Who knew, they came back in good order!

……

"Yes, I stood by the water for a long time at that time, but I still didn't jump off in the end."

The woman flicked the curly hair beside her ears, her smile was not flustered at all, and there was a sharp brilliance in her eyes.Just like the resoluteness when he walked barefoot, biting his lip, stepping on the cold and muddy street in the rain, and walked far away without looking back.

Li Weidu looked at him carefully.

The whole world is spinning unreal glare silently.

High-end dresses, delicate powder, red cardamom that is so clear to the fingertips.She seems to be doing well, her face is very similar to that in the black and white photo, her father has aged a lot, and there are vertical and horizontal grooves on his face, but she is well maintained.It seems that the years are taking pity on her beauty, which makes her still very charming until now.

But the mother in my impression was an elegant, pure, and very artistic ballerina.

The gorgeous woman in front of him resembled her, but she was not like her.

……

Li Weidu didn't call her, nor let her touch her.

The father was very angry and knocked on the table to get angry, while the woman gently persuaded him.In Li Weidu's eyes, it was ridiculous and ridiculously divided.

... You, you guys, have you all forgotten.

In the vague memory, there is indeed a gentle "mother".Peel apples for him, fry chicken legs, and gently hold his hand when the family doctor gives an injection.

But more are completely distorted memories, hitting him hard to vent his anger, crying and scratching his face, and even threatening with a knife——

He no longer remembers whether it was his father who threatened her with the knife on his neck, or she threatened his father with the knife on his neck. Anyway, it was another endless quarrel between the two, and he cried again as the The trembling props were afraid that the cold blade would really cut them off.

"Back then~ It was mainly because I was too young and too stubborn. As a housewife, I stayed at home all day, felt insecure, and had a lot of meaningless fights. But now I have my own business, and I have matured a lot. We will not repeat the mistakes of the past.”

With so much hatred back then, the woman smiled and said it lightly.

The man held his hand, with a deep affection on his face: "Luo Rui, don't say that, I also made mistakes back then."

"He said that you are mentally ill, that you are crazy." Li Weidu couldn't help it, and immediately exposed this hypocritical love, "He also said that madness is inherited, and I will be the same in the future Go crazy, you will be locked up in a lunatic asylum, if you can't be cured!"

Father Li quickly explained: "Luo Rui, I was young at the time and didn't know how to raise children. He was disobedient, so I had to scare him, but most people wouldn't believe such words, right?"

……

Li Weidu didn't know how he left that home at all.

Bleeding from the fingertips on the palm of his hand, he was not at all glad that he was actually "not sick".

Yes, maybe he's not sick.

But both of them should be ill.At least he can be sure that his own mother is really sick. Leaving aside the matter of leaving that year, after so many years, she still wants to come back to him?

"Your father has changed."

If you change it, it doesn't count if you almost kill you.

I can't understand, I don't understand that this is the thinking logic of that messy shit dimension.

……

"Weidu! Weidu?"

On the other end of the video, Ji Kai approached the screen with concern: "What's wrong? It seems that you are not very energetic."

"I'm fine, maybe I'm a little tired from working overtime today."

There was a second of tension over there: "Isn't your body uncomfortable again?"

Shaking his head.

"really not?"

"Well, don't worry."

"Oh, then if you're tired, don't keep chatting with me. Take a shower early to rest, and remember to eat something to rest your stomach. Your stomach can't be empty, or..."

"Yeah." Li Weidu looked at the computer with a pale face, and dazedly stretched out his hand to rub the face on the screen twice, "Ji Kai, baby."

"Ok?"

"I miss you, I really miss you."

"I miss you too. Are you really okay? Weidu, tell me if there's anything wrong?"

"No, I just suddenly felt...fortunately, you broke up with Zhu Ling early in the morning."

Really, it's a good thing you left him early.

They are all top-notch liars and top-notch actors. Of course, my father should be even better, acting in a scene of deep regret, even the woman who was almost killed more than 20 years ago can look back foolishly.

...Fortunately, Baby Bear is very determined and not that stupid.

Good, leave him, he can never hurt you again.And I will treat you well, and promise not to hurt you in the slightest.

……

Obviously wanting to become stronger, wanting to make him dependable earlier, thinking about protecting him well in the future.I tried my best to cheer and encourage myself, but for several nights in a row, as soon as I lay in bed, I felt depressed.

Loathing myself, being connected by blood with that kind of man, can never get rid of it.

Sometimes I think of that woman. She may have suffered a lot back then. On the rainy night by the river, as long as she takes one more step forward, she may end up in the same end as Ji Kai's gentle sister.

However, since you decided to survive, then live wonderfully, why do you want to go back to being with the devil?

Also, why... didn't you take me with you back then.

After a few days, my face was ashen, my anger was loose, and my emotions became more and more out of control.

Li Wei knew that in the eyes of many people, a person like him should be carefree.

How can there be worries?From a young age, the housekeeper drove a Cayenne to pick up and drop off to school. At the age of 19, he set up his own company, which became bigger and stronger, and was listed on the list of the richest young people.

If there is anything sad about such a winner in life, I am afraid it is purely self-made.If you are unhappy, buy, buy, buy!If the person you love doesn't love you, why don't you change it?

What's more, he did change, and he even changed to that super handsome little sun who is one in a million and not worth a fortune.Really...it couldn't be better.

but……

Li Weidu is indeed not a typical depression patient. He has never fallen into a long-term illness, but occasionally breaks out suddenly.

Many people seem to think that depressed patients will cry and be emotional, but in fact, according to Li Weidu's experience, this is not the case at all.

Only passive and world-weary, half-dead.It's like being thrown into the deep sea and entering an extremely mechanical world.

But he didn't want to cry.

As for the concerned baby bear on the other side of the screen.Naturally, he still knows that he is cute and warm, but he feels nothing when he is pressed against the bear's paw in the air, as if he is separated by a layer of cold aquarium glass.

I don't want to do this, but I'm so tired and heavy that I can't help myself.It is futile to try to contend with the force that drags people into the abyss.

The only good thing is that the basic rationality is still there.He also knew to lie to him: "I'm really just too tired from work recently."

"Weidu, from what you and I heard, your complexion is very bad. Go to the hospital obediently, and go now, okay?"

"Well, good." With the last effort, he smiled and nodded to the other side, "I'll go right away, really, don't worry, I'll go right away."

Then the phone fell to the ground, and I didn't have the strength to pick it up again.

The whole person sat prostratedly on the chair for a while, and rationally jumped out and said the last sentence, this is not good.

...No.

How many days have we been apart?It's too brittle.How can you talk about being alone like this, and what are you talking about giving him peace of mind, happiness and reliance?

Like this, definitely not... I want to protect the baby bear.

People like Ji Kai always look very strong, and it can even be said that they have armed themselves to the point of being invulnerable and perfect.But always covering the wound like that, even if it is infected or even life-threatening, it still can't be seen on the outside.

Li Weidu was a little lucky, even proud.I discovered what Zhu Ling didn't.

If you want to protect him, you must protect him...

Staggering, he propped himself up and stood up to rummage through the medicine box.It's been a long time since I took out the anti-depressants, seven or eight pills at a time, which is really not too much.He remembered that this kind of medicine was better than sleeping pills, and sleeping pills had no effect at all and still could not fall asleep, but this kind of medicine can often make people fall asleep and sleep until dawn.

Just this time...

Because, I haven't fallen asleep for three whole days, so tired.Take some medicine quickly, get a good night's sleep, and you'll be fine when you wake up.

When Baby Bear comes back, he must make up for all the kisses and hugs he owed these days, greet him energetically, and don't let him see it...

……

Qi Yang received a call from Ji Kai in the middle of the night.

"what happened?"

"Can I ask you to go and accompany Weidu? I always feel that something is wrong with him." When Ji Kai said, he was already packing his luggage at a high speed.

The meeting report has already been done, and tomorrow's closing ceremony is actually nothing to do with him, so he might as well rush home early.

...must go home early!There is always a very bad premonition in my heart.

Hearing Ji Kai's serious tone, Qi Yang didn't dare to delay. The orange sports car slammed into Li Weidu's house at night.

The street lights were dimly lit, and the house, which was usually lit with warm little lights, was dark and quiet inside.The shadows of the trees behind were rustling, and there were shadows everywhere, while Qi Yang tremblingly took out the key, he couldn't help looking behind and to the side several times.

I always feel that if this is accompanied by a horror soundtrack, it is really like the perfect place for perverted murderers to commit crimes and hide corpses in the American TV series he watched a while ago.

Could it be... Weidu has already been killed?The murderer is in ambush in the house, just waiting for someone to come in, one by one, one pair by pair, hey~ I'm so scared!

If I had known Wei Xuan or Zuo Yan would have come together!

The more I thought about it, the less I dared to open the door. Fortunately, Li Weidu's house had floor-to-ceiling glass windows, and the curtains on one side were not so tightly covered, so he simply turned on the flashlight of his mobile phone, and a beam of dazzling white light shone in——

The sofa was crooked, wine bottles and pills were scattered on the ground, and a person fell on the ground, with bangs sticking to his face in a mess, making it impossible to see his face clearly.But after all, we've known each other for so many years, it's impossible not to recognize them.

Fuck!Fuck! ! !no?

Shaking the key, he picked it up and dropped it on the ground several times, and then he couldn't even pick it up.A shovel happened to be placed next to the fence, Qi Yang panted heavily, and smashed the shovel through the glass hard.

The alarm sounded loudly immediately, resounding through the empty community.

……

……

Ji Kai was going crazy.

The luggage was thrown directly in the hospital lobby without any care, and the suit and leather shoes bound his hands and feet could not prevent him from striding straight to the ward.Looking at the dying man with dark eye sockets on the bed, his throat choked, and he almost wanted to hug him immediately to give him enough warmth, but at the same time, he wanted to slap him hard on the face a few times.

Why……

What am I doing wrong?Is it because I don't care enough and love you enough?

Why do such a thing? !

What if Qi Yang is one step late?What should I do if I can't be saved?

"Brother Kai, brother Kai, don't be like this." Qi Yang was in a hurry, he had heard from Zuo Yan and the others that they had known each other for so long, no one in the group except Zhou Yi'an seemed to have seen Brother Kai cry.

However, he was lucky enough to meet him for the first time at the playground, and this was the second time!

Sitting on the edge of the bed and waiting, waiting.All kinds of worry, anxiety, sadness, and anger, when the person woke up, the anger was really not suppressed: "If you dare to do this again in the future, I will break up with you!"

The voice was subdued, but very rough, and Qi Yang shuddered at the door.

"..."

Seeing it, the puppet shattered.

Dazed for a while, a pair of eyes stared at him blankly, slowly accumulating mist, and then tears kept sliding down his cheeks, the whole kind of exaggerated.

"……Do not break up."

"I won't break up!"

Then, nothing else could be said.Every breath was extremely difficult, and it felt like a special pain. The whole person scratched the bed sheet until his knuckles turned white.Wronged like a child who was slapped several times by his parents for doing nothing wrong.

Ji Kai gritted his teeth, feeling more wronged than him.

Saying you love me all day long... You do this kind of thing to me when you can't see it at a glance?

I hurt you for nothing!

cry!Just cry, how wronged are you?Coax you that I'm a dog, so I won't indulge your bad habits!

However, after only about 2 minutes, I couldn't stand it anymore.

The man had been lying on the bed crying, feeling like an empty shell, feeling like it was about to be submerged in water vapor.Ji Kai held back, but couldn't hold back: "No, I didn't mean to break up with you now! Why are you crying!"

What you said clearly is "If you dare again", there is a premise, okay!

……

Since Li Weidu opened his eyes, he didn't understand anything.

I just feel very uncomfortable, dizzy and want to vomit, but there is nothing in my stomach.The air was filled with the smell of hospital disinfectant, before he understood what was going on, he saw Ji Kai in a daze.

Haven't had time to smile yet.In the end, Baby Bear suddenly became so fierce that he wanted to break up with him right away? !

Is it a nightmare?Such a nasty dream, so uncomfortable...

Devastating blow.

About 10 minutes later, Mr. Li held Ji Kai tightly in his arms, and finally figured out the ins and outs of everything.

"I do not have!"

"When am I going to commit suicide! What are you thinking about?"

Qi Yang: "..."

"Before you send me for emergency treatment, you, you should first ask if the situation is okay?" Bai shed so many tears, and was inexplicably washed out of his stomach, and seemed to wake up a bit during the process, because it was too uncomfortable. He passed out again, as if he had suffered a crime.

Qi Yang: "Damn it, you didn't wake up no matter how you shook it, and you didn't respond to dozens of slaps. I just watched all kinds of pills that I don't understand in foreign languages ​​scattered all over the place, and Brother Kai said you The whole person is not right, I don't know that it is not a suicide scene? Normal people will think it is a suicide scene when they look at that posture!"

"That's common medicine! I'm not tired of living, and I'm living a good life. Why would I want to commit suicide? Huh..."

As soon as I inhaled hard, my stomach started to feel sore again.Da Xiongxiong hugged him with one arm, and covered the warm palm of the other hand, Li Weidu buried him in his neck, and took a bite of super revenge society.

It's flicking, but it's still super wronged.

The mental blow was too great, and you actually said something about breaking up... Who do you want to break up with when you are tired of work?Make you into a stuffed bear believe it or not!

Qi Yang: "So, blame me?"

It's really hard, to stand up for righteousness and save people is not to be awarded a certificate, but also to be blamed, super innocent, and the storm is crying!