Hey, where is my knife?

"I'll just say it! The brand owner hesitated that day, there must be a ghost! Finally asked me to find out, it was the prosperous Li Weidu who made a hindrance, and he asked the brand owner to replace him!"

"I said Ancestor Ling, why are you still laughing?"

The red high-heeled shoes echoed in the empty dressing room, and Sister Tong was so annoyed that she wanted to knock Zhu Ling's head with a folder.

But the big star's shiny hair has obviously just been styled, so forget it... angry!

"You can have a snack, such a good job opportunity is gone! I told you to fight with him in the supermarket last time. What can't be resolved in a civilized way? You have to touch a stone with him..."

Zhu Ling: "It's 'rock' hitting rock, okay? No, it's 'granite hitting rock', I'll hit him to death!"

Sister Tong rolled her eyes: "Your boy is really confident recently."

Zhu Ling is indeed confident.

With the popularity of the Republic of China drama, even if he lost one or two endorsements, so what?There are still countless programs and manufacturers contacting him, not to mention that the literary film filmed in South America has not yet been released.

The film of the famous director Xia Dao, with the blessing of the award-winning original novel, has attracted much attention since the filming started.

Still in the process of editing and post-production, there are already various rumors and rumors of "hoping to win all the awards". I believe that when it is released, it will be another peak of his career.

Therefore, Zhu Ling was not only not angry about being robbed of his endorsement, but found it ridiculous.

One is laughing at Li Weidu's naivety, and the other is laughing... Heh, if the relationship goes well, you won't be staring at my ex all day long, right?

It was a hopeless neurosis.It's been half a year, and I guess it should have been exposed in front of Brother Kai.

Still married?Brother Kai, as long as his mind is still normal, the two of you probably won't succeed in the end.By the way, why did Mr. Li want to poke his endorsement so frantically?Maybe, hmph, we are already breaking up!

Knowing that you are having a bad time makes me feel at ease.

"Little Zhu Ling, you are also very strange. When you were in South America, didn't you always talk about getting your ex back? Now, do you want him or not? If there is no fate, just forget it." , don't offend Mr. Li again because of him!"

In fact, Zhu Ling didn't know whether he wanted it or not.

Of course I still love him, and it hurts when I think of it, there is no doubt about it.However, he didn't know, if Ji Kai really broke up with Li Weidu and turned back, would he be able to reconcile with him completely without any grievances?

"Sister Tong, your marriage is very happy, so you don't understand this feeling."

"I really feel very disappointed. I didn't expect him to forget everything between us so quickly and easily. He doesn't look sad at all. I feel sorry for myself. I really can't accept it, so trusting People betrayed me like that, and I don't know if I can trust him again in the future."

With a little sympathy on her face, Sister Tong stretched out her hand to touch the back of Zhu Ling's neck, and then slapped him blankly.

"You betray others first, okay?"

Zhu Ling frowned and raised his head: "Yes, the fault was on me at first, so I can't feel wronged, can I?"

"So he can fall in love with whoever he wants, and do whatever he wants, right? And no matter how hurt I am, how sad, how much I blame myself, how much I regret, I can only be treated as a joke, as my own fault Typical, isn't it?"

"But Sister Tong, you said that if he really loves me, how could he forget so quickly?"

"If he really loves me, he will definitely not get along with others so quickly, heh, and bully me with others. Recently, I always wonder if he... Has he never loved me at all? "

……

That night, Zhu Ling held a gloomy heart that had fallen to the bottom of the valley, and invited a group of friends to have dinner.

At the banquet, everyone had a good feast and began to brag in various ways. Those with wives showed off their wives, those with girlfriends showed off their girlfriends, and those with cats showed off their cats.

"Wait, wait Ning Zhen, no~ yes~ wow~ the photo you showed us last time, it doesn't seem like this handsome guy!"

"You don't understand, do you?" Ning Zhen, a young [-]th-tier actor, looked at the screen drunkenly, shaking his head in foolish joy.

"This is my wife, and I will definitely marry her back home in the future! She looks very clean and comfortable, reliable, and at home? Marriage, it must be reassuring to be with such a person, those are particularly good-looking, hypocritical｜There are many things Yes, I can only play for fun! Don't look at me who usually plays Huacong, he is definitely the only true love!"

After all, he said "what" to the screen.

"Hehe, if you have true love, you're still stealing food outside, but don't let your wife find out someday?"

"How can it be? I still know which is more important. Hahaha, with all due respect, if you really go to divorce for the sake of clues like our Brother Ling, there are not many people who are sincere. Warrior, Brother Ling!"

Zhu Ling's face darkened.

"Oh, are you angry? Don't, don't, Brother Ling, you have to think like this—"

Just when the waiter came in to serve the food, he was holding a plate of sizzling pan-fried veal steak.

"The predecessor, it's just like this plate of fried beef. At first glance, it looks delicious, and you watch others eat it," Ning Zhen said, and chewed a bite of veal steak, "It's so delicious! That's sweet, savory, and juicy."

"But Brother Ling, if you think about it carefully, it's not bad for you to see other people's delicious food, but you have actually eaten this stuff yourself! You know it better than anyone else, that stuff is just an ordinary steak It’s just that it’s not that delicious at all!”

Everyone at the table roared with laughter, but Zhu Ling continued without laughing.

Because he knows it's not like that.

His baby bear, Ji Kai, is the best, and he knows it better than anyone else.

...it was so delicious, but I can't eat it anymore.

……

That night, Dizzy was drank so much that the car couldn't be driven at all.

I can only walk down the crowded subway station wearing a mask, dangling and smelling of alcohol.I don't know if it's unlucky, but the people waiting for the bus outside the glass door are all couples. It feels like everyone in the world is in pairs except him.

Various malicious speculations could not help but emerge.Among these people who come and go, how many are "true love", and how many are holding other people's "true love" here, and they are inseparable and inseparable?

When I was intimate with Xinhuan, I wonder if I can still think of my old love and the sweet days when you were together.

Look, you are still smiling, so sweet.

Many people in this world are really... just like Brother Kai, they are very affordable and let go!

Ah……

What Zhu Ling has always hated most is Ji Kai.

When I love you, I feel like I can give you all the tenderness in the world, but when I leave, I don't show any mercy. I can say hurtful things when I turn around and hug my new lover, and let him be left alone in the Freezing in the icy air, I couldn't find a response sentence at all.

That day in the supermarket, since Li Weidu showed up, Zhu Ling never showed signs of weakness.

Don't fight for anything in one breath, just fight for face.fuck him!

But now, somehow, it suddenly stopped. The bitterness of grievance slowly accumulated, and finally came out of my eyes, and I lost my soul like being possessed by an evil spirit.Crying like a dog in the wobbly subway workshop, I finally thought it was okay, I couldn't hold on anymore.

... If someone looks sideways, someone else will look sideways. Anyway, the cover is so thick that no one should be able to recognize him.Even if you recognize it, it doesn't matter.

Went home and went to bed.He was obviously dehydrated and tired, and obviously there was a program to be recorded the next day and he should be in a good state, but he tossed and turned and couldn't sleep at all.

Thinking about that day, Li Weidu grabbed his head and bumped it against the shelf in the supermarket, and when he came back, his cheeks were frozen for several days, and he was beaten blue in one eye, which was much more serious than the one surnamed Li.

But Brother Kai didn't even look at him.

During the whole process, he used small cotton swabs from the supermarket to focus on treating the wound on the corner of Li Weidu's mouth. The man surnamed Li was also very hypocritical, screaming "pain" on purpose, occasionally glanced over with provocative and complacent eyes, and turned to look at Ji Kai. A shy and harmless smile.

Neuropathy really deserves to be neuropathy, so schizophrenic.

If there is a knife on the spot, Zhu Ling will probably use it to eliminate harm for the people.

Not feeling sleepy at all, I took the guitar from the wall and strummed a few times.But no inspiration came out, and I wrote a bunch of crumpled paper balls for a long time. I wanted to turn on my mobile phone and listen to music to find inspiration, but I couldn't help but started to use the communication software.

After searching around, I realized that Ji Kai was gone.

Ji Kai has blocked him.

Sometimes, Zhu Ling was very glad that the person blocked him.

Otherwise, he would probably go through the various states of that person over and over again as before.But what can you see?It's nothing more than him and Li Weidu's various shows of affection and sweet interactions, and his annoying words to punish his heart.

The time in the amusement park and the time in the supermarket have had enough.Already scraped to pieces by glass, already...

I didn't know that "getting angry" is actually a verb. When the heartbeat started to suffocate and fast again, and a fierce hatred ignited in the chest, suddenly "ding dong" a new message came from Ye Yan with the head of the little white rabbit. .

A song link, a simple "Zhu Ling, I'm still waiting for you."

Zhu Ling was stunned.In fact, he hasn't replied to his message for a long, long time, and has unilaterally decided to let him down completely, but that little fool is still waiting for him.

……

Before the "Flying Leaf" incident, Ye Yan was ridiculed by infinite groups all over the Internet, and even had several rounds of "get out of the entertainment circle" in a row.

It may be that I was scolded too much in those few days. Later, when the police official blog proved that it was just a spoof video that was misunderstood, and there was no fact of drug use, it won the sympathy of some people.

The manager helped to actively contact the activities. Ye Yan later appeared on some shows, and the response was not bad, and then took advantage of the momentum to release a single.

Hearing from Sister Tong, Zhu Ling didn't pay much attention to the explosion.

It wasn't until this moment that I clicked on "Play" for the first time.

……

It was a very sad song, very suitable for Ye Yin's soft and weak voice. In the chorus part, a sentence in English was repeated all the time.

Inever actually had you for one second and it feels like losing you for thousands of times.

I never had you for a second, but it seems like I lost you a thousand times.

It seemed to be sung to him by his ears, pitiful, resentful, and a little bit of anticipation.

Never had.Yes, indeed never had.

Now that I look back and think about it carefully, the days when I was with Ye Yin were indeed very comfortable and happy.But that was probably just because Ji Kai never wanted to rely on him, and he finally found the feeling of being needed and relied on in Ye Yan, and mistakenly thought it was "love".

But that's not it.

Because it won't hurt if you are separated, but the person you really love will be heartbroken every day when you are separated.

His hand trembled subconsciously, and the screen just slid to the comment message under the song.The one that received the highest praise, a person with a very gentle profile picture wrote a sentence:

This song is really sad and reminds me countless times of the person I used to love.I hope that all people will never have the opportunity to experience the pain of losing someone they really like, never have the opportunity, and bless you all.

Tears came down suddenly and without warning.

This time, he couldn't restrain himself at all, lying on the table and crying.

I don't know how long I cried, but when I looked up again, the sky was already dim.

Zhu Ling suddenly felt a deep loneliness, and suddenly wanted to go home and have a look.

……

Three months in South America, coming back in December, directly facing the invitations and rehearsals of various programs for Christmas and New Year, and then the Chinese New Year, the busiest days for stars all collided together.

Since returning to China, he has been very busy and has no chance to go home at all, and he and Xiaoyan have only been in contact by phone.

Now I finally went back. I drove to Zhu’s mother’s house early in the morning. When I stepped into the house in a hurry, I saw a large and small package of carton express delivery all over the place, and several relatives were busy unpacking it cheerfully.

"Mom, why did you buy so many things?"

The third aunt looked happy: "How could your mother buy it? It was all sent by that child Ye Yan!"

"..."

"I said Xiaoling, Sangu saw that Ye Yan was pretty good. He often appeared on TV, he was good-looking and likable, and he must be famous and able to make money. This is not much better than that rough, fierce and bad guy you were before. gone?"

"That's right," other relatives also echoed, "What's so good about Ji Kai? He said he studied and worked in a university, but he still can't make money? What's the use?"

"San Gu asked for you last time, Ye Yan is still single! So diligent in delivering things all day, she obviously likes you! Hurry up and grab it, there will be no more shops after this village!"

"Third Aunt, stop talking."

"Uncle, Uncle!" The bouncing boy slammed into his arms, hurting... This kid has grown up again after not seeing him for a few months!

"I'll go, you've even remodeled your room?"

At Zhu's mother's house, Zhu Yan already had her own room here.But because I never lived here often, there were always plain beds, plaid curtains and empty bookshelves.

Look at it again today, it has become magnificent!The bed sheets and curtains were all replaced with anime themes, and there were a few life-size gorgeous pillows on the bed. The bookshelves were filled with beautiful scene Lego blocks, Optimus Prime and various game figures. The whole room was arranged like an amusement park same field.

Zhu Ling's mother opened the door and brought in fruit: "Come, eat strawberries, eat strawberries, and Xiao Yan washes his hands!"

"Mom, the amount of pocket money you gave Xiaoyan is too outrageous, right? I remember that these are quite expensive. How many times have I told you that our family can't spoil our children so much."

Zhu's mother shook her head and smiled, "Oh, how can I buy it with my pocket money? It's because Xiao Kai thought about him and sent it to him."

"Ji Kai? I, I thought he didn't care about Xiao Yan." Zhu Ling's heart moved, and everyone stood up immediately.

"Oh, what kind of child is Xiao Kai?" Mother Zhu sighed, "When you were not around, he often went to school to see Xiao Yan, and often took him out for dinner. It's just that we didn't come to our house for the New Year's Eve dinner. , mainly because I'm afraid of seeing you."

"Siblings, let me see~ I'm afraid it wasn't sent by Ji Kai, right?" Sangu passed by the door, squinting her eyes for fear of chaos.

"The sender's name, I don't think it's him. No, the cardboard boxes are still waiting for the tattered ones to be picked up on the balcony! Maybe it's your other friends, or Xiao Ling, go and see for yourself ?”

……

……

The things on the bookshelves were beaten, swept and scattered all over the place. When Zhu Yan ran into the room, Zhu Ling almost pulled down the curtains.

"Uncle! Uncle, what are you doing?"

"What do you think I'm doing?! What Li Weidu sent over, you actually took it and put it out?"

"Throw it away! All of these! Throw me away and don't keep one thing! It's fine for him to betray me alone, but you are a child of my Zhu family! You have learned to eat inside and outside at such a young age?"

"Don't you think, don't smash it first!" The boy's voice was crying, and Zhu's mother also persuaded him.

"Don't worry about it, Mom!! This kid just lacks education, what kind of crap is this? What are these things that I can't buy for you? That Li Weidu, huh... have you had dinner with him yet? We had a good time getting along. Bar?"

Zhu's mother pulled the boy behind her: "Zhu Ling, you are crazy! Why did you hit my grandson! Xiao Yan, does it hurt?"

The pain is definitely painful, Zhu Ling's palms are burning with pain, but he can't feel it now: "Aren't you all crazy? Mom! You just spoil him like this! Xiao Yan, that person took your father away You didn't help me deal with him, and you were bought by his little favor? What do you think?"

The boy covered his cheeks, and the big teardrops fell down like broken threads.

"Then what can I do..."

"Oh, because Dad likes him very much, what can I do? I don't want to be without him, but if Dad chooses between me and that person, I'm afraid he will choose that person! After all, after all, that person People have been taking care of him when he was in a car accident, and I can't do anything to help..."

"Car accident?" Zhu Ling was taken aback, "What car accident?"

Zhu's mother said weakly: "Just a few days after you went to South America, Xiao Kai got into a car accident. It was very serious... It seemed that he almost died, and he was hospitalized for a month."

"I wanted to tell you, but your aunts and uncle all stopped me."

Almost...almost died?

Zhu Ling only felt a ringing in his ears, and slowly looked at Sangu and several other relatives who were standing aside with their heads stretched out: "Why...why didn't you tell me?"

Third aunt: "Oh, isn't that afraid of affecting your work? Anyway, you are so far away, and you can't help much, let alone divorced. Don't talk about a car accident or something. Even if he dies, you will be locked up." What is it? One more thing is worse than one less thing!"

Do not……

At that moment, it was really a physical pain.The scene in front of him was blurry, and his fingertips trembled.Want to speak but can't speak.

He had a car accident, but he didn't know until now.

But what did he, what did he do when he was alone?He has no relatives, who will take care of him?

By the way, Xiaoyan said that it was Li Weidu who took care of him.

"..."

So, he likes him so much now.

No wonder...he suddenly liked him so much!

***

Although I have been a teacher and been on the podium for so many years, I shouldn’t have any stage fright anymore, but after changing into a certain brand of summer shirts that I am not used to wearing in the completely unfamiliar, noisy and magical advertising shooting scene, Ji Kai still felt a little hesitant.

However, Mr. Li, who was watching from the sidelines, clearly believed that his forest cubs were invincible and omnipotent.

Therefore, Mr. Ji's life is not to collapse, so he can only bite the bullet and hold on.

Soon, he relaxed, but President Li tensed up——

The reason is that the director looked Ji Kai up and down, and suddenly came over and took a watering can, and sprayed warm water on him, sprayed, sprayed.The white shirt was instantly wet, becoming limp and clinging to the body, revealing the looming muscle curve underneath.

Ji Kai thinks it may be due to the small vests all the time in summer... Once he starts to show off and enter the state of selling meat, his self-confidence improves ↑up↑up↑, and the feeling of being restrained before is gone.

"Ka Ka Ka, Ka Ka Ka", under the flashing light, Professor Ji bit his collar and grinned grimly, President Li couldn't hold it anymore.

"Your clothes in this series have never been like this! Isn't it going to be an academic style! You are like this... It's not okay to shoot like this! It doesn't match your brand positioning."

The director explained for a long time that the brand's summer clothes will be in a new style this time, boldly breaking through the previous routines, and there will be a little sexy element.After grinding his lips desperately for a long time, and under the constant winking of the assistant next to him, he finally understood the crux of the problem——

"Oh~ so this is Mr. Li's boyfriend, sorry for your disrespect."

Li Weidu: "No."

Ji Kai: "...?"

"It's the fiance."

Ji Kai:? ! ? !

A few days later, when he saw the first film of the photo sent by the director to Li Weidu's phone, Ji Kai was also taken aback by his overwhelming sex appeal, and finally understood why Li Weidu was upset with all kinds of black faces that day.

However, the shooting that day ended smoothly in the end.On the car ride home, Ji Kai kept coaxing the unhappy CEO: "I thought I couldn't finish the filming, but you really did a great job today, and you are very supportive of my work, thank you."

As always, Mr. Li couldn't stand boasting, and he softened when he praised, his cheeks flushed slightly, and he was slightly twisted and serious: "I, I think this is also a brand new life experience, both for you and me."

Huh?Ji Kai found it novel. According to his usual understanding of Li Weidu, this person is a typical old-fashioned otaku who lives day after day with his baby in his arms.

What "new life experience"?The only new thing Mr. Li is willing to try is probably a new recipe, right?

"Um, I, I read this book a while ago, and some of the contents in the book...it makes sense when I think about it. I was already 26 years old when I met you. In my whole life, I have never met you. So much time has been wasted! So, I want to cherish every day we spend together in the future."

"I want to accompany you to try and experience all kinds of new things, just like today's shooting, although... I will really be angry if you laugh at others like that next time. But, still... Try not to quarrel , because our time together shouldn't be spent arguing, so..."

Professor Ji was overwhelmed by his arrogant and cute face, and hugged and touched him in various ways: "It's okay, it's okay, sometimes, flirting is also fun, and it's fun to be with you, and it's also fun to quarrel, it's not a waste of time .”

Throughout the morning, the class is actually over, but there are still some remaining tasks that need to be dealt with in the office.

During the 10-minute class break, it started to rain. When Professor Ji walked to the porch of the teaching building, he remembered how the little puppet was coaxed by him that day, and laughed to himself. His heart was full of tenderness.

Really, he will come to pick him up at noon tomorrow, and we can meet in a few hours.But why, so want to see him right away.

He took out his mobile phone and was about to type "I miss you" in the dialog box, but in the end, he received the same message from the other party first.

"I miss you."

"I miss you too. Love love love love."

Love is so sweet, so sweet that Ji Kai suddenly wants to go for a walk in the rain.

A rubber textbook was half-covered in front of the forehead, and the rain fell casually. He walked slowly from the school's Maple Leaf Avenue to the office, and took a look at the beautiful April in the rain.

For a 5-minute journey, he walked for more than ten minutes.The well-tailored suit was attached to his body, and he was steamed and moistened by his own heat. Then, he suddenly saw a person.

Holding his knees, the bag was soaked in water on the ground, and the man was like a wet cat, sitting on the steps outside his office with his head down.

This is an old school building, so it is very remote, and the ivy is green in the rain.Along the way, Ji Kai looked at the glistening water stains on the man's body, and finally felt a bit of coolness.

Stopping, the man slowly raised his head.She seemed to smile at him, and her eyes seemed bloodshot.

In the next second, he suddenly rushed over and hugged him tightly. He was completely unprepared, and even couldn't stand still, as if his bones were going to be cut off.

"Brother Kai, it's all my fault."

"It's all my fault, don't leave me, okay?"

Zhu Ling really didn't intend to say that.

At first, he thought about a lot of words in a daze, many words that were well-founded and thought to be able to convince him, but when he saw Ji Kai, he suddenly couldn't think of what those words were.

Then, finally, the whole person was enlightened.

Countless accusations, doubts, those sneering words that hurt others and self, were never sincere.

It's long overdue.What have you been doing all this time?

Really, it's long overdue to tell him that.