Hey, where is my knife?

"The first New Year's Eve after marriage" was exactly the period when Zhu Ling first became popular and extremely abnormal.

On the first day of the Lunar New Year, the two brought a whole carload of New Year's goods to see Zhu's mother. The car drove to the downstairs of their hometown, and the trunk was opened. Zhu Ling only glanced coldly, and walked down the corridor empty-handed. .

Ji Kai called him to stop, saying that one person would definitely not be able to move these things, but the big star looked back with a smile, squinting his eyes and said: "Baby bear, you are so strong, you can't even move it, can I? ?”

That year, my hometown hadn't changed to a new house, and there was no elevator on the sixth floor.

It was too early to go out that day, and Ji Kai didn't have time to eat breakfast, and he was dizzy and nauseated due to motion sickness all the way.Supporting a person to carry all the heavy gifts upstairs, I was so tired that I was out of breath.

For this, Zhu Ling didn't feel distressed at all, and even made him up.

"Is it that exaggerated? Do you want to be so hypocritical?"

……

Marriage is different from dating.

Before Ji Kai entered into marriage, he also made sufficient psychological preparations.

After obtaining the certificate, having a family, and having a lovely son to raise, of course, it is impossible to always be as sweet as before marriage and only see gods and couples in the eyes.

As long as you silently lower your expectations for happiness, life, and love in your heart, it's no big deal.Occasional grievances like this will pass with patience, and you won't be hypocritical to get awkward and get divorced because of such a small conflict, right?

So, even if it will only get less and less attention in the future, less and less will be treated kindly and distressed, and more and more accustomed to it, it will be like air...

But, maybe this is the truth of all the ordinary married life?

After all, they are already married.What else?

Regardless of grievances or unwillingness, there is no problem of principle, and life can still continue to live in peace.

But for some reason, he, who has always regarded himself as "quite big-hearted", was thorned by this trivial matter.

Afterwards, when facing any difficulties, I will always think of Zhu Ling's indifferent face when he called him "hypocritical".I couldn't help being ridiculed again, so I simply acted as if that person didn't exist, and relied on my own efforts.

Just holding back like this, I never thought that one day it would explode——

It was a pretty trivial quarrel for reasons I can't remember.

I just remember that the quarrel became more and more fierce, and the two of them talked more and more excitedly. When Zhu Ling angrily turned over the table and complained, "You don't love me anymore", Ji Kai turned his face coldly, turned over the old accounts from the New Year's day, and said, "That's right." , I just don't love you that much anymore." Throwing it back on Zhu Ling's face.

To this day, he could never forget Zhu Ling's shocked and aggrieved expression at that moment.

……

Revisiting the past.Ji Kai was having a hard time, and Zhu Ling's uncontrollable crying came from the other end of the phone.

"...Brother Kai, I can't forget that sentence until now, you don't even know how uncomfortable I am!"

Choked, wronged, messed up.

"Oh... yes, I was selfish and ignorant and made you sad, but, but Brother Kai! Why didn't you scold me face to face at that time?"

"If I say the wrong thing, do the wrong thing, make you unhappy, make you angry, you can teach me on the spot and let me not? Why do you keep it in your heart?"

"I'm really, really scared now... how many things like this are there? How many things are there that I did wrong and that disappointed you? Don't you love me at all now?"

"Before that day, I always thought we were very happy."

"Before you said 'you don't love me that much', I always thought we were very happy together!"

……

After the quarrel that day, the two reconciled silently.

Ji Kai didn't apologize for what he said, but he regretted it in private.From then on, she never thought about or mentioned what happened that day, and her attitude towards Zhu Ling was much more gentle and caring than before.

So that in the next two years, the two of them were almost as tender and sweet as when they first fell in love.

At one time, I thought that after going through this stumbling, each other learned to cherish and how to love each other.

...until Ye Yan rang the doorbell.

In a trance, in the dark, my knee slammed on the hotel cabinet with a "bang".A burst of severe pain pierced his head straight from his knees to the top of his head, and tears almost burst out.

Really, just a little bit.

……

If this call came, there would be no goblin who rang the doorbell, or the pot of porridge that had been fought in the street that day.

Then he will definitely be at home now, nestled on the warm sofa.Holding his heart that was bitten by guilt, he wrapped Zhu Ling with endless thoughts and tenderness wholeheartedly.

I believe that such heavy love and longing will surely heal all the small wounds and conflicts in the past.In the days to come, if she continues to be sweet, doting and gentle, and holds Zhu Ling in her hands, she will be afraid of melting.

but.

What is the reality?

In the darkness, the exquisite small wall lamps in the hotel room glowed dimly, dimly, beautifully and satirically.

Ji Kai felt his nose a little sore.

If he could continue to trust his lover as completely and unreservedly as before, then it would be impossible for him to be here now.

It's impossible to agree to an "airborne visit" with the goblin's boyfriend by accident, and end up sharing a room together in a rainstorm.

……

There was a sound of glass shattering on the other end of the phone.There was a lot of noise.

"Zhu Ling?!"

"Woo...I'm fine. It's the bottle...I accidentally hit it."

"you've been drinking?"

"Yes, I drank it! I drank a whole bottle of red wine before I dared to call and ask you what you just said!"

Ji Kai raised his wrist and wiped his burning eyes: "You have a bad stomach, drink less."

"I don't care! Baby bear, you don't love me anymore, you don't want me anymore, I might as well drink to death."

There were many times when Ji Kai felt that Zhu Lingdu was a cute but fussy child.One moment it melts your heart and makes you want to rub him into your arms, the next it makes you so mad you don't know what to do.

"Of course I love you."

Although this love has become a bit sad lately.

"You and Xiaoyan are the most important people to me in this world. Don't spoil yourself, do you hear me? Don't pick up the glass shards on the ground, be careful. Don't think about it, go to bed quickly."

"Brother Kai..."

"Be good, I will go to City C to find you tomorrow."

The voice over there seemed to be suddenly lit up: "Will you come? Baby bear, will you really come?"

"I'll go as soon as the rain stops."

Zhu Ling snorted several times, as if he finally burst into laughter: "Brother Kai, you must come! I'll wait for you, can't you lie to me?"

"Okay, go to bed quickly, don't delay work, huh?"

……

Silence returned to the room.

Li Weidu stared blankly at the dark ceiling.

All along, he took it for granted that Ji Kai was exactly the same as him.

I am eager to like others, and I am greedy for that little extravagant warmth, and I am reluctant to let go no matter what.In the end, he could only retreat again and again, enduring the endless contempt, indifference and condescension, helpless.

I can't help it every time.

Like despising and resenting yourself who deserves to be abused, look for every opportunity to crazily hate others.

No.It turned out he was wrong, downright wrong.

He is unloved.But others are loved by others.

In the phone call just now, Zhu Ling said every word, worrying about gains and losses, Li Weidu didn't think that could be a drama.

That being the case...

[Brother Li, I really didn't want to say it.But the two of them are so blatant, the whole crew knows it! 】

Now that I already have a loved one, I am so lucky to be married.Why do you still have to be so greedy and grab other people's things?

not understand.

There are many things that Li Wei can't figure out.

Zhu Ling is like God's favor, always getting everything he wants easily.

When I was in high school, I was obviously poor and stupid, except for being able to play, sing, laugh and play tricks, I had nothing else.But as long as you sit on the playground with a guitar in your arms, you will immediately surround yourself with three layers of star-eyed admirers.

He is loved by everyone, and the flowers bloom when he sees them. It feels like he doesn't need to work hard at all, and good luck can always come to him.Occasionally do something wrong, but can always get away with it mellowly by being cute and cheap.

Looking at myself, going to school in a luxury car, being picked up by a butler, being rigorous and serious, always ranks first on the bulletin board report card.

But always alone.

In the end, even the baby who had been carefully held in the palm of his hand and cared for for many years was easily abducted by Zhu Ling with a bright smile.

"Actually, those were just angry words during a quarrel."

In the darkness, Ji Kai's voice came muffled.It seemed to be talking to him, and it seemed to be talking to himself.

"In my heart... I didn't think about it that way, I really didn't think about it that way. I never wanted to hurt him."

Li Weidu remained silent.It's so bad, it's hard to breathe.

see.Really everyone loves Zhu Ling.All, all, and all people are devoted to him!

It's against the sky.

"...What's the use of saying that now?"

With a trace of reluctance and malice, he slowly gloated in his deep and cold voice: "Some things, once you say them, hurt you. It's like cutting someone with a knife that will leave a scar, no matter how much you regret it, it won't help .”

Ji Kai froze.

In the dark room, the face was clearly invisible, but the embarrassing feeling of embarrassment was very clear.Li Weidu was a little proud.

[Weidu, do you know? 】

[Actually, I know that as long as I reply to your messages often, it will make you feel a lot better; I also know that being a little gentler to you will make you less sad.But, I just don’t want to do that~]

When Ye Yan said this, his big eyes flickered, and his almost innocent smile was still on his delicate face.

At that moment, Li Weidu understood that the heart attack would be an uncontrollable physiological reaction.

fuck...

One second, he was still holding a knife, triumphantly wanting to poke someone's spine, and the next second, why did the wound that had been dragging along for a long time suddenly burst open inexplicably?

If you can't make a sound, you can't live by yourself.Chest oozes blood as if being tortured.

Ji Kai, who was sitting on the next bed, didn't notice anything unusual, and continued to ask for advice seriously: "But Mr. Li, is there no way to reverse the damage? What if I apologize very, very sincerely?"

Like a stranded fish, Li Weidu tried his best to stop the needless tumbling, and replied in a voice without a trace of trembling: "It's okay, learn your lesson, 'next time' just don't do this."

"But didn't you just say..."

"I mean, 'next time', when you change to the 'next person', treat him well, and stop talking nonsense during arguments."

"..."

"..."

"Hey you!" Ji Kai was angry and funny, and threw a pillow over, "Why should I change it? You should change it if you want to change it, right? To be reasonable, Mr. Li, let's not deceive ourselves and others, and don't fight for vindictiveness Winning or losing—it was Ye Yan who unilaterally pestered Zhu Ling, you should be clear in your heart?"

Li Weidu sneered.

"It's not like you haven't seen Zhu Ling's ability to deceive people with sweet words. He will never clean up about this matter. He is a habitual offender. You'd better be careful."

After Li Weidu finished speaking, he waited for Ji Kai to refute.

The room was suddenly quiet.

Of course, in Ji Kai's senses, the world is not quiet - there is a green leather train whizzing past his head, causing a sharp tinnitus.

He stared blankly at the phone screen.

The ups and downs of life are really exciting.

Really.