drink alone pillow tears

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Qingyang Town is a very famous place, with sweet-scented osmanthus flowers all over the place, and the fragrance is alluring.It can be described as a place of outstanding talents and outstanding talents.

It's my first time here too.The magnificent scenery of ten miles of osmanthus, even I am used to seeing strong winds and waves.It was also a real surprise.

——It’s really beautiful, with white flowers and fragrant fragrance.

However, the purpose of my trip is not to appreciate the beautiful scenery, but to find a person, a person who can turn the situation around in the capital—Ding Yun.But everyone likes to call him another name, Wu Xi.This man is a rare genius...

As for me, I am an out-and-out child of the capital, and my parents are those legendary founding heroes who followed the first emperor to conquer the world and establish the empire.

My surname is Xu, and my grandfather named me Xu Yun and the word Yuanfu.I hope that I can be as self-contained as my family, but I also hope that I can stay away from those ups and downs of conspiracy, stay away from right and wrong, and live a free life.

Grandpa loved me very much since I was a child.

The Xu family was single-handed in one generation, and in my generation, I was the only one.I am the legitimate son of the mansion, my mother got tuberculosis and left first.The family members treat me with a sense of pity, and they always care about me more.

In my daily life, I either learn the Five Classics and Four Books and write poems from the Taifu, or I learn how to draw a bow and shoot an arrow from the martial arts master invited by my family.

Very boring.

Playing with those noble children around us that day, those individuals were just as usual, just boasting there again, and in the end it became a comparison of whose fathers contributed the most to the founding of the country and whose mansion was the most Jinggui, whose aunt is the most beautiful...

Then, I saw him.

He was born extremely beautiful, perhaps it is a bit inappropriate to describe a man like this.But in such a troubled world at that time, it seemed to be purified in an instant.He saw me looking at him.He raised a rather small arc at me and smiled.

I heard myself ask softly, for fear of scaring him: "Which family are you from? Why have I never seen you?"

"Are you the son of the Xu family? I am the Ninth Prince, and I am also a sick child on weekdays. Now that I am in good health, the queen mother has allowed me to come here to attend classes. It is normal that you don't know me." He was gentle and gentle Said softly.

—Hmm... the voice is also very nice.It's also worthy of this appearance.

At that time, I thought, how can there be such a perfect person in the world.Then, I tried my best to get close to him.

Did she get close to him in the school and drag him around.He never thought I was too loud.In the mansion, from time to time, he twisted his grandfather and said, no matter what, he must enter the palace to be the companion of the Ninth Prince.

Grandpa was annoyed by me, and finally said helplessly: "You are very assertive when you pee, it's decided, grandpa can't say anything." Suddenly, grandpa's voice became severe, "But—— —Yuan Fu, do you know what being the companion of the Ninth Prince means to our Xu Mansion?"

"It's nothing more than going to the throne in the future and standing next to the Ninth Prince. Grandpa, I know. I've already made up my mind——I'll take care of myself!"

"Yuanfu——you are the son of the eldest son, and you are responsible for the entire family... If you make a wrong move, the entire family will accompany you to overthrow." After a pause: "Have you really thought about it?"

……

In the afterglow of the setting sun, all that remained in my eyes was my grandfather's thin body in single clothes, his aging face, and the shadow stretched infinitely by the setting sun.Accompanied by countless sighs...

At that moment, the room was full of loneliness.

That night, Grandpa stayed in the study all night.

I seem to understand something, but it seems that I am still the child who understands nothing but acting like a baby in Grandpa's arms.I opened my mouth, but couldn't say a word.

I—— am the legitimate son of the Xu family.I carry the whole family on me.Every decision I make matters to the entire family.If the Ninth Prince fails to ascend to the Datong, there will be a happy ending, and my people will follow my decision at that time and subvert it together with him...

I once thought that I was a floating cloud in the sky, and nothing could stop my steps, or that nothing mattered to me.I am the proud son of heaven who can have whatever I want, but now I find that I am just a pawn struggling in the mud and eager for life—a sad pawn.

But maybe for me at that time, the joy of being able to get along with Xiao Jiu day and night could wash away all the sadness of nostalgia for autumn.

Or, my selfish nature was fully revealed at that moment.I only think about myself and Xiaojiu.

Those family responsibilities that I have deliberately ignored may hit me hard one day.

……

Xiaojiu is the heir of Queen Xianzhuang.Xiao Jiu also has a brother brother who is the seventh eldest.

This is a very noble birth.The queen's son who was born with a golden key in his mouth is very likely to inherit the throne in the future.

Unexpectedly, in one winter, it was probably when Xiao Jiu was 5 years old.Something happened to Lao Qi—when he was playing in the imperial garden, he accidentally fell and died unexpectedly.Empress Xiaozhuang's health has never been better since the birth of Xiaojiu.I was so angry that I went away somehow...

At that time, the emperor adopted Xiao Jiu to the current empress.This is also a good intention.

In my opinion at the time, Xiao Jiu was not bad.She still has a noble status, and the current queen is also a virtuous one, so she should really be good to Xiao Jiu.

……

Xiao Jiu is 3 years younger than me, so I really treat him as my own brother.On weekdays, when he meets someone he wants, he lies in my arms and calls out to me coquettishly: "Brother Yun..." I can't stand anything anymore.I will do whatever he asks me to do; even if he wants the stars in the sky, I may try my best to take them off and hold them in my hand and give them to him.

At this time, Xiao Jiu would giggle and laugh at me—"What a silly brother, if one day I let you die, would you agree with me like this?"

And I can only stand there, watching him smile and bend his eyebrows.

If the years are still beautiful, how good would it be?

One day, Xiao Jiu secretly told me rather aggrieved: "Now the Empress has gone to care about her children, what should I do..."

It turned out that in the first few years, because the queen had no heirs, the empress really hurt Xiao Jiu to the bottom of her heart.But in Yuanhe 1523, the imperial physician found out that the queen was pregnant...

In the end, the queen successfully gave birth to Xiao Shiyi, a prince.During that time, the emperor was not allowed to enter the palace casually, saying that it was to protect the queen, and I had no chance to meet Xiao Jiu.I didn't have a chance until I caught the Zhou banquet.

The Zhou banquet is really spectacular.When I saw Xiao Jiu's lonely eyes, I felt a little distressed.

I ran over and grabbed Xiao Jiu's hand tightly, and made a solemn promise: "Xiao Jiu, you still have brother Yun! Don't be sad... I will always treat you well..."

Xiao Jiu was not as gloomy as before, and raised a big smiling face: "Yes—" the voice suddenly became low, "Brother Xu Yun, you will always help me, right? Brother Xu."

Although it is a bit strange for him to call me "Brother Xu".I still happily agreed. "It's natural."

Perhaps during that time, my Xiaojiu has changed.When I became his brother Xu instead of brother Yun.

And I——seemed to be the same Xu Yun who didn't understand anything, the Xu Yuanfu who didn't want to be associated with family troubles, and the selfish person who only cared about staying with Xiaojiu.

I was left alone during that wonderful time, and I can only recall those unforgettable moments over and over again...

I understand—of course I understand:

——For Xiaojiu, it is only the Xu Mansion, and I only need the entire Xu Mansion behind me to be his elder brother Xu.It's because I have the Xu Mansion behind me!Xiao Jiu treats me like this as a 'brother'.

Perhaps it was because such thoughts deeply hurt my self-esteem, or because I felt sad for Xiaojiu's transformation, but the fact that I deliberately forgot, as if I didn't want me to forget, was always there Burn my heart.

I can't do it again, just like that day, I smiled and agreed to Xiaojiu happily.

Heartbroken, empty joy...

I am still sad after all.

The author has something to say: Weak water is three thousand, just take one scoop.The world is so big, I just want you to leave me a message.

Like leaving a city that I can never go back to, like all the clichéd stories in the rumors, the author is very bitter in his heart without the messages from the uncles.

[Next trailer] I deliberately got close to Wang Hu because of Xiao Jiu, but unexpectedly, the lives of Wang's family were in danger.Where will the relationship between me and Xiaojiu go because of this incident...