in the month you disappeared

"Is today feeling better?"

"The fever has subsided."

Wu Jin smiled, "Thanks to your sweet and sour fish."

"Did you sweat a lot last night?" Zheng Xi wrinkled his nose.

"Well, what happened?"

"Go take a shower."

Zheng Xi casually rummaged through the tapes beside the DVD player. Most of them were comedies, and there were no romance films that girls were always keen on.At the bottom, there is a disc in a kraft paper bag with the words: 2011.8.12 to 2012.9.10 important archives.

The date of birth on Wu Jin's ID card is 1985.9.11, and the file is exactly the day before her birthday——Zheng Xi's hand trembled: Why hasn't such an important date been put into the "important file"?

"I seem to have forgotten to take my pants..."

Zheng Xi saw the pants on the sofa.Carefully put the paper bag back in place, turned off the DVD player, and took the pants to the bathroom door.

When Wu Jin came out of the bathroom, he saw Zheng Xi bent over to clean the living room, with a jade Buddha hanging from his neck.

"Didn't you give this piece of jade to Lu Jun?"

Zheng Xi raised his head, touched the hanging jade, and carefully put it into his collar, "...she is not by my side, Yu is with me."

"No one is by my side, and no one is with me." Wu Jin said flatly, standing alone by the window, all five fingers tightly pinching the window sill, "Occasionally, it's just an accident."

"Accident?"

Wu Jin's eyes went blank for a moment, and he said to himself, "A nightmare like an accident."

Zheng Xi held his breath unconsciously, and smiled stiffly, "It turned out to be just a nightmare."

"I often have nightmares." She added, trying to comfort Wu Jin.

"why?"

Zheng Xi choked and remained silent.

Wu Jin smiled, "It's still because of Lu Jun—I know you a little bit now, and all my emotions are because of Lu Jun—even after she leaves you, you are still following her traces. You resigned, to Song Yutong Dissatisfaction with her, going to work in a fashion store, and even getting to know me, which one is not because of her?"

"Zheng Xi, have you ever tried..." Wu Jin pointed to Zheng Xi's chest, "Really leave someone...from your heart...let her disappear? Even if it's just for a second, do you find it unbearable?"

Zheng Xi tilted his head, watching Wu Jin's habitual upturning of the left corner of his mouth when he spoke, and suddenly let out a giggle.

She shook her head solemnly and naively, "No, if one day she disappears from my heart, it will only be because of..." She opened her eyes wide, "My heart stopped beating."

Wu Jin shrugged indifferently, "Really?" She opened the curtains.

Zheng Xi narrowed his eyes, "The sun is too dazzling."

"That's because you are always used to being in the shade." Wu Jin waved his hand, "That makes your eyes sensitive to light. If you are always blocked by someone's shadow, your heart will reject the projection of anything else."

Zheng Xi was stunned, "What about you?"

"I..." Wu Jin pinched the curtain tightly, his soft neck became stiff, "I said, no one passes by me, I only have myself."

Zheng Xi smiled, "It seems that you are more pitiful than me, it's hard for you to listen to my complaints all the time. By the way, the tattoo is very beautiful."

"Really? That's not a tattoo." Wu Jin said pointedly.

Zheng Xi turned around and continued to sweep the floor.

"free tonight?"

"what's up?"

"Today..." Wu Jin smiled slightly, "It's a special day, and I don't want to be at home alone."

"In this case," Zheng Xi snapped his fingers, "I can just make a big plate of chicken feet, open two bottles of beer, and make a fruit plate or something..."

"That's great, today..." Wu Jin got up and opened the disc drawer, "I want to watch these films again."

Wu Jin took out a stack of discs, "Zheng Xi, it's coming soon, I'm going to start playing."

"Okay, wait a little longer."

Zheng Xi opened two cans of beer and gave Wu Jin a glass.

"It seems to be a comedy," Zheng Xi murmured, "I really miss it."

Wu Jin took a sip of beer, "What do you miss?"

"Hehe," Zheng Xi said in a daze, "When we were in high school, when we went home on weekends, Yun Xuan and I always stayed in her room and watched comedy movies all night."

Wu Jin also laughed, squinted his eyes, and said, "Then let's watch it together today."

Zheng Xi nodded silently.

Lu Jun,

Today is Yun's birthday.

I accompanied Wu Jin at her house and watched a lot of comedies that you don’t like most—every time I watched them with me, you fell asleep on my shoulder.

But I didn't laugh.

Because I've been waiting for an opportunity.Now, the mystery is finally solved.

But what does that matter.They... No matter what, Wu Jin is still confused, and the two names are still two people.No one can take you out of my heart, not even myself, even though you left me.

There are still fifteen days.

Half the days are over.

Please forgive me, but until I come back to you, I will be with her; give her what she wants, though I don't know what she wants yet.

Take it as my last redemption.I have nothing to fear, I can't help but miss you, miss you.

I found out all the photos we had together in the past, and found that when you smiled, I didn't smile; and when I laughed, you didn't smile.I cut two pieces in half and pasted them together again, is it perfect?And those photos you gave me with your own hands, I also keep them well.Don't worry, I'll return them to you personally when we start over.Let them disappear completely.

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