if i could love you

After one round of singing, the atmosphere in the box obviously became high.Jiaoer was also dragged to sing a few songs, but her mind was not here at all.She saw Li Li sitting in a corner drinking alone, the mobile phone in his hand was vibrating non-stop, the sound was very soft, but it was still captured by the careful Jiao Er.Li Li is like a cat, sitting on the sofa with her waist bent, looking down at her mobile phone, the two strands of hair on both sides of her forehead drooping to cover her face, only occasionally when she looks up to drink, Jiaoer can see her dejected look expression.

She should be chatting with someone else!But who is that person?Why did she look so unhappy, it was completely different from when she first entered the door.Jiao Er looked at Li Li again in a daze.At this time Li Li went out suddenly with her mobile phone, Jiao Er was a little worried about her, and unexpectedly followed her behind.

"Hey! I know, I'm not particularly sad, sooner or later this day has to happen, isn't it?" Jiao Er felt like a pervert listening to Li Li talking on the phone in the bathroom, but she couldn't move her footsteps.

"I'm singing with my classmates at KTV." Li Li paused, as if choked up, and then continued, "Luo Nian, can I go to your place tonight? I don't want to stay in the dormitory alone."

Luo Nian, who is Luo Nian?Jiao Er felt his heart was pulled outside.

"Okay. Then I'll send you the address later, and you can pick me up." Li Li in the bathroom continued.

Li Li opened the door, and Wen Jiaoer looked into her red eyes unsuspectingly, unable to tell whether it was from crying or from drinking.

"I, I'm going to the bathroom." Jiao Er was caught, feeling a little guilty.

Li Li nodded and said, "Then I'll go back first," with a cold tone.

Jiao Er stood in the bathroom for a while, then returned to the box full of thoughts.

In the private room, the students were booing Li Li to sing.

"Li Li, you haven't sung a single song since you entered the door! Come on, we'll give you something you want to sing." A classmate said.

"I'll do it myself!" Li Li took the microphone with a calm tone.Under the slightly dim light, Li Li's eyes could not be seen clearly.

"I have a dangerous relationship with you

hold each other hostage to this other part of ourselves

I thought this complete the definition of love

Then I will protect you obediently

Falling in love becomes a bad game of suspicion

The rule is to hold your breath and get closer

But your tenderness is the only thing I indulge in

You love me so you are not afraid of gaps

shoot me hard in the heart

Let everything go to zero at this bang

If love means nothing can be let go

I'm not struggling, I'm not bad anyway

The hostages are released at this moment

The innocence of falling in love ended up like this

Are you satisfied let's not lie"

Li Li held the microphone with both hands, his eyes seemed to be looking at one end of the sofa, but he didn't seem to be looking at anything.Her voice is slightly lower than that of ordinary girls, and her voice is a bit like Stefanie Sun, which is suitable for performing this kind of bitter love song.When Wen Jiaoer heard Li Li sing this song, he felt indescribably depressed.I'm not in the mood to applaud Li Li like other students!

"Li Li, why not go to the talent show!" The students joked and shouted, "I'll turn around for you!"

Li Li curled his lips and said nothing.Jiao Er felt that she laughed bitterly.

When Jiaoer heard the next song, she laughed harder than Li Li.I don't know who made the mistake, but even ordered a children's song that she sang when she was a child.Jiaoer blushed immediately when she heard the prelude, and ran to cut the song, but was stopped.The students around were very excited and called Jiao Er to go up and sing a song.

When Li Li saw the title of the song, she also said with a smile, "Little star, do you want to come up and sing?" When she said this, her eyes were shining, like a starlight shining on the lake.

Half obsessed and half helpless, Jiaoer picked up the microphone and sang. The words "strawberry candy", "flower skirt" and "bow tie" in the lyrics made Jiaoer blush, it was really embarrassing!She turned her head to look in Li Li's direction, and she was sitting in the corner again, drinking one cup after another, exuding an aura that strangers should not get close to.It seemed that the person who invited her to sing with shining eyes just now was not her.

Later, Jiaoer couldn't remember what he was singing, but felt that his face was still hot after singing.In the next few rounds, Wen Jiao'er didn't have the mind to get involved anymore, she tried not to go to Li Li's place to look, and just played with her mobile phone with her head depressed.

After a few more rounds of singing, the students felt that the time was almost up, so they discussed going back to school.

"Li Li, how are you going? Let's take a taxi together?" Several girls asked Li Li.

"No, I'm not going back to the dormitory today, I'm going to my friend's place." Li Li was speaking when the phone rang.

"You're here, aren't you? My side is over too, just wait for me." Li Li said after answering the phone.

"Is it your boyfriend?" A cheerful girl asked gossipingly.

When Wen Jiaoer heard these words, his heart also ached.

"It's just friends." Li Li smiled slightly.

"It's all cleaned up, let's go!" After talking, everyone went out together.

Li Li just went out, looked around, then waved his hand towards one place.I saw a woman in a professional suit walking over.

She is Luo Nian!Jiaoer thought to himself.Luo Nian has long curly hair and a fair complexion.It was too dark, and she was a little far away, Jiaoer couldn't see her face clearly, only she was wearing a pair of gold-rimmed glasses, and she was full of bookishness.

"My friend is here, I'm leaving first. Be careful when you go back." Li Li turned around to say goodbye to them, and then walked towards Luo Nian.

Seeing this, the students also took taxis and left.After watching Li Li and Luo Nian get into a gray car, Jiao Er walked towards her nanny car in a daze.Seeing her listless look, the assistant leaned on the seat with her eyes closed as soon as she got in the car, assuming she was tired.I didn't speak all the way, and didn't bother her anymore.

It was almost eleven o'clock when we got home. Father Wen and Mother Wen didn't sleep, they were still watching TV in the living room.

"Are you back? How was the party?" Mother Wen asked with concern after seeing Jiaoer come back.

"Hmm. It's pretty good." Jiao Er's almond eyes lost their spirit.

"Why do you look so listless?" Papa Wen, who was sitting on the sofa, turned around and asked.

The husband and wife are extremely concerned about their daughter who is participating in group activities for the first time.

"Having had so much fun, I'm tired. I'll go back to bed first, and you all go to bed early too!" Jiaoer pushed the door open and entered the room without talking.

"Tell me something fun before you go to sleep?" Mother Wen shouted in the living room.

"Forget it, the child is tired, let her sleep! We can talk about it tomorrow." Father Wen said beside him.

Jiao Er, who was lying on the bed, didn't even bother to take off her makeup.She doesn't care whether she likes a man or a woman, there are too many homosexuals in this circle, and she doesn't mind being one more.Even if the company protects her well, there is no guarantee that no drop of mud will splash on her.Wen Jiaoer has lived for 18 years, and she has never been interested in boys before, and she already vaguely knows the result.Maybe it has something to do with what happened at the age of 16...

But does the person you like have someone you like?Thinking of this, Jiao Er buried her face tightly in the teddy bear's arms.

There was an lines class on Wednesday morning. After Jiaoer arrived in the classroom, she looked around habitually, but she still didn't see Li Li.Since the beginning of class this Monday, Wen Jiaoer has never seen Li Li again.She picked a seat next to her classmates and sat down.

"Well, Li Li didn't come to class today?" Wen Jiaoer asked casually.

"Is there anything I need to see her?" asked the classmate in the same seat.

"Well, that's right!" Wen Jiaoer felt a little guilty.

"It seems that she asked for leave to go home to see her legs." The classmate was not very sure.

"Oh, got it. Thank you!"

Look at the legs?She didn't come to the military training before because she broke her leg.Could it be that the leg injury has recurred?

But Wen Jiaoer felt that things were far from that simple, so she hesitated whether to send Li Li a WeChat message to ask.But if it's really not for looking at the legs, would it be embarrassing for her to be so active in caring?Wen Jiaoer finished the lines class full of thoughts, but she didn't listen to a single word the teacher said.

"Have you finished class?" The assistant immediately followed after seeing Jiaoer leaving the door of the classroom.

"Yeah." Jiaoer nodded and walked forward.

Since coming back from singing K on Friday, Wen Jiaoer has been in this preoccupied and depressed state almost every day.The assistant didn't know what happened to her little star, and wondered if she should tell Sister Simon.

"Jiaoer, we have an interview coming up this Sunday, and Sister Simon sent you a WeChat message." The assistant said.

"Oh, good. I see." Jiao Er still looked listless.

In the next few days, Wen Jiaoer was still immersed in this entanglement.

On Sunday, Simon picked her up to go to the show, and asked cautiously in the car, "Have you had nightmares again recently?"

"No!" Jiao'er didn't know why Simon asked.

"Then how did I hear that you look listless every day?" Simon paused, and continued to ask in a discussing tone, "Why don't we go see a psychiatrist?"

"I really didn't have any nightmares. My aunt came recently, but I was a little tired." About the aunt, Jiao Er did not lie.

"Then listen to you, but don't hide anything from me. Do you know?" Simon looked serious.

"Got it. Show me today's script, and I'll see what questions they want to ask." Jiaoer smiled, knowing that Simon cared about her.

After waiting, I found out that Lin Sen was also doing a show here, but it was another variety show.

"I asked, Lin Sen and their show ended at about the same time as yours. You two can get together later." Simon and Jiaoer said.

"Yeah. We get together when we touch each other." Jiaoer replied.In fact, she didn't hold out much hope, after all, everyone was busy.Sometimes I can't wait to spend all the rest time on sleeping, so I don't have any time to hang out with friends.What's more, for Lin Sen, a popular niche student, Jiaoer looked at his circle of friends and knew that he had filmed a movie for more than a month in a film and television city in the northwest last month.I just came back, I guess I didn't rest for a few days, and I came to this variety show as a resident guest again.

After Jiao Er finished the show, she pushed open the door of the dressing room, only to see Lin Sen sitting on the sofa playing with her mobile phone, and Simon was not there.

"Finished recording?" Lin Sen asked when he heard the door open and looked up to see Jiao Er.

"Well. When did you come here?" Jiaoer obviously didn't expect Lin Sen to be waiting for her.

"Ten minutes ago!" Lin Sen pointed to the drink on the table and said, "Here! Your favorite latte!"

"Thank you." Jiao Er walked over, sat beside Lin Sen, took a sip of latte, and asked, "Where's Simon?"

"She seems to be discussing something with the program team." Lin Sen put down his phone, sat in a different position, and then asked, "I heard that you went to film Xiao Lin's scene? There is also an emotional scene, how is it?" ?”

Hearing this, Jiaoer twitched the corners of her lips, and then said, "It's not going well."

When Lin Sen heard this, his beautiful peach eyes curved into an arc with a smile, and said, "Why is it not going well? Come on, tell me about it. I will guide you for my brother."

Lin Senda Wen Jiaoer is two years old, and he likes to call himself "elder brother" when he has nothing to do.At the beginning of listening, Wen Jiaoer couldn't help rolling his eyes, but now that he listens too much, he doesn't feel it anymore.

"It's just very stiff, and I'm very nervous when playing with male actors." Wen Jiaoer also told the truth.

"You don't look like an old drama player at all! You lack the professionalism of a professional actor!" Lin Sen pretended to be serious, but couldn't hide the smile in his eyes.

After hearing this, Wen Jiaoer rolled Lin Sen's eyes, picked up the latte and continued drinking.It's up to you to say that, of course I know!Wen Jiaoer discussed it.

"Is it because you have never been in a relationship? But as an actor, even if you have never been in a relationship, you still have to act in a love scene! This is an actor's responsibility." Lin Sen continued.

"It's as if I've talked with you!" Jiaoer couldn't help complaining.

"You think I haven't talked about it?" Lin Sen's eyes flashed cunningly.

"Have you talked about it?" Wen Jiaoer asked back.This guy keeps turning around every day, wishing he could move his family to the plane, where is the time to fall in love!

"You should ask Brother Wei how many times you have talked." Lin Sen looked proud.

"You..." Wen Jiaoer was speechless for a while, then paused for a moment, and said, "Then let me ask you, how many times have you talked?"

Lin Sen thought for a while, and said, "It's only seven or eight times!" Facing Wen Jiaoer, who was so young, Lin Sen was honest.

"You're so busy, where's the time to fall in love?" Wen Jiaoer's eyes widened, and she couldn't believe what she just heard.Does Lin Sen have sex skills?

"The busier I am, the more I want to fall in love." Lin Sen glanced at the disbelieving Wen Jiaoer, leaned his head on the sofa and continued, "When I was young, I watched the seniors in this circle split and reunite, and I was particularly puzzled by them. Why is it so troublesome. In the past two years, I have realized that this circle is not like this. Surrounded by tens of thousands of people, it is very lively. But sometimes I wake up on the plane, and I don’t know myself when I get off the plane. Where did I go. I really feel very sad at this time. Sometimes, it’s good to have a relationship. Don’t care who that person is. When I’m lonely, I feel that life is not so sad.”

Wen Jiaoer didn't expect Lin Sen to say these words when he was usually laughing and laughing alone.I didn't know what to say in response to him.

"Isn't the adult world too scary? It scares the children!" Seeing that Wen Jiaoer was silent, Lin Sen stretched out his hand and rubbed her head.

Looking at Lin Sen's peach eyes and thin lips, Wen Jiaoer somehow thought that this was the appearance of a thin lover.

At this time, Simon pushed the door in and saw the two sitting on the sofa without talking.

"What's wrong? I stopped talking as soon as I came in?" Simon was curious.

"Ha! The kid was scared by me." Lin Sen regained his smiling face.

"What did you say?" Simon asked.

"This is a secret between siblings, I can't tell you." Lin Sen looked serious.

On the way back, Simon asked Wen Jiaoer, "What did Lin Sen tell you?"

"It's nothing, just chatting nonsense. He is so rude, what can he say." Wen Jiaoer concealed.

While talking, she casually flipped through Moments and saw a post from Li Li.

"Some people think love is sex, it's marriage, it's six o'clock kisses, it's a bunch of kids, and maybe it is, Miss Lester. But you know what I think? I think love is wanting to touch and then holding back .” Below is a photo of a gray-blue sea, and the location is Iceland.

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Thank you for reading my article in spite of your busy schedule, I love you.