if i could love you

"I've been filming night scenes at night, so I haven't had time to look at my phone. I've made so many calls, is there something urgent? You should still be sleeping now, so I won't bother you. I'll call you later in the daytime."

Li Li's WeChat message was sent at 05:30 in the morning.Jiao Er's cell phone vibrated once, and she woke up from the half-dream and half-awake sleep.Jiao Er hurriedly glanced at Li Li's message, then threw the phone on the bed again.

The summer day always comes early, and a ray of light seeps in through the cracks in the curtains.The interior seems to be covered with a layer of translucent white, with a hazy, blurred sense of light.Jiao'er lay lazily on the bed, feeling as if she had been abandoned on an isolated island shrouded in white mist.The surroundings were terribly silent, only the waves hitting the rocks again and again, tirelessly.Occasionally, seabirds fly by, and the cry is shrill and desolate.Jiao Er's body was curled up into a small ball, which could almost be ignored under the quilt.

I don't know how long it took before she picked up the phone and replied to Li Li, "I didn't have anything urgent yesterday, so you should have a good rest. Don't call me anymore. I'm recording a program today, and I'll be busy until very late."

It is said that whales rely on the frequency of sound waves to find their companions, and only those with the same frequency will be partners or mates.I don't know when it started, but her and Li Li's frequencies were different, as if two straight lines were rushing towards their respective directions after they intersected.

Jiaoer finished recording the second stop of "Passing Through", and before she had time to rest, she flew to Songcheng to participate in an event.Most of the people who came to participate in this event were seniors, and Jiao Er had no interest, just sitting in a corner drinking fruit juice with a lack of interest.

"Hey! Jiao'er, are you here too?!" Jagger came out of nowhere, standing in front of Jiao'er with a glass of red wine.

Jiao Er, who was in a daze, was startled, her hands shook, and the juice almost spilled on her skirt.

"Did I scare you? Sorry, are you okay?" Jagger apologized hastily.

Jiao Er quickly shook his head and said it was all right.

"You look unhappy!" Jagger admitted bluntly.

Jiao Er chuckled lightly and said, "How can anyone seem to be happy every day?"

Jagger scratched his head and said with a sneer, "Yes."

The two stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows for a while, and Jagger suddenly asked, "Do you want to sit outside for a while?"

Jiao Er felt a little bored, so she agreed.

"Is the air outside much better than inside?" Jagger took a deep exaggerated breath outside and said to Jiao Er.

Jiao Er nodded, but did not speak.

Jagger frowned at her and said, "Be happy, girl! You have a sweet smile!"

After Jagger finished speaking, he wanted to reach out and rub her head.Jiao Er instinctively dodged back, and Jagger's hand fell into the air in embarrassment.

"You don't seem to like people touching you." Jagger withdrew his hand and touched his nose.

"I..." Jiaoer opened his mouth and didn't know how to explain it, so he said, "I don't like physical contact very much."

The two stood silently for a while, feeling embarrassed by each other.The party was just about to end, and Jagger asked Jiaoer if he wanted to take her back to the hotel.Jiao Er smiled and shook his head, then refused.

Jagger said with a smile, "Jiao Er, you really don't look as sweet as your appearance."

"Sweet girls are easier to become prey, right?" Jiaoer raised his eyebrows, his eyes were piercing.

Jagger sneered awkwardly, and got frustrated with Jiaoer.

After returning to the hotel, Jiaoer took a hot bath and fell asleep on the bed.She hadn't slept so soundly for a long time, and the hard work for many days turned into tiredness and drowsiness hitting Jiaoer at this moment.It was rare that she didn't have a dream all night, but she was woken up by the sudden ringing of the phone in the morning.

"Hello! Is there something wrong with calling so early?" Jiaoer answered the phone, with displeasure in her tone of being woken up.

"A Weibo marketing account posted a photo of you and Jagger alone last night, and it became a hot search on Weibo." Simon's voice came from the other end of the phone.

After Jiaoer heard this, his chaotic mind immediately came to his senses, "What?"

"I called Xiao Yang just now, and I know there's nothing wrong. Just leave it to me, and I'll just tell you."

"Such a trivial matter can be trending?" Jiao Er sat up from the bed, knowing that she would not be able to sleep this time.

"The traffic niche and the popular floret are in private contact, even if there is nothing, they can stir up something! What's more, the two of you received a lot of CP fans on the show before!" Simon paused and continued, "Of course. Baobuqi is maliciously hyped up.”

Jiao Er rubbed her twitching temples and asked, "Then what should I do?"

"Actually, the photo didn't capture anything, so let's clarify it concisely. Even if it is asked about this matter in an interview later, it should be clarified openly. The more you avoid it, the more suspicious it will be." Simon and Jiaoer said.

"Okay, I see." Jiaoer nodded and replied.

After Jiao Er hung up the phone, she immediately opened Weibo.Sure enough, the first trending search was contracted by her and Jagger.She clicked in and took a look, but it was just a few photos taken when the two of them were outside last night.The most intimate photo is just that Jagger raised his hand and just touched the top of Jiaoer's head, but that was only a moment, and then Jiaoer avoided it.I didn't expect the person who took the sneak shot to have such a clever timing.

Jiao Er clicked on the comments, and there were all kinds of things in it.Jiao Er hooked the corner of her mouth helplessly, and threw the phone on the bed.

She lay back on the bed again, thinking of Simon telling her that the world is not as simple as you think.Indeed, it turns out that the world has such deep malice towards her.

"du~du~du~"

The phone rang many times before it was connected.

"Hey!"

Jiao Er frowned when she heard the crisp female voice coming from the other end of the phone, obviously it was not Li Li's voice.

"Isn't this Li Li's phone?"

"Oh yes. She's..."

Before the girl on the other end finished speaking, Li Li picked it up.

"Hey! Jiaojiao, what's wrong?"

Li Li's voice sounded much lower and hoarse than before.

"Who was that girl just now?" Jiao'er's tone became much colder unconsciously.

"A girl who was filming together. I was busy just now, so I didn't have time to answer the phone. She answered it for me." Li Li explained word by word.

"Are you really busy recently?" Jiao Er brushed the broken hair in front of her forehead, her tone was icy.

Li Li on the other end of the phone was obviously taken aback, and when he spoke again, his tone softened a bit, "Jiaojiao, don't think about it. I'll go back and see you after the filming, okay?"

After hearing this, Jiao Er said with a wry smile, "I didn't think about it. You can film well! I'm also very busy recently, so I may not be free to meet you. Let's talk about what's going on after school starts!"

Before Li Li could answer, Jiaoer hung up the phone.She leaned against the bed in a daze, things obviously shouldn't be developing in this direction.She called to explain to Li Li that she and Jagger were secretly photographed.But a girl answered the phone, disrupting all her plans.Suspicion and jealousy prevailed, and Jiaoer even forgot her real purpose for making this phone call.

The phone was still ringing, so she turned it to silent.She buried her head in the quilt, as if she didn't want to see or hear, this world had nothing to do with her.

Since the day she hung up on Li Li's phone, Li Li has not called her for at least a week.She was worried and refused to take the initiative to contact Li Li once.Although Jiaoer didn't say anything, his face didn't hide anything.

Simon didn't know why the two were arguing, but she couldn't help persuading Jiaoer when she saw Jiao'er always looking sullen, "You two must communicate well, what does it look like to be so stiff all the time? "

Jiaoer replied unnaturally, "It's okay, we're fine."

Simon sighed and said, "I don't know you yet!"

"I..." Jiao Er hesitated to speak.

"Although I don't want you to fall in love with her. But if two people decide to be together, they should be responsible for this relationship. It's not good for anyone to be so stiff." Simon paused here, and then said, "Two people have a good chat. If this relationship is always so cold, it will fade."

Jiao Er didn't speak after hearing this, and said to Simon before getting off the car at the door, "Please help me book a ticket to Jiangcheng, the sooner the better."

"Jiangcheng?" Simon asked again.

Jiaoer nodded in agreement, and said in a voice so small that only he could hear, "She's filming in Jiangcheng!"

After hearing this, Simon nodded and asked again, "Let Xiao Yang accompany you?"

Jiaoer shook his head and said, "No need, I can go by myself."

"You can't do it yourself, so..."

Before Simon finished speaking, Jiaoer interrupted him, "Simon, let me try this once, just this once."

Simon didn't speak for a long time, and finally nodded in agreement.

"I booked a ticket for you, and it will be around one o'clock in the afternoon the day after tomorrow. You should be safe by yourself, and remember to call me if you have anything to do."

Jiao Er looked at the WeChat message that Simon sent her late at night, and the unhappiness in her heart for many days was temporarily resolved.After returning home, she thought about Simon's words carefully.Emotions really shouldn't be handled this way.She counted and calculated, she and Li Li had been in a cold war for more than a month.Indeed, as Simon said, things like feelings always fade away when they are so cold.

Although she had already figured this out, she still hesitated for a long time when she sent Li Li a WeChat message.

"Do you have time the day after tomorrow?"

It was already late at night, and she didn't call Li Li, for fear that she was already asleep.But not long after, Li Li replied to her WeChat message.

"Is something wrong?"

"Can I find you the day after tomorrow?"

After a long time, Jiaoer waited for Li Li's reply.

"Looking for me? Are you coming to Jiangcheng?"

"Well, yes. Let's have a good chat!"

After a long time, Li Li replied to Jiao Er, "Okay."

Jiaoer stared at the word "good" for a long time.Even through the screen of the mobile phone, Jiaoer somehow felt Li Li's indifference.She bit her lower lip, hesitated for a moment, and then sent Li Li another sentence, "Are you filming a night scene?"

"Ah."

Li Li only replied to her with one word, which was short and crisp, and looked cold.

Jiaoer couldn't help but smile wryly, and then replied to Li Li, "Then I won't bother you."

Jiao Er put down the phone and began to doubt whether the decision she made was correct.He had clearly put on a gesture of making peace, but Li Li was not a little more humane.This kind of peace-seeking really made him embarrassed and embarrassed, and Jiaoer couldn't help laughing at his low profile.

There are still books on the table that she bought when she went to the bookstore a few days ago.She went to shoot a cover magazine that day, and there happened to be a bookstore next to the studio.After the filming, when Jiao Er proposed to go to the bookstore, Simon repeated it to her three times to make sure that he heard correctly.

Jiaoer hadn't read many books since she was a child, and she spent almost every day on the set when she was young and famous, and she didn't develop good reading habits at all.When she first entered the bookstore, she was still a little confused looking at the various categories.Based on her memory and the bookstore clerk, she told the titles of the books that Li Li often read, as well as the favorite book that Li Li mentioned on the girl's Weibo.After the clerk found it for her, she bought them all.

Now it seems that she feels that she is really too humble, and even those books don't look so pleasing to the eye.

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