my brother became a scum

It is easy for me to go abroad, and it is not difficult to find Lin Danni's current location.Most of the problems in the world can be solved with money and power, and the remaining problems, except for death, most people will not encounter.

Li Wanting said she wanted to give me the postcard Lin Danni gave me, but she didn't know where it was and couldn't find it.She was also going on her honeymoon, and I told her not to waste any more energy on me, but she replied that she was too lazy to care about me, and hung up the phone quickly.

I dealt with official business on the plane for a while, turned off the computer and closed my eyes.

My breakup with Lin Danni came unexpectedly. Our grades were similar, and it was not a big problem to go to the same university. But on a sunny afternoon, Lin Danni said to me: "I'm going abroad."

I froze for a moment, digested the news for a while, and then asked her: "Is what you said true?"

The breeze brushed over her cheeks, blowing the broken hair on her forehead, she smiled bitterly, she said: "Yes, my mother told me that yesterday."

"Which country are you going to?" I asked subconsciously, if it was near...

"America, maybe Europe."

"Is that so..."

"Chen Heping, can you go with me?" She asked this sentence, and as if she had realized it, she added, "It seems that it is too late, there are many things to apply for, and besides, you still have grandpa. "

She said what I could say, I thought about it, and asked her again: "How many years are you going to leave?"

"I don't know, maybe I won't come back."

She said this lightly, but my heart was pressed one after another with heavy stones, and I couldn't breathe.

We have been in love for two years, and I am still planning the future, but she wakes me up in an instant.Before this, she had never mentioned that she would one day go, go so far, and probably not even come back.

I'm a little angry, but more of a reluctance.I took a few deep breaths, and said again: "When I go to university, I will find a chance to go abroad..."

"Chen Heping." She called my name and interrupted my words.

I stared at her with a bad premonition in my heart.

"Let's break up, you know, we don't fit together anymore."

She doesn't need my statement, nor my promise, and she doesn't even want to give me a false assumption, and resolutely announce the termination of the relationship.

I opened my eyes, and the stewardess asked me softly if I wanted a drink. I asked for a glass of warm water, and took sips and sips.

On the second day after announcing the breakup, Lin Danni disappeared on the campus, and I didn't even know where she lived. We could still talk a few words through communication, but not long after she actually went abroad, we Completely cut off contact.

After so many years, I don't have much expectations for the meeting, it's like rushing ducks to the shelves.

The ex is the ex after all, where do I have so many obsessions.

Lin Danni lived in a remote nursing home. I had a brief exchange with the lady at the front desk, and she made an intercom call and said she would take me there herself.

I followed her footsteps, walked through the courtyard, and stopped in front of an independent wooden house, and she indicated that the person I was looking for was there.

I thanked her, walked up the last few steps, pushed open the door, and saw someone I hadn’t seen for a long time—Lin Danni lying on a recliner with a blanket on her knees, seeing that I didn’t care too much. Not very surprised.

Lin Danni has changed a lot. I can't find any traces of age on Zhang Chen's body, but I can detect one or two on Lin Danni.

I could see that she was wearing makeup, she applied bright red lipstick, brown eyeliner, and a layer of blush on her face, but no amount of makeup could conceal her pale complexion.

She had probably been ill for a long time, and had lost much of her vitality, and was not very pleasant to watch.I quickly made a judgment in my heart, and felt that I was too indifferent. After all, the woman in front of me was my first love. Maybe I should be more tender and distressed, instead of gradually raising a trace of doubt—why did I come to Come here, meet my ex-girlfriend whom I haven't seen for decades?

I collected my emotions well, closed the door behind me, and said, "Long time no see, Lin Danni."

She coughed lightly, with tiredness in her words: "Why did you come here?"

"I have a friend in China named Li Wanting. She met you once and mentioned you to me after returning to China."

"You haven't answered my question yet," Lin Anni spoke very slowly, and she didn't seem to escape at all, "Why did you come here?"

I thought I had answered her question, but when she repeated it to me, I realized that her question was actually - "What is your purpose here?"

I didn't want to tell the truth, so I answered her half-truthfully: "There are some things that bother me in the country. I came out to relax, and I learned that you were seriously ill, so I came to have a look."

"Thank you." Lin Anni seemed to accept the statement, and even thanked me.

"You're welcome," I noticed the reserved needle in her hand, and finally felt some pity in my heart, "Can you tell me about your condition?"

"You're not a doctor," Lin Anni said softly to me. Like decades ago, she pursed her lips, but the lipstick smudged beyond the lip line, with a little embarrassment, "I won't live long Well, one day is one day, let’s get on with it.”

"Take good care of yourself."

"I will take care of myself."

"so."

"Do you want to ask my family?"

"No."

"I was married, but I couldn't have children, and then I got divorced," Lin Anni seemed to be telling other people's stories, she seemed very calm, "I opened my own studio and made beautiful skirts every day, and then I fell ill. I don’t care about that anymore.”

I should say something to express the sadness I feel, but I don't have similar emotions, so I am a little embarrassed to think about social words.

"I'm glad you could come to see me, really."

She seemed to notice my embarrassment and passed me a topic.

"I haven't heard from you. If I had known about you earlier, I would have come to see you earlier."

"If I hadn't been sick, would you come here to see me when you heard about me?"

Her questions suddenly became pointed, and mine became more dull.

I am not the good-tempered and easy-to-handle Chen Heping in the past, and I will ask her back: "Will you take the initiative to meet your ex, or is it an ex who dumped you more than 20 years ago?"

She stopped talking, her eyes turned gray for a moment, she curled up on the recliner, looking a little pitiful.

I think my reaction just now was too ungentlemanly. I am clearly here to visit the patient, so I must not quarrel with the patient.

So bit the bullet and said, "Sorry, my attitude was very bad just now, I shouldn't have said that."

"It's good that you are like this," Lin Danni turned her head away, she didn't look at me anymore and didn't want me to see her expression, "You are not a nice person at all."

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I didn't know how to answer the question for a while, I should say yes, I am no longer a good person, should I refute her?

The word "good person" sounds like a curse, not a compliment. Even children know that they should be a person who loves themselves more in the future, because everyone is just "talking about it".

Words are "good", but actions are "evil", and good people break the unspoken rules.There is no need for such heterogeneity in the social collective, like the one with the stuffing exposed in a pot of tightly wrapped dumplings, there will always be a pair of chopsticks to pick it up, pick it out, and eat it first.

"I liked you back then because you were a good person," Lin Danni laughed again as she spoke, "but I was also worried about you, afraid that if you kept doing this, you would be deceived miserably by others."

"Thank you for your concern." My answer was not very sincere, even a little perfunctory.

If she really cared about me as much as she said, why did she break up decisively and unilaterally cut off contact with me?For so many years, she has already had a new lover and even married a wife. Just listen to these words, and don't take them seriously.

"Chen Heping, you have changed a lot."

"Everyone will change," I turned my gaze to the bookshelf, and easily saw the photo frame in the middle. Inside the photo frame was an enlarged and washed photo sticker. Lin Danni and I leaned together, smiling sweetly in the center of the heart shape, "You might as well tell me, why do you want me to come abroad to see you?"

It is hard for me to believe in chance, there is necessity behind all chances - this is what Zhang Chen taught me, his betrayal made me suspicious and sensitive, it is hard to believe that Li Wanting and Lin Danni met by chance, Li Wanting found the photo, Li Wanting returned to China Specially told me that all this was an accident.

I didn't have any evidence, I just lied casually, but Lin Danni's silence confirmed my fleeting guess.

I turned my head and found that Lin Anni was looking at me. The transparent water rolled out of her eye sockets and ran across her cheeks, which was not very pretty.

When you love someone, you will feel sad when you find that the other person frowns.

When you don't love someone, let the other person cry and be indifferent.

But I still took out the silk scarf and handed it to her. She reached out and took my silk scarf. I glanced at her hand and said nothing.

"I just wanted to see you."

"My contact information is not difficult to find, you can come to me directly."

"I'm not sure if you want to see me."

"It was conveyed by others, and you are not sure whether I will come." My demeanor today was probably eaten by dogs, and I always like to tell the truth, "Lin Danni, you just don't want to contact me in person."

I kind of want to leave, there's no point in staying here, I've already met her, and I don't talk very speculatively, so it's better not to disturb her recuperation.

"Chen Heping, if I say... I promised others that I will never be able to contact you?"

"Are you acting in a TV series?" Lin Danni's words were a bit indescribable, which almost surprised me, "Even if you promised others, after all these years, if you want to contact me, you can secretly contact me, right?"

When I said this, I actually had a vague premonition that if Lin Danni had really made an appointment with someone, it would only be Zhang Chen.

The next second, I heard Lin Danni say: "No matter how I contact you secretly... Zhang Chen will always know."