my brother became a scum

"Is it?"

I can only say these two words.Link after link, everything related to Zhang Chen has become a stain in my life. In the end, the night I lost my mind, all I got was deception.Zhang Chen's self-confidence does not lie in my refusal to do so, but in the fact that he has all the handles on me and holds all the evidence that can keep me from turning over. Once I lose control, he can immediately get me off the horse.

I can't completely deny these facts, because I did operate improperly and violated the regulations first, but the people behind the scenes easily expanded the small mistakes into big mistakes, embedding flowers and plants, and I have no way to justify.From the performance of the three investigators, I clearly realized that they would not trust my words. It was more of a routine interrogation. All evidence chains are very clear, and the conclusions drawn are difficult to change.

All I can do is try to mention the evidence that I want to personally send to the central government in the conversation, and hope that the organization will pay attention and investigate, but they have not responded to this matter.

I took surveys back and forth for a week or so, the same questions were asked over and over, I wasn't lying, it wasn't hard to deal with, but I was mentally exhausted and shaky.

I didn't eat much, I didn't drink much, and I couldn't cheer up.I was wondering if Zheng Dongyang would take any action, but I also wanted to follow his personality. After I entered, I might not be able to make a desperate fight. The leadership team will not cause great turmoil just because I leave alone.

Of course I thought of Zhang Chen, and I wondered whether all this was a trap set by him, or whether it was a trap set up by his relatives and friends. Even now, I still don't want to believe that Zhang Chen can do this.

So after a day of routine interrogation, I asked the investigator opposite me: "Zhang Chen, who is involved in the case, do you know where he is now?"

"He went abroad," I didn't expect that person to tell me easily, "he has always had a green card abroad, and the circumstances involved in the case are not serious, and he started again with his wife and children."

I closed my eyes and felt that I had lost the ability to breathe. My rationality told me that I should not listen to his one-sided words. I should find out the truth by myself. However, my rationality also told me that he had no reason to lie to me. Zhang Chen had indeed left. With his nominal wife and children.

"I have a piece of news for you. Zhang Chen and his wife have only signed a divorce agreement, and the formalities have not been completed. Even if you go to the Civil Affairs Bureau with him, it is still bigamy, which is not counted."

"so."

"You have done a good job in Lushi. The leaders of the provincial party committee originally planned to promote you in the next year. Do you feel regretful when you hear the news?"

"You know a little too much."

"Some things, you are too lenient."

I opened my eyes and looked at the investigator: "Who are you from?"

"I'm not that person, I'm just an investigator. You don't have to worry. The girl from the Li family has been making trouble for several days. You don't have too many mistakes in principle. You should be released soon."

I should be happy, after all, the feeling of being imprisoned here is not good, but I can't feel the slightest joy in my heart, and the feeling of powerlessness is wrapped around my chest, and I feel the despair in the ward in Handong , once again, I lost completely.

After the investigator left, I went back to the inner room, where there was only one bed and no windows around it. I turned on the light, lay on the slightly hard bed, and stared at the incandescent lamp above.

At this time, you should think back to the past to temporarily paralyze the current brain and relax your nerves slightly, as if you can avoid the tribulations you encounter now, and you don't have to think about what to do in the future.

I force myself to think, and I tell myself that there is no need to be strong now.

I thought of a long, long time ago, that man hadn't gone to the south, and the three of us were still together.I remember that we lived in the yard of a one-story house, and the yard was full of flowers. When the weather was hot, I could always smell the fragrance of flowers. I lost my way in the small yard, but I didn’t panic at all. He took me out and said to me carefully: "It's time to go."

Where are you going?Maybe I went to a department store to buy something, maybe I went to visit my grandpa’s house, I sat in the front of the car frame, sometimes I would meet a candy seller on the road, I would stare at the candy seller, and after a while, The man would buy a handful of candy, stuff it into my arms, and whisper to me, "Don't tell your mother."

I nodded half understanding.

But then everything changed. That man went to the south and became an appearance that no one knew. My mother, stepping on beautiful red high heels, sacrificed her life for her love.

I thought of my grandpa, that kind, upright old man.

I remember how he hugged me and howled, and I also remember him pointing at me and saying to other people who tried to persuade that man: "This child will be my surname from now on. He is a child of my Chen family. I will raise him." .”

He put on reading glasses, turned over my homework with mottled fingers, and explained the key points to me bit by bit.He walked home slowly with a vegetable basket in his hand. There was more meat in the basket but less vegetables. He smiled and said, "Give my eldest grandson extra meals."

When I teased my classmates for the first time, he picked up the broom and beat me. When he was tired, he hugged me and secretly wiped his tears.He couldn't sleep in the middle of the night, so he ran into my room, touched my cheek with his dry hand, and left quietly.

He corrected all my cold-bloodedness and cunning that belonged to my father, and he deeply engraved the thought of being a good person in the depths of my soul.

But I lost him anyway, and sent him on his last journey that cold night.

I couldn't help but think of Zhang Chen.

I don't regret meeting him, becoming brothers with him, recalling the time when I was a teenager, I can still feel warm and happy.What I regret most is that I didn't grasp the bottom line, crossed the scope of my brother, and became friends with him, became a lover and unilaterally regarded him as a partner.

If it's just a brother, I might not be able to reach this point, and I won't get deeper and deeper into this vortex.

I can't think of any joyful things, and I can't produce much unspeakable hatred, winners and losers, nothing more.

The only hurdle I can't get past is that I never thought of using him to mess with his family, but he can easily betray me, clear all my chips, and do it cleanly, so that I can't even find an excuse for him.

Who knows where he and I confessed that night?

Who can easily do something to my computer without me noticing?

Who can take my personal items, who can easily tell me to change my principles?

Only Zhang Chen, only he can do it.

He chose to give up on me for the sake of his mother, but if I confronted him, he wouldn't say anything apologetic, maybe he would say confidently: "I saved you the first time, but I can't save you the second time." Next time, who told you to fight against them?"

I don't know when it started, I forgot that sentence I kept saying.

Zhang Chen and I have never been the same way.University is a watershed. We should have distanced ourselves and drawn a clear line, and we should stop contacting each other.

Those flesh-and-body entanglements and short-lived pleasures are like a dream that is too absurd. There is always reality that punctures the fantasy, causing people to wake up suddenly, and suddenly look back, so many years have been wasted.

All my feelings and trust were finally wiped out and completely wiped out.

Three days later, the investigator brought paper and a pen, and I asked him for a cigarette. While smoking, I wrote the resignation letter by hand.In principle, it should be expulsion, and then follow-up procedures, but the violation is not serious, and some evidence is not fatal, there is still a lot of room for manipulation.Of course, the people behind the scenes wanted me to go to jail, but Li Wanting couldn’t stand her begging—her father handed over a note, and the matter was taken lightly, and I even had a “decent” chance to write a letter of resignation.

I was on the small desk, holding a pen, writing my resignation letter—this is the second time I wrote a resignation letter, and the first time was to avoid Zhang Chen.Thinking of the coolness back then, I was a little envious, I envied myself who had the courage to start again at that time, but a few years later, I was afraid, afraid and reluctant-I love my job, I love the career I am engaged in, but I am no longer eligible to continue.

The tip of the pen scratched across the letter paper and wrote one word after another. I thanked the organization for its cultivation for many years, but when I came to the reason for my resignation, my mind went blank.

I thought hard and couldn't find a reason for resigning, so I raised my head and asked the investigator: "Generally, what reasons do people who resign at this time write?"

The man sneered and said, "99 people have been suspended for investigation, and you are the only one who can write a letter of resignation if someone protects you."

"Oh, like this."

I squeezed the pen tightly and wrote a line of words "I feel deeply unwell, and it is difficult for me to cope with future challenges and relatively complicated work...". After writing this line, I laughed to myself.

I finally finished writing the letter of resignation and handed it to the investigator. He took the letter with one hand and turned away, leaving me alone in the cramped room.

The day after I submitted my resignation letter, I walked out of the house. My legs hadn’t moved for a long time, so I had to hold on to the stairs. I moved down cautiously. When I finished walking the last step, I raised my head again. I happened to see Li Wanting smiling at me.

Her face was smeared with a very thin powder, pink like a newly ripened apple, and she was holding a large bag in her hand. She just stood there and waved to me.

I also stood there, a little at a loss. I didn't know how to face this woman who was rejected by me and tried her best to get me out.

She waited for a while, shrugged, and trotted up to me——she hugged me, touched my back, and said, "Chen Heping, you've lost weight."