The Secret of Misfortune and Love

My heart is full of water, and I know very well that something will change or happen tonight.Some expectations and some fears at the same time, because this is the final choice for me to make, whether to continue sinking in the endless mud, or to grasp the life-saving straw of Han Xiao.

His bedroom is filled with a faint scent of jasmine flowers, the pillows are made of cassia seeds, and there are some lavender smells. I watched him come back from the bathroom with only a towel around his waist and wet drops of water on his body. I thought to myself, does he also need to use lavender and cassia to soothe the nerves and help sleep before he can fall asleep?

To be honest, I don't know anything about this man, but what does it matter?I know everything about that man, but so what?

He may be shy, the overhead light is turned off, and through the light from the bathroom, there is a tinge of brightness in this dark place, which is especially suitable for ambiguity, allowing you to see the outline of the other person but making the other person unable to see your heart .

He leaned over and touched the water droplets on his body dryly, feeling a little uncomfortable, but soon he was overwhelmed by the fragrance of shower milk. Kissing is always the correct opening posture to keep the rhythm on track.

When he was biting my neck/neck, the blank feeling between my head could make me forget Ouyang's face for a short while, I tried to respond to him, but he shifted his position, his palm was so hot, it stuck into my clothes It's a bit pretentious inside, but it's comfortable.

"Ling, I like you." He said.

But I lost my mind for a moment. I don’t remember anyone saying that they like me so bluntly. It seems that I had the love of a little girl when I was very young, but I focused my eyes on Ouyang Chenshuo. I have long since forgotten whether other people have looked at me with fiery eyes, maybe even if they have, they have all retreated. People around me know that I regard Ouyang as my life, and they probably know that I can't get anything they want here. Feelings, so you gave up before you pursued it?

He knelt between my legs in a pilgrimage, the phone rang, I checked, it was from cousin Ling Che, I felt Han Xiao's mouth, I was a little lost, and didn't answer it.

"Why don't you pick it up?" Han Xiao leaned forward, hugged me sideways, grabbed my rising desire with one hand and fiddled with it.

"I'm afraid I will change my mind, kick you down, and continue to stay in that quagmire willingly." I replied breathlessly.

"Even if you fall into hell, I will go down to accompany you."

After he finished speaking, he suddenly turned over and separated my legs. This numb domineering reminded me of that bad night with Ouyang. I covered my eyes with my arms, saying sorry in my heart, and expecting Han Xiao to hurry up , I don’t know who I’m saying I’m sorry to, and why should I say sorry?I hope he will be quicker and intercept my hesitation sooner, and I will be driven to a dead end where I can't turn back.

Ouyang, I'm exhausted, I don't want to love you anymore, can I?

The phone rang again, and I still stretched out my hand to press it. It was Ouyang's message. He said: Are you really going to give up on me?

Han Xiao resisted my desire and refused to enter. He seemed to be waiting for me to make a choice.

Finally, I replied with two words: goodbye.

Then, the bone-eating pain penetrated into the brain and turned into panting. Han Xiao’s technique is very good. My initial pain was quickly replaced by pleasure. I don’t believe in his innocence, and I don’t believe in myself either. But our fit is pretty good.

He cares too much about my feelings and keeps asking me if I am comfortable, but I don't like him asking me like this all the time. I like the domineering feeling of being manipulated by him. Maybe I have a bit of a masochistic tendency in my bones?Maybe yes, I have been abused in Ouyang Chenshuo's relationship for so many years, and it has become a habit. I love and feel sorry for myself, heh, heh.

In fact, I think I am a person with very delicate emotions. I have also imitated the appearance of Xia Pei Nuo once, but I can't learn the computer technology of orgasm. Jealous of him thought it was useless.

Han Xiao, thank you for liking me.

A person who can jump from upstairs without hesitation and break his leg is a waste left by God, even though I never believe in God.

Ouyang did not appear in front of me again, and I also felt that this kind of life was very comfortable. I lived with Han Xiao, and when I went home after sleeping that night, the first thing my cousin said when he saw me was: "Fucked Are you happy? How is that young man doing?"

For someone like my cousin, who looks very elegant but speaks obscene sentences naturally, I take it for granted, and replied lightly: "It's very cool."

I moved in to live with Han Xiao, our life is really comfortable, he will come home on time and on time except for company affairs, we rarely go out for a walk, after all, I am handicapped, but I like this kind of nest At home, the feeling of nestling in his arms, I also like to do it with him.

However, when Han Xiao is not around, I will secretly pay attention to Ouyang Chenshuo's every move. When I see his mood, I still cover my head and cry like a dog. He said: No one stands with me at dusk , No one asked me how warm the porridge was, no one shared the wine with me, no one told me that it was late at night.He said goodbye, I will not bother again.

Ouyang, what I want is never a compromise.

One month after Han Xiao and I lived together, it was Chinese New Year, and Ouyang Chenshuo was in trouble. People in his family were restless, everyone wanted to sit on the throne, right?Ding Xingsheng has the disadvantage of Ding Xingsheng, although our family is just me and my cousin, there is no conflict, and I will not fight for a leadership position with my cousin, I know I am not that material, and the Ouyang family The struggle has never stopped. Back then, he also won the first prize by relying on his marriage. If it wasn't for the marriage, he probably wouldn't have lost his beloved Charlemagne. Now, he may not have any intention of political affairs, but he is attracted by his cousins. Take advantage of the loophole.

The general meeting of shareholders is about to be held, those people probably have the chance to win, and according to my investigation, Ouyang did not make any counterattacks, it seems that he is just sitting still and letting nature take its course, maybe he is tired, my cousin also knows about this I asked my cousin about it, hoping he could help Ouyang, but my cousin shrugged his shoulders when he treated his iron buddies, "I'll help him when he begs me."

How could Ouyang come to beg him?

On the day of the general meeting of shareholders, I put on a newly tailored suit. When their general meeting was about to end, I limped and attended the voting as the new shareholder of their company. That’s right, I used I used some tricks, pinched two spineless scumbags, and threatened them to sell the shares in their hands to me. Although it is not much, it is very important. Whoever I vote for will win. Of course, It was for Ouyang.

At the end of the meeting, the losers were downcast, and the winners looked grateful, but Ouyang just looked at me with burning eyes, and I didn't say anything and didn't dare to say anything to him. I turned around and left in the crowd. I will always protect you, even though I said I don’t want to love you anymore, people like me will definitely go to hell, I can’t give up on Han Xiao wholeheartedly, and I can’t give up on you completely, I don’t want to let go Han Xiao Your warmth, and I am unwilling to give up my belief, Ouyang, you have always been my belief.

I want to have an evening with you, I want to warm the porridge for you, I want to share the wine for you, and I want to tell you that the night is late.

However, a hesitant person like me will definitely suffer retribution. I know that in Han Xiao's view, I am already his personal property, but I didn't expect him to be so angry. When I returned to our home , he drank a lot, the vases and plates on the floor were broken, and the hangings on the wall were also smashed to pieces. It turned out that he still had such a tendency to violence. He came over and clasped my shoulders and asked me: "Do you still love me?" with him."

I nodded calmly: "I will always love him."

"What about me, what am I?"

"spouse."

"Hehe, what kind of lover am I? I'm just a tool for you to ease your grief."

"Didn't you come here on your own to be used by me? Didn't you know it from the beginning? Is it interesting to say this now?"

He turned his head and left, slamming the door loudly.

I understand his anger, and I know that my words are vicious, but I also know that it is impossible for him to want me to drive Ouyang away from the bottom of my heart. I thought he knew this, and he didn't care about anything. He wanted to love me, Am I being a little selfish?

But maybe love can’t be rubbed with sand. In fact, I really feel that I can’t do without Han Xiao. I went to look for him, but he went to look for flowers. Maybe he just wanted to stimulate me, but I was there After enjoying his performance with others, I quietly sat on the sofa outside and waited for him to come out after finishing work.

He said, "Go find Ouyang Chenshuo."

The pain in my chest is real, he is hurting me with the words that hurt me the most, this is not the Han Xiao who said that I was wronged by others at the beginning, maybe I don’t know him well enough, "You accompany me It’s been a while since I’ve been here, I’ll give you whatever you want.”

He sneered, "No, I'm just idle and bored, just chasing you for fun."

I know what he said, but I don't think I will forgive him. He probably wants me to bow my head and apologize to him. What he wants is actually very simple, but I can't do it. Sometimes I often ask myself Whether I love him or not, it’s just that I’m narrow-minded and the world knows, I guess, am I really just using him to seek some comfort and warmth?

"Actually, my life has been very chaotic. I just want to see if you can really have no complaints and no regrets towards a person all the time, and you are actually nothing more than that to Ouyang Chenshuo. You just can't bear the hurt and the pain." Loneliness, isn’t it seeking warmth? I just like you, not love.”

I was stunned for a long time, recalling that he said he liked me, but he really didn't seem to say he loved me.

Coming out of the place where I was caught, the night outside was quite long, and the bodyguards followed me not too far away. Let them keep vigilant and protect my safety in order to survive in this weather. I finally felt a little uneasy. For the first time in the past, I said to them in a very soft voice: "Let's go home, your bonus will be doubled this month, thank you for always protecting me."

"This is what we should do." A bodyguard said, his tone was not submissive. In fact, there are many dog-legged people in this world, but there are also many honest and persistent people. What he meant was that they take money Doing things, this is what you should do, it's very straightforward, it's not about me, I know.

"Mr. Ouyang stood in the snow downstairs of Mr. Han until dawn that day." Another bodyguard said.

I was taken aback, "What day?"

"On the day of the food festival."

I remember that it seemed like it snowed for a long time that night, and I had sex with Han Xiao that night.

Hehe, I can't forget the sorrow on the bridge of Naihe!

I have started to get in touch with family business. Although I am not a business material, some basic management problems can still be solved, and now I hold the shares of Ouyang Family Industry. When we meet in the crowd, our eyes will be on The crowd meets, but only for a moment, I will dodge, and then run away, I feel that I have returned to the previous state, hiding in a dark corner, looking at him cautiously, that's good...