Can't stop

When he was about to wake up the next day, Xiao Bixing had a dream. Although he couldn't remember the content of the dream when he woke up, he found that the corners of his eyes were wet.

It was Monday, and Li Jian was still lying beside him, as if nothing had happened.Xiao Bixing looked at Li Jian, but he didn't know whether he was awake or asleep, but he still turned his back to him, motionless.Xiao Bixing pushed Li Jian twice, but Li Jian still didn't speak.Helpless, Xiao Bixing could only scan the room in a daze, but he didn't know what to say.Looking around the familiar scene in this room, Xiao Bixing seemed to wake up from a dream. He got up in a daze, then brushed his teeth, took a shower, and put on his clothes.

When he opened the door, Xiao Bixing paused. He glanced back at the bed, and then softly called out to the figure, "Li Jian, I'm leaving...I'm going...to work..."

The person on the bed still seemed to have not heard, lying there quietly, as if falling asleep.

There was no sound in the room, but Xiao Bixing couldn't move his footsteps.He suddenly felt a force surge in his heart, forcing him to attack.

"Did you hear that?!" He yelled at Li Jian on the bed, "I'm going to work!"

Before he knew it, Xiao Bixing's tears welled up in his eyes.He wanted to lift Li Jian's quilt, but his feet didn't listen.Looking at the motionless figure across the room, Xiao Bixing suddenly turned his back and opened the door.

"You talk..." Xiao Bixing paused, his back turned to Li Jian and bit his lips fiercely, his voice was choked, as if he wanted to wake Li Jian up with crying.

"Don't speak... I'll leave..." Xiao Bixing's voice was intermittent.

Li Jian still didn't speak, but Xiao Bixing vaguely heard something, but only for a moment, the voice disappeared.

"I'm really leaving."

Xiao Bixing's heart became half cold when he didn't hear Li Jian's persuasion.Tears kept gushing from his eyes, and he couldn't stop them.He slammed the door and ran down the stairs, out onto the bright street.He didn't know how Li Jian would react in the room. At this moment, he just wanted to leave this place immediately and put himself in the sunlight.

When leaving the building, Xiao Bixing glanced at the window of his home again, vaguely, Xiao Bixing felt that this would be the last time he saw Li Jian.

How this day passed, Xiao Bixing no longer remembers.All he knew was that when he got home, Li Jian had disappeared.Xiao Bixing saw those things on the coffee table at a glance - letter paper, and a ring.The ring was placed in the middle of the letter paper, pressing the letter paper firmly.

It was written by Li Jian, and Xiao Bixing recognized it at a glance.

"Xiao Bixing,

Never wrote to anyone.But today I have to write, because some words are still unspeakable.

I always wanted to give you a good life, but I failed.I overestimated myself, thought I could control everything, I caused the situation between us now, but I can't solve it, I'm useless.

I don't know if my leg injuries can recover. If they can't recover, they will be a burden in life in the future. I don't want to drag you down.As long as I leave, Ding Xiaoqi will not pester you again.So leaving is my best option.You can take me as a coward, I admit it.

Don't think I don't love you anymore, I just don't want our relationship to go to the last step.Let's all calm down while I'm sane.

Li Jian"

A few lines of words, no gorgeous rhetoric, no deliberately exaggerated sadness, but it already made Xiao Bixing cry. He wanted to tear the letter paper to pieces, but he didn't.calm down?Is that what Li Jian thinks?Seeing these four words made Xiao Bixing's heart ache.He covered his face with a pillow and cried for several minutes in that pillow.

Xiao Bixing felt terribly disappointed and terribly sad, and in an instant, half of the pillow was wet with his tears.He couldn't help thinking of himself this morning—if he had lifted Li Jian's quilt and yelled at him all the words in his heart, would the ending be different now?Will Li Jian stay?Thinking of this, Xiao Bixing took out his mobile phone in a daze, found Li Jian's number and dialed it over and over again, but the number had been shut down.

Li Jian's cell phone had been destroyed in the fire, even if Xiao Bixing wanted to contact Li Jian, he had nothing to do.No matter what will happen in the future, the relationship between him and Li Jian has indeed come to an end at this moment.

Staring blankly at the sky outside the window, Xiao Bixing found that today's sky is the same as yesterday's, and it's intoxicatingly beautiful.But the more beautiful the scenery, the more Xiao Bixing wanted to cry.Should I regret it?not.Compared with this ending, Xiao Bixing is more unwilling to see Li Jian take risks and go to prison for his self-esteem.

Xiao Bixing lay down, feeling unable to think anymore. He stroked the empty half of the bed beside him, and suddenly realized that maybe Li Jian would never appear there again.