did i call your name

After taking a shower, Gao Yi came out of the bathroom after drying his hair, and stopped in front of Qiu Sinian's room.

Today Qiu Sinian went back to sleep at his home, Gao Yi looked at the door and suddenly had a bold and shameless idea.His room was just across from Qiu Sinian's room. Gao paused slightly, licked his lips unconsciously, moved his toes to one side, opened the door and walked into Qiu Sinian's bedroom.

Teacher Qiu is not at home today, so it is a good thought not to see anyone and smell it.

The first year of high school has already made a small calculation. Qiu Sinian has class tomorrow, and even if he wants to go home, it will be in the evening. Tomorrow will be sunny again. In one day, he has enough time to wash the sheets and quilts and put them on again. Leave no trace.

When Gao Yiyi came to the door, he was inexplicably guilty of being a thief.

This was the first time he entered Qiu Sinian's room after he moved here. The room was exceptionally clean and tidy, and the quilt was spread flat on the bed without any wrinkles.

The room was filled with the smell of Qiu Si Nian, that smell that only Gao Yi himself could smell, stronger than any other place in this house.

Gao Yi held his ground for a few seconds, as if he was still in an ideological struggle. After a while, he resigned to his fate, and got into Qiu Sinian's quilt barefoot.

He covered his face with the quilt, feeling light all over his body, as if countless pieces of feathers were gently brushing over his bare skin, it was crispy and numb, and the pores all over his body were open in comfort.

On the pillow, on the quilt, every corner of the bed smelled of Qiu Sinian's body, Gao Yi grabbed the corner of the quilt and smelled it, his eyes narrowed, and his mind was a little dazed.

Getting drunk before drinking, that's all.

The first year of high school wanted to send Qiu Sinian a message, but when she turned to pick up her phone, she saw a white medicine bottle on the bedside table.

He got up and took a look at the medicine bottle. He lacked common sense in life in the first year of high school. After searching the Internet for the name of the medicine on the medicine bottle, he realized that it was a sleeping pill.

The medicine bottle was already empty, Gao Yi looked at the medicine bottle in his hand, and couldn't help frowning.

He knew that Qiu Sinian went to bed at ten o'clock every day, but he didn't know that he had insomnia.

The first year of high school lay on Teacher Qiu's bed, wrapped Teacher Qiu's quilt tightly, and sent a message to Teacher Qiu at midnight with his mobile phone: Happy New Year.

Blessing is not enough, he boldly continued to tease: I still like you in the new year. [sun/]

The freshman in high school hesitated for a moment, and then withdrew the message a minute later. The image of Qiu Sinian leaning on the wall and retching is still circling in his mind today.Only Qiu Sinian knows how much the parrot's death has cast a shadow on Qiu Sinian's psychology. He behaved so calmly that the people around him forgot how he should have reacted.

Not long after his beloved pet died, it was too reckless for him to express his heart in a hurry.

Gao Yi turned over, fixed his eyes on the empty medicine bottle on the bedside table, closed his eyes, and the smell of Qiu Sinian was still lingering in his nose.

Qiu Sinian's obsession with living habits has actually been broken, a small hole has been broken, and it is opening.How long he hadn't gone to bed before ten o'clock he couldn't remember.It's past twelve o'clock now, and he's still lying on the bed looking at his phone.

He has seen all the messages sent to him in the first year of high school, including the withdrawn message.

Qiu Sinian raised his hand and touched the back of his neck, took the medicine and applied ointment, the rash had dissipated a lot, but it was still a little itchy.

Qiu Sinian gently rubbed his fingers behind his ears, and typed a few words with one hand, he paused, and then deleted those words.

Sleepless all night, it may be because of allergies, the body is too uncomfortable to sleep, or it may be because of other reasons.

The next morning, Qiu Sinian came back early to get his laptop, but Gao Yi made a mistake in his wishful thinking and overturned his car early in the morning.

When Qiu Sinian opened the door and entered the room, he was stunned. He grabbed the doorknob and looked at the raised quilt on his bed in astonishment.

Gao Yi curled up under the quilt, with one long white leg exposed, and was sleeping soundly.He was probably only wearing a pair of underpants, because when Qiu Sinian moved his eyes up along that leg, he saw the black hem of the trousers, which was pulled up and rolled up by the quilt. Flick up a little, and you will be sure that the spring will suddenly appear.

Qiu Sinian coughed lightly to calm down his fluctuating mood.

He glanced at Gao Yi whose face was covered by the quilt, and smiled lightly.

He is so brave that no one has dared to lie in his bed.

Qiu Sinian opened the closet, wanting to change clothes by the way, he stood in front of the closet, raised his hand and lifted up his jacket.

Hearing a slight movement, Gao Yi frowned in his sleep, he opened his eyes in a daze, and saw a person standing beside the bed in a daze.

Gao Yi flicked his eyelids, and took a closer look. Qiu Sinian put on a black shirt and slowly buttoned it in front of the mirror.

Gao Yi was so frightened that he almost dozed off, he shrank into the blanket, and covered the exposed leg together with the blanket, hiding it tightly.

Qiu Sinian turned his head when he heard the sound, raised his hand to button his cuff, and asked softly, "Are you awake?"

Gao Yi hid under the quilt and didn't make a sound, his heart was pounding with embarrassment, not only his ears, but even his face was flushed.

He is already ashamed to see people, what is he doing?

The behavior of perverted idiots.

He felt that if he looked at Qiu Sinian head-on now, he could dig three feet into the ground and bury himself.

Seeing him wrapped in the quilt like a rice dumpling and motionless, Qiu Sinian didn't think it was funny, so he didn't ask too many questions, for fear of embarrassing him by asking too many questions.

Qiu Sinian closed the cabinet door and sat down on the edge of the bed.Gao Yi was covered in the quilt all the time, Qiu Sinian was afraid that he would be covered, so he gently pulled the quilt, "Can you breathe? Cover it so tightly."

The quilt obviously moved to the side, Chou Sinian was helpless, he would never get out of the quilt if he didn't walk higher, he stood up and said, "I'm going to school."

When Qiu Sinian came to the door, Gao Yi finally poked his head out from under the quilt, and whispered: "I will change the sheets and quilt covers."

After speaking, he retracted into the quilt again, biting his lip in panic.

"No need to change." Qiu Sinian said and closed the door.

Why did the child run to his bed?

All morning, Chou Sinian was in a state of restlessness, and when he had some free time, he would be distracted. His mind was full of Gao Yiguang's long leg slipping out of the quilt.

Qiu Sinian shook his head, trying to concentrate.

After a long absence, Chen Ze walked into the office.

"Teacher." Chen Ze called out.

Chou Sinian raised his head when he heard the sound, with a look of shock on his face, he pulled a chair for Chen Ze from the side, "You haven't been here for a long time, sit down."

"Thank you, teacher." Chen Ze sat down, "Teacher, the piece you played together yesterday is very nice."

Chen Ze had a peaceful face, with a slight smile on his face, and Qiu Sinian unconsciously relaxed, and smiled lightly: "Thank you."

Chen Ze hadn't come to see Qiu Sinian for a long time, and this time he came to say goodbye. Hearing what he said, Qiu Sinian's expression became more and more serious.

Qiu Sinian thought he was thinking about it, but he didn't expect that he never came out.

"You're leaving? What do you mean?" Qiu Sinian frowned, "Where are you going?"

"I don't know, Tang Wen said before that he wanted to see the aurora with me, maybe he would go to a city with aurora..." Chen Ze looked down at his fingers, his voice suddenly choked up, "I don't think I can do anything Come out... Teacher, I dream of him every night, and I don't want to forget him, it is impossible for me to forget him..."

The dead cannot erase their traces in the hearts of the living. Tang Wen traded his death for eternal life in Chen Ze's heart.

Qiu Sinian said in a deep voice, "His death was not because of you..."

"It's me, it's because of me." Chen Ze closed his eyes, tears streaming down his face, and his voice trembled, "I'm sorry, teacher, for causing you so much trouble."

Chen Ze raised his hand to wipe his tears, cried and laughed: "I don't want to sit in the classroom wearing a mask all day, I'm too tired..."

Qiu Sinian clenched his hands slightly, and looked at Chen Ze speechlessly.

Chen Ze chatted with Qiu Sinian for a long time, crying and laughing, laughing and crying, as if the depression that had been accumulated for a long time was finally vented, his tear-stained face showed a hint of relief, did he really want to let go, Or walked into a deeper dead end, Qiu Sinian couldn't tell the difference for a moment.

Chen Ze dropped out of school and didn't even take the final exam. When Qiu Sinian heard the news, he had already left the city for a farther place.

I heard that Chen Ze's parents had arranged for him to study abroad and wanted him to change his environment and start a life without Tang Wen, but Chen Ze refused.Some people also said that he refused his parents' arrangement and went to the mountains to support education.

Chou Sinian didn't know the exact result, he only knew that Chen Ze chose the life he wanted with the memory of Tang Wen.

Whether that life is good or bad, Qiu Sinian has no way of knowing.

Since then, Qiu Sinian's insomnia has become more serious, so severe that even with the maximum dose of medicine, he is still haunted by nightmares and struggles until dawn.

The first year of high school noticed that Qiu Sinian had bought another bottle of Valium, and he would sneak into Qiu Sinian's room every day to count the amount of Valium left.

On the first day, I ate two tablets.

The next day, two tablets.

On the third day, four tablets.

On the fourth day, five tablets.

If it was just to relieve insomnia, five pills would already be too much. Looking at the pills spilled on the table, Gao Yi frowned worriedly.

He asked Qiu Sinian if he needed to take sleeping pills to help him fall asleep at night. Qiu Sinian only said that his sleep quality was not good, but he didn't mention that he increased the dose of the medicine.

That night, Qiu Sinian went to bed very early as usual, and Gao Yi waited until there was no movement in the room before sneaking into Qiu Sinian's bedroom lightly.

Today's dose is five pills again, Gao Yi's face is sullen, and his heart becomes more and more worried.

Gao put the medicine bottle back to its original place, went back to his room and found a small quilt, he hugged the small quilt and quietly went back to Chou Sinian's room, and lay down on the floor beside the bed.

Today he wanted to sleep with Qiu Sinian. If Qiu Sinian continued to take this dose of medicine tomorrow, he would throw the medicine bottle into the toilet.

The movement of going in and out in the first year of high school did not disturb Qiu Sinian. Although An Ding could not prevent him from having nightmares, it made him sleep deeply. Because of his deep sleep, he was always trapped in dreams.

This time he was trapped in a nightmare again.

It was the same scene I had dreamed about countless times. The back of the boy in the dream was blurry and unreal. He turned around, with a faint smile on his face, and shouted, "Teacher."

Qiu Sinian also smiled and approached slowly.

Mingming kept moving forward, but Chou Sinian didn't see himself taking a step closer to Tang Wen. He raised his head in horror, and found that the smile on the boy's face suddenly disappeared, and his gentle face became ferocious and blurred.

Tang Wen's body became more and more blurred. Qiu Sinian stretched out his hand and kept running forward, but he couldn't catch up with him.

"Teacher, help me...help me..."

"Tang Wen!"

With a bang, Qiu Sinian suddenly came back to his senses, and what he saw in front of him was Tang Wen's corpse lying in a pool of blood.

Gao Yi fell into a drowsy sleep, with the faint whispers coming from his ears, he opened his eyes reflexively, and bounced off the ground.

"Tang Wen...Tang Wen..." Qiu Sinian grabbed the quilt and breathed rapidly, the broken hair on his forehead was soaked in sweat, sticking to his forehead sticky.

Qiu Sinian's eyebrows were twisted into twists, his head was shaking back and forth uneasily, Gao Yi patted his heaving chest lightly, and called him softly and slowly: "Teacher, teacher...don't be afraid, don't be afraid... ..."

Qiu Sinian opened his eyes suddenly, grabbed Gao Yi's hand, and clenched it tightly. Gao Yi felt that Qiu Sinian's palms were sweaty, and he rubbed his fingers lightly on his palm.

Qiu Sinian was breathing heavily, his eyes were staring straight, and he hadn't recovered from the nightmare just now.His hands were cold, touching Gao Yi's warm fingertips, they gradually warmed up.

"Teacher Qiu?" Gao Yi called out lightly, the familiar and warm voice dragged Qiu Sinian back to reality, his eyes recovered, and his eyes fell on Gao Yi's face.

"You..." Gao Yi fell into Qiu Sinian's arms without saying a word.

Qiu Sinian hugged him, and when he spoke, his voice was hoarse: "Why did you come here again?"

The author has something to say: Soon, soon, it will be sweet (^o^) / Mr. Qiu is not like milk cake, he thinks about everything so pure and simple, let him take it easy, take it easy.