did i call your name

In the backstage lounge, Qiu Sinian was wearing a coat and leaning on a chair, waiting to play.He held a book in his hand and looked down quietly.

Although Chou Sinian's appearance was defiant, the make-up artist still applied light makeup on him, and combed his forehead hair back, making him look energetic, handsome and stylish.

Qiu Sinian was not used to the feeling of wearing makeup on his face, and he was uncomfortable when reading a book, his brows were slightly frowned.

The girl who was partnering with Qiu Sinian was playing games with her mobile phone, she had seen big scenes before, she was calm as usual, not nervous at all.

The girl wore a light blue dress. It was cold, so she was wrapped in a thick cotton coat.

"Oh, teacher, there are photos of you on school forums and post bars." The girl huddled in her cotton-padded jacket, looking at the phone screen with a smile.

Qiu Sinian raised his head upon hearing the sound.

"I'm all over it." The girl joked with a smile, "Why are there still photos of us rehearsing in the music classroom? When were these photos taken?"

The makeup artist walked up to Qiu Sinian and said, "Teacher, you are going to play soon, and I will touch up your makeup again."

"Repay it?" Qiu Sinian was a little embarrassed, "No need, I think it's good, anyway, the people below can't see my face clearly."

The makeup artist smiled: "At that time, there will be a close-up of the camera, and it must be shown on the big screen."

In fact, Qiu Sinian is fine even without makeup. His skin is fair and smooth. A 30-year-old looks as fresh as a 20-year-old student. The makeup artist just wanted to take this opportunity to talk to him more.

"...All right." Chou Sinian had no choice but to agree.

The makeup artist swept Qiu Sinian's side face with a makeup brush, and said with a smile, "Mr. Qiu, your skin is in really good condition."

Qiu Sinian closed his eyes and smiled lightly, but didn't say anything.

"Hey, where is the little prince here? He still needs makeup."

A familiar female voice came from behind, Qiu Sinian opened his eyes, and saw his aunt behind him through the mirror.

"Why are you here?" Qiu Sinian looked at the person in the mirror in surprise.

"You brat don't tell me that there is a party at school." Gu Yue pulled up a chair and sat down next to Qiu Sinian, "Your mother told me that you are going to perform on stage today, and I happened to be free, so I came over."

"Are you so free?" Qiu Sinian looked at her and smiled.

"I'm very busy." Gu Yue squinted at him, "I'll leave after seeing you, you are so charming today, young man, whose nephew is this, so handsome."

"Thank you for the compliment, beauty."

"You're welcome."

Qiu Sinian chatted happily with his aunt, but the makeup artist couldn't get in the conversation, so he went to the side to help the female student touch up her makeup.

"Don't blame me for not reminding you." Qiu Sinian looked at Gu Yue, "Xue Yiming is also here today."

Gu Yue frowned, "He came back from Shanghai?"

"Yeah, I've been back a long time ago." Qiu Sinian took out a napkin and rubbed the makeup powder on the tip of his nose, "I'm afraid it will be embarrassing for you two to meet, so let me tell you first."

"There's nothing embarrassing about it." Gu Yue folded her hands on her chest, "I've passed with him a long time ago, goodbye and we're still friends."

When Gu Yue was young, she had been in love with Xue Yiming for a long time, ten years ago.At that time, Xue Yiming was still very young. He gave up going to college and chose the path of e-sports. Gu Yue was only 28 years old at that time. , After that, it was a passionate pursuit.

Gu Yue is nine years older than Xue Yiming, and it is precisely because of her age that she has repeatedly rejected Xue Yiming's pursuit.But reason is no match for emotion. Although Gu Yue has been avoiding Xue Yiming's feelings, she actually has him in her heart.

Then the two got together, naturally.Love can beat age, but it is hard to beat time.

The two have been in love for four years, Gu Yue is no longer young, but Xue Yiming is at the peak of his life, constantly moving forward and rising.The differences between each other are getting bigger and bigger, even if the relationship is still there, they eventually become separated.

"Actually..." Qiu Sinian hesitated, "I think he still has you in his heart, you never thought about it..."

"Chou Sinian." Gu Yue interrupted him, "You were the one who beat him to the hospital when you knew we were dating."

Chou Sinian couldn't help laughing when he mentioned this, it was probably the first time in his life that he was violent towards someone.

Xue Yiming fell in love with his aunt, and Qiu Sinian only found out about it a long time later.Xue Yiming was a famous playboy when he was in high school, and the girls he talked to could make up a company.At the beginning, Qiu Sinian accidentally found out that Xue Yiming had recruited his aunt, and Zhuma became his quasi-uncle, so he didn't feel right at all.

Besides, this uncle-to-be was not very reliable, a good cabbage was gouged by a pig, and Qiu Sinian cleaned him up on impulse.

"I thought he was just playing with you." Qiu Sinian said, "You also know what kind of virtue he used to be."

It was Gu Yue who proposed that the two would break up later.It's not a broken relationship, nor is it a third party's intervention, it's just that I feel that the original feeling is no longer there, and there is no need to continue.

Qiu Sinian knew that Xue Yiming was still interested in his aunt, otherwise he wouldn't have been single all these years.

"Some things are in the past, and they are in the past. I'm so old, I don't want to continue the relationship." Gu Yue stood up and patted Qiu Sinian on the shoulder, "I'm going to take a seat in the audience first, take it easy Be good, Teacher Qiu."

Qiu Sinian took a mouthful of tainted milk, Gu Yue settled down in her seat, and a person sat next to her, she turned around and saw that it happened to be Xue Yiming.

Xue Yiming looked at Gu Yue and couldn't help but startled.

"Long time no see." Gu Yue smiled slightly.

Xue Yiming was silent for a moment, and returned a polite smile: "Long time no see."

Gao Yi hesitated before entering the auditorium, he was not interested in other performances, he just wanted to catch a glimpse of Qiu Sinian.When I walked into the auditorium, it was already overcrowded, and the audience was full of students, and there were no empty seats.Gao Yi held a bouquet of bright red roses and could only stand the farthest away from the stage.

fair enough.

Gao Yi lowered his head and glanced at the roses in his hand, he was too shy to squeeze into the crowd with a bunch of roses in his arms.

A small bouquet of roses, carefully bound, there are 23 in total. The freshman in high school didn't understand the meaning of the number of roses, and thought it vulgar, so he picked a date when he and Qiu Si first met, September 9th.

Later, it was the clerk who told him that the 23 roses also have meanings, representing the momentary thoughts.

The bright red roses are bright and unobtrusive, even in the dim auditorium, they are very eye-catching. The students standing next to the first year of high school looked sideways frequently, with smiles in their eyes.

After the host's speech, the lights on the stage gradually dimmed until the entire auditorium became pitch black. In line with such a quiet atmosphere, the audience in the audience also fell silent.

Gao Yi held his breath and waited for a few seconds.

A beam of light shone down from above the stage, and a girl in a blue dress sat elegantly in front of a piano, and cheers erupted from the audience.

Another beam of light fell.

Gao Yi felt that his breathing was stagnant, and more enthusiastic cheers came from his ears.

The light filled Qiu Sinian's whole body, and when the man laughed, his whole body glowed. He bowed slightly to the audience, and raised his hand to support the piano in his hand.

The girl put her fingers on the keys and paused for a second, and the students in the audience became quiet in an instant.When the fingers touch the keys, a pure voice flows out from the fingertips.

Ten seconds later, Qiu Sinian pulled the bow in his hand in cooperation, and merged into the girl's piano sound.

Qiu Sinian wore a very loose white shirt without even a bow tie. The baggy thin shirt was inserted into the straight suit pants, casual but extremely elegant.

So elegant.

Before the first year of high school, I thought Qiu Sinian's legs were very long, but today I wore a pair of suit pants that were close-fitting, and I could see the two long legs at a glance.

The tune was a bit sad, Qiu Sinian kept his eyes closed the whole time, and the score seemed to be familiar by heart.

Originally, I came here to feast my eyes on Mr. Qiu who was playing the violin, but at this moment, the first year of high school was attracted by the music lingering in the auditorium.

The first year of high school was a little far away from the stage, so I couldn't see the expression on Qiu Sinian's face clearly. Occasionally, a close-up of Qiu Sinian's face flashed on the big screen, with his eyes closed and the corners of his mouth turned down.

He is immersed in his own world.

Gao Yi held flowers, and the more he listened, the sadder he became, and the more he listened, the more lonely he became.

He thought of Qin Kong, Qin Kong's father, and his dark past.

He was not the only one who was haunted by loneliness. Chen Ze sat in the crowd, watching the stage silently, with tears rolling down from the corners of his eyes.

At the end of the song, Gao Yi's nose was sore, he lowered his head and pressed the corners of his eyes.

The auditorium was quiet for a few seconds, the girls on the stage got up, and there was a burst of warm applause from the audience.

Qiu Sinian walked to the center of the stage and raised his hand. The girl put his arm around him and lifted the hem of her skirt. The two of them bowed slightly to the audience.

The ears of the freshman in high school were almost deafened by the girls in the back row. The applause continued for a long time, and a student in the front row ran onto the stage holding a bouquet of flowers.

"Fuck." Gao Yi stared.

Was preempted.

The student handed the flowers to Chou Sinian. It was a girl, blushing and a little embarrassed. It didn't look like she was prepared by the courtyard.

The girl took advantage of this to ask Teacher Qiu for a hug. Qiu Sinian was a little embarrassed to hold the flower, hesitated for a moment, and hugged the girl quickly.

"Let's rely on it." Gao Yi was upset, holding the bouquet of roses and grinding his teeth.

Cao Bin ran over from the front row, "Damn, you're standing here. I've reserved a seat for you. Why don't you come over? I didn't reply to your messages."

"Fuck." Cao Bin looked at the rose in Gao Yi's arms, his face was full of shock, "You still bought roses? I rely on Gao's head office, walk around, come with me, I'll take you to the backstage."

Cao Bin dragged Gao Yi to the backstage from another aisle.

The girl who was partnering with Qiu Sinian also received flowers, she hugged the flowers and said to Qiu Sinian with a smile: "Mr. Qiu, you were so handsome just now."

Qiu Sinian put the flowers on the dressing table, smiled, and said, "Today's cooperation is very good, and it feels like the best one ever."

"Hey, I almost couldn't hold back just now." The girl lowered her head and smelled the flowers, "I feel complete, I have never played this piece on stage before."

"You behaved very well just now." Qiu Sinian handed the cotton coat to the girl, "Put it on, don't catch a cold."

"Thank you, teacher." The girl took the clothes, and immediately turned on her phone to look. The homepage of the school forum was indeed full of photos of them performing on stage just now, and there were especially many solo photos of Qiu Sinian.

The girl couldn't help laughing: "Why do I feel that the girl who gave you flowers just now is going to become the public enemy of all the girls in the school? Many people asked who this person is under the post."

Chou Sinian didn't speak, took out some papers and covered the bouquet of flowers.

Qiu Sinian's program was relatively late, and there were not many people left in the lounge. One or two gathered together to chat, and when they were on stage, Cao Bin rushed in rashly, pulling Gao Yi from the outside.

"Grand one?" Qiu Sinian looked at the boy at the door in surprise, "Why are you here?"

He glanced at Cao Bin next to him, and it was clear at a glance that this little ancestor brought him here again.

What a good nephew, he also works part-time as a confinement elder.

The rose in Gao Yi's hand was very eye-catching, Qiu Sinian glanced down, a trace of surprise flashed in his eyes.

There were still a few people in the lounge, under the watchful eyes of everyone, Gao Yi hesitated for a moment, and handed the rose to Qiu Sinian.

"Happy New Year's Day." Gao Yi lowered his head, his ears were already red.

All the students in the lounge looked at each other in amazement, and even clapped and booed: "Wow..."

The girl who partnered with Qiu Sinian was so excited that she revealed her true nature, and she joked with a smile: "Hey, is Mr. Qiu making your little brother handsome? There are even male classmates who send you flowers, or roses..."

The rose is very red, and Gao Yi's ears are also very red.

Qiu Sinian didn't expect to come over in the first year of high school, let alone give roses. It was the first time at this age that he was teased by a child with a rose. With a heartbeat, the deer ran in.

The corner of Qiu Sinian's mouth curled up slightly, he took the rose from the first year of high school, and said softly, "Thank you."

click-

Someone pulled out their phone and took a picture.

Gao Yi looked up, frowned, unhappy.

"Change to another place." Qiu Sinian dragged Gao Yi outside, walked to the door and took a deep look at Cao Bin.

Cao Bin was furious when Qiu Sinian looked at him, and said nervously: "What, what's wrong? Uncle, uncle?"

"You are quite free every day. How about I give you some homework alone during the winter vacation, so as to enrich your boring life."

"..."

As soon as Qiu Si left, Xue Yiming came over on his back.

"Huh? Where's the person?" Xue Yiming looked into the lounge, "Leaving so soon?"

Xue Yiming patted Cao Bin on the shoulder and asked, "Do you have a teacher named Qiu Sinian?"

Cao Bin turned his head and was taken aback: "Damn it, Mingshen."

"Will they post the photos online?" Gao Yi followed Qiu Sinian, a little worried.

"Huh?" Qiu Sinian stopped, "What?"

"Didn't someone take a picture just now?" Gao Yi frowned in confusion, "If it gets out, will it have any impact on you?"

Qiu Sinian smiled faintly: "Since you are afraid of affecting me, why are you still sending me roses in front of so many people?"

"I gave mine, it's none of their business." Gao Yi said firmly.

When Qiu Sinian saw him lower his head and his ears were red, the deer in his heart bumped even harder.

"There was a girl who gave you flowers just now..." Gao muttered in a low voice, thinking that if he wanted to send flowers, his mother would give them flowers, and even hugged him, you hugged your uncle.

"She didn't send roses." Qiu Sinian interrupted.

"Then she still hugs you..." The words have already been spoken, and there is no need to hide them like before. Gao Yi raised his eyes and took a quick look at Qiu Sinian, "If I sit in the first row , I will definitely give you flowers before her."

"Yeah." Qiu Sinian smiled, "Who is so courageous like you, just send a bouquet of roses."

"because I like you."

Qiu Sinian froze for a moment.

"I like you so I gave you this." The first grader didn't dare to look into Qiu Sinian's eyes, but said very frankly, "I forgot to ask you last time, did I...was rejected?"

Qiu Sinian didn't speak.

"If it was rejected, do you not like me...or is there some other reason?"

How could it be possible not to like it? Even Qiu Sinian himself didn't believe it when he said these three words.

It's not that he doesn't like it, nor is it for any other reason, it's just the "future" hurdle that he can't get over.

Seeing that Qiu Sinian was still silent, Gao Yi said again: "Then I'll change the question... If possible, you can fall in love with a man... Do you like me?"

He was still unable to determine Qiu Sinian's sexual orientation in the first year of high school. He was afraid that Qiu Sinian was a straight man, so he couldn't overcome the hurdle in his heart.

"I don't like women." Qiu Sinian said softly.

Gao Yi looked up at him, "You..."

"I like men."

The author has something to say: Thank you for the baby who threw mines and watered me, it cost me money, thank you for your support~

That song is "II Mostro" by Ashram. It is really a very lonely song. Interested babies can listen to it.