Death Beliefs

It was an hour after my mother finished talking with Le Yan, and I was about to run on the bed with my shoes on. My mother grabbed me, and suddenly asked me seriously: "Tell me about it." , don’t you have a boy you like when you grow up so old?”

"Why did you ask this all of a sudden?" I was so dazed that I didn't know why Le Yan met a bosom friend like my mother, so he didn't talk nonsense. Could it be that he shared with my mother about my pursuit of Korean boy groups? Alright.

As soon as I mentioned that I like XXX in the Wanyan boy group, Le Yan definitely admitted that I have feelings for boys, but I haven't met one I like in the three-dimensional. I once admired her divine logic, I In fact, I really want to tell her that I am asexual, whether it is the opposite sex or the same sex, I don't seem to feel it.

In the end, I just want to close the case. I am a non-marriage advocate, really, innocent and sincere.

My mother waved at me impatiently, "Don't worry about why I asked this suddenly, just answer me honestly, and just touch your conscience and say that you have never had a boy who has feelings when you grow up?"

My mother asked me about my love history seriously, so I had to tell the truth, and I said, "Didn't I just show you a picture the day before yesterday? It's just that tall and cute boy. In their group, I am the most The one I like is him, my natal. Oh, actually I have a second natal, a little shorter than him, but the very evil one is also in the same group."

My mother had no expression on her face, she slapped me on the back of the head with a slap, and almost made me fall into a shit, my mother said sullenly: "Don't give me a ball, what are they? Are you a ball of thread? My child, it’s not that mom said you, you’re a mangy □ want to eat swan meat? You’re so old, you’re still thinking wildly! Are you ashamed? You should give me the whole boyfriend first. You chase this group, that group, and you can't chase a boyfriend, and you will become delusional. I see you, you are very sick!"

I was very hurt and clutched my chest: "Ah——I pierced my heart."

"Don't pretend, just shot the back of the head." My mother glanced at me impatiently, as if I was wishful thinking.

I had no choice but to falter and confess honestly: "Just... I liked a boy in high school before. At that time, I couldn't fall in love early. I kept hiding it and didn't dare to tell anyone. It's all It's been a long time, and I'm not afraid to tell you the truth, I really liked it."

"And then it's gone?" My mother's eyes widened in disbelief, almost scaring me into the room.

"It's gone... Otherwise, I really want to bloom and bear fruit. Don't look at us at that time, we are much more mature than now. The concept of love without material basis is like playing house , how boring, might as well..."

Before I finished expressing the correct three views of me and my first love, my mother was so angry that her brain ached. Seeing her in unbearable pain, my heart also trembled. Still worrying about my trivial matters, I once again feel great shame for my inaction.

With my mother's mentality, it is estimated that my university has solved the major life issues for her, and it is too late for her to be happy, let alone I accidentally gave her two grandchildren in college. She is too open-minded, not only she is open-minded, but she also wants to pull others to open up with her.

My mother held her forehead and said weakly: "Okay, okay, anyway, you are still interested in boys. Hurry up and go to bed, you have to go on a blind date tomorrow. I hope that boy tomorrow is interested in you. If It will be even more perfect if it can be inseparable from your original life. This matter can be done if you keep it."

Then she turned away and began to watch the evening program with gusto by herself.

I:"……"

Although it was a blind date again this weekend, when I woke up the next morning, I felt that the person who really went on a blind date was my mother. So much charm still exists.

I saw her rushing in and out, and couldn't help but stupefied at the door of the room. My mother finally took some time to tell me: "Xiao Xie, if you can succeed in your blind date today, you can make an appointment with that young man to watch a movie and improve your life." If it doesn’t work out, you’d better stay outside and reflect for an hour, and you won’t be able to eat when you come back at noon, so you can solve it yourself when you come back.”

"You want me to solve it myself? Then I won't even think about coming back today. The ghost knows if you will find another blind date waiting for me tomorrow. I just graduated, and I have never been idle on weekends. Either go on a blind date with this rookie in the medical field, or go on a blind date with that elite who sells real estate. How can you let me idle. If I have some skills, I don’t want to appear under your nose."

I rolled my eyes, just in time to see my mother trying to stuff my slightly fat body into a dress that could make her more coquettish, I took a deep breath, and the thin dress seemed You can strangle people to death just by looking at them.

At that moment, I really wanted to cover my eyes, and I was suffocated.

My mother struggled hard for the last time, the dress was not broken enough to show the toughness, but my mother's figure was not ideal at all, I could almost hear the sound of the silk tearing; while standing in front of the full-length mirror, she gasped at me : "Have you seen enough? If you have seen enough, hurry up and help your mother."

I moved over, and still couldn’t believe my mother had succeeded. While pinching her waist, I tremblingly muttered “Don’t blame me if it’s broken”, and then covered her entire back with that zipper. .

I said, "How old are you, and you're still acting like this? You don't feel ashamed. She really is a woman in love, and she dares to put it on no matter what kind of ghostly clothes it is."

My mother hadn't calmed down, her well-maintained face was flushed, and she was too shy. She said: "It's not your Uncle Xie, why did you say that you are going to participate in an event of their company today, as your Uncle Xie's daughter?" Companion, I have to dress nicely no matter what I wear. Here, he picked this skirt for me. How is it? Does it look good? Does it match me?"

Oh, it turned out to be Uncle Xie, let me tell you, this early in the morning, she was not busy making breakfast for her precious daughter, but she was dressing up here, it turned out that she was invited by her lover.

I said sourly: "Good-looking is good-looking, but you are obviously too old. Also, did Uncle Xie get such a slim skirt for you? It's not the first time he bought clothes for you! "

My mother obviously didn't like me telling the truth, she rolled her eyes at me, and I was too embarrassed to talk about her beautiful dress.

Slowing down, I was not reconciled, so I gnawed on the apple that had been peeled and put it on the table, and said, "I said you and Uncle Xie have been together for almost ten years, when will we be able to cultivate a real fruit? He is doing well now, and he is still taking you Make a fool of yourself, Mom, have you forgotten how the one in his family humiliated you back then, isn’t it too embarrassing?”

"The marriage between the two of them would have ended long ago if it wasn't because of Zeyuan. Isn't Zeyuan still married? Uncle Xie said that when he gets married, he will divorce his wife."

"Ha ha."

"What are you talking about? Zeyuan's wedding date is set for next month. You must be asked to be a bridesmaid then."

"I won't go. If there are too many bridesmaids, I won't be able to get married."

"I don't think you can get married if you are not a bridesmaid. Ah - even if there is no one at home, you have to give me a lady, what a look."

My mother turned pale with anger when she saw me sitting carelessly on the sofa.She taught me etiquette at home a lot, but I just like to confront her. Seeing her happy face just now, I really itch. Since I can’t speak, I will do something to make her angry, such as sitting improperly .

I said angrily: "Mom, is Uncle Xie that good? You look like you have eaten honey? Anyway, you are in your 40s. Can you be more realistic? Uncle Xie really has you in his heart." Why bother to make you wait for such a long ten years? Look at my dad, he is decisive, he likes someone, and immediately drags you to the Civil Affairs Bureau to divorce the marriage. He is afraid of wronging his little fairy. Said, Uncle Xie just lacks this kind of bearing!"

I took another bite of the apple, closed my eyes and enjoyed it happily. My mother still loved me. Although she didn't make breakfast for me, the apple was peeled very well, which was really timely.

"There is no tolerance. Don't compare your dad with Uncle Xie. Your dad didn't wrong the little fairy in his family, but what about your mother? I understand Uncle Xie. I think he did that. It's good. Let's be more tolerant to each other. There's nothing wrong with it. It's your father, it's really sad. Although I didn't have any feelings for your father at the time, but suddenly there was no room for negotiation... I don't think How nice it is to be like your father."

"So, you still haven't forgiven my dad in your heart, have you?"

"Forgive me a long time ago." My mother held my hand and suddenly felt melancholy. Although the sitting posture was elegant, the decadence in the corners of the eyes and brows was clearly visible.

I know very well that the past few years my mother has led me to live alone, if it weren't for Uncle Xie, she would have been unable to survive.I have seen my mother's hard work over the years. In fact, I also want her to be happy, so sometimes I want Uncle Xie to end his hopeless marriage quickly and be with my mother.

My mother patted my hand and said: "If one day, you also meet someone like your father, you will know that it is another matter not to forgive. Anyway, in my heart, your mother is right. He has no feelings anymore, but he is not wide enough to ignore the past, especially with a living creature like you in front of him, which reminds me of my failed marriage all the time. However, although I have a relationship with your father This marriage is not very satisfactory, but I am very satisfied with having you as a daughter. I am very glad that I got your custody. At that time, I also thought that if I couldn't even support myself, I would take you over It's no less than pulling you to suffer together. Fortunately, your mother and I are very upbeat and successful, and let you live a good life. Women can be strong, but no matter how strong they are, they need someone who can The man you rely on, after all, love and career have a double harvest."

I listened to this and shook my head.How old are you, and you are so stupid to believe in love.I just have this kind of ability. I basically can't listen to any long-winded speeches, but I can only grasp the key points to the point.Sure enough, I caught my mother's passion to live and die with Uncle Xie again.

Although I have seen the relationship between my mother and Uncle Xie for more than ten years, I can understand the sincerity of the relationship, but if Uncle Xie does not divorce for a day, my mother will have to stand on the commanding heights of morality. Mom is such an open-minded person who doesn't care about gains and losses.

He did his father's duty for his son, but in the love between the two parties, I really didn't see anything about him that moved me.

My mother even made an appointment with him secretly, not to mention being harassed by his ex-wife either on the phone or at the door.

My mother, don't look at me who is usually so fierce and gentle to me, but when facing an even more fierce dominatrix, she can't say anything cruel, so all that remains is so gentle to death.

Once, I was holding my mobile phone and flirting with the dominatrix. I couldn't say anything serious, and I lost very miserably in the end.

As a result, Luo Qiang, who borrowed from relatives to live in our house, came back from the company for an internship, and saw my mother and I nestled on the sofa with red eyes in embarrassment, without saying a word. She must have been embarrassed at the time. Originally, she borrowed In our house, it's a bit cramped just because of my summer vacation.It was a good moment, and it made her aware of the embarrassment of my family.

In fact, Luo Qiang had doubts about Uncle Xie for a long time, but she kept it secret, so my mother would not take her hand and say kindly: "Xiao Luo, I am talking about friends with this Uncle Xie, and he hasn't divorced yet. .”

Luo Qiang felt the existence of Uncle Xie when she saw a letter on the door when she came back to my house. She was very strange——what era is it, and this is still popular?But it's not easy to ask my mother directly, after all, my mother has been staying at home, and the messenger is self-evident.Then Luo Qiang saw a pair of men's slippers when he entered the door to change his shoes.

She looked at my mother, my mother looked at her, and both of them saw the embarrassment in each other's eyes.

Speaking of which, during that time, my mother quietly decided to end her relationship with Uncle Xie, perhaps because of the influence of Uncle Xie's original wife.

Therefore, she almost acted as a girl in the boudoir without leaving the door, even in the countless anxious phone bombardments of Uncle Xie, she still managed to turn it off without warning.She doesn't go anywhere except the company.

However, even if Uncle Xie went to the company, he couldn't catch her, because she came and went like a storm, and he was sure that Uncle Xie would not dare to give up his company with a lot of business and come to have a long relationship with his children. It seems that there is a sense of desolation that the situation is over.

Uncle Xie had no choice but to look for her after get off work, but my mother just pretended to be no one at home.

Uncle Xie was really helpless, so he used the old contact method, but my mother didn't even look at the letter, so she threw it away.

Luo Qiang told me later: "At the time, I thought it was some suitor of your mother. I read the content of the letter, and it was so hypocritical that I could get goosebumps. Oh, actually, I had another idea at the time..."

Me: "...what do you think?"

"The man who wrote the letter posted the wrong door."

I:"……"

The love of the older generation is so straightforward, expressing lovesickness blatantly, and shocking those who see it.