Death Beliefs

Regarding Wen Ling's indifference in the previous relationship, although I know it's useless to ask more questions, I just can't give up.

Xi Xiang was with someone else, the first time I really couldn’t accept it, I watched her and Wen Ling get together, not only did they not think about the future at that time, I also didn’t think about emotions at all Dedication is bound to reap a result.

Wen Ling and the family members expressed their feelings. At that moment, I really thought that they had finally achieved a positive result, but it was not the case. What really defeated them was actually the daily chores.There are more conflicts, and the relationship will gradually fade.

I was thinking wildly, thinking what should I say to Wen Ling when I get the chance, so that she won't coldly reject me.

I understand that in the relationship between her and Xi Xiang, it was Xi Xiang who took the first step, and it was Xi Xiang's fault. She could use this as a basis to hate Xi Xiang. I spend more time remembering the long-lost first love, but at the very least, I think I should let Wen Ling know, after all, Xi Xiang also has her own problems.

But once I really want me to tear Xi Xiang down without saying anything, it's her own fault, and I also have a headache, because Xi Xiang's behavior makes me ignorant of my conscience.

Xi Xiang originally planned to go to Japan to study directly after graduation. She fell in love with Japan because of animation. When she was in college, she also joined the animation club and published several works. When I saw her cos photo, I was really attracted I was amazed, she was a beauty in the first place.

However, things backfired. In her senior year, she was busy with her new love - live broadcasting, and didn't make enough preparations to study in Japan. As a matter of course - she was left behind.

Next, what her mother meant was to ask her to go to work in her father's company. Xi Xiang laughed disrespectfully to her mother, "Do you want me to watch him hook up with a vixen every day?"

Her mother was also very angry. After all, it was her daughter who was exposing her shortcomings. Her mother said: "Then if you have the ability, don't go to your father's company. You work hard on your own. Let me see what you can spell? Don't Think I don't know what you did in school! Your father is a bitch, and you are a bitch, so you know how to ruin yourself, you are really father and daughter."

Xi Xiang laughed even more. She held back the resentment that she didn't go to study in Japan. When her mother said harsh words, her mind also became cruel. Ten percent, she immediately packed her luggage and went out to live alone. She planned to make a living doing live broadcasting.

As for what happened later, I figured it out from scratch. Xi Xiang, who had nothing, couldn't resist the temptation of money, and gradually sank.And the connection between me and her has gradually faded, even to the point where we can't contact each other. If it weren't for the fact that Lu Qin who "cared" about her would talk about Xi Xiang's recent situation in my ear from time to time, I would be afraid. I want to forget that I still have such a friend.

We ran into Zhang Mianyang who was about to get into a Maserati downstairs in Wen Ling's newly rented apartment. He was not surprised when he saw us, but he was hit on the head by the roof of the car when he exited in a panic. He bared his teeth in a twisted grin.

Then, he raised his hands at us very sunnyly, like the Japanese who raised their hands and surrendered in an anti-Japanese drama.

us:"……"

"What a coincidence, I met you here."

He realized that his movements were wrong, so he quickly withdrew, but he hit the car door again. The pain made him almost faint. I saw him enduring it very unnaturally, and it seemed that it was really painful.

Wen Ling raised his head to look at the high floors, took a look around the well-greened neighborhood, nodded reservedly, and asked, "You live here too?"

"I'm just passing by." Zhang Mianyang said with a straight face.

Wen Ling: "...your car?"

Zhang Mianyang waved his hand quickly: "It's not mine, it's my boss's."

"Your boss?" Wen Leng looked up at the high floors again, with an unfathomable look.

Zhang Mianyang nodded affirmatively, "Well, yes, my boss's car."

We said goodbye to each other in a friendly manner. When we took the closed elevator up, Wen Ling crossed his arms and said leisurely: "Make it up, he will make it up. In this world, there are really few people like him who don't reveal their wealth. Xie, you found a treasure."

I pouted, "Maybe it's his boss's car, you haven't seen a kind of capitalist who refuses to let people go on weekends!"

Wen Ling sneered: "...It seems that you don't mind at all that he is really a driver! Although he is a driver now, the salary and benefits are pretty good, but can you be a little bit promising, find a lawyer or doctor or something, Why bother."

"I said, Wen Ling, why are you talking so meanly like Xi Xiang?" I couldn't bear it anymore, Wen Ling was born to have trouble with Zhang Mianyang.

"My appearance is not as mean as hers."

Fortunately, the elevator was at the end, otherwise I was really afraid that I would fight with her in a small space. Xie Zeyuan always abides by the principle, hangs around with women, only interacts with his body but not his heart, he is surprisingly quiet.

Wen Ling rented an apartment with one bedroom and one living room. It was just right for her to live alone, and the interior decorations were all new. Xie Zeyuan proudly introduced this [-]-square-meter apartment to us one by one, from interior design to color matching, I was very happy, I almost forgot, he is engaged in interior decoration design.

This is definitely his big hand, so I slowly pondered whether to attack Xie Zeyuan's design inspiration later, or boast about it reluctantly, after all, this is the place where Wen Ling wants to live.

However, Wen Ling and I were not particularly interested in listening to his talk. We idly looked around the house with our own ghosts, and we walked to the balcony by coincidence.

On the opposite side of the balcony is a large lake. In the cold weather, the lake water looks particularly dark. There are tall evergreen trees around the lake. Pedestrians walk along the lake in twos and threes. When the cold wind blows, their hair and clothes seem to be There was a rattling sound, and just looking at it, I felt a chill suddenly rushing up from the soles of my feet, and I shivered.

I turned my head and looked at Wen Ling who was a few steps away from me. She was in a trance, with a numb facial expression, like a sculpture engulfed in anger.

I know that I have to say something clearly today, I feel uncomfortable holding back, and I don't care whether Wen Ling will listen to me seriously, so I just said to myself: "You and Xi Xiang like each other, it's pretty cheap I don't understand, you obviously didn't take that step, so why did you come out to your family, or did you keep Xi Xiang as a shield, but in fact you have someone else you like?"

"I don't have anyone else I like. I just want to make it clear to my family when I come out. I don't want to follow the rules and live according to their ideas. You are the same. You seem to listen to your mother in everything, but in fact you are more rebellious than anyone else. .If you are really a good boy, you will probably hold a wedding with great fanfare like Xie Zeyuan, and according to your mother's picky eyes, will there be anyone you don't like?"

Wen Ling turned her head to look at me, and my gaze collided with the same place. It was not as embarrassing as before. I looked back at her and smiled softly, "You really hit the spot, without me. Yes, but then again, the ones my mother found for me are all things. Fortunately, you didn’t see them. Compared with Zhang Mianyang, oh no, it’s Xie Zeyuan, I don’t know how many levels are worse. It’s over, I might have to complain until this time next year. To tell you the truth, I’m the same as you, I don’t want to live a step-by-step life, but I’m not as brave as you to take out the cabinet as a token. If I Mom heard me admit that I like the same sex, my mother would definitely kill me, without even blinking, how can your father and mother be so open!"

To be honest, I have grown up so much, and I have made so many friends, if anyone understands me best, it can only be Wen Ling, this green plum who grew up with me since I was a child.

Although I knew she liked girls at the beginning, I was actually a little scared. Of course, it was not because I was afraid that she would like me. I felt that I was very ignorant at that time, liking someone had nothing to do with gender.Moreover, in one's life, it is so difficult to really meet someone you like.

For example, I have wasted almost half of my life, and I don't even have a person I really like.I have a colleague who just got a boyfriend and I accidentally walked around a museum that looks like a vegetable market, and he told me as a person who has changed his mind that people at my age really should have a boyfriend. Friends, don't think it's too troublesome to make a boyfriend, you'll know after trying.

But even if I try, it's not that I can't muster up the courage and work hard, but I think that love and love are nothing more than that.

These words are quite old-fashioned, but they really express my feelings.It's okay if it's a little bit of caution in adolescence, but now a vicissitudes of heart is moving again, maybe it will be sent to the hospital.

I feel that I am really past the age to fall in love. I used to look at the sweetness of Wen Ling and Xi Xiang. I don't know the reason, but I just ran away anyway. I always think that if I don't choose the right person, I won't be able to taste the sweetness of the so-called soaking in love, and I will make myself feel weird instead.

My mother met Uncle Xie, whether it was a disaster or a blessing, even if it has been more than ten years, I still can't tell.So, this kind of love and love is not something ordinary people like me can afford.

However, I can see that marriage must be based on a material foundation. As for love, everyone has a different opinion, and a wise man sees wisdom.

Wen Ling smiled mysteriously, and asked me: "I said I liked girls when I had a showdown with my father. Do you know who the girl I said I liked?"

"Xi Xiang. Otherwise, why would I say that you have cheated Xi Xiang for so many years. I'm sure your father and mother still hate Xi Xiang now."

I rolled my eyes nonchalantly, thanks to her being able to ask such a question, she pretended to be so mysterious.I was too embarrassed to answer for her, I didn't know her yet, I made it clear that I couldn't let go of someone, but I still had to pretend that I didn't care at all, but as soon as someone mentioned those two heart-wrenching words, She just showed her face!How old is she, and she is still so emotional, who doesn't know that she still has an old love for Xi Xiang.

"It's you."

Wen Ling finished speaking lightly, then gave me an unfathomable glance, then turned and entered the room, and after entering the room, he focused on watching Xie Zeyuan help her build a new house, with a satisfied expression as if standing on a field stalk to supervise the long-term workers in the old days Xie Zeyuan enjoyed it, either thinking about that place, or shaking his head at this place.

To be honest, for Xie Zeyuan's design, if it weren't for the sake of the relationship we have gotten along with for so many years, I would not dare to compliment Xie Zeyuan against my conscience!

"You two might as well get married." I leaned against the glass window frame of the balcony and hummed softly, "Looking at you two, don't mention how much you look like a young couple decorating a new house."

"Then what do you look like?" Wen Ling narrowed his eyes and asked me.

"Me, I'm like a light bulb."

The way Wen Ling looked at me made me feel uncomfortable, so I moved to another place with an excuse to have a shower. The shock she gave me just now hasn't slowed me down. I'll see her from now on, probably because I'm hiding from her. Just escape.

God knows how I have enjoyed myself like an idiot in hearing her parents' preoccupied eyes all these years. Thinking about it, I can't bear to look back on the past, it's so shameful.

I thought I was an outsider as innocent as a cabbage, but now it tells me that I still occupy an important position.

Just sitting among them without saying a word, I can blow up those two old parents whose hair is about to turn pale into two dazzling fireworks.

Xie Zeyuan knew that the atmosphere between the two of us was weird, coughed loudly, and ran to the bedroom, well, Wen Ling and I were left awkwardly facing each other in the living room.

Let’s talk about before, I can’t wait to find a chance to be alone with Wen Ling, let’s talk about it, talk about Xi Xiang as much as possible, so that I can always be immersed in the beautiful relationship between her and Xi Xiang, which is like first love I had a happy ending, after all, I was their number one CP fan back then.

However, because of the two words she said to me on the balcony a few minutes ago, I don't want to be alone with her in the room anymore. The pot was stuck on my head, like a golden hoop curse, and I would have a headache whenever I encountered the scriptures that popped out of Tang Seng's mouth, Wen Ling.

Wen Ling said: "Let's stay and have dinner together tonight, I'll ask Xie Zeyuan to take you back."

I was a little embarrassed, and resolutely refused: "No, it's not too far from my home anyway, I can take a taxi back by myself. If my mother doesn't see me when I go back, she will have to question me again."

"Okay then." Wen Leng spread her hands, frustrated and helpless, she must know my little Jiujiu.