My favorite ten years

2015年10月22日13:29阅读17万+

The next day, Zhiyu went out very early and didn't have breakfast.He wants to greet Si-hyun in the classroom.

He was the first one to arrive at the school, earlier than the old man who opened the door.

The first thing to do when entering the classroom is to sit in Shixian's seat and look at that unfamiliar desk, the blurred handwriting on the desk, and the name Shixian engraved.

In crooked 2 small characters, he wrote, Ah Shi.

"Ah... Shi..." Zhiyu read it out, and after reading it, he panicked as if some secret had been revealed, looked left and right, but forgot that he was the only one——

The birds haven't gotten up yet to look for worms to eat.

Time passed by every minute and every second, but Zhiyu was not in a hurry, because he had already waited for a winter vacation, and 2 hours was nothing to him.

Waiting became Zhiyu's habit in the long years to come.

Existing only for that person, habit.

Why do I say that, because the second when the bell rang in the morning class, the second when the classroom was full of people, and the second when everyone was happily sharing their vacation.

Shi Hyun, still didn't show up——

In that morning class, Zhiyu didn't listen to a single word or syllable.

When get out of class was over, Zhiyu immediately rushed to a group of boys, and those people were friends who often hang out with Shixian.

"Hey!" It was the first time for Zhiyu to talk to them, and she was a little embarrassed.

"Call me?" said one of the people who often appeared around Shi Xian.

"Hmm...that..." Zhiyu hesitated, "Do you know... where Shi Xian went?"

Those people looked at each other, "Shi Xian didn't come today?"

"I don't know!~ I didn't notice~"

Zhiyu stood there blankly, and asked without giving up, "What about the holiday? Have you contacted him during the holiday?"

The man looked at Zhiyu suspiciously, "You are very funny, since you appeared, that kid Shi Xian rarely hangs out with us, now you come to ask us, how could we know! You are very Annoying!"

"That's right! It was you, Shi Xiancai, who withdrew from our small group! How dare you ask us!"

"Get out! I've been displeased with you for a long time, bitch!

When one person becomes fierce, other people will stand up and help. Zhiyu hates people calling him a sissy, and he stares at those people angrily.

"Yo! What are you looking at! Who the hell are you staring at!" The man stood up and patted Zhiyu on the back of the head, "You try to stare at me again!?"

Zhiyu is a good boy, even if the other party scolds him, he can bear it.

But Zhiyu finally made a move, because one of them said.

"That kid Shi Xian is the same as you, who knows what he did to shame him to come to school!"

Before the man could finish speaking, a pencil case hit his head heavily.

Zhiyu also didn't expect that he would have such great strength, he just... couldn't stand others saying bad things about Shixian.

How could these people understand? Shi Hyun smiled harmlessly and handed himself 500 coins in the sun.At that time, I couldn't see the outline of the other person clearly, but I just vaguely remembered that he seemed to be a good person.

You guys don't understand at all, when everyone in the class misunderstood him, Shixian stood up and walked up to the podium indifferently, and took a picture of his handsome appearance with his mobile phone.

He stood beside him, with a slightly hunched back, all of which were beautiful scenery——

You guys don't even know that when I said I love seaweed soup, he was obviously allergic, so he ate it with me, and in the end his whole body was red and swollen, and he looked like a big sweet potato.

Also, you don't even know that when the first snow fell, the man was so excited that he jumped up and down happily.

and also….

And the way that person stretched out his arms towards him and hugged him.

Zhiyu clenched his fists unconsciously, and finally shouted loudly when the other party grabbed his collar——

"You people! You are still Shi Xian's friends!! You!! You are not worthy!!!——"

"Who the fuck is friends with him!!"

The classroom was almost in chaos, a bunch of boys fought, and Zhiyu, who had a bit of an advantage at the beginning, was soon at a disadvantage, and was finally surrounded by several people and kicked to the ground without being able to get up——

It wasn't until the teacher was called to the classroom by the class committee that the sudden group fight stopped——

When school was over, Ji Woo left first.

Although he was the first to strike, the teacher forgave Zhiyu first because he was beaten and injured much more seriously than the others.

"You go to the infirmary to have a look first, and then go home." The teacher said.

"teacher…"

"What's the matter?"

"You...you know why Shi Xianjin didn't come..."

"Oh ~ Shixian." The teacher thought for a while and said awkwardly, "He has dropped out of school. As his good friend, you don't know."

....

....

…….. leave school.

"I...I don't know." Only Zhiyu knows how bitter these four words are.

"Teacher, do you know why he suspended school..."

"I don't know about this. The other party's parents deliberately don't tell me, so I can't ask in detail."

The teacher left after saying that, leaving Zhiyu alone in the corridor in a daze.

Zhiyu stood for a long time before she realized that she calmly packed her schoolbag, left the school peacefully, and walked peacefully where the two of them used to walk happily every day.

until the fork.

Maybe people who passed by that fork that day will still remember that night, at the crossroads, there was a little boy squatting on the main road with injuries all over his body, crying very...very sad.

A kind person came up and asked, do you need help, kid?What’s wrong with you?

The boy just buried his head in his knees, and it took him a long time to say a word before he disappeared.

He disappeared.

He literally disappeared.

Shi Xian really disappeared, or it can be said that Shi Xian really existed?

Zhiyu is often so skeptical, because the classmates around him never mention him, without Shixian, they are still very happy, very happy, without anyone, they will not attract their attention.

The teacher no longer read Shi Hyun's name on the roll, and Shi Hyun's name tag was removed from the cabinet in the back row of the classroom.

The cold winter has passed, and it seems that Shi Xian has also passed.

Every day after school, Zhiyu would walk towards the opposite direction of his home at the fork in the road. He walked to a house to see if the lights were on. He would take a look every day before walking home. Every day, Both missed dinner.

But his efforts could not move anyone, let alone Shi Xian.

This person seems to have never existed at all, only, only Zhiyu still remembers him.

Whenever he wondered whether this person really existed, he would turn on his mobile phone to check the text message.

That funny text message sent by Shixian back then, looking at it is like seeing him

In this way, day after day passed.

Summer is over, and winter is coming again.

Zhiyu often stops and looks out the window in the middle of reviewing her homework.

"Son... come, warm up milk, let's drink some." It's another year's final exam, and my mother cares about Zhiyu's body and study in every possible way.

"mom--"

"What's the matter?~"

Zhiyu looked at the sky outside the window, "It hasn't snowed this year..."

Mom followed his gaze, "Yeah, this year is really strange. Where did the snow go? In previous years, it was very heavy."

Zhiyu smiled, picked up the milk and took a sip, "Maybe there is something wrong with Xue, so let's hide."

The mother smiled, unable to understand the other meanings in the son's words, "Don't worry, it's snowing! It's always going to fall~ You used to hate snowing very much, why have you missed it in the past two years?"

Zhiyu shook his head, "I can't say I miss it... I just waited for it."

My mother said worriedly, "It's going to be cold when it snows, so I'd better prepare your coat in advance!" Mom went to the closet and searched for a long time before finding a coat.

"This one is so old! It's time to throw it away...how about mom going to buy you a new one tomorrow..." Before the mother could finish her sentence, the coat in her hand was snatched away.

"Just this one, just this one..." Zhiyu repeated, smiling with some embarrassment, "I'm sorry...just this one..."

At the end of the first half of the second year of high school, few people in the class remembered that there was a boy who stayed in this class for a semester, and it was difficult to mention that boy's name.

Shi Xian.This is the name that Zhiyu silently recites in his heart every day.

He was forgotten by everyone.In just one year.

No matter how old the winter coat is, it can still be worn, and no matter how bad the function of the mobile phone with text messages is, it can still be used. Even the few memories are enough for Zhiyu to savor repeatedly.

However, during the one year of disappearance, Ji Woo couldn't clearly picture Shi Hyun's appearance in his mind.

He also couldn't remember Shi Xian's voice.

Is Si Hyun still tall now?Is he still the same as before, walking on tiptoe?

Where is he and how is he doing?

Zhiyu often thinks about these questions.Frequent.

Especially after Si Hyun disappeared——

Winter one year later.

Zhiyu was even afraid of passing the playground, the stall where Shi Xian loved to eat kimbap, and the fork on the way home from school.

These memories tortured Zhiyu every day.

Missing more and more.

Miss, want to split.

When the first snow fell that winter, Zhiyu was on the way home to help her mother buy good food.

A snowflake suddenly fell from the sky, Zhiyu watched it fall on the ground in a daze, and then slowly melted until it disappeared, then he raised his head, and saw the snowflakes falling profusely——

Zhiyu kept his head up, kept his head up, because he was afraid, he knew that when he turned his head, there would be no more time by his side.

But he is still not reconciled, no one will be reconciled.

So when his neck was sore, he finally turned his stiff neck to look at his right hand where Shi Xian was once.

At that moment, Zhiyu heard her heart, as if it jumped into her throat!

Because there was only one person standing beside him.That person looks familiar with his head up and his face sideways!

Zhiyu let go of the shopping bag in his hand, let the fruit inside roll out, and rolled along the street until it disappeared.

The man was pulled by Zhiyu's sleeve, he lowered his head in doubt, and looked at Zhiyu who was a head shorter than himself.

When that person turned around, Zhiyu's hand trembled uncontrollably and slowly let go of the hand that was holding the other person's sleeve.

"I'm sorry..." Zhiyu's throat seemed to be emptied, lack of oxygen, and he couldn't squeeze out a word for a long time——

"I got the wrong person... I'm sorry..."

The man smiled softly, "It's okay." After that, the man raised his head and continued to look at the sky, "Chuxue, it's really beautiful."

Zhiyu pulled up the corner of his mouth and showed an ugly smile, "Yes...Chuxue..."

The man looked at Zhiyu tenderly, "You don't wear much, aren't you cold? It's very cold in the first snow season."

Zhiyu sighed and shook his head.

"It's okay, anyway, the person who gave me warmth is gone—"

I used to think that with Shi Xian, even if I don't wear a coat to keep out the cold this winter, I won't be cold anymore.

The man thought about it thoughtfully, and said to Zhiyu.

"Seeing how cold you are, come on." He stretched out his arms, "Let me hug you, so we won't be cold—"

Zhiyu raised his head, looked at the man in surprise, and stopped for a long time to watch.

That's right, that's it, the winter of the second year Shi Hyun left.

All of Zhiyu’s memories, all the best memories, are here———

"Zhiyu! What are you thinking!~" Chengxiu hugged Zhiyu's thin body from behind, "I'm so obsessed with thinking, it's time to sleep."

Zhiyu nodded, and turned to look at Chengxiu, "I remember the first time we met."

Chengxiu laughed and sat beside Zhiyu, "We met for the first time? That was ten years ago, right? Winter?"

"Do you remember?" Zhiyu asked.

"Of course." Chengxiu nodded, his expression began to sink into memories, "I remember when I saw you that day, it was very cold, and you were carrying a bag in the winter and looking up at the sky foolishly. At that time, I thought , this child is so cute."

Zhiyu smiled, "Did you fall in love with me then?"

Chengxiu nodded, "I fell in love with you, so I deliberately stood beside you to attract your attention." Suddenly remembered something and added, "But at that time, did you think I was a strange brother! When I said When I wanted to hug you, you cried!! I was shocked!"

Zhiyu smiled and said, "Yes... because you are so...so scary, so I cried—"

I am sorry.

Because you are too much of a person.

That's why I cried.

You stretched out your arms and said to me, hug me, so that neither of us will be cold.I said to myself in my heart, yes, just give up, that person will not come back.

The first snow will still fall, time will pass, and even people who look like you will appear.

I can't be Cinderella who has been waiting for you.

"Go to sleep, honey." Chengxiu hugged Zhiyu, and kissed Zhiyu's forehead lightly, "Good night, I love you."

Zhiyu lay down next to Chengxiu, approached Chengxiu's arms for a while, and said softly, "Me too..."

Now that I think about it, I was wrong.

I shouldn't have given up on you in winter.

If I knew at that time, after winter, spring will come.

I must, must, must not get into the arms of another person.

But the spring in my memory has arrived mercilessly—————

In Seung Soo's words, after I met Ji Woo who was 23 when I was 19, I devoted myself to him.

But in Zhiyu's words, he was suddenly entangled by a shameless person.

The second time Chengxiu saw Zhiyu was when the snow was accumulating up to his calves, and it was halfway through winter.

It was afternoon, at one or two in the afternoon, Chengxiu passed a park on his way home from buying cigarettes at a convenience store.

This garden has been built here since Chengxiu was young, but Chengxiu never paid attention to it, and he didn't know if it was fate that day, the road construction made him have to walk through the park to go home.

In that park, I met Ji Woo.

At that time, there was light snow, and the snow on the ground was too thick, and every step was very difficult——

Zhiyu just huddled on the snow-covered slide, watching a group of junior high school kids having a snowball fight. The snowflakes fell on his long eyelashes, and he didn't blink his eyes until they were melted by his warmth.

At that time, Chengxiu was a little curious, what can those little kids in junior high school have to see?

But Zhiyu's expression still touched Chengxiu a little bit, that gentle, nostalgic eyes, full of longing.

Chengxiu stepped forward and said, "Hey, we met again, do you think this is Daxue's arrangement?"

Zhiyu raised his head, the flash in his eyes faded away slowly when he saw clearly who was coming, and he smiled.

"may be."

From then on, Chengxiu slowly approached Zhiyu.

Chengxiu is a very straightforward person, he told Zhiyu when he saw Zhiyu for the third time.

"Hey, do you know I'm gay?"

Zhiyu was frightened and dumb at the time, staring blankly at Chengxiu who couldn't say a word, Chengxiu just kept talking on her own.

"You have the same feeling as me. I like you, and you will like me in the future."

That was the first time Seung Soo confessed to Ji Woo.

At that time, Zhiyu just shook his head, and did not deny what Chengxiu said, that the two had the same attributes.

He just said, "Sorry, I was waiting for someone..."

Chengxiu said, "It's okay, I can wait for you too."

In this way, Chengxiu and Zhiyu became close friends, often together, chatting, shopping, and occasionally eating together, the relationship was very ordinary and comfortable.

Ji Woo waits for Si Hyun, Seung Soo waits for Ji Woo.

The only difference between the two is probably Chengxiu's confession from time to time.

Sometimes when talking about studying, Chengxiu would suddenly say, "This question should be x... By the way, you know I like you, right?"

Or when they were shopping, Chengxiu watched Jiyu try on clothes and said, "This dress really suits you, as expected of the person I like."

And also when eating. "I like the way you eat silently with your head down, it makes me want to protect you."

At this time, 2 years have passed since Si Hyun's sudden departure.

Chengxiu still confessed without getting tired, but Jiyu was already tired of waiting.

It was an extremely ordinary day, when Zhiyu left school, he saw Chengxiu standing at the school gate waiting for him.

Zhiyu ran up and asked, "Don't you have a debate today?"

Chengxiu nodded and said indifferently, "Yes."

"Then why did you come here?" Zhiyu frowned, he knew that Chengxiu's university was far, far away from his high school.

Chengxiu shrugged, "I just miss you." He smiled normally, as if he was just doing something as simple as eating and drinking.

"This is not good... Is there still time for the debate?"

"Then let's not go." Chengxiu snatched the schoolbag from Zhiyu's hand, "I want to take you home...!"

On that day, Zhiyu suggested that the two of them go for a walk on the Han River.

Chengxiu didn't object, because Chengxiu had never objected to any of Jiyu's proposals.

When they reached the Han River, Ji Woo grabbed Seung Soo.

"Do you want to hear...about the person I like...?" Zhiyu asked after hesitating for a long time.

Chengxiu never thought that Zhiyu was willing to tell himself, because in his eyes, Zhiyu might never want to mention that person to him in his life, and that person was his exclusive memory. Chengxiu knew that Zhiyu finally I saw my own efforts.

Zhiyu said a lot that day, adding up to more than what they have said in all their acquaintances.

Starting from Ji Woo's first day of high school enrollment, when talking about Si Hyun, Ji Woo always showed a happy expression first and then became lonely again.

He tells all about them, including Si-hyun's inexplicable leaving without saying goodbye.

During this process, Chengxiu didn't say a word, just sat there quietly and listened.

"I'm done." Zhiyu patted his thigh and stood up from the steps.

"Hmm..." Chengxiu also stood up.

"Chengxiu, do you know?"

"Huh? What?"

"We've known each other for almost two years."

"Oh, yes, time flies."

"Do you know how many times you have confessed to me in the past two years?" Zhiyu raised her head and looked at Chengxiu seriously.

Chengxiu thought for a while, "50? 100? 200? Haha, I say it almost once or twice a day, are you bored?~"

Zhiyu shook his head, "A total of 364 times, it is true that I have been immune."

Chengxiu smiled, "I understand, I never thought of replacing the person in your heart, I just wanted to be with you, and let you know that you are not alone. You have me."

Zhiyu didn't speak, and took out his dilapidated mobile phone from his pocket, "Do you know... how important this mobile phone is to me?"

Chengxiu nodded, "Is his number stored in it?"

Zhiyu turned on the phone and clicked into the inbox. "Every time you confess to me, I will read the text message he sent me, and recall the feeling of my heartbeat for the first time..." Zhiyu stared at the small words on the screen tenderly, "This text message, I have already I've watched it many, many times...every time I watch it, every time I think of my feelings for that person, I feel more...I'm sorry for you..."

Chengxiu shook her head, "I'm sorry for what you say, idiot. You don't need to take my feelings into account, time will testify to my feelings."

"What do you like about me? What exactly do you like about me?"

Chengxiu thought for a while, "I don't know either." He stretched out a hand to touch Zhiyu's head, "I also often think, maybe just keep confessing, talking and talking, I can't leave you Alright."

Zhiyu closed the phone and put it into Chengxiu's palm, and said to him solemnly, "You help me throw it away, throw it away, maybe my relationship can be put down from now on." .”

After hearing Zhiyu's words, Chengxiu was stunned, staring at the mobile phone in his hand at a loss, he never thought that one day Zhiyu would give himself the right to choose his feelings.Such Zhiyu made him feel at a loss.

You know, Seung Soo is used to that, Ji Woo who keeps rejecting her

"Take it back... There is no need to throw it away..." Chengxiu put the phone into Zhiyu's pocket, "Even if you never forget it, I am willing to stay with you all the time, so you don't have to worry about it."

Zhiyu stubbornly shook his head and took out the phone from his pocket again, "I'm tired of hurting you..." After finishing speaking, he slammed the phone out——!

The mobile phone turned into a beautiful parabola and fell into the Han River with a bang.

At that second, Chengxiu jumped down without even thinking... For him, Zhiyu's guilt towards him was not the feeling he wanted.

What he was waiting for was Zhiyu's willingness.It is the love after being influenced by oneself.

So he jumps, he jumps into the Han River looking for the old battered phone.

Under the deep water, it was the first time he heard Zhiyu calling his name, and it was so heart-piercing. At that time, Chengxiu thought, it's okay, he at least cares about himself.Isn't that great?

So when Chengxiu swam out of the water, he raised his mobile phone and waved it happily at Zhiyu on the shore, he was really happy from the bottom of his heart.

What you like, I like too.

Because I like you enough.

That day, when Chengxiu climbed onto the bank wet, Jiyu threw herself into her arms and cried loudly.

He said, "Confess your confession....It's 365 times again...Your confession can be made up for a year...Confess it..."

Chengxiu pulled Zhiyu out of her arms, solemnly put the water-damaged mobile phone into Zhiyu's palm, and held it tightly.

"I don't know if it can be repaired. You should keep what is precious to you, idiot. In such a cold day, you won't let me jump the Han River again, right?" Chengxiu flicked her bangs, "Oh , That’s right. Also, let’s be together, I’m willing to wait for him with you—”

That's when Ji Woo finally nodded to Seung Soo.

Yes, let's be together.Let me tell you with actions that I like you no less than you like him.

Can you feel it?

The two got together naturally, without any earth-shattering confessions, without any vigorous stories, just being together so plainly, no different from when they were friends.

But Ji Woo locked the repaired phone in a drawer and lost the key to the drawer in order to get along with Seung Soo wholeheartedly.

He didn't wait for Shixian anymore, even if he didn't completely forget Shixian, he didn't wait anymore.

The two date like ordinary young couples, go to the movies together, you grab my food when eating, I will push you what I don’t like, and I will also worry about whether there is not enough pocket money for this month, and skip classes Being punished for seeing only one side of each other, simple and happy.

After every date, Seung Soo will also send Ji Woo to the door.

But every time, Zhiyu is obsessed with seeing Chengxiu leave before going upstairs, so obsessed to a morbid state.

Only this one thing, Zhiyu didn't tell Chengxiu.

That is, he once made a promise with Shixian that if he opened the curtain, he would wait for Jiyu below.

So Zhiyu doesn't want to break the last and only promise, he will always keep the place under the window for Shixian.

Spring is here, and Zhiyu has entered the second half of the third year of high school.

If I remember correctly, it might be the first day of school.

"Son, do you still remember the mail room before our building?"

"Remember!"

"We changed the address of the mailroom, and there are probably some old letters left there, please go back and help me bring them back!"

"Yeah! I know~ I'm going out~" Zhiyu hurried out with a piece of bread in his mouth. When he ran downstairs, he deliberately ran to the former basement mailroom, and took all the letters in the old mailbox. Stuffed it into his schoolbag, and then ran towards the school.

After arriving at school, Zhiyu casually stuffed them into the table hole when she was packing her schoolbags, thinking of taking them back after school——

But he forgot, those letters just lay silently in the hole of his table for a whole week.

Zhiyu didn't remember until one day when her mother asked at the dinner table.

Early the next morning, when the morning class was halfway through, Zhiyu finally took the initiative to remember them, and he stretched out his hand to take the letters out of the hole in the table.

Roughly, there are about 7 or 8 letters.

There are reminders from the bank, property insurance policies from the community, and letters from my grandmother.

Nothing but insignificant letters—

However, two of them were sent to him, which surprised Zhiyu.

The teacher was lecturing seriously on the podium, and Zhiyu quietly opened one of them, because that one seemed to be quite old.

The familiar handwriting on the letter hurt Zhiyu's eyes.

The letter reads——