better hold on to that past

In the afternoon, there were not many people in the gym, so at a glance, he found Luo Ran who was sweating profusely on the treadmill.

Youyuan walked over, turned on a treadmill next to him, slowed down, and started walking on it.

"Can you calm down?" Looking at Luo Ran, he asked worriedly.

These days, Luo Ran is either in a daze in the small park near Youyuan's new store, and Youyuan knows that she is thinking of Huaijin.Or it's just soaking here for a long time, exercising like crazy, and venting.Although it is much better than going to a bar to get drunk to vent, it should be moderate and not excessive.

Since her suspension, people have been silent a lot, especially two weeks ago, Huai Jin proposed to her to break up.After a few days of suffering as if I had died, I started to daze and exercise in the small park.

Luo Ran's figure was already relatively slender. During this period of time, she didn't eat much, but she exercised greatly, which made her even thinner, almost morbidly thin.His face was also pale, and he looked haggard.

"I'm calm." There was no wave in the voice except for the panting of movement.

"She's getting married tomorrow..."

Finally, this sentence played a role, she stopped the treadmill, turned around and did sit-ups again.Said in a still calm voice: "We have already broken up."

"But you still love her." She stopped the treadmill and followed.

"It's a burden to her."

"Do you hate her..."

Luo Ran didn't speak any more, not knowing how to answer this question.

"Although it is inappropriate to mention this now, but...do you remember our bet?"

Of course Luo Ran remembered that it was the night when she and Huai Jin made love, with the "help" of Youyuan.The two bet on whether Huai Jin likes Luo Ran.In the end, Youyuan won, and the bet was to be responsive to the other party.

"Remember, what do you want to do?" Luo Ran also felt that it was ironic to mention this now, but still wondered why Youyuan mentioned it.

"I want you to ruin her wedding." You Yuan said calmly, as if talking about what to eat tonight.She felt that this was the dark side of her heart, and it was what Luo Ran should do. After all, Xiao Huaijin hurt Luo Ran first.

"Haha, how old are you?" Luo Ran couldn't help laughing, how could Youyuan have such naive thoughts?

"Don't you hate her? I can feel that you hate her, so since she hurt you first, why can't you be more ruthless? This is what she owes you. "

"What about after it's ruined? So what? She changed her mind? Besides, she doesn't owe me anything, she just chose what she wanted, and it's always been my hindsight. If I did that, the only result would be We've become enemies completely, and it's better to get together and get away together." The tone was very cold, and after saying this, he continued to do sit-ups.She tried her best to restrain her emotions. Although she felt crazy and uncomfortable in her heart, she still didn't want to act so childish and without dignity.

"But…"

"Except for this, I can't promise you, you can say anything else." Interrupting what Youyuan wanted to say, he said calmly.

"I'm afraid you'll break your promise if you say anything." He said helplessly.

"Hehe, well, I broke my promise, and I will make up for it when I have a chance in the future. Let's have a drink in the evening, and get drunk at the end. After tonight, it will be completely over. Call Mu Qing, let's... oh, yes, She is tomorrow's bridesmaid, and she should be busy with various matters tomorrow, so forget it, it's just the two of us." After speaking, she stood up and walked towards the bathroom.

Looking at Luo Ran's thin back, You Yuan sighed, feeling very helpless.

In the evening, the two of them came to a very stylish bar. To be precise, it should be called Qing Bar, because it was quite different from the bar except for the wine.There is no pungent smell of tobacco and alcohol, no crowd dancing wildly, and no deafening music.Some are just office workers who come here after work to relax, have a few drinks and chat.

In order to attract customers, there is actually a big screen playing videos inside. It was a coincidence that the two of them came here, and a movie happened to be playing today. Luo Ran was very impressed with this movie, "Journey to the West: Conquering the Demons".I couldn't help but think of the scene of the two watching this movie together during the Chinese New Year. At that time, Huaijin's heart was full of herself...

I wanted to change to another place. Where can I not drink?But Ren has already come in, and Youyuan is still beside him, and it's not easy to ask for a change of place for such a hypocritical thing, so he had to find a place to sit down.

Listening to the familiar voice in the movie, Luo Ran felt that the wine in the glass was extremely bitter, the kind of bitterness spreading from the heart.

Youyuan watched the movie with great interest, and didn't notice anything unusual about the people around him.

Finally, under Luo Ran's reluctance and fear, the movie played the sentence: Only when there has been pain, will all sentient beings know the pain.Have attachments, let go of attachments.There has been concern, there is no concern.

Luo Ran still remembered that after the movie ended, Huai Jin was suddenly in a bad mood.She also laughed that Huaijin would be in a bad mood watching such comedies, and Huaijin said that it was because of this sentence that she felt a little uncomfortable.What she said back then still echoed in my ears...

……

"If you have experienced pain, you will know the suffering of all beings. If you have been attached, let go of the attachment. If you have been concerned, you will not be concerned. If you have such a deep obsession, can you really let it go? Luo Ran... I don't know what's wrong... The happier we are, the more uneasy I feel...I'm so afraid...afraid that you will become my past..."

……

Her lonely eyebrows came to mind, her love for herself made her worry about gains and losses, and the heavy feelings in her eyes were so real...

But when the screen changed, it came to the day when she proposed to break up, and that resolute look hurt Luo Ran's heart...

……

"I said I loved you, and my feelings for you were true back then. But I loved you after all. Luo Ran, you can't give me the stability I want now."

……

She didn't know if Huai Jin could let go of that obsession, but she couldn't let go...

Before he knew it, his face was icy cold, and he subconsciously called out the haunted name: "Huaijin..."

Youyuan heard Luo Ran speak, turned around, and saw this scene.Her eyes were fixed on the screen, but it didn't look like she was watching a movie.The painful expression made people feel distressed, but what made people feel more distressed was the wet tears on her face and the tears that kept dripping from her chin.

Youyuan didn't speak, just quietly accompanied her, watching her pour the wine into her mouth frantically.While the two were drinking, an unexpected person suddenly appeared in sight.

"Luo Ran? You..." Is Luo Ran crying...

"Hmm...Fang Rou?" Luo Ran looked at the person carefully with his hazy eyes, a little surprised.

"Hehe, what a coincidence, you are here, er... and this lady... We should have met once, but I don't know your name." After greeting, he said to Youyuan next to him, and extended a friendly shot.The two met once at the bar, but the situation was too chaotic that day, so they didn't have time to get to know each other.

"Hello, my name is You Yuan, Luo Ran's friend." He generously extended his hand and shook hands with Fang Rou.

"Why just the two of you? Where are Mu Qing and Huai Jin? Do you mind if I sit down and have a drink? Hehe..." Fang Rou, who didn't know what happened next, asked casually, and sat down on the sofa generously.

Youyuan couldn't say much, so he simply shut up.And Luo Ran's tear-wet face also looked very strange.In short, Fang Rou felt very strange at this moment, as if she asked a question that shouldn't be asked, but it was not a private question...

"She's busy, so she can't come. Because...she's getting married tomorrow." Luo Ran didn't hide it from Fang Rou, and said it directly.

"Married?!" Fang Rou's eyes widened, she was so surprised that she almost dropped the wine glass in her hand. "Then...then...you..." His tone was a bit surprised, and he didn't know what to say for a while.In Fang Rou's cognition, the contrast is quite big. The scene where Luo Ran introduced herself as Huai Jin's girlfriend in a high-profile way at the hotel entrance that day is still vivid in my memory.

"We broke up." The admission was straightforward.

"But... why? I think she... loves you very much..." After all, she was someone she liked before, so it was unnatural when she said this.But she still couldn't resist the doubts in her heart, she always felt that this matter was not easy, and she had some understanding of Huai Jin after being a classmate with Huai Jin for several years, Fang Rou could tell that Huai Jin was serious about Luo Ran.

"Hehe, there is no particular reason. She wants to be stable and marry a man like a normal person..." The tone was extremely bitter.

"That man... is Chu Xi?" Fang Rou's breathing was a little short, and after listening to Luo Ran's words, she began to slowly confirm some very bad things.

"How do you know?!" Luo Ran's wine suddenly sobered up a lot, and he didn't understand how she, who had faded out of Huaijin's life circle for a long time, would know this.