better hold on to that past

"Here, I'll give it back to you. That gun is in the bedside table." After speaking, he took off the necklace inlaid with bullets around his neck, put it on the table, and left the house.

Closing the door, tears immediately burst into tears.Covering her mouth and trying not to make a sound, she quickly walked down the stairs, and when she got out of the door, she saw Chu Xi's car parked there.

"I know you don't want to see me, but I saw Luo Ran by the window." Seeing Xiao Huaijin's sad appearance, there was no disturbance in his heart, and he just said indifferently.

Resisting not to look back at the window on the seventh floor, she got into Chu Xi's car, and then left without a trace.

Luo Ran closed her eyes, tears still falling like beads with a broken thread.Watching her go downstairs, she got into Chu Xi's car waiting there after exiting the door.

Even so, she still couldn't bear to blame Huaijin. Her Huaijin did nothing wrong, but chose the life she wanted and the person she wanted, but it wasn't herself.

"Stop the car." He said to Chu Xi as soon as he left the gate of the community.

Chu Xi didn't make things difficult for Xiao Huaijin either, all he wanted was Luo Ran's pain.He stopped the car, let her out, and the car disappeared into the night.

Although it is already spring, the night is still very cold.But Xiao Huaijin didn't care at all, she wished that the freezing temperature would freeze herself to death.After wandering outside like a ghost for an hour, I walked home.

The house is very quiet, it seems that Luo Ran has already left.Looking around at this house, looking at this house where two people once lived together, at this moment there is only trace of myself here.Except for the gun and the necklace on the table, Luo Ran took everything away.Even the toothbrush and toiletries in the bathroom are only my own.

Going back to the living room, he picked up the necklace on the table, resisted the urge to put it on again, put it away very preciously, put it together with the gun, and put it back in the bedside table.

Desperately walking around the house, he came to the study.Seeing the guitar that sang the love song for Luo Ran, tears flowed down again. He carefully picked up the guitar, and gently touched the surrounding area of ​​the imprint.

It was a lip print.Obviously it was printed by Luo Ran just now, and the imprint is very bright red.Huai Jin remembered that Luo Ran didn't like makeup, and occasionally put on light makeup. After all, Luo Ran was so beautiful without makeup.But this lip print is so eye-catching, Huai Jin can imagine that Luo Ran wants to tell herself her deep love.

Thinking of this, she laughed again. Luo Ran always joked that she was like a father in her bones, romantic and artistic, and now she also used such a romantic and artistic way to tell herself her love for herself.

In this way, Xiao Huaijin was like a lunatic, crying and laughing for a while, and finally no longer suppressed, crying and muttering: "Ran Ran... Woo... Ran Ran..."

"I love you...I love you...I'm sorry..."

"I haven't had time to tell you, I've only sung for you... and I've only sung love songs for you..."

"Ranran... I didn't tell you either. My mother has let go and refused so aggressively. My dad told me this, but I dare not let him tell you..."

"I don't want to live a stable life at all, I just want to lose control for you for the rest of my life..."

"Ran Ran...Ran Ran..."

In the end, holding that guitar, shed tears all night in the corner of the study.

The next day, I asked the hospital for a week's leave. I really couldn't go to work in this state. The hospital leader didn't know much about what happened yesterday, but they were very reasonable and allowed me to leave.In addition, I didn't want to face Chu Xi's persecution from time to time, so I went back to my parents' house.

After arriving home, the parents made up their minds and didn't say anything, they only said to have a good rest.Presumably Xiao Nanju had done a lot of work in front of Ye Yajun, it was rare for his mother not to embarrass herself.Seeing their daughter looking like a walking dead, the husband and wife were very distressed, but there was nothing they could do.Although the daughter is about to get married according to her wish, the person she is marrying is not a good man.But the current situation is powerless to resist, it will only be more tragic.

Only a few days later, Luo Ran appeared unexpectedly.Thinking about it, how could she give up so easily.

He knocked on the door excitedly, thinking of all the bad situations he could think of.Maybe Ye Yajun doesn't want to see her, but Huaijin still wants to give up.But no matter what, she can't give up!Ever since she left that night, she regretted it and began to miss Huai Jin crazily.Only then did I realize that nothing was more important than her.For her, Luo Ran would rather not have anything.

"What to do...she..." Ye Yajun stood at the door, a little at a loss.Neither is it open, nor is it not open.

"Xiao Jin... Luo Ran, she..." Xiao Nanju stood at the door of his daughter's room, looking at his daughter with an indifferent face.

"Let her come to my room." He said softly.

Luo Ran, I'm sorry.What I owe you, if I have the honor to make it up to you in my lifetime, I am willing to give you my life.

"Huaijin! Come out! Let's have a good talk! I..." Luo Ran, who was still knocking on the door, shouted, just when she felt that she should not give up even if she was rejected, the door opened.The person who opened the door was Ye Yajun who made Luo Ran nervous.

"A...Auntie...I..." Luo Ran was still very afraid of Ye Yajun.

"Go, she's in the room." Luo Ran was a little surprised by the aunt's release, but at this moment, she couldn't care less, and walked into her room quickly.

Xiao Nanju sighed, and pulled Ye Yajun upstairs.

Carefully closing the door, she sat beside Huaijin's bed.

"Huaijin...I'm sorry...I shouldn't just walk away that day..." The tone of the apology was very sincere.

Listening to her apology, Xiao Huaijin felt even more uncomfortable.Obviously she did nothing wrong... But at this time, she can't be soft-hearted.

"What else are you doing here?"

The other party's alienated tone instantly hurt Luo Ran's heart.But she didn't back down, and said seriously: "Huaijin... Give us another chance, okay? The love you gave me is clearly in my mind... When we first met, your awkwardness, and later mine The detours that our identities lead us to take. And the sweetness and happiness after we were together, it is clear that you love me so much, now...do you really not love me..."

"Luo Ran, don't be immersed in the past. People have to look forward, don't they? After all, we will live with other people. How will we face our future life?"

"I...I promise not to appear by your side in public. I am also applying for resignation these days, Huaijin...I will try my best to do what you want, okay?" As she spoke, her eyes were red again. Knowing that such lowliness would embarrass Huaijin, but she really loved Huaijin, so much that she could let go of her dignity and have no self.

Listening to her humbly pleading, Xiao Huaijin felt that she was being delayed.The sharp sword ruthlessly destroyed his last warmth.Then, he put a piece of paper on the pillow behind him in front of Luo Ran.

Luo Ran picked up the piece of paper suspiciously, it was a test sheet, even though it was full of technical terms, Luo Ran could still tell that it was a test sheet for pregnancy test.

The heartbeat seemed to have stopped, and the eyes couldn't help looking down, and the word "pregnant" came into view.Not only dazzling, but also piercing his heart, Luo Ran felt that his heart was split, shattered, and turned into ashes in an instant...

The hands spread out uncontrollably, and the test sheet fell to the ground lightly like a feather.

"The child belongs to Chu Xi." Since he had already been beaten, Luo Ran completely gave up.

"You..." There was nowhere to hide the trembling in her voice.

"I just want to be stable and live a normal life." I said this reason again.

"Why did you do this?! Xiao Huaijin!!! Why didn't you tell me earlier that you wanted to live with that man?!" Eyes were red, and the eyes that looked at Huaijin were so painful that they couldn't help themselves.The tone was a little aggressive due to excitement.

"I just found out in the past few days. It's not too late to tell you now." The tone remained cold.

"Hehe, it's not too late!! Well, it's not too late!! These days, I've been sleepless, people and ghosts, all eyes are on you! I regret leaving like that that day. Repeatedly tell myself that you are just a little tired, It turns out... I am too self-indulgent!" Tears fell, and my eyes were fixed on the other party's calm face.

"I'm sorry. I really don't deserve this from you."

"It's not worth it...hehe, I've been thinking about our future day and night, so...you've given up a long time ago...planning your future in the arms of another man..." The tone was never serious After all the despair, at this moment, she really believed it.If you believe in Huai Jin's words, if you believe that she really wants to give up, if you believe that she really doesn't love her anymore.

Looking desperately at the silent Huai Jin, Luo Ran no longer forced her, slowly raised his hand to wipe away the tears on his face, slightly parted his lips, and said something that directly sentenced Huai Jin to death.

"Xiao Huaijin, just pretend... I've never loved you." Then she stood up and left without hesitation in despair.

Xiao Huaijin felt as if her throat was tightly strangled and she couldn't breathe.She felt that her heart was no longer beating, and the back of Luo Ran leaving in despair took away her soul and the meaning of living.

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Xiao Huaijin, just pretend... I never loved you.

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The sentence that sentenced him to death filled his brain over and over again, so cold, so desperate...

"Ranran...Ranran..." I closed my eyes and cried bitterly. The tears I shed since I was a child were not as many as those in the past few days.She felt that her eyes were going to be blind, and there was no difference. Luo Ran left, and everything didn't matter.

Not long after, she regretted it. Luo Ran loves herself so much, what right does she have to hurt her like this? !The brain cannot think, nor can it make rational choices.After rushing out of bed, she didn't have time to put on her shoes, she wanted to catch up with Luo Ran and tell her everything!She wants to say sorry to her!Tell her how much you love her! !

"Luo Ran!! Luo Ran!!!" She was terrified in her heart, and felt that if she didn't catch up with Luo Ran this time, she would really lose her completely!

It's just that he was hugged by Xiao Nanju as soon as he went out, before reaching the gate.

"Xiao Jin!! Calm down! Just tell her like this, what will she do!! She is not a policeman now, alone and helpless! You will kill her!!" Shouted to the crazy daughter.

"Dad... I love her... woo... I really love her..." Weeping heartbreakingly, his hands were tightly clutching Xiao Nanju's clothes because of his emotions, and the distorted expression on his face made people feel the pain. Distressed.

"I know...I know..." He came to the living room with his already limp daughter in his arms, sat on the sofa, hugged her tightly with red eyes, and said nothing.

"Dad...why...why do we have to bear this...would she be overwhelmed...I hate myself so much..." In Xiao Nanju's arms, wept so desperately.

"She won't, Xiao Jin..." Xiao Nanju's tears rolled in his eyes, almost falling down.As early as when my daughter told herself, she thought about what would happen today.But watching today's scene with his own eyes, he still couldn't restrain his sadness.If I am like this, how can the two children bear it...

Standing at the stairway in the dark, Ye Yajun looked at the scene in the living room and couldn't help crying.After I went to my daughter that time and came back, I always felt that something was wrong. During the Chinese New Year, I was so sure that I would recognize Luo Ran for the rest of my life. Why did she suddenly say that she wanted to marry Chu Xi in just one or two months?After repeatedly asking Xiao Nanju, he finally told the truth under the condition that he repeatedly promised not to disclose it to the outside world.

She has thought a lot these days, but she is still unwilling to accept the matter of her daughter and Luo Ran from the bottom of her heart. Now that she sees her daughter in such pain, how can a mother not feel distressed.Seeing that Xiao Nanju was accompanying her daughter well, she wiped the tears from her face and went upstairs.

The author has something to say:

Since you are torturing, you must first abuse yourself. I am a little depressed writing this... It is said that the authorities are fans, but Luo Ran really believes it.Facing the person you love deeply, there is no way to keep calm and rational... It’s fine to abuse up to this point, if the abuse is too irreparable, it will hurt feelings...

Well, if there is damage, it can be regarded as burning to the boiling point. The following plot...is still exciting (this person is still so shameless)...

In addition, the update of the article is quite regular, there are no accidents, two chapters a day, after all, I am still writing...except for the delay in the publication of the Jinjiang trial, it is so annoying... I hope that will not happen again...