Tibetan love

Later, I often dreamed about Zhu Yujie and our days at school.Once even dreamed of waking him up at his funeral.I would take out that watch and look at it from time to time. I suddenly felt very sad because I found that there were very few things left with him. South Korea asked others to take a few group photos for us.Memories with him will play in my mind like a movie.The memory is so clear, I can even think of the little mole on the left side of his nose.Sometimes I even wonder if he is not dead, if he is hiding because of something, just like in novels and TV dramas, the protagonist who has been dead for many years suddenly comes back to find his lover.But I am not the protagonist, nor am I his lover.The difference between reality and TV dramas is that the ending screenwriters of TV dramas can forcibly reverse the original tragic ending into comedy, but in reality there are no screenwriters.The tragedy that was doomed from the beginning cannot be changed.

My family members would also urge me to find a girlfriend as soon as possible, and would send me photos to ask how this girl is and how is that girl.I rejected them all.I have already delayed a child, how can I harm other girls again?Colleagues in the unit often ask me why I don't find a girlfriend.Some people joked that my vision is too high, I can only laugh it off.Although I haven't come out with my family yet, I know that I will never marry a girl in my life.And now, I have been single, just because the hurdle in my heart has not passed.

That day, I received a call, and the person on the other end of the phone asked me if I was Xu Jiayi.It was a woman's voice, which seemed to be heard somewhere.I said I am, who are you?She said she was Zhu Yujie's wife, do you still remember her?

I said I know.

She paused for a long time, and suddenly burst into tears on the phone.I didn't speak, and waited quietly until her crying gradually died down.She told me she was really upset, but didn't know who to tell.She said that she never expected this to happen, and the blow was too great for her.She can't talk to her family, can't make them worry.

"Are you on good terms with Yujie?" I remember she asked me that.

I said yes.

She said yes, she found a sketch in the study today, it should be Yu Jie, because she saw my signature on the back.

I said it was a birthday present to him on his birthday in college.

Then she told me that Yu Jie would often tell him that he had a good buddy in college. Although they were not from the same major or the same college, they still knew each other.She said that he never told her your name, but when she saw the painting, she knew that the person Yu Jie was talking about was me.

Later, I don't remember what we talked about, I just remember that my heart suddenly hurt the moment I hung up the phone.I almost forgot the existence of that painting, but when I think about it now, the memories of the past come to my mind.I really wanted to ask her if she could give me the painting too, but I held back.If this painting can give her a thought, why should I deprive her of the right to commemorate it.

Later, I went to the university I read.The school has been newly renovated. A small fountain was newly built next to the No. 51 dormitory building, and a small fish pond was newly built next to the No. 26 building, where a few small goldfish were placed.I stood in front of the door of Building 26, recalling the time when I was waiting for him here.Those things seem to have happened yesterday, so clear, but everything has changed.That unsmiling boy who walks with a straight back is really not coming back.

That day, I dreamed of Zhu Yujie again.In the dream, he was still in a white shirt and black suit, walking towards me with a box.He smiled at me and said, "Xu Jiayi, I want to do a magic trick for you!"

I was awakened suddenly, and after waking up, this dream has been lingering in my mind.The room was dark and dark, and I was the only one on the huge double bed, and I couldn't sleep.

I turned on the light and took out the box, where the contents were left untouched.Then, I took out the watch that could no longer move, stroked it, and stared at it for a long, long time.During this time, I thought more than once, if I had the courage to tell him at that time, what would happen to us?It's just a pity that I will never know the answer to this.

I don't know why I thought of Peng Qian and Zhang Yue.Peng Xi knew that I liked Zhu Yujie, but she still told me that she liked me; Zhang Yue too, when he told me that I called that name in my sleep, he said he knew I didn't love him, but he still told me before leaving I he loves me.Thinking about myself, I suddenly felt that I was really useless.Why not, why not tell him?So what if I refuse?So what if he looks down on me?At least I tried my best.And now, even though I really wanted to tell him, he's gone.This relationship has never begun, and I have already lost a mess.

Suddenly, my heart hurts so badly.I got it, tears flowed down uncontrollably, sobbing at first, and finally I couldn't help it, crying loudly.

The moment I opened the door, I saw her surprised look, and I greeted her with a smile: "Hi, do you still know me?"

"You are Xu Jiayi." She smiled at me and invited me in.

"Sorry, I came here without notifying you, sorry to bother you."

She smiled and said, "I'm glad you can come here."

I don't know what to say, and I don't know why I went to his house. I dreamed about Zhu Yujie a few days ago. The dream was too real, so the moment I woke up, I was really disappointed.

She seemed to be cleaning the house, I asked her: "Is it cleaning?"

She shook her head, and started to choke up as she spoke: "I'm just sorting out some of Yujie's things, and put them away for him."

I nodded, "Let me tidy up for you." She agreed, saying that I am really sorry, and I will ask you to tidy up things for me as soon as you come.

I said I should, because I came over without saying hello to you.

"Bump!" There was a loud sound, I accidentally bumped into the table without paying attention, and the things on the table fell out, hitting a small box on the ground, and the lid of the box was knocked off by me.

"Sorry." I apologized to her, then picked up the things on the ground.Inadvertently glanced at a box in the box, which looked familiar.I took out the box, picked up the box with trembling hands, opened it, and put two rings there, very new and new.

"Hey, why haven't I seen this ring before!" She saw it and wondered.

I didn't answer, and continued to look at the contents of the box, two boxes of chocolates that were fading.There are also a few photos of me and him taking photos together. Unexpectedly, he also developed the photos taken on the mobile phone.

With trembling hands, I took out the two chocolate boxes, and with a "boom", something fell out.I picked it up and saw that my eyes began to blur, and I bit my lips tightly to prevent myself from making a sound.

What fell out was a lock with a key on it. It was the lock we bought in Korea at the time, but I remember it clearly at the time. I locked it on the love lock wall. How could it be here?I hadn't read what he wrote before.But now, I clearly see that my name is written on one side of the lock, and his name is written on the other side of the lock. There is an English word written under his and my names, and the word is forever.

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