Tibetan love

There is definitely a different mood when there is someone by my side than when I am alone. I can also understand that Wang Ziteng showed affection by my side almost every day at night.

The moment I picked up Wang Ziteng's phone, I almost lost my hearing.He excitedly told me that he was going to get married, he told me how he proposed, and how he and she agreed; he told me that they had already met their parents and they were going to get a marriage certificate soon.

I sincerely bless him, I said: "I really envy you!"

On the other end of the phone, he smiled embarrassedly and said, "Why are you envious! You have such good conditions, are you afraid you won't be able to find them?"

I said to borrow your good words.

Wang Ziteng told me that he wanted me to be his best man.I said no problem.

Then he said: "You and I were the best man on the day of Yujie's wedding, but you didn't come that day... You have to come to my wedding this time anyway."

On the day of Wang Ziteng's wedding, I originally wanted to bring Zhang Yue with me, but unfortunately, Zhang Yue's brother also got married that day, and he went back by car the day before.

I went to Wang Ziteng's wedding alone.Wang Ziteng was very excited that day. From the moment I picked up the bride, the other best men and I were constantly being made things difficult by the bridesmaids.But in the end, Wang Ziteng knelt in front of the bride and said loudly, wife, I will love you forever, and the bride cried.At that moment, I also wanted to cry.He can unscrupulously confess to the person he loves in front of everyone, but my feelings are destined to be endured silently in the dark alone.

At that moment, I thought I was envious, maybe even a little jealous.

Zhu Yujie came here at night, and he was still dressed very neatly, with a simple white T and black trousers. He didn't look like a married person at all, just like when I first met him, like a student.

Wang Ziteng asked him why he came alone and didn't bring the family.

Zhu Yujie smiled and said that she was pregnant and a little unstable, so she didn't come over.

He said blessing words to Wang Ziteng, then smiled at me and said, "You are the best man today!" I nodded and said yes.He said that's great, it's a pity that you didn't come on my wedding day.

Looking at his face, I didn't know what to say for a moment.Why am I still nervous, why is my heart beating fast?Obviously I should let it go, right?

It was Wang Ziteng who smoothed things over, and said with a smile that today is really happy, all the good buddies are here, um, to save face.

We all drank a lot that night, and we had a lot of trouble in the bridal chamber.When I woke up the next day I had a really bad headache.The few of us slept in the hotel that day, and Zhu Yujie and I shared a room.It's a pity to think about it, it's rare for two people to meet, but they didn't have a good talk, instead they just fell asleep like this.The two of us smiled at each other after waking up, and said goodbye to Wang Ziteng after washing up.Because Zhu Yujie and I were going to the station, we called a car and left together.

When we arrived at the station, it was time to part again.

"Are you... going home directly?"

"Yes!"

After he answered, I didn't know what to say.Scratching his head, he smiled at him.

"Being the best man will steal the limelight from Wang Ziteng's groom." Zhu Yujie teased me.

"Hehe!" I still just giggled.

"You...do you have any news yet? We are all companions, when are you looking for them?" He asked casually.

I didn't answer.But it suddenly occurred to me that it seemed that he and I had parted ways many times at the station.It's just that the difference this time is that we parted this time, but we don't know when the next meeting will be.

I accidentally caught a glimpse of the ring on his hand, which wasn't the one I gave, and couldn't help laughing at myself: "Why does he have to wear the ring I gave you?"

"Yujie, actually I have a partner." I told him, "But I am different from you."

"you……"

Before he finished speaking, I stopped every word, firmly, looked him in the eyes, and said, "I'm gay!"

I will never forget the shock and disbelief in his eyes when he heard I was gay.I don't care what he thinks of me anymore, and this is also a way of giving up on myself. I think that's it, and I really draw a line with him.He is going to be a father, and I can never have that dirty idea again.The best way to not have this kind of thought is to break up with him from now on.

Later, I did not have any contact with Zhu Yujie.I know why, but I'm reluctant to explain.It was I who pushed my relationship with him to the abyss, and there was no going back.I don't even know why I'm suddenly telling him the secret I've kept inside me for so many years.Even the birth of his child was told by Wang Ziteng.When his child held a full moon wine, I asked Wang Ziteng to bring a pair of concentric locks to Zhu Yujie, and asked him not to tell Zhu Yujie that I gave it to him.Wang Ziteng also asked me many times what was going on with Zhu Yujie.He also persuaded me that we are all friends, no matter what, let's talk about it.

I can only smile, but this time, I stick to my mind.

In this way, Zhang Yue and I lived together for nearly two years.Before he was going to have his graduation photo taken in his senior year, he asked me if I could visit him.I asked him what time it was.He said on Thursday, and I said that I was working on Thursday. During this time, a customer kept pressing me for an order. I had to keep an eye on the people in the factory, so I didn't go.

He was very unhappy, so I coaxed him and said that I would take him to eat delicious food when I got off work on Thursday.Said to play with him this weekend.He was still angry, so I told him to go to Hangzhou with him this weekend.Because he has always said before that he wants to go to Hangzhou to see, but my home is too close to Hangzhou, and I have been there many times, so I have never accompanied him.This time when he heard and saw his eyes lit up, his pouting mouth immediately grinned, and he asked me to promise that I would not go back on my word.I said I didn't go back on my word, and he was willing.

The next day, when I was rushing the goods with the factory, the phone rang.I wanted to hang up directly, but accidentally caught a glimpse of the name on the caller ID: Yujie.I quickly ran to a place where there were fewer people in the corridor, and pressed the answer button: "Hello!"

"Hello, Jia Yi, it's me!" The familiar voice from the other end of the phone made my already restless heart even more confused.

"I know." She replied softly.Then he on the other end of the phone and me on this side fell silent.

"I……"

"you……"

"You speak first!"

"You should say it first!"

Then we both laughed.

I asked how he was doing.He said that's it.

He asked me why you didn't come on the day my son was full moon. I opened my mouth, but I didn't know what to say.

Then we fell silent again.After a while, I said to him: "I'll come to W City to see you on weekends!"

"Okay!" He readily agreed.The moment he hung up the phone, he told me: "Jia Yi, I have a question that I have thought about for a long time, but I hope you will tell me yourself."

"it is good."

I was very happy that day.After I went back, I didn't argue with the people in the factory, I just said something to hurry up and go back to the company.

After get off work, I went to the mall to buy a new set of clothes for myself and a new guitar for Zhang Yue.When I got home and gave the guitar to Zhang Yue, he happily hugged me and kissed me, and then couldn't wait to tune and play it for me.Then he saw the new clothes I bought, and laughed and teased me: "I'm well prepared, even the clothes for playing." I realized that I'm going to Hangzhou with Zhang Yue this weekend.Maybe Zhang Yue noticed my stunned expression.Just ask me: "What's wrong, you won't forget?"

"No...no..." People are sometimes very strange. They are obviously happy one second, but suddenly feel down in the next second.I excused being a little tired, so I went to the bedroom and lay down.Suddenly very upset.

I couldn't sleep well at night, I kept dreaming, dreaming that I told Zhu Yujie that I had something to do this weekend, so I might not be able to come to W City to see you.Then Zhu Yujie got angry and asked Xu Jiayi why you are always like this, you don't come for marriage, and you don't come for the full moon of your son.Just as I was about to explain, "Ding Lingling" suddenly sounded a mobile phone ring. I woke up from my sleep, and it took me a long time to realize that it was my mobile phone ringing.

"Hello," I replied in a half-dream and half-awake state.Then I heard Wang Ziteng's nasal but very clear voice: "Jiayi, Yujie... Yujie...he's gone."

The author has something to say: Think about the feeling when someone you have secretly loved for many years suddenly leaves you, it is really uncomfortable.