My low EQ

Cheng Siyu was mentally prepared to tell his mother clearly about him and Shen Yi, but who knew that his mother was wearing a mask and waved her hand when she heard this sentence: "I'll talk about it later, I put on a mask, and I feel my skin is dull recently. It’s quite yellowish, your Auntie Zhang said that this mask is very useful, I think her face is well maintained.”

Cheng Siyu: Very good, very good, worthy of being an excellent middle-aged man.

Cheng Siyu saw his mother hugging the dog and watching TV. After applying the facial mask, she took out a bunch of bottles and jars to take care of her skin care. After finishing all the treatments, his mother glanced at him and said, "Tell me."

Cheng Siyu was infected by his mother's slow attitude. The impulse just now calmed down a lot. He said, "Mom, I'm not with Bai Rong. It was Bai Rong who couldn't stand being forced into marriage by his family, so he asked me to play the couple."

His mother nodded, "I've met Bai Rong's parents, and they are really anxious. One day I will talk to her mother. Bai Rong is a good little girl who is almost mentally disturbed by her mother. You let her Don't stress, I will pay attention to her if there is a suitable one. Girls are not born to live for marriage.

"Thank you mom." Cheng Siyu glanced at his mother - Jiang Yaoyao. It is said that his mother was a famous beauty at that time, and she was a very good student. There were countless people chasing her, but his father caught her with his sincerity. His mother.

His grandparents, who are considered relatively powerful families, disagreed with this matter very much. His mother was not afraid at all, held a family meeting, held his father's hand at home, and persuaded all the family members rationally, and his father also lived up to it. , now pampering his mother like a little princess, his grandparents don't know how satisfied they are.

His mother has taught him to respect others since he was a child, not to be in a hurry with him, and to reason with him about everything. If it is true that he is more reasonable, his mother will apologize to him. For all things that others don't understand, Jiang Yaoyao But he didn't hinder him at all, let him do it, and trusted him completely.

So the relationship between the two has always been very close. Cheng Siyu seldom hides anything from his mother, except that he dared not tell his mother a word about major events in his life. He suddenly became nervous, and he hugged his mother uneasily. He whispered: "Mom, will you regret having a son like me?"

His mother laughed when she heard this, "My son is tall and handsome, gifted and talented, he is filial to his parents, respects and loves his elder brother, and never does bad things. I have such a good son who secretly laughs every day, why should I regret it?"

"Because I like men and I'm gay." Cheng Siyu lowered his head and whispered this sentence. After saying this sentence, he even felt a kind of relief, and finally said this sentence.

He didn't dare to look at his mother's eyes, or even listen to his mother's answer. All the mental preparations he had made were all useless at once. He hugged his mother tightly, afraid that this would be the last hug.

His mother didn't push him away when she heard this, and let him hold her without saying anything.

Cheng Siyu continued: "The Shen Yi who came today is the person I have liked for many years." He didn't care whether his mother wanted to hear it or not, so he picked out some key points about the two of them and told his mother what happened. His fear when he first found out that he was gay, his pain of chasing Shen Yi, Shen Yi's change after he separated from Shen Yi...

His mother listened very carefully, unlike when someone else came out, the parents were so excited that they wanted to sever the relationship between mother and child, beat him to death, and let him get out of the house. She was even rationally listening to his son's thoughts course.

After Cheng Siyu finished speaking, he looked at his mother carefully, and his mother suddenly sighed: "To be honest, I'm your mother, you can't hide anything from me, you haven't found a partner for so many years, I'm I didn't urge you, because love doesn't come just by urging, I hope you find someone you really like, don't need to care about society's eyes, and it doesn't matter if you get married later."

After his mother said these words, Cheng Siyu was a little moved, "It wasn't until that day when I cleaned up your old house in my hometown that I found a lot of things about Shen Yi, that I vaguely realized that something was wrong. There is no such thing around us. I just I was able to search a lot of information on the Internet, and I realized that there are such a group of people.”

Cheng Siyu looked at his mother in surprise. He never thought that his mother would guess that he was gay, and then went to understand the mood of the gay group in order to understand his son. Did his mother feel disappointed or afraid at that moment? , he didn't know anything, he asked nervously: "Mom, will you be disappointed in me?"

Jiang Yaoyao gently touched his son's head, "Son, although I can't understand you, because I love your father deeply and have never liked a woman, but I also respect your choice, and nothing can change my opinion of you. Your love. But there will be many people who don’t understand, including me when I first guessed it. I am full of confusion and doubts about this matter. I am afraid of others pointing at you. Going gay, I really wanted to call you back and talk to you."

Jiang Yaoyao recalled that period of time, although she was relatively open-minded, she was not yet able to understand the situation of homosexuality. Of course she would not be so calm when she knew about it. She was also in a bad mood at that time, and quarreled with his father several times , I was so angry that I cried secretly every day, tossing and turning.

When Cheng Siyu called her at night, he was obviously so tired that he yawned. He also said that he was not tired from work. He wanted to buy her a new dress and asked her what color she liked. She hesitated for a long time and did not ask her son directly.

While her father was out shopping for groceries, she read a lot of materials on the Internet, watched popular science videos made by many people, and many anti-discrimination videos. Only then did she know that many people suffered a lot of blank stares and criticism because of homosexuality. , Even at the cost of the end of life, I have seen many parents who cannot understand the collapse and cry, but in the end they still support their son.

She suddenly thought of why her son, who has shared everything with her since he was a child, refused to tell himself about it. Could it be that he is also afraid of his parents' incomprehension? If his parents don't support his way, then those How can he overcome the discrimination from society?

She saw a gay non-profit organization on the Internet. She didn't know who to confide her troubles to, so she called them for consultation. There were also some volunteer psychological counselors there. She chatted with them many times, and gradually From resisting and not understanding to now being able to accept.

His mother hugged him and said: "But I think there is a saying that is right. Gender should not be the reason that hinders you from liking anything or people. I think there is no right or wrong in love. At that time, your grandma also thought that I and you Dads are not supposed to be together, but we know we love each other enough to be responsible for each other's choices, we fell in love, got married and gave birth to you. Marriage is for love, not because we're getting married, so we go looking for a partner, So when you went out on a date with Bai Rong, I was afraid that you did something wrong and lied to him, but fortunately, my child, you did nothing wrong."

Cheng Siyu explained: "Mom, I don't, I just don't want to worry you, and it's not that I can't like girls, and the relationship with Shen Yi was also very stiff at the time, I want to end this relationship. Try a new relationship, I don't Liar."

Jiang Yaoyao smiled and said: "Of course, I know you won't. Whether you are gay or straight, it is just a choice of your sexual orientation. The only thing I worry about is that the road ahead will be difficult for you. I know that now There are many people who still discriminate against this kind of thing, even your father and your brother. I can’t guarantee how they will react, but I want to tell you that parents have no right to make you what kind of person you are. It’s up to you to decide, we’re just here to tell you what’s right and what’s wrong, but there are a lot of things for you to judge for yourself.”

Cheng Siyu didn't expect his mother to tell him this at all, he choked up and said, "I'm sorry."

"My silly son, you don't need to apologize at all, you haven't done anything wrong, just as long as you have no regrets." Jiang Yaoyao chatted with Cheng Siyu for a long time.

The two also chatted about Shen Yi, and his mother said to him: "Love needs to be managed, and no one is born to be in harmony. Your father and I have quarreled and quarreled for so many years. To communicate, you need to know what the other person is thinking. If you think he doesn’t care about you if he doesn’t come home, then you can tell him directly, don’t beat around the bush to remind him, he won’t understand, why don’t you talk to him directly After a chat, since he loves you and learns to change to be nice to you, then you have to slowly change yourself, don’t say nothing, take the initiative, communicate things rationally, maybe there are many things without you As bad as imagined."

Cheng Siyu agreed, and he said, "I'll have a good talk with him soon, thank you mom."

His mother looked at the time, it was past twelve o'clock, she touched Cheng Siyu's face, and said: "Okay, it's so late, go wash your face, your face is wrinkled from crying, I think my mask It’s pretty easy to use, come and stick one after you wash your face.”

After Cheng Siyu washed his face, his mother held him back and put a mask on before putting him back to sleep. Lying on the bed, Cheng Siyu couldn't believe that he came out of the closet so "easily", but he knew it wasn't easy, it was His mother has made a lot of efforts to accept it, and because she loves him deeply, she doesn't want to hurt him.

He took out his mobile phone and saw that Shen Yi had sent him a lot of messages. Now that his own affairs have been resolved, the next step is his and Shen Yi's affairs. He didn't want to wait any longer, so he sent a text message to Shen Yi and told him After a while, his mother supported himself, and he hoped to find some time to talk about their affairs recently.

The text messages Cheng Siyu sent in the past quickly became read, and Shen Yi also called. He asked worriedly, "Did Auntie make things difficult for you?"

Cheng Siyu: "No, my mother is cooler than me, I love her, why are you up so late?" Shen Yi said: "I've been thinking about you, and I can't sleep."

He told Shen Yi a lot of what his mother told him, and Shen Yi said after listening: "She is really a good mother."

Cheng Siyu hummed, and the two chatted for a while.

Jiang Yaoyao sat on the sofa and sent a message to his husband and eldest son, asking them to come back for dinner tomorrow night, and they have something to say.

After sending the text message, he glanced at Cheng Siyu's room, smiled, and went back to sleep.

The author has something to say: I have thought a lot about Siyu’s coming out of the closet, and overturned many versions. Until recently, I saw the story of the rose boy Ye Yongzhi. You can pay attention to it, as well as some things about Jolin Tsai, and then I saw a lot of videos of mothers being tolerant of their children, as well as some parents of the largest non-profit organization for gays, Gay Friends and Friends.

I also want to tell everyone that there are not only parents who oppose discrimination and even feel ashamed, but also a group of parents who, for their children, eliminate discrimination, try to understand this group, and have been doing equal rights for their children and this society. Groups to fight for interests, even if they are not the majority of parents, but they still exist.

Just like Mother Cheng, gentle and strong.