My low EQ

After Cheng Siyu got off work, he went to the supermarket to buy wine for his father. His father has been in poor health for the past few years. His mother is strict with him and rarely allows him to drink. Every time he has to rely on his sons to cover him up for a few sips , It's really pitiful.

He also took the skin care and skin care products he had bought for his mother a few days ago, and the new shirt for his brother, and went home with big and small bags.

His parents saw him go home and took so many things, although they complained that he was spending money lavishly, they were still happy.

His mother took the skin care products and went back to the house happily. He quickly took out a small bottle of wine from the inner pocket of his coat and stuffed it to his father. His father was looking for a place to hide the wine outside, and his brother deliberately said this The shirt looks good, his father finished hiding the wine, his mother just came out to cook in the kitchen, the three of them looked at each other and breathed a sigh of relief.

Seeing his mother handling the fish seriously, she asked with a smile, "Is the wine well stored?"

His father was about to say it after hiding it, Cheng Siyu hurriedly said: "Mom, what are you talking about, didn't I buy shoes for my father?"

His mother let out a groan, "Then if alcohol is found in the washing machine later, it will be bought by another little elf for your father."

Cheng Siyu: ...I don't think so?

His father didn't know how to coax his mother in the kitchen. Anyway, when he went in to see after a while, his mother's expression was not angry. He slowly walked to his mother and asked, "Mom, what are you doing?" I know."

His mother glanced at him and said, "I don't know what your grandpa has. Your dad and I have been clear about each other for so many years, and he also knows that I care about him for his own good. I hope he can walk with me a few more times." Year. The wine was brought to him when you and your brother came back. He hid everything in the washing machine and thought I didn’t know it. I just couldn’t bear to expose him. This time it’s because of his blood pressure these days If it’s too high, I’m afraid he’ll get into trouble if he drinks it secretly, otherwise I won’t care.”

Cheng Siyu envied the relationship between his parents. Both of them loved each other deeply and rarely blush.He hugged his mother behind him tiredly, like a child, he wanted to tell his mother about those things, he liked things about Shen Yi, he liked things about men, how should he deal with things between him and Shen Yi now , but he dare not...

He could only force himself to chat with his mother about a lot of trivial matters, but behind him he didn't see his mother's serious expression, as if she wanted to say something, but didn't say it.

He got tired of his mother for a while, and ran to play with his family's big golden retriever, who was pregnant with a cub, and his mother told him, "Our family gave birth to a baby, just ask Is there anyone who is willing to ask for it? Our family can't support so many, so we just need to keep one as a company with Guaibao."

When Cheng Siyu heard this, he immediately thought of Shen Yi. He remembered that the panda raised by Shen Yi was energetic and clingy every day. It would be much better to have another panda at home to play with, at least not to feel depressed when Shen Yi was busy.

Thinking of Shen Yi, he stroked Guaibao's hair in annoyance. Since that day, he has been hiding from Shen Yi for a long time. He didn't think about what he should do. The future between him and Shen Yi is too difficult, and he has already begun to be unsteady Now, he may encounter more problems in the future, he can only choose to escape temporarily instead of facing them.

After a while, his father called him to eat. During the meal, his elder brother was discussing with his parents about meeting the parents of the other party. After setting a time, his mother ran to change a few sets of clothes after eating. Watching their father three choose the best-looking set, saying that they can’t lose face with their in-laws, his father said with a smile that everything looks good, but his mother said he was just a sweet talker, so he asked his father to choose the best-looking set. Dad and his mother went into the house to pick out clothes.

His brother was watching TV with him outside. Seeing him nibbling on chocolates, his brother squeezed him and said, "I still eat it. I ate so much for dinner, and now I eat so much chocolate. You will be so fat. No matter how fat you are, there will be no girls." wanted."

He pushed back unconvinced, "I didn't look for it, there are many people who like me."

His brother grabbed him, ravaged his hair, and said: "Then why don't you hurry up and find one, I'm already 28, and I'm getting married soon, you don't even have a partner, and your parents are dying of anxiety. Dare to tell you, I am afraid that you will be under pressure and interrogate me every day. You are good, you live heartlessly every day, if you don't find a partner, your parents will almost suspect that you have some unspeakable secrets."

His brother said it was unintentional, but Cheng Siyu's heart skipped a beat. There was a son who hadn't had a date for 28 years. His parents loved him so much, it was impossible not to be anxious about this matter, but they never urged him, nor did they appear in front of him. As I mentioned, even if his brother talks about him, his parents will fight for him.

But do they really not care? No, they dare not speak of him because they care too much. I hope that when the social pressure is so great, they can relieve him of the pressure brought by his family, and hope that he can find a loving partner. , to be good to him, I don't want him to just find someone to fool him for the rest of his life for other reasons.

When he was struggling with whether Shen Yi loved him or not, his parents were always worried and anxious about him behind him, but they didn't force him because of love. Was he too self-centered and never considered the feelings of his family?

His brother saw that his expression was wrong, so he quickly coaxed him. He was also too anxious. His brother was good at everything, and he was always the best in his heart. How could he not find a partner.

But his mother is always hesitant to speak, and always asks him some strange questions, which makes him nervous, so he can't help but say a few words to his brother, but seeing his brother cry, his head hurts. He's grown up, so he hurriedly took his brother back to the house, lest his parents see and worry.

His brother wiped his tears for him, and said: "Brother is wrong, I shouldn't have said you, my brother is good at everything, how could he worry about finding a partner, even if you don't look for a partner, brother can afford you, what are you afraid of, Don't cry, don't cry."

Hearing this, Cheng Siyu not only didn't feel relaxed, but felt more guilty and worried, and dared not tell his secret. It's not that he didn't want to find a partner, but that he liked a man named Shen Yi and had been entangled with him for several years. Even if his family loved him again, He won't be enlightened enough to understand the relationship between him and Shen Yi. What will he do then, use his parents' love for him to force them to agree? Besides, how can his parents accept Shen Yi's character.

Cheng Siyu ran home every day in those few days, and hadn't seen Shen Yi for more than ten days.

After Shen Yi scrapped several rings, his hands were worn out, and he stuck a Band-Aid on his head and continued to work, looking not in a good mood.

Bai An also asked him strangely why he didn't go out with Cheng Siyu recently, Shen Yi polished the ring and said that sentence, "I think he is avoiding me recently."

Bai An froze for a moment, and asked him if he knew the reason.

Shen Yi shook his head and said that he didn't know. He obviously got along quite happily a few days ago, but why did it suddenly become like this? What kind of love strategy did he read, the emotional books he bought, and the love dramas he watched didn't have such a thing? This kind of plot, he was caught off guard for a while, and he didn't know what went wrong.

Bai An asked him to think about what they talked about when they met on the last day.

Shen Yi has a good memory, and he almost recounted the conversation that day clearly. Bai An was thoughtful, and he asked Shen Yi, "Have you considered telling Cheng Siyu about your illness?"

Shen Yi froze for a moment and shook his head, Bai An asked tentatively: "You don't tell him because you are afraid that he will alienate you because of this disease, don't you accept it?"

But Shen Yi said: "No, you don't know him, he is a very good person. I'm afraid he will soften his heart because of my illness after he finds out. I hope he accepts me because he feels that I love him and is willing to believe me. Instead of justifying my actions."

Bai An glanced at Shen Yi, he really didn't expect that Shen Yi didn't tell Cheng Siyu because of this, and he felt a little emotional, Cheng Siyu probably didn't notice Shen Yi like this.

After listening to what Shen Yi just repeated, he probably knew what Cheng Siyu was hesitating about. Maybe Cheng Siyu hadn't noticed before that Shen Yi's thinking was different from his. No matter how nice Shen Yi treats him on the surface, Cheng Siyu will also have concerns, because this kind of matter cannot be solved by taking him to dinner or watching a movie.

Bai An disagreed with this matter, "But Shen Yi, if you don't tell him about this illness and let him choose whether to accept it or not, you have such a mental illness. Regardless of whether you reconcile with him or not in the end, it will be difficult for him. It’s unfair to say that.”

Seeing that Shen Yi was still hesitating, Bai An continued: "Besides, if you don't tell Cheng Siyu that you are willing to change for him, how would he know? After all, you have been in this state for so many years. I have already believed in it, and I have been hurt by you several times before. When he decided to break up, he found that you would not change for him. His alienation from you this time is probably because he found that there is a conflict with your thinking. Yes, many of your conflicts are caused by this. He doesn’t trust you to change, and he’s afraid that you will hurt him again. If you don’t open up and talk, you will never know what the other person thinks, so neither of you will know. What the other party is thinking, every step you take will be difficult."

Shen Yi hesitated after hearing this, but Bai An didn't persuade him anymore, hoping that he would think about it again.

When Shen Yi agreed to be with him, he found that he was happy that he liked him, was greedy for his love for him, held on to him and was unwilling to let go, and couldn't imagine that he belonged to others.

At that time, Shen Yi thought that this meant that I also liked him, so that he could agree to him, but he didn't consider whether his personality was suitable for falling in love with him, so he rashly agreed, but in the end because of his own problems, he let him go. Hurt like that, when he chooses to separate, it must be very hard.

After sitting in the dark for a long time, Shen Yi took out his mobile phone and sent a text message to Cheng Siyu: Do you not believe in our future?

Cheng Siyu smiled wryly after reading this sentence. The first time he felt that he and Shen Yi had a heart-to-heart connection was at this moment. He had been thinking for the past few days that he couldn't change Shen Yi during the six years of entanglement with Shen Yi. Will it be possible in the future? The probability of such a thing is too low, and he has to pay too much, facing a dark future that cannot be determined.

He prefers to choose an easy path, a path that makes his parents and brothers no longer worry about him, that is, the path without Shen Yi.

He admitted that he was a coward. He glanced at the way his mother was talking and laughing with his future sister-in-law, and cruelly refused: "Yes, I really don't believe it. We are really not suitable, so don't waste your efforts."I'll meet the girl my brother introduced and let's call it a day.

Shen Yi thought about that sentence for a long time, but didn't reply again, sitting in the dark not knowing what he was thinking.

The author has something to say: I was exhausted writing this chapter, and I changed it again and again, over and over again.

The final result is like this. It is a bit stressful. I also saw that everyone said that my writing is stable, and I am very tired after reading it. There are also many people who like this gentle story. I will take it slowly. I will definitely revise the previous ones. Yes, thank you all for your tolerance and understanding.

Before writing, I had a discussion with my mother about the issue of homosexuality. I wanted to know what my parents thought about Cheng’s coming out. My parents loved me very much and treated me so well. The result of the conversation Not too bad, not too good.