Anecdotes with Dr. Cheng

When Ning Yi 'woke up', he found himself in a familiar hospital. Before he could figure out what was going on, Cheng Xiuyuan appeared at his bedside with a sullen face.

"Abusing drugs, not eating or drinking water, damaged gastric mucosa, almost perforated, are you self-abuse?"

It was the first time he had seen Cheng Xiuyuan, who was so serious that he was almost a bit fierce, and his confusion turned into a great guilt under his accusation. "I'm sorry, I've been in a mess recently."

Cheng Xiuyuan, who usually softened his temper when he apologized, did not show any softening this time, and he threw down a sentence: "You should be sorry for yourself, not me."

After finishing speaking, he didn't give Ning Yi a chance to speak, just left him and left without even looking back.

Ning Yi felt that the situation was not good, and it was too late in a hurry to keep him.

During his hospitalization, Cheng Xiuyuan took time out to visit him every day, but that didn't mean his attitude eased.On the contrary, now Cheng Xiuyuan's attitude towards Ning Yi is getting colder and colder.

It's not that he no longer has feelings for Ning Yi. If he has no feelings, he won't involuntarily take time out to visit Ning Yi no matter how busy he is every day.In fact, it is precisely because of his deep feelings for Ning Yi that he cannot accept his self-harm.

As the saying goes, in order to be loved, you must first love yourself.The scope of self-love is too broad to be summed up in one sentence, but this broad explanation certainly does not include what Ning Yi has done.

No matter what the reason for his doing this, apart from hurting his own body, the closest people are the first to be hurt.But now, this person is Cheng Xiuyuan.

People always say that only when you lose something do you know how to cherish it.In the past, Ning Yi always thought that he was the person who cherished Cheng Xiuyuan the most, but now he realized how wrong he was. It should be said that he was fundamentally wrong.

Now Cheng Xiuyuan is unwilling to talk to him, no matter how he looks for opportunities, Cheng Xiuyuan's attitude is neither cold nor cold.

On the day of discharge, Cheng Xiuyuan appeared in the ward again, Ning Yi's eyes lit up, and then the things Cheng Xiuyuan took out dimmed all the light.

"The keys are here. I won't go to your house in the future. Let's... let's stop here."

"You, want to break up with me?"

"When you are sad, I will always be behind you, waiting for you to adjust and find me again."

"Now, are you tired of waiting? What if I say, I am willing to tell you everything now!? Really, I don't struggle anymore!"

"No, wait for you, I will never be tired. What makes me want to give up is your attitude. I never doubt your feelings for me. It can even be said that you love others, but you don't love yourself alone. I'm sorry , I can't accept you like this, I can't accept..." One day, maybe with a wrong eye, I will lose you.

Ning Yi lowered his head, clutching the key tightly in his hand.Suddenly, drops of water fell, and he wiped it over and over again, but only more drops of water came in, and eventually flooded.

Cheng Xiuyuan left, leaving in the true sense.Come to think of it, since a person like him chooses to leave, he will never take the initiative to appear in front of him.So what if we meet again?They are already strangers.

When he was struggling between family affection and love, the so-called giving up family affection and choosing love, he was bored at home and indulged those cold and sharp words to hurt himself.It seems that he has made a choice, but in fact he has been wandering, secretly regretting.

The so-called adjustment state is just a way for him to avoid reality.

Now, Cheng Xiuyuan, the one and only thing he repeatedly emphasized, is also lost.Which is, really, nothing.

He packed his things by himself and returned home from the hospital like a ghost.Pulling back the heavy curtains and opening the windows, the slightly moist air from outside is allowed to enter the room, sweeping away the dullness of the room.

He also threw out all the melatonin, cleaned out the family refrigerator, and did a whole house clean.After the whole work is over, the day has passed.

In the evening, I took the last egg and ate a bowl of noodles in clear soup. After barely eating half a bowl, I couldn't eat any more.Then he sat on the sofa in a daze, unable to think of anything else to do.

Maybe, he should get a job?He has to have a job that is enough to support himself, and then live out his life in peace?

No, he knew that was definitely not what he had in mind.

He could feel himself under the calm shell, roaring, hysterical, and crying bitterly.If begging can save Cheng Xiuyuan, he is willing to give up his dignity to beg him.It's a pity that it was a useless struggle, at most it would only annoy the other party, and even consume the remaining feelings of the other party.

How could he be willing to make Cheng Xiuyuan's last impression of him worse?

Staying in the living room until midnight, finally brewing a little drowsiness, and tossing and turning on the bed was gone.The back and forth quarreled until dawn before a little drowsiness could be brewed, but the early risers in the community were disturbed by the noise.

Sighing, he had no choice but to get up and eat breakfast.After Cheng Xiuyuan's incident, he never dared to treat himself badly again. He eats three meals a day, and goes to bed early and gets up early as much as possible.

He quickly started looking for a job, and he didn't stick to finding a job in an office. A local adult male with a bachelor's degree has too many choices.He doesn't have too many requirements for work, and the salary is about the same, just a little, and it must be busy enough to make him full.

This kind of job is easier to find. He quickly found a factory worker who required only a high school education or above, be able to endure hardships and stand hard work, and work [-] to [-] hours a day. Of course, the salary is also very generous. Three or four times what you can get.

The only downside is that it is not in the city center, and it takes more than two hours to go back and forth by bus.But he is a local and is very familiar with the road. He bought a second-hand bicycle and can ride to work in more than half an hour.

The first day he went to work, he deliberately arrived half an hour early, only to find that there were not many people inside.He was assigned the simplest and most complicated work during working hours, and he sat there without saying a word and began to get busy.

Most of the work in the factory is boring and heavy. As a man, he needs to carry many heavy things with his hands.There are also a lot of sitting there, just relying on the hands to repeat the work.

After half a day, he was tired and sweaty. The lunch provided by the factory was very vegetarian, and he didn't want to eat it after a few mouthfuls.Regardless of the strange eyes of the people around him, he knew that he, a person who had just graduated from college, came to work as a coolie, and he really looked like a useless person.

Oh no, it's not like, he's just pretty useless.The easiest jobs to find in the short term are those of a similar nature. It takes too much time and energy to find a serious job, and he really doesn't want to stay at home anymore, or he will really go crazy.

I feel good after my first day at work, my body is tired enough to take a shower and fall asleep.When he woke up the next day, his muscles were sore and he almost writhed. He really was too 'spoiled'.

In this way, after working continuously for about a week, the soreness in the morning is not so obvious.The long enough working hours have exhausted his physical strength, and because of his poor appetite, he has lost a lot of weight, and his temperament has also changed a lot.Even wearing the same clothes as before, it looks like two different people.

Now, his eyes are even more indifferent, and he never speaks unless necessary. He is the most lonely worker in the factory, but he is very serious about his work, never lazy and slippery.

At first, he was disliked because of his reticence, they privately said he was too lonely and put on airs.Only after I got used to it did I realize that he just didn't like to talk, and he had nothing to say, and gradually he was accepted by this group.

On this day, it was suddenly notified that a leader had come to inspect the work, and asked them to pay attention so that nothing went wrong.

Regarding this, Ning Yi didn't pay attention to it, and the leadership had little to do with him.But he didn't want to, this casual inspection brought him quite a turning point.

The leader who came to inspect was named Bai and named An Ran. He was the general manager of the company. He was a returnee. He was as handsome as he was talented.

It is said that he is still unmarried. He is in his 40s. The handsome guy has become a handsome uncle.

Obviously, Ning Yi was outside this rank.Even if he bends, he won't suddenly become so harsh, and he doesn't think he will have anything to do with such a person.However, a dramatic scene appeared. Leader Bai came over to take a look and fixed on Ning Yi. After asking his name, he showed a meaningful expression.

Afterwards, Ning Yi was told to go to the lounge in the midst of Ning Yi's ignorance, and Manager Bai looked for him.

He felt very messy at the time, and he was prepared to carry a small knife with him, and if something went wrong, he immediately took out the knife to take the initiative.After thinking about it, he was the one who was unlucky when he got into an accident due to excitement. How can a young man in his 20s not be able to beat an uncle in his 40s who sits in an office all year round, so he went with peace of mind.

Sure enough, Bai Anran was waiting for him. When they met each other in the lounge, Bai Anran said, "You are Ning Yi, your father is Ning Yucheng, and your mother is Ruan Zhiwei." The tone was affirmative, without any doubts.

Ning Yi was very puzzled, and he identified his parents just by their name and face. Could it be that...he knew his parents?

"Yes, you are?"

Bai Anran didn't need to say anything else, but only used one sentence as an explanation. "Now, your father Ning Yucheng is with me. To be precise, he has been with me many years ago. You should know who I am."

Not only did he know, but he even wanted to punch someone!

"So, what do you mean by calling me here? I want to take a special look at how miserable the son born in his failed marriage is now. If you don't think it's enough, you can fire me directly."

Bai Anran said: "Young man, you are too irritable, I don't mean it at all."

The author has something to say:

I could have written according to the routine, Cheng Cheng took Ning Ning home and cared for her while caring, but that would not match the character's personality.Cheng Cheng would definitely do this... Then Wen will become a "break and then stand" mode, and Ning Ning needs to be "stand up" before their relationship can really be considered successful.

Another: I am the one who abuses melatonin, and I am the one who suffers from sleep disorders. Two days ago, I should have taken melatonin + allergy medicine + stomach medicine together, and my brain was confused. 'Fortunately, I woke up quickly and screwed back.

Therefore, the medicine cannot be taken indiscriminately. The effect of multiple doses of melatonin is the same as what I wrote in the article.If you take medicine indiscriminately, your brain will be damaged, but there is nothing wrong with it.