Fix fixed point

"Because it's not fair to me." Hong Rui lowered his head, even he could hear the weakness in the words, he regretted almost the moment he said it.But Adam deserves an explanation, and Adam's sincerity deserves the same honesty in return.

Adam was silent for a long time after hearing this, so long that Hong Rui felt that Adam did not understand what he said.He thought Adam would continue to press, but fortunately Adam did not, Adam bowed to him like a submissive apprentice, turned and left.

Adam's footsteps were getting farther and farther, and his heart was getting heavier and heavier.Adam walked to the door, stopped and looked back at him.Although he didn't look up, he was listening intently to the traces of Adam's clothes in the air.For a moment, Hong Rui's breathing stopped, he thought Adam had changed his mind.

But Adam just smiled and said good night to him, and there was no sadness in his tone, which is not normal.

He thought, at this moment the door was closed with a "bang", finally he was the only one left here.Hong Rui exhaled the pent-up breath and relaxed his shoulders.Almost at the moment of slacking off, his heart beats faster and faster in a panic, as if he has stepped on the ground, desperately needing to grab something to stabilize himself.He clasped the cup, fingertips until they turned white.But he still couldn't feel a trace of security.

Adam knew what and made a decision.And he had no clue about Adam's decision.This is the first time Hongrui realizes that he knows nothing about Adam. This feeling is very bad, as if his well-known operating procedures suddenly appear abnormal, which will make you start to question and examine the remaining operating procedures, trying to Look for other signs of heresy.

He scrutinized his words over and over, trying to figure out why Adam was so calm, but couldn't find anything.

It made him feel uncontrollably drained—another emotion he didn't like.Hong Rui sat on the spot, motionless.When he finally felt the cold invasion, the coffee in his hand was no longer hot.

He took a sip of his coffee, which was cold and bitter.

Hong Rui stared at the coffee, confused at first, but finally realized that time passed faster than he imagined.

He walked upstairs step by step, ready to rest.The carpet swallowed most of his footsteps, but there was still a muffled sound echoing down the stairway.The room seemed quiet, empty and deserted.Adam's fingers were very warm, and when Adam left, the warmth of the entire room seemed to be drawn away with his departure.

God, Adam had only been gone for a while, and he was already thinking about him.That longing is like an iceberg under the sea, suddenly revealing a huge figure at this moment.

Adam has a rustic yet unexpectedly spicy smell, like freshly ground black pepper, youthful, fiery and passionate.And when he got closer, Hong Rui smelled the aroma of coffee from his breath—it was just because he just drank the cup of coffee Hong Rui gave him.

Hong Rui seems to smell the oily brown coffee grease, exuding a smooth and thick nutty pepper smell.It must be refreshing at the beginning, and the burnt sweetness of chocolate will not come out until later, which will produce a mellow storm that explodes on the taste buds and sweeps his mind.

It's a pity that he avoided it, but fortunately, he avoided it.He knows he made the right decision, but that doesn't mean he has to like it.

Hong Rui turned over on the bed and looked out the window.London nights never turn black, nights are dark blue.Infinitely close to black, never truly black.He stared out the window, wondering what Adam might be doing right now?Has he rested now, has he reached home safely?

From the position where he was lying down, he could see the clock on the bedside table. The time displayed was three o'clock, and he would have already rested at this time.But now he still doesn't feel much sleepiness, all kinds of out-of-tuned voices are arguing in his head, he thinks he must have thought a lot, but when he thinks about it carefully, he seems to be in a daze, time flies by.

Hong Rui lay motionless.As soon as he closed his eyes, he thought of Adam again.He thought of Adam's long, drooping eyelashes, his trembling fingers.And because Adam didn't look at him, he could look at the two red and smooth lips with impunity.

In a few hours, there will be a twilight in the sky.The dark blue sky will fade, intertwine with pink, and eventually become part of the glow and leave the darkness completely.The cold and crisp morning breeze in December will pass through the window sill and reach everyone's bedside.Buses would roll slowly down the street, neighbors' alarm clocks would go off and they would start walking, and the empty streets would gradually fill with laughter and laughter.The tricycle delivering milk will ring a tinny bell and drop a jug of milk in front of Hongrui's neighbor.

A new day begins.

Adam would open his eyes and go about his day.He would look at the others and smile sweetly.Hong Rui will become his past and fade out from his consciousness.

But that was tomorrow, Adam might still be thinking about him tonight.

Then let the new day come slowly.Hong Rui closed his eyes, tracing Adam's image and movements over and over again.The color of Adam's skin, the angle at which the lights cast shadows on his face, the creases of the different textures of clothing, every detail had to be perfect.

As long as he is awake, time will always stay in the semi-darkness, the point where he is vague and awake.

At this moment, the mobile phone on the bedside table vibrated slightly.

Hong Rui felt strange.Not many people know his private mobile phone number, and even fewer people will send him text messages at this time.He then thought that Piero was negotiating a divorce. Maybe Piero was in a bad mood, so he sent him a text message to test whether he had rested.Hong Rui thought so, touched the phone and unlocked the screen, thinking that he should call Piero immediately.

A text from an unknown number popped up: "Hi Rudy, this is Adam. We met earlier in Notting Hill."

Adam?who?Mindless.Hong Rui thought it was a text message sent by mistake, he threw away the phone and was about to lie back on the pillow, when he suddenly realized what happened, he got up and grabbed the phone again.However, understanding this matter does not mean that he understands Lu Di's motives.

Of course he remembered that Ludi had slipped a note into Adam's left breast pocket of his coat—he also knew that there was a tattoo on the underside of Adam's coat that looked like a compass, and that Ludi had touched it , the smile is full of affection.

Lu Di told Adam to remember to send him a text message, but it was Hong Rui who received the text message.

Hong Rui didn't know Lu Di's intentions and was still thinking.

Then the second text message popped up again: "Ludy, do you like apple pie? I'm off tomorrow and I'm going to make some apple pie. I know you're busy, but if you like it, I can give it to you at your convenience." You send it over."

Such a tone and sentence are so familiar, but this time the target of delivery is not myself.

Qi and blood rushed to Hong Rui's forehead, and he sat up suddenly.Hong Rui could only see the white floodlight screen in his field of vision, and even the slightest drowsiness disappeared.

There was a tense atmosphere in the dark room that made people silent.

Adam in Yoludi?Hong Rui couldn't believe it, and then clenched his jaw again.

Before Adam left, he didn't look so disappointed and sad, was it because he had already found the next person he wanted to pursue?Hong Rui pinched the phone, almost gnashing his teeth and was about to curse.How could Adam treat him like this?Before even one night, Adam had left him completely behind and found someone else.

Look at this text message, politeness naturally leaves room for it, only a veteran in the field of love can speak so beautifully.The Adam that Hong Rui saw had always lowered his head slightly, with a submissive look.Occasionally, Adam would look at Hong Rui seriously, with an unconscious smile on his lips.The way he listened sideways made Hong Rui feel that every word he said was very important to Adam.

Adam in his heart is like a child, sincere and innocent.

At the moment, Adam on the other side of the phone is fickle and tactful.

Hong Rui seemed to have been slapped severely by someone, he stomped heavily back and forth for a few steps, then stopped suddenly.He stared at the phone, almost throwing it against the wall to shake off the roar that echoed round and round in his head.

However, you yourself suggested that Adam and the others try it, and Rudy happens to be there, so why not?

Hong Rui's retreating rationality struggled to say a word, and Hong Rui's swelled anger was suddenly pierced by a needle and vented completely.He stood there blankly, there was only a pure working relationship between them, what kind of person Adam was in private, and who he was dating had nothing to do with Hong Rui.And it was Hong Rui himself who rejected Adam first.

Hong Rui collapsed on the bed dejectedly, looking at the gradually brightening light in the sky, he thought, so tomorrow has come.There was a sour bitterness in his mouth, as if he had taken another sip of cold coffee.

Hong Rui closed his eyes tiredly, and he thought of the way Lu Di looked at Adam again.He tried to recall Adam's response and eyes to Ludi, whether Adam had already made his decision at that time.But he was trying so hard to control his urge to stop Rudy that he had no time to observe Adam.

Lu Di will be very happy to receive this message, after all, who wouldn't like a handsome young man like Adam?Rudy would meet Adam after his shift so they could have breakfast together before the Alimentum opened, no, maybe Rudy would be more proactive and invite Adam to his house for lunch tomorrow.Adam would go on with the kiss he'd rejected, and they'd catch up with what happened before Rudy's shift.

Hong Rui bit his lip, thinking out of control.In the future, for a while, Hong Rui will not see Lu Di again, and Adam will not appear in front of him after the final.And the latter was exactly what he had been hoping for.He would return to his monotonous, dedicated work life.

Maybe after Ludy and Adam have been dating for a while and the relationship has stabilized, Ludy will take Adam to see where they usually fight.Ludi would introduce Adam to Ludi's own hobbies.Maybe Hongrui will see Adam again somewhere.At that time, Adam must have looked at himself politely and plainly, as if looking at an insignificant passerby.The light in Adam's eyes will no longer light up for him, and his sight will no longer chase Hong Rui.

Hong Rui thought that he had already gotten used to living alone, but only now did he realize that he was feeling sad for the life he imagined he had missed.

And Rudy would take his place and have it all.

But not all.Hong Rui chewed his teeth, thinking bitterly, how long can Lu Di have Adam?He and Lu Di have known each other for almost five or six years, and Lu Di's longest relationship did not exceed ten months.Rudy is a good guy, caring and patient, he can sit down and talk to the most difficult patients, and everyone in the hospital likes him.

But he spent so much time in the hospital that every one of Rudy's lovers ended up breaking up with him because of his 24-hour on-call job.As a chef, Adam's work and rest schedules are different from normal people.In this way, Lu Di and Adam will be even less pitiful together.

But this is not something he should care about. When he rejected Adam, he had already cut off his personal bond with Adam.And an upright person should not read information that does not belong to him. An upright person will reply Ludi's phone number to Adam as soon as possible, so that Adam can convey his heart to Ludi.

Hong Rui frowned deeply, the voices of both sides in the debate repeatedly tug-of-war in his mind, fatigue suddenly overwhelmed him.His body sank deep into the mattress, wrapped in loneliness and darkness.Consciousness is like a dead leaf floating on the water, being blown farther and farther by the wind.It was almost dawn, and he should be very tired. He can send Ludi's phone number to Adam after he wakes up.

Hong Rui put down the phone, lay back on the bedding and closed his eyes.