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Adam suddenly raised his head to look at Hong Rui, but Hong Rui did not make a sound, acquiescing to Lu Di's words.

Lu Di thought he didn't understand, so he kindly explained to Adam: "A friend with benefits is a friend who can have sex with each other when they don't have a partner. But from another perspective, once they find a partner, they will immediately cut off contact. ..."

"Lu Di, I think Adam knows exactly what you are talking about." Hong Rui interrupted Lu Di, he stepped forward and said to Adam: "Adam, I have already told you very clearly that you should not come tonight Come here."

After speaking, Hong Rui opened the door and motioned Adam to leave.

Adam endured days and nights of longing, another afternoon and night of despair, and another night of cold wind.He walked back and forth outside Hongrui's gate, feeling sorry for himself and thinking that he was hopeless.Now at last he entered the room and saw a glimmer of light.He was like a drowning man who suddenly saw a piece of driftwood, and it was impossible for him to withdraw his hand when the piece of wood was within reach.Adam ignored Hong Rui and instead asked Lu Di, confirming his answer again: "So you are not together?"

Lu Di shook his head and said with a smile: "He and I are both single, kid Adam, if a beauty like you is willing to be my boyfriend, I will cut off contact with Hong Rui immediately, right away! I can go with you right now!"

"Adam!" Hong Rui didn't like being ignored, and he didn't like Adam disobeying his orders. He lowered his voice and pointed to the door again, "Now, get out!"

Adam finally looked at Hong Rui, and asked calmly: "Dr. Dukas, I don't understand. You and I are both single, why is it impossible to have a relationship other than work?"

Lu Di also asked: "Hong Rui, isn't that because of me?"

Hong Rui rolled his eyes at Lu Di, and Adam took another step closer: "Dr. Dukas, you said you would answer my question. Now I have a question, and I hope you can answer it for me."

Rudy's eyes flicked back and forth between the two of their faces again.Adam stared at Hong Rui, but Hong Rui avoided Adam's sight, and his lips were tightly closed.Ludi sneezed because of the cold wind blowing in. He held the door and closed it with a little force.

Ludi broke the deadlock between the two of them, saying, "It's late at night, I should go, you two need to take time to talk."

Rudy hurried upstairs and came down with a change of clothes.He was wearing dark blue jeans and a light brown bomber jacket.An almost golden-brown silk scarf was tied around his neck.Ludi's appearance is not outstanding, and he looks like an ordinary middle-aged man wrapped in a bathrobe.But the suit framed his lean, muscular body, and the gold scarf made him look alive.His ordinary facial features immediately became vivid, and his smile was full of gentleness like a spring breeze.

He walked up to Adam and slipped a note into Adam's breast coat pocket.After Ludi reached out and patted Adam's breast pocket, he blinked again and smiled at Adam: "This is my phone number, send me a text message, Adam. I may not be able to reply to you right away, but that doesn't mean I'm on the way." Ignore you. You're cute, but I'm a surgeon, and I can't touch my phone for two or three days when I'm busy. Adam, if you're asking for sex, please consider me first, after all, no one knows the human body better than a doctor, and no People pay more attention to their own health than doctors do.”

After speaking, he blinked again, frivolous and lively, but not annoying.

After Adam heard this, he immediately looked at Hong Rui, who stood aside indifferently, without saying a word.

Adam didn't know how to answer.Fortunately, Ludi didn't expect Adam to reply. After he finished speaking, he bent down and picked up the brown doctor's bag by the door.Before he left the door, he remembered something again.He turned his head to look at Hong Rui, pointed to the pizza box Adam was holding in his hand, and raised his chin: "Hong Rui, I heard you don't like cheese. Then I take it away?"

This is a pizza ordered with Hong Rui's account, Hong Rui squinted his eyes, feeling the provocation that his belongings were coveted.For a moment he thought Rudy wasn't talking about pizza, but he was dairy-free and would go in the trash if he stayed.So he nodded to Rudy, letting him do whatever he wanted.

"Goodbye, both of you." Ludi took the pizza from Adam and opened the door.Before closing the door, he mouthed to Adam, "SMS." before walking out.

The door was closed with a bang, Adam and Hong Rui stood at the door and looked at each other.Ludi had been distracting them before.When Ludi left, they felt that the space was cramped instead.Adam could hear Hong Rui's slight breath and smell the shampoo.If Adam stood closer, he might be able to smell the steam from under Hongrui's bathrobe and feel the heat of his body.

There are only the two of them left in the whole world, private and quiet.

"Dr. Dukas, I'm sorry for ruining your arrangement tonight." Adam spoke first, and he looked directly at Hong Rui, trying his best to show an apologetic smile.

Hong Rui still didn't look at Adam, he pointed to the direction of the living room, "Sit down first, I'll go and change clothes."

The last time Adam came, he didn't turn on the lights, and he didn't look carefully at Hong Rui's home.Now he can clearly see that the entire first floor is an open living room, which looks very spacious because there is no kitchen.There is also a sun room in the deepest part.Adam knew that on the other side of the wall was Alimentum's reception.

Upstairs are Hongrui's bedroom, guest room and experimental kitchen.The experimental kitchen occupies the upstairs space of the Alimentum restaurant.There seemed to be a third floor, but Adam hadn't gone up.This house is much bigger than it looks from the outside.

The lights in the living room are on, and the minimalist decoration is used, with a dark brown leather sofa and a log coffee table.The lamps are all embedded in the ceiling, casting a soft and dim light.

Adam sat down in the middle of the sofa anxiously, looked around, his eyes swept across the door frequently.Hong Rui didn't make him wait long.After a while, Hong Rui changed back into his usual black sweater and cowboy boots, wearing glasses, and walked in with a tray in his hand.

Seeing Hong Rui's clothes, Adam couldn't help feeling a little disappointed.But Hong Rui didn't wear socks, and a section of ankle was exposed between the jeans and slippers. Adam lowered his head and secretly glanced at the white skin.He remembered the tactile sensation when his fingertips brushed the arch of Hong Rui's foot.

Hong Rui didn't notice Adam's gaze, he put down a cup of black coffee on the coffee table in front of Adam, and walked to the door with another cup in his hand to adjust the light in the living room.

The lights became brighter and the colors became colder, sweeping away the ambiguous atmosphere just now.This looks more like an office than a living room.For the first time Adam knew that light could play such an important role.

Hong Rui sat down on the other side of the sofa, and finally faced Adam and said, "What happened when you sent me home last time? Adam, I need you to tell me everything."

Adam took a sip of his coffee and settled himself.He described in chronological order what happened after he and Ting Nuo worked together to send Hong Rui to the car. He had already made up his mind to confess, so he did not hide that he originally only wanted to undo two buttons, but unexpectedly undid them. The third pill was opened, which triggered Hong Rui's subsequent actions.

Hong Rui listened expressionlessly, and occasionally lowered his head to drink the coffee in his cup, calmly as if he was listening to a stranger's story.

"I have been dreaming since then. In the dream, I dreamed that you didn't stop, but continued..." Adam paused, observing Hong Rui's expression. This was not the part Hong Rui asked him to say, but Hong Rui There was no objection, so Adam finally said what he had been brewing for several days: "That made me realize that I am not satisfied with standing at a safe distance of one meter away to see you. I want to stand closer to you Some, I want to feel your breath again. I want to kiss you, feel your touch and warmth with my own lips. God, I should have done that that night..."

Hong Rui suddenly stood up from the sofa, and Adam immediately fell silent.Hong Rui sat back on the sofa and put the coffee back on the coffee table.Adam saw him take a deep breath before saying, "Adam, you're curious about the same sex, and I'm the one who wakes you up, so you're projecting your feelings on me—I can understand that. But I didn't mean to. Satisfy your curiosity, Adam. I'm sure you'll find plenty of people if you try..."

"You know I didn't mean that, Hong Rui!" Adam interrupted Hong Rui suddenly, and called his name.Adam didn't flinch from Hong Rui's stern gaze, he insisted: "Don't fool me like a child, I know what I'm doing." Adam felt that he had to be more specific, because Hong Rui snorted , laughed mockingly.

Adam continued: "I do wonder, I've dated men, two — if you want to know the numbers, I know what that is."

He saw Hong Rui raised one eyebrow, obviously surprised by his experience.It worked, he started to take it seriously, and Adam worked up the courage to continue, "So I know it's different. I never felt in them what you did to me, and I never wanted it that much One person's response. Hong Rui, please don't doubt me anymore, I know I like you. So I am here now, begging you to give me a chance. I want you to be a part of my life, me too, I want you too to come into your life."

Hong Rui was shocked by Adam again.His eyes swept over Adam's face, repeatedly confirming the authenticity of Adam's words.

Adam put down the coffee cup in his hand, he hesitated for a while, kicked off his shoes, and crawled towards Hongrui on the sofa.

Adam's cheeks were flushed, and his lips were red and swollen from biting himself.He deliberately lowered his eyes to avoid Hong Rui's sight.He seemed to be putting all his eggs in one basket, or approaching Hong Rui wishfully.Adam hopes to touch Hong Rui immediately, but he is afraid of alarming Hong Rui.He suppressed his impatience and carefully observed Hong Rui's body language.He crawls slowly, but is very light and agile.The shoulder blades are arched on his back, showing the smooth waistline of the back.If Adam hadn't lowered his eyes, he could see Hong Rui's rolling Adam's apple.

Adam's palm covered the back of Hong Rui's hand on the sofa, and he clenched it gently.Adam still didn't dare to look into Hong Rui's eyes at this time, he was afraid of seeing rejection in them.

Adam lowered his eyes and spoke again with a trembling ending: "Hong Rui, you don't know how scared I was waiting here alone, I was afraid of what you were about to say, I was afraid that you would hate me, I even thought about asking Open the door and run. If you weren't sitting here, you might see me trembling. But I'm more afraid of missing a chance. I'm afraid that regrets will consume every sleepless night in the future. I'm afraid that one day you will tell me that you Wanted to give me a chance, and my cowardice ruined everything."

While speaking, Adam's shadow had completely enveloped Hong Rui.He knelt beside Hong Rui, leaned over to stare at Hong Rui's slightly parted lips in surprise, and made a soft request: "Hong Rui, I really like you, can you give me a chance?"

His eyes were pious and pure, as if he was expressing his most sincere wishes to the gods.Then Adam closed those eyes, trying to close the last inch of distance between him and Hong Rui.

Adam's cautious and shy demeanor completely bewitched Hong Rui, and in the blink of an eye, Adam's face was already close to his lips.

The young man's hasty and scorching breath, like a summer breeze passing through green leaves, full of vigor and hope, fell on his cheeks.

Golden hair hung down on his forehead like soft golden threads.

"Hong Rui, I like you, do you like me?" Someone asked him in the shadow under the tree.With his eyes closed, he could only see the spots of sunlight on his retinas.He could hear the air of confidence just by listening to the words, and he liked the look of self-satisfaction.He didn't open his eyes, but curled the corners of his mouth.

Don't answer.He heard his own snarl, don't answer it, it's all over.

Adam's nose had already touched the tip of his nose, Hong Rui seemed to wake up from a dream, and suddenly grabbed Adam's palm with force.

Adam only felt a pain in his wrist, and before he could resist, he was pinned on the back of the sofa by Hong Rui.

"Ooooh!" Adam screamed. "My shoulder! It's not all right!" He hadn't expected it to turn out like this.He just wanted to kiss Hong Rui, but Hong Rui cut his hands behind his back and pressed his face into the back of the sofa like he was treating a terrorist.This isn't fun, it's a real attack.

"Sorry." Hong Rui quickly let go of his hand, got up from the sofa and moved away from Adam.

Hong Rui apologized?The action of pulling Adam's shoulders paused because of this sentence, and he couldn't believe it.Hong Rui was even more annoyed, but this time he didn't say anything.He looked down at Adam's wrist for finger marks or bruises.

He didn't explain the overreaction just now, and Adam didn't dare to do it again.Adam put his feet down on the sofa, sat on the sofa in a regular manner and looked up at Hong Rui—even though he already knew the answer, Adam looked at Hong Rui stubbornly, waiting for Hong Rui to give a clear judgment.

Those eyes were full of anticipation and sadness, so smooth that tears would flow down at any moment.Hong Rui was upset and felt it was difficult to breathe.Adam asked again: "Hong Rui, no matter what I say, you are determined to reject me, aren't you? Why?"

"Because it's not fair." Hong Rui sighed, rubbed his cheeks with his hands, and sat down on the tea table in front of Adam.His knee was touching Adam's, but he didn't notice.Hong Rui let out a long breath and said, "That's not fair to me."

Adam didn't understand.

Hong Rui picked up his cup, took a sip of coffee, and said, "Do you know the story of Maxine and Piero, Adam?"

Adam hesitated for a moment, nodded and answered, "I probably know, they had a relationship once."

"You are just like Maxine at the time, obsessed with Piero, her mentor at the time. We all know the final direction of this relationship. Adam, I can take you to bed at your will, but I won't. Because you, like Maxine at the time, don't know what you're doing. You're a mess in your head, you confuse admiration and love for me, rely on my knowledge and resources and treat them as tenderness, and you can't see the real Hongrui Dukas."

"No..." Adam retorted, Hong Rui put his hand between his lips, Adam suddenly fell silent, and Hong Rui continued: "Maybe you will love me, but what you love is a statue named Dukas. Adam, you Very smart, as smart as Maxine, that means you will grow up quickly, and one day you will have your own opinions, your own will. Then you will find that I am not the perfect person you imagined— —I'm not omnipotent. I start to be unhelpful, you stop looking up to me, you start to be disappointed, we start to fight, and you leave like Maxine."

"I don't like you because you can help me..."

"You don't understand me, kid." Hong Rui sighed lowly, he stared at the floor with his head down, Adam had never seen Hong Rui like this before, Hong Rui said with difficulty: "What am I to you? Adam, think about it. A mentor, a sage? Someone you can always turn to for help and answers? But you forget who I am at the very core—an ordinary man. I’m not a genius, every part of me There are scars and bitter fruits behind my achievements. I will also have moments of frustration and powerlessness. One day I will let you down, I will make you hurt. But also, I will love you, your weakness, your ignorance Arrogance, your innocence and impulsiveness, just like I love your talent and passion. But Adam, you can't love me like I love you, and you never can, because you can't see Hongrui Duka as an ordinary man If you don't, you can't accept the real me."

It wasn't his words, maybe his body language, maybe his tone, something about Hong Rui deeply shocked Adam.Adam was momentarily speechless.

He thought, Hong Rui has always been irrefutable, and his words have always been reasonable.But today, Adam felt that what he said was not right, at least not quite right.

But he also understood that no matter what he said, it could not change Hong Rui's decision at the moment.

Adam nodded, stood up and bowed 90 degrees to Hong Rui and said, "Thank you for telling me your thoughts frankly." Hong Rui sat where he was and nodded in response.

Adam put on his shoes and walked towards the door.When he walked to the door, he looked back at Hong Rui and asked, "Can I call you Hong Rui?"

"You already called that, didn't you?" Hong Rui was not angry, and his tone was calm.

"Hong Rui, good night."

After Adam finished speaking, he left Hongrui's house.

When Adam came home, he saw Kara still sitting in the living room watching TV, leaning forward and back laughing with her pillow in her arms.Cara saw him enter the house and said, a little surprised, "I thought you were going to spend the night there tonight. Going well?"

Adam tried to pull a smile, but nothing came out of him.Kara asked, "What happened?"

Adam had to tell the whole story of the night, skipping Rudy and making Carla think he was in love with a girl.He didn't want to cause Hong Rui any trouble.

After Kara finished listening, she asked, "You just left?"

Adam nodded.He suddenly suffered a critical blow on the head, Adam covered his head and looked at Kara in disbelief.Carla said, "Why does she say that you just regard her as an idol? She is not you, how does she know what you think of her? Can this woman be more self-sufficient? It's so annoying to make decisions for others without authorization. No, I'm going to talk to her, is there such a bully?"

"Can you keep your voice down? The neighbors are all asleep." Adam grabbed Kara's body who was about to rush out the door, "What are you doing, you don't even know where they live."

"As for you, you just came back in such a disheveled way." Kara poked Adam's shoulder vigorously with her finger, and said once, with a bit of resentment: "I have shaved my face for several days, and I was outside the window of someone else's house." After waiting all night, she was rushed back by a few words from others. If she thinks that you just admire her talent and knowledge instead of liking her, why can't she just like you now because of your youth and appearance? , When you get fat and old, you will empathize with her. If I were you, I would answer her like this!"

Adam covered his shoulders and looked at Cara with anger but did not dare to speak. The look of being wronged outside and going home alone to lick the wound made Cara feel soft. Cara sighed and said, "Adam, you can't separate a person's heart." It is normal for you to be attracted by the combination of the three. I believe you have met outstanding people before, but you I have never liked them so much. If you still question your own intentions, you just need to ask yourself one sentence, if one day she has nothing and becomes your burden and burden, do you still want to be with her?"

Adam couldn't imagine such a scene, Hong Rui lived so proudly, how could he be reduced to such a point.But he thought again, if one day Hong Rui could no longer explain his doubts, would he still like Hong Rui as much as now?

He thought about it, and felt that as long as Hong Rui still smiled at him, he would still like Hong Rui.He likes to see Hong Rui's smile, which brings Adam the satisfaction of the whole world.

Adam breathed a sigh of relief. When he came back, he had been thinking about Hong Rui's reaction.Now that he sensed the source of the violation in Hong Rui's words, the way forward became clear.Hong Rui was afraid. He was like Adam who was left alone in the living room waiting. He was afraid because of the emotional uncertainty of the other party, so Hong Rui closed the door first.

But it didn't hurt his image in Adam's mind at all.On the contrary, Adam felt happy, because he finally started to see the real Hongrui under the statue of Dukas, and this was the first difficulty he had to overcome.

Adam rested his chin on Carla's head, hugged Carla and said, "I see, Carla, thank you. I know what to do next."

After waiting for Carla to go to bed, Adam took out the note in his breast pocket.

He texted the number: "Hi Rudy, it's Adam. We met earlier in Notting Hill."

PS: Most of my dishes have recipes.The three dishes that Adam cooks for Hongrui in this chapter are from Welcome to the Closing Restaurant.If you like one in particular, you can ask me to sort it out.