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Of course, the moment he heard the news of his death, he reacted immediately, and soon realized the fact that he would never see him again, and he would never hear his nonsense, and then grief struck, and after that, he began to think about the future something happened.

I seem to have a lot of experience with the death of someone close to me, but actually I am not, it was just a time before, when I was a little bit about to die, and this was the realization at that time.The understanding of the meaning of death, what it means to others, and how I hope my friend will face this fact in the future.Although at that time it was deeply realized that few people would feel sad for me.

The old and young masters are also in the same tragic situation. After hearing the news of his death, besides me, the one who reacted a little bit was the child he picked up earlier.A look of astonishment.Then BOSS, he attacked more often in the year, so he didn't mind. As for the subordinates of the old and young master, it was probably because he usually treated them badly, and he always acted alone, and no one took him with him. The subordinates He didn't care much about whether he was dead or alive, but only cared about who would succeed him later.

It's the same at the funeral, a bunch of people go there, most of them don't quite know what they are here for today, and the ultimate goal is just to support the show, pretending to be very sad and loyal, don't It's good to be picked on by others.In the end, when the old and young master was thrown into the stove, not many people went up to see it.

In the end, he, who should have been pale, was burnt into a pile of dusty powdery objects.

When I saw him like this, I was sure - after he died, he must be buried.

If he can't keep his paleness, at least I want to keep my blackness that doesn't see the sun.

At that time, I was still very calm. I never thought that I could be so calm. The sadness when I first heard the news of the death passed, and I have been thinking about the future. How should I survive? The two he picked up Son, he was still looking forward to it, and told me that when he decided to retire completely one day, he asked the elder brother in the twins to be the chief of the "Pursuit and Anti-Pursuit Department", and the younger brother replaced the "Black History Department". Ministry" that scheming old man.

At that time, anyway, there was an idea in my heart, and there were paper and pen next to it, so I walked to the desk with a dejected look, picked up the pen, and wrote down on the paper what I thought in my heart. There are still some characters that elementary school students can’t write at the third grade level. At that time, I was too excited to write. I felt that looking through the dictionary would interrupt my train of thought, so I directly wrote Pinyin. After I finished writing, I was too lazy to write The pinyin was replaced with Chinese characters, and no typos were checked, so it was hidden in a small corner.

Anyway, it is to express what I think in my heart from his perspective. In fact, it is very simple. I can write whatever I think in my heart. Anyway, we are so familiar with it, so there should be no mistakes.Besides, it doesn't matter if it's wrong, and he doesn't know.

I don't know exactly what I wrote, anyway, it's just a quick thing.If you just want to talk about it roughly, you can also describe it a little bit. To put it simply, it is like an apology letter to me.The ending is quite weird, he asked me to write down his death method when burning the paper, and put it in the paper and burn it for him to see.

I'm not ashamed of writing an apology letter under a fake name, because he should have written it in the first place.I said so much nonsense before, which made me look forward to the "later" in the nonsense, and then I died without knowing why.I just wrote what I wanted to hear, the apology he should have said to me.

In fact, it feels a little crazy.

After that, after a long time, when I almost emptied my brain, I went to look for that letter again, just like looking for a time capsule, and like most of the endings of looking for a time capsule, I didn't find it at all.Obviously, a hole was dug at the place where it was buried before, but there was nothing in the hole, probably dug away by someone who was bored.

In fact, after writing that letter, I probably used up all the batteries I charged in that year. I could calmly plan for the future before, but now I can’t do it anymore, and I fell down on the ground with a "boom". In the reception room, because this old mountain forest villa has never had any guests, it has always been my bedroom. I have basically lived here since I first moved to this old villa. The sofa is really comfortable to sleep on.

Of course, after writing that letter, I lay down on the sofa in a state of exhaustion, not because I was comfortable, but because I was really exhausted.

I was so imaginary that I couldn't even think. During that time, my youth was spent day after day in a daze.In the beginning, there were the two children picked up by the old and young master to accompany me, but as time went by, they felt bored, so they ran away. The two brothers went somewhere to cultivate their relationship.

Then, I stayed alone in a daze, and finally, because the medicine dripped in my body, I felt very painful, so I had to think, and had to go out to the hospital to ask the doctor to change the medicine for me.

It was that time when I picked up Shi Xiaofeng and didn't play with him much. After I came back, my life was no different from usual, and I was still in a daze. I just heard from the old man who came over occasionally that Shi Xiaofeng is now bringing the child picked up by the two old and young masters, Had a great time and then there was nothing else.

In fact, there is more. Not long after, I heard from them that they seem to have found the old and young master's will, saying that Zhang Haoran is going to be the head of the "Department of Pursuit and Anti-Pursuit". Make Zhang Weiran the head of the "Black History Department".Originally, they disagreed, but the boss agreed, and no one spoke after that.

He called me Big Sister, and asked me to persuade the BOSS that the "Black History Department" and the "Pursuit and Anti-Pursuit Department" are our two pillars, and we must not be defeated by the picked children.

Of course, my focus is not what he said, but that he called me "big sister".In fact, it feels very strange. When did I start to be called that?I recall carefully, but I still can’t recall. After careful observation, I discovered an amazing fact—from the time I was 9 years old, when I first came here, until now, only the old and young masters are clear in my memories, and, in The previous memory was also blurred because of the scalding scalding water, so blurred that only the figure of the old and young master could be vaguely seen.

Then can this be said in other words, just say: "From the beginning to the end, I have only one person in my eyes."

Because he is the only one in his eyes, he can only hear what he said clearly, and only show his original appearance to him.The reason why I can't hear others calling me "big sister" is because he doesn't know how to call me that.And the reason why I can hear it now is because he is no longer there.

I suddenly missed him and wanted to call him, but when the words came to my lips, I called him "Old and Young Master" again, instead of the name I wanted to call at the beginning and now-"Brother Volcano".

Sure enough, I'm not such a virgin, I can't simply plug my ears just because I like him a little bit, and don't listen to anything other than him.

After all, the title "Old and Young Master" was originally what everyone else except me called him.

I also regret this, I failed to hold on to the unique address that only I have for him, maybe when he was alive, when I called him for the last time, I still used the ordinary address of "Old and Young Master" instead of the unique address. "Brother Volcano".

In fact, if you want to call him that again, you can do it as many times as you can.

However, looking back at him, he did not change his address because the people around him called me "big sister". In the end, although it was a name, I am sure that when he called me for the last time before his death, he also used the unique name other than him. His nickname - Di Yusi.

In fact, if it is this aspect, the person who should really apologize seems to be me.

I began to recall him, from the first time we met by the small river bend, to after he was adopted, the two of us separated with little impression, and then we went to the hospital with a ladle of boiling water, and lived in the old mountain forest for a long time for the first time. Although the villa has always been lonely, but fortunately he came to me from time to time.

At this moment, someone seemed to have spoken, and he was belatedly reporting to me, the old and young master... No, it was the cause of Huo Huan's death. It seemed that he accidentally encountered the target's fiancée during the mission, and was later told After a meal, he shot himself because he couldn't bear it in his heart.

At this time, I suddenly remembered a previous news, a boy scolded him every day because he couldn't stand him, and then jumped from the 13th floor.

Just judging from his report, it seems that Huo Huan's death is similar to this boy's, but I know very well that he would not do such a stupid thing.Suicide is believed, because I am very confident in him, maybe no one can kill him except himself.

Even after talking so much nonsense, he was able to shoot himself without hesitation...

But there must be his reasons for this, and I have a vague feeling that I may be able to deduce this reason.

The man withdrew, and I continued to remember, I don’t know why, I am sure, the reason for his suicide is not in my memory before the age of 13, but in the two years of 13 and 14, the two of us chased and killed him together in the memories of others.