critical value

Being the eldest sister in Zhili is really easy. I don’t have to do anything all day long, and I’m not even allowed to move the medicines, because this matter has always been arranged by the eldest lady, although it has always been unsatisfactory... ...

In short, I am now the Zhili of the eldest sister, and it feels like the first few days when I first arrived in Zhangbu, following Zhang Weiran to watch the limited edition zombie comics he has collected for many years.But not long after, Zhang Weiran kicked him into the lobby to be a typewriter... and he had to listen to the complaints of other minions and keep silent. During that time, I don’t know if it was me now It's changed, I feel like I'm living a twisted life...

I hope that Zhili, who is the eldest sister, will not end up like this in the end.

But Zhang Weiran's heart is also quite open, Shi Xiaofeng came back from harakiri, I called to ask for leave, he not only approved, but also allowed me to follow Shi Xiaofeng all the time in the future, and never have to go back~

Probably because I have changed, I always feel that the few words he said at that time, now I think of them inexplicably, there are some hidden meanings, such as some very arrogant complaints: "You still dare to call to ask for leave? Okay, I remember you It's gone! Don't come back in the future!"

That's right.

The Chinese New Year is coming up in the last two days, and Dugu Yiyang has been busy day and night, making food. Although there are only a few of us, he still seems to be working very hard. Boss is now spending days and nights in the reading room with the young miss, looking at a lot of Mary Su novels that she self-published, and the two of them giggled "ah ha ha ha".Shi Xiaofeng is now sitting alone in a small corner of the desk day and night. He looks melancholy, and sometimes reveals a faint anger. According to my standards, he is already sitting upright, holding a pen and drawing on paper. Under the ghost painting.

Occasionally I went to peek a few times. His state is different from the previous few days. His writing has become much firmer, and his expression seems to have changed. Although the words are still ugly and basically unrecognizable... But it doesn't matter. , this is not a means of defense - the words are so ugly that they form a kind of password...

Then there was me and the eldest lady, the two of us nestled in the reception room, using the WIFI with the best signal, and playing with our mobile phones.Although the distance is never a few meters all day long, and you can see each other just by looking up, and sometimes the dregs of my snacks will stick to her infusion tube, but the two of them don't speak more than three words in a day. What is certain is that neither side is thinking about the other's affairs...

Sometimes when I look up casually, I can see the head of the eldest sister. Obviously the phone has automatically hibernated, but she is still staring at the phone with a very focused expression.Maybe I have never experienced her emotions, but I have watched so many anime, and I can still feel some concrete words—this kind of expression represents nostalgia.

Suddenly, I felt that the image of the eldest sister in my heart collapsed. She used to be a model of Sagittarius in my eyes. Although I found out that she is a Libra woman recently, she still has not changed my unshakable position in my heart——every time she is a Like the old Huyou, "Ahahaha" with a look of indifference, "Ahahaha" very relieved to say things that others cannot bear, whether it is gossip magazines or other things that make people feel righteous indignation, they are completely unbearable. got her thinking...

It's so light that it doesn't seem to be living in this world. I think the Sagittarius is the one who can feel this way, right?Of course, this does not rule out the reasons for the narcissism of my constellation...

In fact, the eldest sister is a little bit unlike a Sagittarius, because she seems to have a little bit of empathy. Of course, it cannot be ruled out that she was lucky and happened to guess right.Sometimes, when I stare at the phone in a daze, and I don’t know why, when I gradually feel very sad, she will say: "Go upstairs and see Shi Xiaofeng."

Maybe it's because I've been playing with my mobile phone for too long, but I just said "oh", willingly, and went upstairs as if I was very well-behaved.But in fact, I also know very well in my heart that this is because the eldest sister just guessed what I wanted to do, and her order was exactly what I thought in my heart, so I didn't even think about it, and carried it out willingly.

Shi Xiaofeng didn't sit upright at the desk most of the time and write quickly. In fact, he was in a daze most of the time, with no expression on his face. His lips were slightly parted, and he stared blankly at the front. I can still remember this expression so vividly...

Probably because I watched it for a long time, as long as he was in a daze, I watched him for as long as possible.

I also do this when I have nothing to do other than wasting my youth......

But occasionally, Shi Xiaofeng's mind will return to normal, but of course it is only a very small amount of time, and there are often no rules to follow during this time.

At this time, he would often chat with me about a lot of boring things, such as just poking my forehead, and then saying something like: "You still haven't changed.", "You are still so kind.", "You are still not very good." Talk.", "You still don't have any friends."......

When I heard these words at that time, my heart was full of "contempt", and I felt that I had obviously changed, and I was no longer what I used to be, because I had new insights into many things, as if I had a little enlightenment, as if I understood a lot of great truths, and then I looked amazing.

In fact, when I think about it now, the feeling I feel is nostalgia—the look on the face of the big sister.I always feel that I really want him to poke my forehead like before and say something, even if I don’t repeat all the words that treat me like a child, the only thing I want to hear is the most important one. Just one sentence: "You still haven't changed."

How nice it would be if nothing changed...

In fact, there is one thing that I regret very much since that time, because there is something I want to say to Shi Xiaofeng. I have thought about it for a long time, and I want to say: "I'm sorry." But thinking about it, he probably can't at all. You know what I'm talking about.

So I haven't said anything, really until now, even talking about something feels like a waste of time now.

I don't know why, but I didn't trust Shi Xiaofeng's words at that time, and I always felt that as long as he said things, they were all made up.Two people... It should be that I unilaterally have no trust in him, but he should have a lot of trust in me, otherwise he wouldn't have said those words...

It's really strange, this kind of unilateral trust, our relationship at that time should not have faded, because I can still recall, I think about some interesting things all the time, and want to tell him when he occasionally returns to normal Listen, hope he picks himself up.In fact, it's a good thing I didn't say it at that time, because no one laughs when Sagittarius tells jokes......

Carefully recalling Shi Xiaofeng that day seemed to be in the morning or in the afternoon. Anyway, it was what he said during the day. I can’t remember those contents very clearly now, because I didn’t pay attention to them at that time, probably because he has been living a rough life recently. , I have been twisting from the past, sacrificing myself again and again for some things that are not necessary at all, such a story...

This is of course not the point, the point is that while he was talking, his eyes suddenly began to tremble vividly, as if he was trying to hold back tears, but in the end he couldn’t hold back, and cried on my arm... .