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"Through the green bushes, not a single leaf touches the body." - "Diamond Sutra"

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When I woke up the next morning, I found that Shi Xiaofeng was no longer beside me. The bedding was still in a wrinkled and rolled up shape, but it was completely cold when I touched it with my hands... I don’t know why I always feel this scene Some familiarity, it seems to be back to the early spring of this year, the whole city was still shrouded in the severe cold of winter, Shi Xiaofeng failed to accompany me to wait until the spring, and left suddenly, there is a similarity between that time and now... .. It's just that we haven't waited until winter.

In fact, it is different, after all, it was Shi Xiaofeng's promise to me at that time, but now it has completely become his own wishful thinking. Besides, he can accompany me until the winter, and the two of us can get tired of it as a matter of course.He was indeed troubled by something, since that time when he left, otherwise, why would that straightforward personality leave without saying anything, and leave suddenly by himself?

What is it?I'm so curious...

I silently tidied up the quilts, stuffed them all into the closet, put down the small table, made tea and drank, and then thought about Shi Xiaofeng's affairs in a big way, why is he bothered?After thinking about a lot of strange reasons, one of them popped up in the end—I was urged to marry by my parents.

Suddenly I wanted to laugh, so I spit out a sip of tea, slapped the table hard, and smirked "ah ha ha ha".

But after laughing, I feel empty again.Feeling empty for a few seconds and then feeling ridiculous, just urge me, it’s none of my business?If you think about it carefully, it's unlikely. Shi Xiaofeng is only 23 years old this year. Even though it's the end of the year, he will only be 24 next year. As for reminding him?Doesn't he have an older brother?The pressure to urge marriage should be less~

Like me, I don’t have to worry about being urged to marry for the rest of my life, because I still don’t even know who my parents are.There should be parents, or at least I once had them. After all, I don’t think I have any trauma about my parents in my heart.There must be, but I have forgotten it unconscionably.Even crows feed back, but I'm not even as good as crows...

I don't want this anymore, looking for abuse...

Where is Shi Xiaofeng now?Did you go to Sichuan like in early spring?Looking for his brother... I would have told him if I knew it earlier, but "Your brother is the villain of this season, don't play with him anymore!" Although I don't know if others will say this, But I can't do it, after all, he is so happy when he sees his brother, like a puppy...

Shi Xiaofeng...

Arnie K

I don't know when he will come back... I really hope it will be sooner, don't make me wait for the first half of the year like this time... I also hope that he will stop hooking up with other girls, obviously There are so many things to do and there is still time to be dumped by others and become someone else's servant, and how much the Lun family's sister has eaten to live to this age, it is too much for the Lun family to waste their precious youth on Shi Xiaofeng, that avant-garde snake spirit It's so cruel...

Not only ruined the lives of the girls of the Lun family, but also caused their parents to part with a long sigh... I don’t know why, thinking of this, I want to laugh inexplicably, and almost spit out a sip of tea, but smart people have to eat for a long time Ichi, I didn't spit out like just now, but tried hard to hold back.Why do you want to laugh so much?Maybe the wording is too weird...

He should be back soon. After the Chinese New Year, his family should let him go free for a while no matter what, and then we should be able to meet again, right?must.

Then the two of you can stay in the small apartment again... Ah, what is my obsession with the small apartment?

But to be honest, if I can choose, I really want to spend this winter with you like the last winter.But he had something to do, so he had to give up, but it didn't matter, didn't we spend this autumn like last winter?

That day I kept drinking the cold tea like this, persuading myself for a long time.

In fact, if you think about it carefully, I understand. I am not stupid. After the last winter, spring, summer, and autumn, now the leaves are falling, and winter will probably come soon... I always feel that the last one is really worry-free The worry-free winter has passed for a long time, and this troubled autumn is really different from that time...Then what should I rely on to support my waiting in the future?

After staying in this apartment for a while, because I was really lonely and bored by myself, I wanted to go to Big Sister and Zhang Weiran.I had contacted them before, and the half-year-long extermination of rats was finally over, and they have now moved back to live in the old villa in the mountains.But I don't know if the old villa in the mountain forest will be very cold in winter... No, after all, the eldest sister's head is a greenhouse potted plant that has given up treatment.

Then just talk to them and go.The eldest sister said "Okay, there are so many people", Zhang Weiran said "Okay, anyway, I don't care about anyone".Well, that's about it.

But I was really too stupid at the time to hear the deep meaning from their words.To put it simply, there are many people in the old villa in the forest. I only found out when I went there with a bag of clothes on my back. It seems that the boss has been bored recently, or he wants to check the results of rodent control, or he simply wants to My daughter is gone. Anyway, I came to this wilderness for just a few reasons. I don’t know what’s going on recently. A lot of great uncles have followed, and they also brought their son who was in the internship stage.

Then, the eldest sister told me that the old villa in the mountain forest hadn't been so lively for several years, and it was a pity that those mice had never enjoyed the lively atmosphere in their entire lives.I think it is because of the existence of mice that there has been no excitement here...

Those uncles and their sons are also the kind of ignorant and incompetent Qing Dynasty overseas students (tortured to death by reading in Chinese class), and now they stay in the old villa in the mountains and forests all day long and do nothing, just like the big sister , A bunch of people are nestled in the living room, chatting and playing with their mobile phones, or they ran to the conference room on the fourth floor because of the boring call of the boss, just like Shi Xiaofeng said, everyone is watching pornographic movies, anime and novels, If the BOSS suddenly calls someone up to answer the question like a primary school teacher, they will just copy a passage from the middle school composition paper......

But speaking of it, I was lucky enough to see this scene because the elder sister felt that everyone was having fun, Zhang Weiran ignored everyone watching anime, and it was so pitiful to leave me alone outside, and then let me use her He ran in as his little follower, and told me: "If you want to listen to it, no one cares. Anyway, it's something like appreciation of ancient poems."

The character setting of this group of people is really different from what I imagined...