critical value

Seeing him standing in front of me now, I really want to explain to him about my fever; thinking of the waiting that chilled me just now, I really want to pin him in a corner and beat him up; of course, I really want to question him: "Where did you go just now? Knowing that I'm here waiting for you, why don't you come here sooner! Test my patience? If you want to abandon me, don't come back!" Various...

But in the end my first words condensed into a very calm one: "Why is it so late today?"

He was standing on my right hand pushing his bicycle, looking at me from the upward angle that can make other people cute from the inside out, and said, "I'm taking an exam in No. [-] Middle School today. Don't you know?"

I was helpless when I heard him say that, why did it suddenly become my fault in the end? (Hold forehead + want to cry but no tears), and in the end, I can only ask calmly: "Why did you take the exam in No. [-] Middle School and didn't tell me..."

"The Fourth Middle School and the Eighth Middle School are good friends, don't you know?"

Why do I have to know these things...

I pursed my lips wanting to cry without tears, and heard him continue: "I know this because I was at the same table, and he engraved 'Hold your hand and grow old with you' on his friend's cup with a compass." Four high schools and eight high schools', so four high schools and eight high schools must be good friends." Huh?And this thing? "My deskmate is so unscrupulous. I can see that he has at least three gay friends. He is at the front desk, he is at the back desk, and the other is a college bully from the next class."

"(stupid)......"

"What's wrong with you? Why are you staring at me with such innocent little eyes?"

So he walked a long way from No. [-] Middle School to find me at the gate of No. [-] Middle School?Normally at this time, I should ask: "Do I need to wait for you at the gate of No. [-] Middle School in the future?" But in fact, I did ask.

He replied: "If you are such a road idiot, can you find it? The Fourth Middle School is in a remote village far away from death. It takes me more than half an hour to ride a bicycle from my house."

"Then I'll drive you?"

At this time, he suddenly looked at me with a very suspicious and contemptuous look, and said calmly, with a bit of permeation: "Don't hit my classmate to death."

Nani?I was speechless... So I could only say "haha" in a strange voice, and the next day I sat at the gate of the No. [-] Middle School and waited for him as usual, and I still waited for half a day in the milk tea house After more than an hour, the girls came out.I was already drowsy, the feeling of wanting to sleep but not daring to fall asleep reminded me of every Chinese class in junior high school...

I suddenly had the illusion of dreaming back to junior high school. I leaned my head against the wall, or put it on my arm, and suddenly fell into a half-dead sleep. Then at this time, the Chinese teacher appeared behind me and yelled sharply: "... ..."

"I've always wondered, why do you sit at the gate of our school every day? Is there anything interesting?"

Then it would often scare me to jump up from the seat... Today I did jump up from the seat, and hit the small plastic chair to the ground, making a "boom" sound .However, when I looked behind in horror, I didn't see the respectable and lovely Chinese teacher in junior high school, but saw epilepsy. Only then did I realize that the tone of the sentence just now was so flat that it penetrated people, not the Chinese teacher. Shouting.

......

"Hey, epilepsy." I grinned, showing less than eight teeth as usual, and smiled shyly with a half-smile, and he replied in a routine as usual: "Hey, Arnie K. "Then he looked at me with a cold look.I guess he is forcing me to answer the question just now, but in fact, I come to the school gate every day to wait for him, but I can't say this reason, especially looking at his indifferent little boy with contempt The look in my eyes made me even more speechless. I racked my brains and tried my best to come up with a reason that seemed to be relatively credible.

Then it suddenly occurred to me that when I first came to this city and had nothing to do, even though I have nothing to do now, it was the first time I sat at the gate of this middle school. Congestion, the parents who pick up and drop off the students don't take the safety of the students' lives at heart so they sit here. They just want to watch a tragic car accident, preferably the kind that rolls people into the wheels.

"Oh, I came to see the car accident, but after watching it for so long, I didn't expect the law and order at the gate of your school to be quite good. I haven't seen it and just sat here..."

"Well, in fact, you can drive yourself and hit someone."

In fact, I wanted to pretend to be 13 at that time, so I changed a very serious expression, stared at him intently, made a very appropriate pause before speaking, and the tone was very perfect-this is what I have been the chief executive for many years Speaking from experience.I said, "I just want to stand aside and watch the excitement, and I don't have the desire to involve myself in it."

He also looked at me with a very serious expression, obviously looking up at the same angle as usual, but inexplicably, it made people feel not cute, but rather cruel and scary, and even a bit fierce, as if he was about to charge up in the next second Tear me into three or four pieces with bare hands.

That day was what I thought was the last time, ah, no, it seemed to be the penultimate time I sat waiting for him at the gate of No. [-] Middle School, and the next time would be not long after, when he went to the school to attend the graduation ceremony.On the way to escort him home that day, I lamented how the senior high school entrance exam is so fast now. I used to take the exam for four days, but you guys finished it in two days.He told me that the papers of political history and materialization are combined, the test time is shortened, the score of each question is higher, and all kinds of facts make people want to die.

Finally, I suddenly recalled a very sharp question: "Oh, by the way, how did you do in the high school entrance examination? Do you think you can go to high school?"

He rolled my eyes at me with a small look of jealousy and contempt, and said, "Of course, don't think that everyone is the same as you."

WHAT?

What did he just say?So I was hot, tangled and guilty the whole night before yesterday. I tossed and turned worrying that he would not be able to pass the high school. I was worried all night, but it was all for nothing, and he complained: "Don't think everyone is like you."

......

Forget it, everything will be fine if you pass the exam...

In this way, I did not directly or indirectly entrap someone's life.

The graduation ceremony ended in the afternoon of the second day. Although the other grades were still in class and sprinting for the final exam, the third grade of junior high school secretly held the graduation ceremony under the leadership of the teachers. I saw a group of students from behind the fence. Running wildly on the playground, wearing class uniforms that actually have no personality, and taking pictures, and then it’s the routine that everyone knows, throwing me into the fountain if you can do anything in the high school entrance examination!” Throwing them all into the fountain, a group of good friends hugged and cried, vowed to be in the same school and class in high school, and then it seemed nothing...

When I saw them being summoned by the head teacher to form a pile, piled crookedly in front of the awarding platform and listening to the principal's speech, I knew that the graduation ceremony was almost over, so I went back to the small shop in front of the school, eating Oden and cooking. After the show ended, the epilepsy slowly came out.

——Actually, that day, I hoped inexplicably that he didn’t walk out of the campus slowly by himself, but chatted with a bunch of classmates, surrounded by a bunch of crying dead people.

However, piles of crying people passed by, but I didn't find the epilepsy in the crowd. It was still the same as usual. When everyone was almost gone, I saw him staring at his toes alone. , wandering slowly from the school gate.At that moment, I really felt a little desperate for him - he really has no friends...

This kind of loneliness has basically never happened to me a few times in my life. I usually integrate quickly when I arrive in a new environment. For fun, there are also times when we are reluctant to part with all kinds of reluctance. It seems to me that I have never been so lonely like him.

In fact, it’s not always the case. Although I’m surrounded by a lot of people, and I’ve been surrounded by stars since I was a child, I’m still alone. I don’t know when it started. It has become an unattainable vocabulary. It seems that I have not spoken my heart for a long time. It seems that I have been used to showing my best side to others for a long time. It is even more impossible to express my fragile side. When?Like from the very beginning.I am afraid that this situation will continue until the end of the moment.

That day I escorted him home as usual. At that time, I thought it was the last time that I would accompany him along this alley surrounded by creepers, but it was not the case. His high school life was also spent in No. [-] Middle School. .....

At the beginning, both of them were silent, maybe they thought there was nothing to talk about, but at least one idea after another flashed in my mind in a mess, each thought could make up a topic to make him happy, and in the end so much I wanted to say If you want to talk, the topic you want to talk about becomes one sentence: "Do you have any friends you can't bear to part with?"

He said: "It's okay, everyone is not the same as friends and friends?"

At that time, I really wanted to pretend to be the tone of my father in the TV series: "You can't say that, it's wrong." But after thinking about it, I also felt the same, so I had to give up.However, those of us who can live so long without psychopaths beheading children at the gate of the kindergarten are, after all, because we once met friends who really made friends with each other. The time of that kind of friendship may not be long, and the remaining memories will be enough Warm my lifelong friend.

I still remember when the high school entrance examination was over, I rushed to the examination room next door with a basketball in my arms, and yelled at the group of cronies: "Let's go! Go play!"

And the response I received was: "Tch—still playing ball!"

If it was earlier, I hadn’t been stabbed by my brother, and I could have stayed in Sichuan with my group of bad friends. If I rushed to the examination room next door with a basketball in my arms, and yelled at them Shout: "Go! Play ball!"

The response received must have been the unanimous answer of the trio of Wang Jiafang: "Go! Go play!"

But what's the use of thinking about it now?Since it is clear that it is irreparable, it is just adding to the pain.