critical value

Of course I couldn’t just think so dryly that day, and continued the mode of lying on the bed and playing with my mobile phone—thinking about things while playing with my mobile phone. When I was sitting at the gate of the school that day, I still remember that I was bored watching Author of an SM novel.

Then I gradually entered a state of ecstasy. Of course, I didn’t read SM novels, but was entangled between Zhang Haoran and epilepsy. I listed the various advantages of these two people over and over again in my mind, and then started from the advantages. Extending all kinds of concerns and realities, it's like writing a paper and then quickly writing a refutation paper to refute it-very nervous.Just like Hu Shi and Brother Xun, they obviously belonged to the same camp, and the history of junior high school put them in the same class, but these two people have been tearing each other apart for N years......

This analogy seems inappropriate...

In short, it’s all about tearing yourself apart, proposing an advantage of Zhang Haoran, and then recalling the reality, and finally can only sigh: "horrible Scorpio man"; proposing an advantage of epilepsy, and then starting various extensions, citing society All kinds of duplicity and deceitful people in novels, TV dramas, sighed: "We have only known each other for a few days?".Gradually, I became distrustful of epilepsy, feeling that the objective and subjective relationship between two people is not very suitable, and there is no hope at all.

In fact, at that moment, my heart was quite empty and lost.

When I read SM novels, the plot only flashes in a certain area of ​​my brain that can be remembered for 3-5 seconds instantly, and my fingers swipe across page after page as if I am very absorbed in reading it.Maybe some people passed by me and didn't notice my obscene and perverted appearance, or maybe some people saw it, but those who were educated by bullies were unwilling or afraid to talk to people like me The first half of the dime relationship, so quickly ran away.

——Suddenly, I feel that this is what ordinary people should look like. These ordinary and ordinary people have the same face except for the stories hidden in their hearts. To be in a world without being able to touch at all...that's the relationship I should have with ordinary people.

So is epilepsy.

The finger swiped faster on the screen, and not only turned the page backward, but also turned forward as if at first glance lingering on the previous plot. In fact, I don’t know how far the plot has developed, nor can I I don’t know which one or two of the pile of pikapika’s shining small characters flashed in front of my eyes, which one is which?Anyway, I just flipped through it numbly, using my phone to vent the indescribably dull and empty feeling in my heart.

I was already intoxicated by it, but suddenly there was a gloomy voice behind him, he said: "What are you looking at?..." I was so scared that I almost threw my phone out, and I almost "cracked" "Stand up and knock over the plastic tables and chairs, just like when playing horror games, you obviously haven't encountered a monster for a long time and think you have entered a relatively safe area, but suddenly a monster flashed in front of you, and it was showing its teeth and claws. The feeling of running towards you.

horrible......

But after all, I still have amazing self-control (Author: In fact, I am afraid of losing face more than everything else), so I still restrained that stupid 13 behavior very easily, and turned around calmly. Seeing epilepsy standing behind me with a lollipop in its mouth, I really wanted to let out a grotesque "hehe" twice to relieve the awkward atmosphere, but before I grinned and started to heh, epilepsy revealed a gloomy expression in a calm manner He said in a strange tone: "Actually, I also like to watch this kind of movies."

I don't know if it was because of the content of that sentence, or because of the tone of his words, the temperature in Jiangnan was already high enough at that time, but I suddenly felt as if I was in an ice cellar, which made people think of a sentence: " Harmful words hurt people in June Han."

Although he didn't hurt anyone with bad words at all.

"Oh, so." I replied.

Then the two walked slowly towards his house, the atmosphere was extremely awkward, he was thinking hard about something with a lollipop in his mouth.In fact, I really wanted to talk that day, and I really wanted to find someone to chat with, otherwise it seemed like I could die.But the current atmosphere really makes people don't know what to say... So although I obviously didn't have a lollipop in my mouth, I was still thinking hard.

In the end, he asked embarrassingly, "Where did you get that lollipop?"

He said: "It was given by someone else." The atmosphere was awkward for a while, but fortunately he continued, he continued: "A girl." Then he smiled strangely.

I just looked at him with a weirder expression than his smile, a combination of contempt and shock, which is self-evident and indescribable.He stared at me expressionlessly, and asked sincerely, "What's wrong with you?"

I replied embarrassingly: "I'm fine, I can eat Liumei."

So this topic ended embarrassingly.

But at any rate, after walking a few steps, he suddenly seemed to have figured something out, still looked up at me expressionlessly, and said in a very sincere tone: "Do you think the novel you just read... . . . " He paused suddenly and well at this point, causing me to gasp with a chill on my back, "Is it good?" But that's all he asked.

I was scared to death by this palace. I thought it was a high-energy question with a lot of sensitive words.

"I do not know."

"Are you the type to forget about it after reading it?"

"(nod)"

"Don't you have the desire to try it yourself?"

"(Leng)" Huh?

"Speaking of which, are you an S or an M?"

"I'm afraid it's all right."

"Oh."

So this conversation seemed to end awkwardly again. This was the first time in many days that the number of words I said was significantly less than what he said. I used to say to him in an excited and uncontrollable manner, He couldn't stop talking, so he almost didn't narrate the statement, he could only look at me with a very cute expression, and said a few modal particles to show that he was listening.

I was doing various comparative arguments in my mind, and before I had time to draw a conclusion, Jiu suddenly heard him say in an imperative sentence: "Look at your hand." My brain is still broken, so I just followed him without thinking. Doing what he said, he put his hand in front of his eyes and looked at it carefully. He didn't know what happened, but he suddenly came up with a shocking answer: "Oh, it turns out that Anik is Shaking M."

"Huh?" I asked him succinctly.

"I read a post on the Internet a long time ago, saying that if someone looks at his hands, his first reaction is to look at the palm, then that person will shake M; if the first reaction is to look at the back of the hand, he will shake S."

oh?There is such a saying?

"In fact, there are many, many more of the same type. For example, by comparing the length of the ring finger and index finger to tell whether a person is gay... By the way, show me your hand." My mind was still In a broken state, I still handed out my big claw without even thinking about it. When I held it in the air, I suddenly realized that something was wrong. I tried to pull my hand back but failed, because he had successfully captured my claw. Big claws.

"Your hand skin is too rough, it hurts me like a blade, do you often abuse your hand when you abuse yourself?" Then he used the dim light to turn my hand from left to right, and looked at it again and again. Once again, a shocking sentence was suddenly uttered: "You are so straight! It makes me despair! Then why are you trying to hook me up?!"

Nani?He knows?

"What do you think?"

"Look at men, if the ring finger is longer than the index finger, it is straight, and the longer it is, the straighter it will be."

"Oh, what about the same length?"

"I'm afraid it's straight and crooked..."

Ah ha ha ha, straight as a spring...

Now that he cheated me twice, I decided to cheat him too, so I grabbed his little paw and looked at it again and again under the dim light, and said N times "Take it Straighten your fingers", and finally found out that he was straight too!But in order to cheat him, I pretended to be serious and shocked and said: "Epileptic, you are the kind of person who is straight like a spring!"

He withdrew his little paw with a look of righteous indignation, and refuted me very convincingly: "No, it must be true, I have seen it at home, and I am obviously straight."

"If you're really straight, you won't be able to see that I'm flirting with you."

"Nonsense! Everyone can see it, okay?"

"No, if it is true, the straight man will never find out."

"can you?"

"How~how~" (the tone is gritted and yin and yang)

"I'm afraid you've listened too much to "Fox Spirit"...and it's not 'if it's true', it's 'if it's not', Anik, you are not a semi-literate person who hasn't graduated from junior high school, are you?"

"Actually, when I first learned the ancient prose "Son of Yang Shi" in the fifth grade, the teacher asked us: 'Does anyone know what kind of text this is?', I reacted quickly and shouted loudly: 'Speaking Classical Chinese!!!'...then the whole class heard it, and they were all laughing at me..."

"Haha, I'm afraid the general's IQ is not enough."

"It's really not my fault, it's all my brother's fault. The night before when I was previewing the Chinese documents, he suddenly ran over, pointed at Yang's son's face and said: 'Little madman, this style of writing is called Wenwenyan~', He was already in high school at that time, I believed him very much and said in a very admiring tone: 'Brother, you know a lot'."

His expression suddenly changed from contempt to surprise in a second, and then he began to say in a cadenced tone: "Eh? Ani K also has Ani K!"

"Ah? What's wrong?"

"I'm so envious..."

Hearing what he said, I don't know why my heart suddenly trembled, as if I had been confessed by someone I had a crush on for a long time, but there was also a hint of sadness in it.

——Is this really, so enviable?

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What you lost will come back to you one day.