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During the meeting that day, I was in a daze alone, the well-dressed so-and-so and so-and-so sat upright and watched pornography, the eldest sister slept on the second floor, and Zhang Weiran lay at the door to eavesdrop , the BOSS went around talking nonsense for a long time, talking about a lot of useless analysis, and finally put forward a suggestion - to revoke Zhang Hao Ranhei's position as the head of the history department.

The group of uncles didn't even listen, they all raised their hands and feet like dogs, and they all agreed with a smile on their faces. At this moment, there was a sudden "bang", and the door was knocked open. Zhang Weiran looked very angry. He stood at the door and stared at us, but he still had a sullen face, sneering and sarcastic with a very concubine Hua's eyes. The audience was very quiet, and everyone was doing their own things, because the atmosphere did not change when he arrived. How embarrassing. BOSS looked at him with half-closed eyes. I was afraid to look at him because of my shame, but I was completely focused on his every move.

He said he didn't care if we were deciding his life or not, and he didn't mind getting out of here, since he didn't have to be alive after all.

After all, walk away.A mess of hair was stroked accordingly, and then only a back view was left of us.

The boss still squinted his eyes halfway, evoking the usual smile, expressing that he suddenly changed his mind and decided to observe Zhang Weiran for a few more days, and by the way, let me do the hunting and anti-hunting department. Mr. Shi, the hunting and anti-hunting department was renamed Shibu;

I looked confused and said that I didn't understand Zhang Weiran at all, nor did I understand the action mode of the BOSS. At the same time, I thought that I had taken over the half of Zhang Haoran's country, so I felt quite touched in my heart?

The uncles were all engrossed in watching the porn and didn't even know what happened.As for why they have to watch porn every time they are in a meeting?I heard it was because the WIFI signal was so good that people couldn't bear to go offline.

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In the next few days, I was still in the overdrawn state where I worked hard during the day and couldn't sleep at night, but Zhang Weiran suddenly regained his energy for some reason, and his hair was combed smoothly and tied exactly the same as before. Seeing his appearance, the BOSS immediately made a decision—let Zhang Weiran continue to serve as the head of the Black History Department, and the Black History Department officially changed its name to Zhang Department.

In fact, this is not bad, after my experience of watching so many TV dramas, Zhang Weiran should be counted as Zhang Haoran’s orphan, and I should naturally hope that he will live a better life...

I should have gotten psychological satisfaction from this, but I still couldn't sleep at night after that.

Until suddenly one day, I thought about Zhang Haoran so much that my heart ached so badly that I couldn't bear to live, and my bed was writhing and collapsing, but I was able to fall asleep unknowingly, and even had a very clear dream—dream Zhang Haoran.

At first, the whole world was a blur of snow-white, and then there were some different silvery whites, grayish black, and I could barely recognize that it was in a deep mountain and a huge valley. I was standing not far from a cliff .After that, I saw a figure on the edge of the cliff, wearing a bandit-like clothes and pigtails, sitting there with his knees hugged and his back facing me.

The warmth and ecstasy that I haven't experienced for a long time spontaneously arose in my heart. It filled my whole body with warmth like a tropical tide. After a few strides, I jumped to the edge of the cliff, fell to my knees and hugged the man from behind. I hugged him fully, and then pulled him onto me. The two fell to the ground and were completely twisted together. After moving for a long time, I was able to lie face to face normally. I smiled, put my hand on my face, then pushed me away abruptly, stood up with a "shua" and moved to a place far away from me to sit.

I interpreted this as Xiao Aojiao who reunited after a long absence, and followed him shamelessly, almost drooling like a loyal dog, and then rubbed him, sat next to him and rubbed his face, it was very painful I lay on my knees naturally, and he didn't push me back. He just let me lie like this, and even messed up my already messy hair with his hands. It always felt like flirting between lions.

The two of us were lying crookedly on the edge of the cliff, and I rested on my knees on the edge of the cliff, not at all afraid that he would suddenly have evil thoughts together and push me into the abyss—clearly this kind of thing happened to us Among them is the most common one. It only takes one thought to betray one's faith and disown one's relatives...but I trust him so much...

Surrounded by deep mountains and old forests covered in silver, there are cliffs and cliffs. I don't know how he got here.He said that Zhang Weiran put him here, and for a long time from then on, or maybe until the cliff collapsed due to geological changes, this place must be his home.I laughed and told him to come home with me.He pulled a lock of my hair and told me not to speak.The pain caused me to yell "嗤", thinking in my heart - I will tie you back even if I don't agree with me.

After that, there was a long silence, and he rubbed along the patch of baldness on my head that he had just pulled out, and rubbed it for a long time, seemingly distressed.

After that, the two of us chatted intermittently for a long time, just like the time I tied him up in the middle of the night and then tortured him for so long by the county magistrate, just like that time, we wasted a lot of time but couldn't talk about anything.

He said, "Shi Xiaofeng, actually you don't need me."

"Yes, I don't need you, you need me." He had a serious tone, but I still used a shameless Erbi tone to argue with him forcefully, thinking to myself "Zhang Haoran, I Need you" - it doesn't matter to me, whether he needs me or I need him, anyway, the end result is that we are together, isn't it?

He was obviously not a person suitable for joking, the movements of his hands immediately became stiff, and he used a lot of force on a lock of my hair, as if he was about to pull out another patch of baldness, but he stopped in the end, probably because of his heartache. ..... I stroked it a few times, I don't know what I couldn't figure out, and finally pulled out another piece of alopecia areata......

I probably felt sorry for my hair, maybe I realized his determination, and I didn't speak anymore.

He repeated "you don't need me" again and I mentally repeated "I need you".

He said that he believed in me, believed that I was tenacious, and would never dwell on past failures. One day, he would go out completely, instead of evading falsely like he was when he was by my side. Get rid of, whether it is a long time ago or recent unsatisfactory.

He also said that even after detachment, he always felt that the overlapping part of my world and his world was wrong. If it wasn't about chasing and killing, but other parts that were more peaceful and glorious, maybe it wouldn't be the case not long ago. As for that matter, the two of them may live quietly, even in poverty, in some inconspicuous place in the world, and they are finally living peacefully...

He said that people are always stronger than imagined, and I am stronger than people. In fact, at that time, I really wanted to complain: "You said I am not a human?!", but when he heard his next sentence, he disappeared immediately interest, because he said - he said I'm strong, so one day I'll find someone else who can really free me from my pain, who can really coincide with me in the right way, who can really understand me and give me peace shelter instead of running vainly with him.

I wanted to say, "Who else is this person besides you?" But the voice couldn't come out.

He looked at me and smiled badly, and said, "This is my world, just listen to me."

He told me that Zhang Weiran needed him more than me, and that without him, he wouldn't even braid his hair... Anyway, he listed a lot of Zhang Weiran's incompetence and stubbornness For example, I want to develop more artistic conception, like the poems written by Ah Man, so it is absolutely no problem-I really want to tell him that I pretended...in fact, because of his I can't sleep at night without me, and I can't even cry when I want to cry. I feel very aggrieved.

But now I can't speak, and even if I can, I won't say anything because of face...

Then, in silence and frustration, he told me once again that I must live a good life, that I must be able to find the true and correct person, and that I must reach the moment when I was carefree and like a child. He said that in the next few years he would He wanted to stay with Zhang Haoran all the time, and told me not to look for him, because he would never be found... Finally, he said that he would look at me from time to time.

Then, waking up from the big dream, I found that dawn had already broken.

Thinking back carefully, for so long, I always thought that I was protecting Zhang Haoran, but it was not the case. He was still pampering me despite being bruised all over, just for me to regain my strength... Then, he is 13 years old That seduction. Maybe I just want to use my childish body to give me a home... Maybe so,

But this time, he had already left, and it was obviously because of my negligence, but he still came to me again regardless of the past, and encouraged me, told me to live well, told me to find someone who could replace him, and told me to cheer up and face it. In the past... He was already a detached person, but he still lingered in the mortal world, just to protect Zhang Weiran with his non-existent body.

Obviously his death is all my fault, but he still chooses to forgive me and even help me and encourage me. Obviously Zhang Weiran's nature is just a burden to him, and now he can finally shirk his responsibility, but he still chooses to bear it, even voluntarily. Thinking of him deeply, voluntarily gave up reincarnation and reincarnated to always be by his side.

He was covered in bruises but still gave without regrets, and he didn't even feel that he had suffered any losses...

As for me, I can't even face the past directly, I just escape.Now another setback, it hits me so hard that I can't even cry...

Zhang Haoran——I really think he is a gentleman now, because I am too small, because I am too unworthy of him...

This is the first time in my life that I feel inferior.

So, thinking about him, I was sad all day long.