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At that time, the three of us were not dedicated to our jobs. We ran around the city during the day, and at night I sneaked into the room of the two brothers. Although it looked like a night raid for the purpose of sharing the same bed, But they disliked me for my poor sleeping posture and basically never shared the same bed a few times. They usually nest together purely to watch "The Legend of Zhen Huan".

And even if they shared the same bed, so what, at that time I hadn't found out that the widow was so masculine...

Eh?Maybe I found out after sleeping on it a few times?No, I'm not a pedophile.

Zhang Weiran is not at all arrogant about TV dramas. Although "The Legend of Zhen Huan" was watched by many aunts and sisters-in-law at the time, Zhang Weiran didn't feel at all that he was in the same time period, opened the same channel, and watched the same TV drama as them. It's embarrassing, although I don't think there is anything to be ashamed of, but my brother...

I still remember deliberately avoiding the matter of my brother at that time, but I always remembered it unconsciously.

Then I deliberately changed "but my brother and he" to "but Zhang Weiran and his brother".

So, but Zhang Weiran's brother is more concerned about watching the same TV series with aunts and sisters-in-law.In fact, he also prefers to watch, but he just doesn't want to be discovered by others.

At that time, the three of us were nestled in the same room, which was the bedroom of Zhang Weiran and Zhang Haoran, with a bed behind them, but the two of them were bored, so they laid a soft and easy-to-walk carpet under the bed. The two just nestled on the carpet, Zhang Weiran sat on the far left leaning against the bed with his knees hugged, I stretched my legs and sat leaning against the bed in the middle, Zhang Haoran lay on the far right, putting the slender and smooth legs that belong to children on me On his lap, there is a cushion that has been rubbed into a very abstract shape.

Zhang Haoran looks like he is asleep, but in fact he is pretending to be asleep. When the plot is very soothing, he closes his eyes and listens to the sound. He probably plays the scene in his mind. When the background music plays, or the character screams, He secretly opened his eyes a little and stared at the screen secretly.

Zhang Weiran has always been very focused, except when I hooked my wolf claws on his shoulder with my lustful heart, he would be a little distracted, pat my wolf claws with his small claws, and said with a concubine Hua expression: "Hun Dan What are you doing!" So he didn't realize that Zhang Haoran was pretending to be asleep, otherwise the two brothers could exchange their thoughts on watching "The Legend of Zhen Huan" after a long night.

Originally, I couldn't find it, but sometimes, when I saw certain plots and felt very annoyed, helpless, and incomprehensible, I wanted to moles others. Zhang Weiran was very determined not to let molesting, so I wanted to Going to tease Zhang Haoran, it happens that he is still asleep, so it will be more fun.

At that time, in order to confirm whether now is the best opportunity to do something, I secretly took a look at Zhang Haoran, and found that he was staring at the screen with half-opened eyes, and then I gave up.I spent that incomprehensible part of the story secretly watching Zhang Haoran. After that part, Zhang Haoran was about to close his eyes and pretend to be asleep. Still continue to sleep.

To be honest, I never figured out what that meant.

Ever since I knew that Zhang Haoran was pretending to be asleep, I no longer suppressed my nature of crying and laughing, but exaggerated even more. I don’t know why, anyway, the final purpose is to make Zhang Haoran It’s just right to watch the TV series that my aunt and sister-in-law also watch openly.As for why, I don't know, probably because I feel that it is painful to suppress my true inner feelings, so I put it in the same way as others.

Zhang Weiran and Zhang Haoran are twins, and childhood should be the time when the gap between the two was the least, but at that time, I didn’t mistake them for a single moment, but later, when I was a teenager, and Zhang Haoran was no longer by my side. Occasionally, I will admit my mistakes, and for a moment, I am actually quite touched.

We didn't get to hang out like that for long, so I didn't have much of a chance to cuddle and share a bed with twins.

I don't know why, probably the three of them read too many shonen comics together, and suddenly became very inspirational, and each of them wanted to gain fame in the gang.Originally, the three of us should have broken up separately at this time, but we didn’t. It’s just that Zhang Weiran was alone. Zhang Haoran and I were born from the same leader, so when we worked hard, we were still two people together. .

I followed the usual routine, while killing others as usual, and at the same time visited my seniors everywhere, they spoke sneeringly and sarcasticly at me.I'm good at dealing with this kind of plot, as long as I pretend I don't know anything, I don't react to anything, and then say everything I think in my heart in a slightly tactful way, and wait for them to complain to the boss, and I'm done~ Because the BOSS is actually the kind of Mianlizhen who hits others with a naive face.

I tried my best to look more relaxed, so Zhang Haoran also told Zhang Weiran that I usually do nothing but hook up with seniors.

Zhang Haoran is actually the one who does nothing. He is still the same as usual, except that once Shixing had a sudden whim, and then he looked at the floor plan for a long time, and it was rare to memorize it. The small passage that people can't pass through makes the enemy's death unclear...

Probably because this appearance is very similar to the protagonist in a game that BOSS played some time ago, he was also appreciated for no reason.

Zhang Weiran was the one who dragged on the longest, because he didn't know the principle of capturing the thief first, and although the boss looks stupid, everything is still under his control.

Therefore, the three of us got along very quickly. Later, we were surprised why it was so easy, but after thinking about it for more than ten seconds, we suddenly realized that although it seemed unbelievable, it was actually a reasonable thing .We are basically promoted by the BOSS against all opinions. The sooner we are favored, the sooner the BOSS will appear to be smart, so of course he likes to take care of us.

What's more, there are dog legs with high IQ and low IQ. Dog legs with low IQ don't think about the meaning of every action of their master at all. Completely dominated by herd mentality, even if you have seen through the master's behavior and thought of better countermeasures, you will still follow "good, good, good".

I condensed my own words and told Er Zhang, but the two of them didn't understand at all.

But what about them?

In the end, the three of us finally gained relative independence.

That year may have been the lowest point of my life in the first 20 years, but it seemed to be the sweetest period of my life in the first 20 years.

Some things changed in the second year, I don't know why, and I forgot how I heard about a very bloody and violent R.15 game, and it's not an online game, it's done in reality with flesh and blood , every time you kill an enemy person, you will really kill one. If the gameover is over, you will die. If the blue sky is empty, you will really suffer... There is a group, and the BOSS is watching in it. If the target task is not completed It was about to be cut by his old man himself.

Boss is still looking forward to it...

Speaking of this game, the developer seems to be the boss's husband, and he was the only player in the last session.

Anyway, I joined the group when I was bored at that time. It is a group that comes with our contact system. I applied for an ID called "冷の女". Said to be very good-looking, a beautiful woman or a handsome man, so I used this ID.

While abusing people and broadcasting live, I was fascinated by the feeling that my whole body was about to be hollowed out at that time, and then I kept collecting experience points crazily, making rapid progress, so I didn't attack Zhang Haoran much during that time.

When I feel that my body is being hollowed out, I can think about nothing and follow my instinct to make the next action, so I generally like it very much.I don't know why I like it, maybe it's the same as people who like to watch comedies, but I don't want to think too much.

In fact, there are still more problems that I don’t understand. For example, during that time, it seems that I discovered my self-harm tendency, or suicidal tendency. It seems that self-harm tendency has been discovered since I was a child, but I don’t know why it actually worsened. This is how it is now.I especially like seppuku, so I guessed that it might be my brother who stabbed me completely abnormal.

The reason why he made such a move was also because his body was about to be hollowed out, and he could only act according to instinct, but the feeling of seppuku was deeply buried in his instinct, and a whole set of services before seppuku was also included——

The body is about to be hollowed out, but the weakness seems to be just a lack of strength, the blackness and whiteness in front of the eyes is just like an electric shock to the brain, a burst of dizziness makes me more awake, I can’t see anything clearly, but it’s just like turning up the contrast That's all.Powerless but more powerful.At this time, I always feel that something is missing, the scar left on my abdomen is itching secretly, it seems to be an indescribable emptiness...

Only then did I suddenly understand that a knife was missing here...

I was actually desperate during that time, not because I discovered my suicidal habit, but because I discovered that no matter how I avoided things about my brother, he was there and left me the deepest impression in my life. , lingering.

For many years after that, although it may be the most peaceful and prosperous days in my life, it feels like the most abusive time in the first 20 years of my life.

I'm so sorry...