You who walk against the light

No matter how flamboyant he is in front of the camera or how much he is sought after by fans on the stage, there is always a place in his heart that has already collapsed. Endlessly waiting for him.

He can only linger on like this, whether it's for his mother or for the little bit of extravagant hope in his heart.

Power is paralysis like drinking poison to quench thirst, and it is better to have it than nothing.

Lin Yuan didn't dare to look up at Zhong Can's portrait, afraid of Zhong Can's clear and bright eyes, as if he would never blame him, and always firmly supported himself and Kaifan.

There is no one else in this world who can unreservedly bless him and Kaifan like Zhong Can.

During the six years of separation, Lin Yuan also thought about ending his life. He had already lost the love of his life, his career was almost ruined before his career started, and his best friend died because of him.But his mother is still alive, she still needs to support herself, and the pile of debts owed to the company has not been paid off, so he can't die selfishly.When he couldn't sleep at night, he often wondered, if he was the one who died back then, would it be better now? At least Zhong Kaifan didn't have to fight against his family, and he didn't have to give up his medical career. Zhong Can should have graduated step by step and found a beloved The girls are probably all married by now.

As for Zhong Kaifan, he will always come out of his own death.Kaifan is so good, there will definitely be people who will continue to love him and accompany him to watch the clouds, sunsets and sea tides in this world.

In fact, this is also good.

He doesn't care if Kaifan has him in his heart, as long as Kaifan is happy is enough.

He met Zhong Kaifan at the youngest age, loved him passionately and turbulently, and received the most sincere love in the world.

Lin Yuan had a bit of romanticism in his bones. He thought, one day when his mother died, he would find a quiet and comfortable corner, put on a clean shirt and socks, lie on a bamboo chair, slowly close his eyes, and take Zhong Kaifan's love died at a certain moment when the sky was full of sunshine.

But now he is a bit reluctant to die.

He can feel that Kai Fan still loves him very much, and it hurts to the bone, otherwise, he wouldn't be so vicious even with blame.

But this kind of love is more like a sharp knife, cutting open the scar of guilt that he had hard-fought to scab, while bearing the scalding love, he punished himself.Every time I see Kaifan, I am on the verge of being destroyed, taking a step back into the abyss, and going further to be smashed to pieces.

He doesn't deserve it, he deserves to die.

Let's have another fight.

As long as it is what Kaifan wants, he will give him anything, whether it is repayment or love, it doesn't matter.

It's okay to endure until he can't go on anymore, at least it proves that he is not the "weak" as Chen Nan said, and he tried to come out of the endless darkness, but he couldn't hold on to the end.

After kneeling for a long time, Lin Yuan was physically and mentally exhausted, faintly exhausted, and didn't know what time it was, so he leaned his head on the cabinet.

At three o'clock in the morning, Zhong Kaifan opened the door to see him, and saw that he put his head in front of the cabinet, propped his body upright and kept a kneeling posture, like a monk chanting scriptures.

A hot tear welled up in Kaifan's heart.

Lin Yuan is just such a stubborn person, he never bows his head, refuses to give in, never admits his mistakes, and always has a taciturn attitude, bearing everything silently.

Sometimes he wondered how many secrets A Yuan was hiding behind his back, and he was even more tolerant than before, as if he had given up resistance.

This abandonment almost broke Zhong Kaifan's heart.

It was only then that Zhong Kaifan realized that the heating in the house was not turned on, Lin Yuan was already freezing cold, and his mind didn't seem to be clear, he immediately panicked, and walked out with Lin Yuan's arm.Carrying him to the master bedroom, Zhong Kaifan noticed that Lin Yuan's face was pale.

He used to be a doctor, so his profession dictated it. He touched Lin Yuan's forehead, and found a thermometer and clamped it under his armpit. Fortunately, he didn't have a fever.

Zhong Kaifan sat next to him with a tired face, he didn't know what to do with Lin Yuan.

After a while, Lin Yuan said with a sullen head, "Kaifan, I'm cold."

Zhong Kaifan covered him with the quilt, and raised the temperature in the room by two degrees. Lin Yuan was still shivering under the quilt.

In desperation, Zhong Kaifan had no choice but to

He wrung out a hot towel and wiped his hands and feet.

Sensing the touch, Lin Yuan hid more and more, shrunk into a silkworm chrysalis, and said tremblingly, "Don't... don't touch me, I'm afraid it will be hot, I'm afraid..."

hot? !

Zhong Kaifan fully understood that Lin Yuan had a post-traumatic stress reaction and thought he was the one who bullied him.

Eye sockets suddenly swelled sour.

He gritted his teeth and pulled Lin Yuan's hand out with great effort, but as he wiped it, tears fell down one by one.

Why did his A Yuan, who used to be lawless, turn into such a ghost?

In the past few years when I was away, what exactly did A Yuan experience?

After finally warming his hands and feet, Zhong Kaifan was afraid that he would not sleep well, so he took off his coat.Before leaving, Kai Fan suddenly remembered something, pushed up A Yuan's trousers, and found that his knees were all purple and black and black from the cold.

His left leg was broken only in March, and he couldn't stand the cold.

Thinking of this, Zhong Kaifan felt another stab in his heart. He suppressed his emotions, took out the Yunnan Baiyao aerosol in the medicine box, and carefully sprayed it on A Yuan's knee.Seeing that he was not moving at the moment, Zhong Kaifan slowly rubbed his knees with his palms, and after a long time, he stopped.

If you don't punish him, you will hate him in your heart; if you punish him, you will feel distressed.

The air smelled of medicine.

When Lin Yuan woke up the next morning, he found himself lying on the bed. The tulle curtains floated gently, and the light illuminated the ends of the curtains. The city was outlined into landscape lines, glowing with smoggy blue light, which made people feel extraordinarily peaceful. .

He sat up and found that he was only wearing a sweater, and the down jacket was draped on the single sofa not far away.

Lin Yuan scratched his head, feeling that he was full of sleep, and shouted hoarsely: "Kaifan?"

The central air conditioner made a slight exhalation sound, but no one answered.

Taking out the mobile phone in the pocket of the down jacket, Lin Yuan found that there were more than a dozen missed calls on it, all of which were safe.

He dialed back, but before he could speak, he heard An Ran lose his temper on the other end of the phone: "Do you still know how to call me? What time is it now? Don't think that with Zhong Kaifan backing you up, you can do whatever you want! Now you give I'll go downstairs immediately!"