You who walk against the light

Feeling that Zhong Kaifan was full of guilt, Lin Yuan comforted in a low voice: "I don't want to be that kind of dance king. Any art has a lifespan. It starts from childhood to lay the foundation and accumulate explosive power. When teenagers or young adults undergo qualitative changes, some people have to wait until middle age. Years or even later years can be effective. But life has a length, and people's time and energy are limited, Kaifan—”

Lin Yuan looked into his eyes and said devoutly: "I love you, I have selfishness and want to share more of my time with you, even though I feel sorry for those fans who spend money for me, so I I never say 'love you' in any public place, I often say 'thank you for paying attention to me', 'to live hard', 'hope everyone is safe and happy'. In my opinion, love is a very sacred word, say If you export, you have to be responsible for the other party. Although the market atmosphere is such that not many people regard the word "love" as important, I still hope that fans will work hard to live a good life, love what they should read, fall in love when they should, and go through it. Every good stage of life, this is the most important."

After hearing these words, Zhong Kaifan was overwhelmed with emotion and couldn't speak because he was sad. He didn't expect Lin Yuan to think so, although these thoughts are as light as a feather in the eyes of the world.

"When I first debuted, I was actually eager to be liked by fans. I remember that when I first opened my Weibo account, a female fan followed me for the first time. Every post I posted, she would like, comment, Reposted, and sometimes sent me private messages. At that time, there were not many people who followed me, so her presence was particularly obvious. Later, when the number of followers increased, I would go to the comment area to look for her comments every time. At first, I could See, after that I swiped to the top but couldn't find it, so I registered a small account and paid special attention to her."

At this point, Lin Yuan paused, trying to restrain his emotions, "She also liked other idols later, and unfollowed me. But I have followed her for many years, and I know how she looked in a bachelor's uniform when she graduated from college , I know that she went to graduate school later, and I also know that she has a husband who majors in electrical engineering. The baby was born in the second year of their marriage. The nickname is 'Doudo'. She loves stone pot fish very much, and she has three girlfriends A ten-year agreement was set. When I logged into the small account some time ago, Sina Weibo reminded me that the account was cancelled. I searched for her, but it seems that she changed her ID, and I can no longer find that account. I have bound one of my mobile phone numbers, normally there will be no account cancellation, but you see, there are many things in this world without asking why, if you lose it, you will lose it, and there will be no more.”

Lin Yuan blocked his eyes with the back of his hand, tears streaming down uncontrollably, "From then on, I knew that I had become greedy. I long for a long-term relationship, it doesn't need to be a lot, it doesn't need to be very passionate, just a little bit, but I want to see it every day, but..." His nasal voice was a little heavy, and he said after a while: "This is a very difficult thing, even I myself would run away halfway through the drama, not to mention the talented In the entertainment industry, there are young and fresh faces appearing here every day, and it is quite normal to be replaced. If you don’t think about this, don’t become a star. This is the rule of the game in the circle. If you can’t be stimulated in a short time Fanatical love, it is impossible to achieve an astonishing amount of goods. Capital is very cruel, we just acted as a more acceptable sales method, making people willing to open their wallets. This willingness lies in whether the other party can satisfy those fantasies, Maybe it's a dream, maybe it's an appearance."

"We create dreams with music, dance, looks, and film and television works. Fans are responsible for buying dreams and needing each other. It sounds cruel to say it, but after thinking about it, if you can buy obsession and expectations through money, this is indeed a great thing. Get what you want. The reason why people are advanced animals is that they have thoughts and emotional needs and sustenance. Sometimes I really envy them. The things I want can never be recovered through material things Or, who can tell me, where is there a dream, I will also queue up all night, so that I can see Zhong Can." He took a deep breath, fearing that the mention of Zhong Can would make Zhong Kaifan even more sad, and the conversation started Acceptance: "Kaifan, you have a very correct saying, 'Some roads need to be walked alone', I can't be complacent because of other people's likes, and I can't give up easily because of the slander of the world. No matter what the situation is, I must With faith, stick to what you want to do. It took me so long to understand this truth."

Zhong Kaifan listened quietly, his eyes were moist, and he just repeated: "Long love?"

"Yeah." Lin Yuan nodded, with tears in his smile, "I'm ashamed to say that you are the one who loves me the most, but I lost you."

Zhong Kaifan stretched out his arm towards him, and said in a dull voice, "I'm back now, you must take good care of it."

"I will." Lin Yuan leaned over, gritted his teeth with difficulty, but the tears couldn't stop falling down, his voice was a little trembling, but full of determination: "From now on, I will not will leave you."

Zhong Kaifan touched the back of his neck, breathing heavily, as if a boulder was pressing on his heart, he felt sad for Lin Yuan's transparency, many times, Lin Yuan looked silly, but in fact he is a person with rich emotions, and his heart is relatively Soft, small things, he can remember for many years.

In fact, this is not good, it is easy to hurt yourself.

There are many beautiful people and things in this world, and not everything needs to be remembered with tears.

However, Lin Yuan did have a bad life in those few years. Thinking about it this way, Zhong Kaifan can still fully understand him.Flowers in the dust are flowers too, right?

Zhong Kaifan restrained his tears and said frankly: "Ayuan, I always thought that I was very good to you before. In this case, I can't forgive you for choosing to separate. But I gradually understand that sometimes what I think is Well, it doesn’t necessarily make you feel comfortable. When I was young, I didn’t know much about love, and I relied on an instinct to get along with you. For example, I think something is very good and I want to share it with you, but I don’t know if you Need, I am a strong person, I like to force things to you, I am worried that you will not eat well, sleep well, and I hate people scolding you. When I think of such a precious person like me, I am so bullied, I really feel suffocated I'm bent to death..."

Zhong Kaifan slowed down, and then said: "When we quarreled before, I always treated you coldly, including the last time in Jiangxi. I sincerely apologize. Later, I seriously thought about it. In fact, you left me. The responsibility is not only on you, but also on my character and the way I get along with you. For a while, I wondered if it was because I You can't stand me because of your bad temper, so you have to do everything possible to escape."

"No——" Lin Yuan interrupted him eagerly, and gasped, "Kaifan, you are a very good person. We met again in the hospital at first, and I broke into your house, but you didn't throw me out directly. Leave me to drink soup, and even pick out all the oil slicks and green onions in my bowl; I will meet you later in Xiangshan Film and Television City. Actually, I guess you have hatred in your heart, but I still love you, and I am mentally prepared, Give you everything you want, company, care, including my body, and you didn't ask me for anything until the contract was signed."

"Even when I was filming in Jiangxi, you still worried about my waist injury, whether I had a good meal, asked me to exercise, arranged for my mother to transfer, and never interfered with my work. Kaifan, you are actually a very gentle person , It’s just a knife mouth and a bean curd heart. Although I sometimes get angry and sad, I will forgive you after a while. Including the kneeling punishment last time. If you are angry in your heart, it’s fine if you get angry. That is Zhong Can's life, even if I kneel in front of him for three days and three nights, I will." He wiped his tears, and then said: "Kai Fan, I dare not say how we have a good understanding with you, but I He should be the person who understands you best in this world."

He looked into Zhong Kaifan's eyes, trembling uncontrollably: "It's because you are so kind, I feel guilty, I feel sorry for you, sorry for Zhong Can, I can't face you, so I messed up things. "

Zhong Kaifan closed his eyes in pain, and hugged Lin Yuan tightly, "You are also a very good person. In my heart, you are like MJ, an angelic existence. Everything I do is voluntary."

Speaking of this, Lin Yuan smiled with tears, remembering the scene of waiting for Zhong Kaifan to finish his class at Peking University School of Medicine a long time ago, "Kaifan, in fact, I was very inferior when I was with you at the beginning. Because you are an excellent and self-disciplined person, Even if I worked so hard, I couldn’t get that kind of college entrance examination score. So whenever I think of the white coat you wore and the pen you held, I always feel a sense of guilt, and feel that I have dragged you into the quagmire.”

Zhong Kaifan's tone was very light: "Obviously I was the one who chased you first."

Lin Yuan raised his head, his eyes were bright, "I mean, when I'm with you, I always have an excited desire to destroy, it's incredible."

Zhong Kaifan laughs

out loud, "Because I look serious?"

"Yes." Lin Yuan grinned, "Four good youths, the kind that can be awarded certificates."

Zhong Kaifan kissed his neck, with a low voice, leaning against his ear and said: "Then you can just treat me as a self-willed degenerate." Finally, he said: "I will perish with you."

Lin Yuan's heart was completely smashed to pieces, he felt a suffocating sense of happiness, even his hearing became dull, and there were rumbling sounds all around, maybe it was the atrium collapsing somewhere, maybe every cell in his body was being crushed. Wake up, shuttle around every corner at a rapid and turbulent speed.A Yuan suddenly had a whim, and it was extremely romantic to die in Zhong Kaifan's arms like this.

There are not many opportunities to open up like this, just like walking in the dark and suddenly seeing shooting stars.Zhong Kaifan is a very introverted and restrained person, he doesn't talk so much unless necessary.That kind of solid sense of trust crept into my heart quietly, as if knowing that tomorrow is the end of my life, I can wait without hesitation.

Zhong Kaifan's kiss came repeatedly, he felt that there was a natural contrast in Lin Yuan's body, just like when Shi Yu saw him, his first reaction was a little panic and fear, but after contact, he was such a kind and gentle person.When he is headstrong, he is like a reckless beast, running tirelessly without feeling tossed; he dances so arrogantly and confidently, as if he has attracted the light of the entire universe; the most powerless thing is his gentle personality , makes people feel very well-behaved, Zhong Kaifan just likes this.

In Lin Yuan's words, he grew up on Zhong Kaifan's aesthetic point.

The feeling of combining body and soul at the same time was very wonderful, until Zhong Kaifan was completely released on Lin Yuan, he felt a strong sense of satisfaction.Lin Yuan pressed his back against Zhong Kaifan's chest, his body was covered with thin sweat, he suddenly thought, "Kaifan, what is it like to sleep with me?"