You who walk against the light

Kai Fan leaned on the sofa, panting with his head slightly raised, his clothes were disheveled, and he exuded a sense of helplessness all over his body. He stroked A Yuan's chin with one hand, feeling the pain of tears at the moment of intimacy.

Until A Yuan's moist and warm breath enveloped him, Kai Fan suddenly felt as if a fine current flowed through his body, and every cell seemed to be awakened by A Yuan.In the interlacing of eyes, he saw A Yuan doing his best to please him, with endless tenderness in his brows and eyes, so willing.The regret in my heart was slowly filled by A Yuan, it was true that the person who tied the bell had to be untied.

The body relaxed little by little, the air was full of disorder, and the stimulation reached the extreme. Kaifan finally pulled Ayuan over under control and let him sit on his lap.

The person in front of him had a fair face and red ears, he hesitated: "What's wrong..." A Yuan lowered his eyebrows, as if he was a little embarrassed, leaning on Kai Fan's shoulder and asked softly, "Are you not used to it?"

Kai Fan lazily said: "I'm just too used to it, I can't stand it even if you touch it."

They are too familiar with each other's bodies, and A Yuan is even more familiar with the road, so he can easily make Kaifan fall.A Yuan remembered that after experiencing that incident, he suspected that he would not be able to love normally in this life, and would be extremely repulsed by intimacy.But now it seems that as long as he faces Kaifan, he is not afraid, and even gives Kaifan gentleness continuously.

If it wasn't for the high fever that day, A Yuan wouldn't have been drugged and allowed Nie Zuan to do that.Speaking of it, it is even more difficult for men to be violated, and people around them will be full of contempt for the victims.What Nie Zu'an destroyed was not only A Yuan's body, but also his mind. He used coercion to make people submit continuously, and their dignity was crushed to pieces. All he saw was ashes, which was worse than death.

Although we talked about this issue last time, A Yuan still couldn't help asking: "Kaifan, during the years of separation, you didn't plan to try to contact other people?"

Zhong Kaifan's eyes were clear and full of reproach, "What nonsense are you talking about?"

A Yuan hugged Kai Fan's neck, and his tone was very sincere: "Actually, I thought about it, even if you were with other people, I don't blame you. Really—" A Yuan's eyes were red, and he paused every word Said: "I hope you can live a happy life. If I can't give it, someone must give it."

Kaifan took a deep breath, with a stern face, and said with a broken jar: "One you is enough for me, what can I do? Or, you can find me another one that is exactly like you." , with a smile on the corner of his mouth, he pinched A Yuan's face.

Neither of them expected that there really was someone who was extremely similar to A Yuan, but that's another story.

A Yuan smiled and avoided, held back tears, seemed to be a little interested, and said curiously: "Let me ask you, what did you like about me back then?"

"truth?"

"Yes."

Zhong Kaifan glanced at him, and said flatly, "I'm interested in seeing the color."

"Zhong Kaifan!" A Yuan looked at him angrily, as if he was very dissatisfied with the answer.

"Hey, you asked me to tell the truth, and you want me to tell the truth." Zhong Kaifan curled his lips, looking helpless.

A Yuan bit him on the neck angrily, Zhong Kaifan tilted his head, and said in a indulgent tone, "What's the trouble, I have to have a meeting tomorrow, what do you think when people see the mark on my neck?"

"I don't care what people think!"

Zhong Kaifan chuckled, indulged A Yuan's willfulness, tightened his arms around A Yuan, patted his back with his palm, and said in a low and slow tone, "Why, are you unhappy?"

A Yuan raised his chin and said, "Although I have a lot of shortcomings, I also have a lot of advantages. Why are you blind?"

"Why am I blind? If I were blind, I wouldn't bother to sleep with you."

"You..." A Yuan's cheeks were flushed red by his anger, and he couldn't hold back a word for a long time.

Kai Fan touched the back of his neck, rubbed his thumbs on his face, A Yuan's eyelashes trembled, he couldn't bear to look away, and said softly, "Who made you look so good-looking?"

Hearing this, A Yuan seemed to shiver, and the fear in his heart grew infinitely. He subconsciously hugged Kai Fan tightly, and said in a muffled voice, "What's the use of being good-looking? It's no use being missed and humiliated."

This is the first time Kaifan heard him say this to himself

On weekdays, he didn't dare to touch the scar in A Yuan's heart lightly. Seeing that he was going to be honest with him, Kai Fan said gently: "A Yuan, it's over, I will accompany you, and you have to learn to let go. Look ahead, you know?"

A Yuan wiped away his tears indiscriminately, only to feel that all the wounds were healed by Kai Fan, and there was no pain at all.

The atmosphere eased up a bit, A Yuan sniffed and said dissatisfiedly: "I haven't asked you yet, why do you want to sleep with me?!"

Their first time was in their sophomore year, if Kaifan hadn't been so proactive...

A Yuan thought to himself, he wouldn't fall headfirst on Kai Fan, and didn't recover from it for so many years.

Zhong Kaifan chuckled, kissed his brows and eyes, his eyes were provocative, like a gentle old fox: "If I don't sleep with you, why don't you just run away?"

"You scumbag!"

The two laughed at the same time, and the atmosphere was very relaxed.

Kai Fan burst out laughing, and after a while, he touched his neck and said, "Where am I a scumbag? You have been alone for so many years, and it is too late to hurt you, but you still scold me, do you have any conscience?"

A Yuan nestled against Kai Fan's neck and didn't speak.

In fact, why doesn't he know that Kai Fan is good and considers everything for himself.Although Kai Fan has a bad temper, but for him, it is also heart and soul, not the slightest perfunctory.Maybe it was because Kaifan was so kind to him that he was ashamed to see Kaifan after Zhong Can's accident, without even thinking about it, Kaifan would definitely take the responsibility for him.

But A Yuan can't do this kind of thing, he can't owe Kaifan so much, if he does, he won't be able to repay it all his life, and he will always owe Kaifan.

Not to mention the ridiculous dignity, it is even impossible to be a person.

He pondered, looking at the approval status of the film after the new year, and waiting for the market response after its release.When filming, he devoted 120 points of concentration and sincerity, just hoping to achieve his ultimate, at least let Kaifan profit.

Although this circle is eccentric and he has suffered so much after entering the industry, Ah Yuan has no regrets.

If he hadn't entered the showbiz, he wouldn't be able to afford his mother's high medical expenses, and he wouldn't have the chance to repay Kai Fan's kindness.

Even if they struggled not to break up at the beginning, with Kaifan completely cutting off ties with his family, he and Kaifan would not be able to go on, and would even consume all the remaining love.

When deciding to break up, A Yuan thought, instead of letting love run out, it's better to stop when he loves the most.

It is better for a rose to wither than to be burned to ashes.

As time goes by, Kaifan will always be relieved, time will heal many wounds, and he will meet the right person again.When I think about it later, there are only a few more words that ridicule the youthful madness.Those stupid things I did will not leave any traces in Kaifan's life.

But A Yuan forgot one thing, Kai Fan is more brain-dead than him, if you fall in love, you fall in love, there is absolutely no turning back.

Otherwise, Kai Fan would not be so desperate to chase him.