You who walk against the light

The corners of Aunt Song's eyes were moist, she wanted to say something but held back, and she spoke after a while: "You are so tolerant of him, this child... don't look like he is usually docile and well-behaved, but he is actually very stubborn."

Regarding this point, Zhong Kaifan has learned it thoroughly. If he hadn't accidentally learned that Aunt Song was ill, he didn't know how long A Yuan would have kept it secret.

There was a sad smile between Kai Fan's brows and eyes: "I will."

Song Wangshu asked again: "I remember you used to have a younger brother, what's his name, oh--" Her eyes were shining, she was still so gentle, and she patted the back of Kaifan's hand: "Is it called Zhong Can? He is now How about it?"

Zhong Kaifan's heart tightened, and he lied, "It's pretty good, Zhong Can is married."

Apparently, Ah Yuan probably didn't tell her aunt what happened back then, so that she didn't know that Zhong Can had passed away.Then... Zhong Kaifan thought about it for a moment, and guessed that everything that happened to A Yuan after that was probably hidden from his aunt.

Thinking of this, Zhong Kaifan's heart throbbed with pain. How much did A Yuan bear alone?

A Yuan knew what Zhong Can's death meant, so he simply broke up with him so as not to embarrass him; in order to prevent his mother from feeling guilty, he didn't say anything about Zhong Can's death, but suffered from self-punishment and torture; He didn't tell himself about serious things, for fear of causing him trouble.

His A Yuan was still in the dressing room of the crew, blaming himself in tears: I am disloyal, filial and righteous.

In these years, the only thing he has achieved is "benevolence". He would rather lend Xiang Qing 20 yuan at a critical moment than turn around and beg for himself.Zhong Kaifan burns inside and out, he really doesn't know what A Yuan is insisting on, why is it always so distressing?

In fact, Kai Fan has thought about it, it is difficult to cover everything in life, and there are always things that are not satisfactory.

It is because A Yuan pursues perfection too much that he lives so tiredly.

In all fairness, Zhong Kaifan didn't believe that A Yuan would have anything to do with An Ran.But what A Yuan did at the time made him think that A Yuan was cowardly to avoid the tragedy after Zhong Can's death; he was eager to enter the entertainment industry because of utilitarianism;

But during the four years of getting along, A Yuan loved him so passionately, Zhong Kaifan has long been addicted to it.The more he loves him, the more Kaifan resents him.

Now that the truth is in front of him, Zhong Kaifan doesn't know how to describe his mood at the moment, from the shock at the beginning, to the heartache, and now the regret that almost runs through his heart.

What did he do to A Yuan?

Zhong Kaifan looked up at Aunt Song. Her hair had turned gray a lot, her complexion had become sallow due to illness, her eye sockets were sunken, and her body was thin. Only in her tone could she find the once-familiar temperament.

He knew that Aunt Song had been proud all her life, with a gentle and calm appearance but a heart as firm as a rock.If not, she would not have worked so hard to bring up A Yuan alone.Thinking of this, Kai Fan felt a little bit emotional, perhaps it was because of such a mother that A Yuan was so stubborn.

Now it seems that A Yuan cherishes feathers very much. Contrary to his own cleanliness in life, A Yuan is a person with spiritual cleanliness and has high self-moral requirements.

This is probably the reason why A Yuan has never been redeemed.

He is too kind and doesn't allow himself to make mistakes.Something happened to Zhong Can, and without the need for others to criticize him, he had already nailed himself to the pillar of shame, piercing the nails into his back one by one.

"A Yuan is busy with work this year, and I can't come back during the Spring Festival. I will come to accompany you." Kai Fan restrained his emotions and tried his best to keep his tone calm.

He knew very well in his heart that if he wanted to help A Yuan, he could only do so in a non-traceable way.For money or something, there is no need for Ah Yuan to refuse, first of all, he will not be able to pass Aunt Song's barrier, and he will not commit crimes knowingly.

Aunt Song sat on the head of the bed with a look of relief on her face, "You children are all very well, and you still visit me from time to time, and An Ran also comes here every now and then, so I'm content in my heart."

The emotions that had just calmed down seemed to surge out again, and Kai Fan tried his best to restrain his tears: "It should."

"Kaifan, listen to your auntie and spend good time with your parents. As the saying goes, 'If your parents are here, don't travel far away'. I heard Ayuan say that you studied in Zhejiang during your postgraduate to Ph.D. period?"

"Yes."

"Don't get angry with them, they will always be the people who love you the most in this world."

Zhong Kaifan lowered his head and wiped his tears in embarrassment. In fact, he knew very well in his heart that not all parents can love each other deeply. Of course, compared to ordinary people, they must still love themselves very much.But Kaifan didn't feel that he was truly loved. Since he was a child, he had faced complex family relationships, and he couldn't say he was wronged. After all, compared to other children, he had enough.

In that cold home, only Zhong Can could make him feel the warmth.

Kaifan later reflected on that the reason why he spoke harshly in anger was because he didn't know how to love.Although Zhong Can is the younger brother, he is actually more used to him. As time goes by, he doesn't know how to manage a relationship because no one has ever taught him.

The experience from childhood to adulthood tells Kaifan that if you like something, you must first find a way to get it.

So when Kaifan saw Ayuan at first sight, he wanted to have him for a long time.

Compared with A Yuan's gentle and tolerant love, my liking for him is a little shallow.Zhong Kaifan fell in love with Lin Yuan at first sight, but Lin Yuan fell in love with him for a long time.

The weight of the two is not the same.

Until today, Zhong Kaifan realized that he did not love the wrong person, falling in love with A Yuan was his honor in Zhong Kaifan's life.

He loves A Yuan's appearance, loves A Yuan's talent, and even more loves A Yuan's spiritual personality.

Fortunately, he has resented and blamed A Yuan in countless dark nights. Now it seems that he has never understood A Yuan, and always imposes his own consciousness on A Yuan. He has never thought about why A Yuan would Became like this, or explore some of the reasons.Just immersed in the pain of losing him, he didn't think about what kind of person A Yuan is and the reason for making a certain decision.

His love is relatively narrow, mixed with tenderness and sweetness when he was young, coupled with the fact that his life is peaceful, there is no abnormality at all.Once life changes and human nature is tested by fate, this love will appear extraordinarily weak.Because this kind of love is not strong enough to resist the darkness of the whole world, rushing towards one person without thinking about oneself.

These lingering thoughts are what Kaifan bought at a great price. Fortunately, it is not too late, at least A Yuan is still alive, and he has not completely left himself.

He wiped away his tears and said in a muffled voice, "I know."

Song Wangshu sighed, "It's good if you have this kind of heart, I live very well in the hospital," she said, and she suddenly laughed, with a mysterious brilliance on her face, "A Yuan gives me money every month. There are so many things to buy online!"

There was a poignant smile in the air, Aunt Song pointed to the cabinet facing her, "There are several couriers over there, I haven't had time to open them yet, please open them for me."

Zhong Kaifan got up and took out a rectangular box from the cabinet. The courier slip had not been torn off, and A Yuan's online shopping ID was written on it.For some reason, as soon as Zhong Kaifan saw those words, his vision began to blur, and a tear burst out on the brown express carton.

Even in the abyss of fate, his A Yuan is still so cute.

The ID is: Ah Yuanmaimaimaimai.