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All of this was too violent and abrupt, and it took only a dozen seconds before and after, as if a century had passed.

Xin Yu's heart was pounding in his throat, and he was as nervous as the culprit, even a little ashamed to see others, and seemed to be prying into other people's secrets.

He was suffocated by imagining this kind of scene, and practiced it in front of his eyes. He didn't even have the courage to get out of the car. With Ren Kai's intoxicated and bewildered expression, he felt that there was nothing to beat in his chest, and there was a dead silence, as if Zixin had never been so crazy to himself. In such an empty parking lot, such a gasping sound The sound entered the ear, piercing into the heart like a steel needle.

He believed in Zixin even more than he believed in himself. His goal was always on those people who coveted him. He wanted to wipe them all out. He wanted to wipe them out. Thinking of ignoring the one that hurt him the most.

The mouth was a little dry and itchy, and there was a violent cough that seemed to cough out the lungs, the tears in the eyes were streaming down, I wanted to wash away what I saw, I wanted to tell myself that I was wrong, it was not a child Heart.

The chest rose and fell violently, and the blood in the whole body seemed to be flowing backwards.

To love too much is always to do it with unprecedented pain - a foil.

Zi Xin ran over and wanted to open the car door, but Xin Yu locked himself in it tightly, lying on the steering wheel and twitching uncontrollably, his whole upper body was trembling.

"Xin Yu, Xin Yu..." No matter how much Zixin pulls and knocks, the car door still doesn't move at all. Xin Yu doesn't want him to see himself being trampled on, that's enough, why bother? Let him see, let him pity himself.

Zixin was anxious and heartbroken, and turned around in circles, then slammed on the roof of the car, and drove away like crazy.

Ren Kai didn't expect that his impulsiveness would bring such a big trouble to Zixin. At that time, he really just wanted to kiss Zixin once. It was a wish he had made for more than ten years. It was pure and pure, but when his lips When the petals were attached, he couldn't control it anymore, there seemed to be all sorts of gravitational attraction there, and he refused to let go or want to let go for a long time, but he never thought that this scene could be seen by Xin Yu.

When he saw Xin Yu, his mind went numb, thinking of what he said in front of Xin Yu, saying that he would not steal Zi's heart, but what he did just now, but then he let it go, why my love? You have to pay the price of leaving, and you have to be willing to bury the attachment in your heart.

So, looking at the anger in Xin Yu's eyes and the panic in Zi Xin's eyes, he watched everything with a very calm heart.

Immediately there is a sense of balance.

Therefore, there is no reason to love someone. Your character, your behavior, your way of doing things, and your reason and brain are all irrelevant. The burst of love is random, and you don’t know when it will happen. It will spark out and then get out of hand.

I wanted to explain a few words to Xin Yu, telling him that all of this was done by myself, Zixin was forced, don’t blame him, but then I thought about why this happened, my job, my connections and friendships , Didn't my home become nothingness under this person's words? Why can't I do something to fight back and tell him that I am not easy to mess with.

If it's bad, it's bad, so what.

After flying back overnight and driving home for more than an hour, what he saw was this. Xin Yu couldn't forgive him, his mind was as blank as a blank sheet of paper.

Going upstairs to open the door, Little Black Dou happily ran over on his short legs, and tugged on his trouser legs with a "huh, huh", Xin Yu picked it up and pressed it to his face, his big black eyes were also It started to get watery, as if complaining about his master, complaining about grievances.

Walking in with Little Black Bean in his arms, he saw that the ashtray on the coffee table was full of cigarette butts——Nanjing, Zixin didn’t smoke this brand, not to mention he had quit smoking for a long time.

Turning around to look at the bed again, there were messy quilts and scattered pillows, picking them up and smelling them, my heart was completely torn.

This is the man I have loved for six years, and this is the person I trust.

Little Heidou struggled to get off the ground, but Xin Yu knew that the force in his hand was a little too strong, which made Heidou bark his teeth and yelled "Aww", he let go of his hand and let it go to the ground, his eyes followed the little tail. It was empty, and the small quilt in the kennel was pulled out, and a dog bone was lying by the door of the bathroom, everyone said they loved me, but you, did you stop loving me so soon?Or, you never loved me.

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After one surgery in the morning, Zixin went back to the office, but Xin Yu was still missing, so she went to ask the nurse, who also said she hadn't seen him.

Sitting on the chair, Zixin felt as if his heart was twisted by a knife. Really, when he saw Xin Yu lying on the steering wheel in pain, he was extremely helpless, and he didn't know what words or actions to explain to him. This was actually a misunderstanding, nothing happened to them, but the operation time was fixed, he couldn't ignore the patient and deal with his own private affairs.

But having said that, whoever watched that scene, no matter how you say it was fake or a misunderstanding, no one would believe it.

My head hurt so much all morning. I still didn’t wait for Xin Yu to come at noon. I called his cell phone, turned it off, and went to the dean’s office to find him. .

Before entering the operating room in the afternoon, Ren Kai called to apologize, saying that he didn't expect such a result, and he didn't intend to do so. He just wanted to say goodbye to him, and didn't want to destroy the relationship between him and Xin Yu, but...

But things have already happened, what else can be done, what problem can be solved by scolding, and what can be redeemed even if scolded, so Zixin just kept silent, his mind was not on Ren Kai's phone at all, but I was thinking about where Xin Yu was, what he was doing, how he was feeling, and whether they could continue walking.

After finally making up my mind, I really don't want to give up halfway.

You know how hard it is for him to make such a determination.

Even in many quiet nights afterwards, they hugged Xin Yu happily and thought about their future, which was as beautiful and yearning as Xin Yu described.

What was unimaginable and unthinkable in the past is gradually becoming a reality, or has slowly approached reality, but now it is only a moment, and all the confidence and possession that have been built are gone.

He was helpless and unable to do what he wanted, even when he was facing a difficult operation. Maybe it was Xin Yu who was sticking to him all the time, and it was Xin Yu who took the initiative, and he didn't know what to do instead.

So the operation in the afternoon was also drowsy. Fortunately, the operation was not major, and the first aid was good, and nothing went wrong.

This may be the first time since work to go home on time. He couldn't wait to open the door and go in. Usually, Little Black Bean would run over when he heard the noise, "uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu", but today the room was eerily quiet.

Nothing has been touched, only the clothes of Xiao Heidou and Xin Yu are missing.

Du Zixin's heart immediately went cold.

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