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The past is unbearable, and it is impossible to repeat what he thought. Ren Kai is still regretting his hesitation at the beginning. It may be because of his weak character that it has become a foregone conclusion today. There is no exclusion in marriage. Although Xiao Ning is not very beautiful, and sometimes has a hot personality, but she has been married for three years and has taken care of housework and has children. She is also considered a qualified wife. If he is asked to abandon his wife and children and choose the same sex, he may not be able to do it. To, so such a androgynous personality makes him hate himself.

The sea of ​​clouds tune this time has really stirred up the hidden in his heart. The old man in his thirties also wants to go crazy and find peace for his surging heart.

"Ren Kai, you should understand some things even if I don't say them. Xiao Ning is a good wife, and Yaya is also cute and well-behaved. You should cherish it. No matter what thoughts you have in the past, you should give up today. Do you understand? Let's not mention it for now. Here, Xin Yu, regarding your family situation, do you need me to say more? You want me to bear the infamy and feel guilty? To be honest, you treat me... I can see a little bit, but I didn't expect you to fall into the trap. So deep, you also know that Xin Yu and I have been on and off for six or seven years, and neither of us can forget the other. This may be called fate, or it may be called destiny. I have never been in love. Anyway, I am like this, I am certain, determined, and I will never change easily, people, that’s how it is, the more you can’t get it, the more you think it’s the best, the more you want it, it’s better to cherish the present, you and I both I’m not young anymore, I’ve said goodbye to the frivolous era, just a joke, why didn’t you express that kind of thought about me when you were in school, I think you are very close to the little girl, I thought you were heterosexual , who dares to provoke you, if you say it more sensationally, you and I are destined to pass each other, and we are destined to be good friends and nothing else, sober up brother, don't think so much."

It's really the first time I have such a formal conversation with Ren Kai. Some words can be official or strict, but I just want to make it clear.

Confusion does not make friendship, but makes friendship completely broken up. Therefore, it is easy for everyone to face it.

"But have you ever thought about my feelings? When I realized that I like both women and men, I wanted to commit suicide. Have you ever thought about how you smiled and blessed me when I married Xiao Ning? What is it like in my heart? For a long time, I thought that I was a pervert, an out-and-out pervert, how could there be someone like me, I thought about letting you go, and living my life on and off But since Xin Yu came back, seeing you getting closer and closer, his attitude and not avoiding people, suddenly aroused the sleeping thoughts in my heart, I am no longer satisfied with this static state, the eagerness in my heart always stimulates me to want to explode , I want to do something to you, I control, don't think about it, don't look at it, but do you know this feeling, it's so fucking annoying, Zixin, you are not me, you can't think of my pain, of course I also I understand that this embarrasses you, but I just want to say what I want to say, do what I want to do, the source is me, and I will not blame you for what you do."

From Ren Kai's expression, Zixin could see that he was really in pain. From school to work, Ren Kai always played the role of a "weak person", and he had to discuss with himself first when encountering anything. His reliance is his spiritual pillar. One day this pillar leaves him and becomes someone else's. One can imagine his ability to accept it.

What's more, this kind of psychology is not just a kind of dependence, but a habit of love.

He is used to Zixin being by his side, he is still and moving, talking and laughing as well as squabbling, as long as you are there, he will feel at ease when he sees you, and Zixin seems to be used to the dependence of this kind of friendship, no matter how late a phone call is. If you can get in place, you can tell what the other party wants to do with just one look. Even the cars of the two are the same model, but these don't mean forever, and they will eventually separate to find a place to live.

For his remote adjustment, Zixin has nothing but comfort. After all, this is a good decision. All three members of the family have settled down. Of course, there is some reluctance. It has been a habit for more than ten years, and suddenly one day he will go again. On the 16th floor, seeing another new face sitting in the director's office, he must not be used to it, and sometimes the habit is quite scary, and Zixin really realized it later.

The two chatted until dawn, and there seemed to be a lot of things left unsaid. Although they knew each other well, fortunately, the conversation was not as embarrassing as imagined. After all, they were both rational enough, and no one wanted to lose the other.

In the parking lot, Zixin was getting ready to go to work, and Ren Kai went home to pack his luggage and prepare to go on the road.

"Zixin, can I give you a hug?"

This time they parted, and Ren Kai felt sour when he couldn't tell when.

Zixin stepped forward, opened his arms generously, took Ren Kai into his arms, and patted him on the back lightly.

"I'll see you when I have time, or you can come back to see me when you have time. It's only three or four hours' drive in total. It's not easy to see each other."

Ren Kai didn't care about Zixin's reassurance, his arms were tight and he didn't want to let go. This is the embrace that he dreamed of, and there will be no more after this embrace.

"Okay, I have to go to work in the morning, so it's not good for people to see." Zixin slowly pulled his arms away, seeing that Ren Kai's eyes were shining brightly, and couldn't help but want to laugh at him like a child, but the next second But he was blocked tightly by Ren Kai's lips.

The lips are captured, just sucking fiercely, anyway, it’s like this, why should there be regrets, no matter how Zixin shirks, Ren Kai’s hands are still stuck, trying his best to suck everything from him The breath, I want to stay in the body like this, and slowly aftertaste later.

Even though the teeth were tightly clenched, the lips and gums were still licked thoughtfully.

Even though Zixin struggled with his hands, trying to tear the strong suction cup away, Ren Kai's rare strength still made him feel the pain of his bones being strangled.

Ren Kai doesn't care whether he responds or not, he just wants to enjoy this moment, he doesn't care about whether he is seen or not, and he doesn't care about any public places, and he will never have it again, so he just wants to do this.

When Zixin refused and failed, it suddenly occurred to her that this year's love luck seems to have the same attribute, that is, fierceness, Xin Yu is like this, and Ren Kai is like this.

The inner side of the lower lip was torn apart again, and the pain suddenly increased. Ren Kai opened his mouth to breathe in a 'hiss'. His head was pulled out from his mouth like a carrot.

"You're crazy, isn't it over?" Zixin wiped his lips, blood stains were oozing out, and his eyes were full of anger, "It's almost done, you're really crazy."

Ren Kai was also very embarrassed by the gaffe just now. He didn't know that he lost control when he kissed and kissed. He closed his eyes and immersed himself in it, and felt that Zixin belonged to him and he had to get him. If Zixin didn't pull him away, There may be a next step.

"Zixin..." Ren Kai didn't know what to say, let alone what to say.

Zixin looked at him, angrily turned to the front of the car and opened the door. Just as she was about to get in, she saw the angry eyes of the owner of the 377 that were already tearing apart.

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