[Hebrew Mythology] Fallen to Heaven

I walked into the classroom alone and sat in the seat near the back door, completely emptying myself.

My worldview was devastated yesterday, and what was even more devastating was that my roommate fell into a deep distrust of our friendship.

Professor Line Generation was speaking on the podium that I couldn't understand at all, and I sat under the podium and looked at a room of people I didn't know very well.The whole world has become extremely ridiculous, full of content that I can't make sense of myself.What's more, sitting next to me is a blonde ladyboy, looking at me with his big eyeliner eyes, with an indescribable mischief.

"I said," I whispered the third time he looked over, "you think this sort of thing is fun?"

"I have to say," he admits with a smile, "it makes me feel good to watch them have a rift with you like this."

"You dare to say that you are an angel."

"First of all, the heaven I'm in was skewed by you. Secondly..." He curled his blond hair with his fingers, "Even if I know it's because of this reason, even if my affection for you comes from instinct—I And I will never leave you, in this comparison, they are really nothing."

His voice was sweet, soft and firm, "We crossed a world to find you, but they stayed away from you for such a boring reason. Who do you think you should stand on?"

"Which side do you think I should stand on as a human being?" I asked with a wooden face.

"...If you say that, it will make me very sad."

"Go get hurt, I don't care at all."

He sighed deeply, as if he had expected that it would be impossible to convince me so easily.We sat together at the same long table, his blond hair hanging down and dangling in the corner of my eye.Many people I know or don't know are watching him, and he looks back one by one, like a puppy protecting its owner.

"...I'm really Lucifer?"

"Of course."

"Then will you obey my order?"

"Of course." He smiled brightly, and I continued indifferently: "I don't want to see you in the next class."

So Gabriel sat next to me in the second English class.

"...I don't want to see you either!"

"I'm an angel." Gabriel remained indifferent, "I don't obey the orders of the devil."

I always feel that the direction of this plot is a bit confusing, as if if I don't go, they will stay with me until I graduate from college.

So I couldn't bear to skip class, and I didn't believe they could sneak into the men's dormitory.

As a result, they didn't come in, but the old poplar tree came in.

Old Yangshu is very indescribable.Whether it's his unfathomable knowledge reserves, his rambling teaching methods, or his real name that we haven't figured out in the past three years, and the old glasses that have been worn for at least 20 years by visual inspection, all reveal a certain This kind of ancient, elegant, yet full of vitality and inclusiveness, and a sense of unnatural cultural heritage that is well connected with emerging things makes people want to stand at attention and salute when they look at it.He lifted my quilt with a smile and pulled me out of the glory of the king, "Play games as long as you play, why cover yourself with a quilt?"

"A quilt is an enchantment that blocks people you don't want to see."

"Oh, oh, what's the matter, it looks like the world view has been severely hit? Who instilled the teachings of Zoroastrianism?"

"Indoctrinated with Christianity by the two Gabriels."

Old Yangshu stroked his clean-shaven chin, "I think, Frost Cub, your worldview needs a new round of blows."

"...If you always say that you are an angel or a devil, I will believe it, and if you say that you are a god, I will also believe it."

"No, I want to tell you that you missed my lab exam. If you don't please me, you will fail."

I suddenly collapsed on the bed with a black eye, and hung up in the game very unscrupulously.

"Another thing is, I am indeed an angel. My name is Raguel."

I nodded feebly, not even engaging my brain to process the information.

"What about you, Lucifer is fine, you are a reincarnation at best. Even if you are reincarnated just to be the continuation of his life, you don't need to be his sequel."

I looked up at him.

He was very old indeed, at least the human face was very old.It suddenly occurred to me that he had long been a doctoral supervisor, and for some reason he suddenly decided to teach a class of undergraduates—maybe it was because of me.

"Ah, it's a little strange to say this as an angel? That kind of thing is completely your own choice. I know where God is, and I also know how dangerous it is to save him. I know better-now you don't have that ability at all. "

I buried my face back in the sheet.

He ruffled my hair.

"Do you remember that you told me that you have had a dream since you were very young?"

"In that dream, there was darkness, with the sound of water, but no one; then an unknown color of light filled the space, and you felt yourself lifting your head—at that moment you felt falling, and then woke up. That Let me tell you sometime, this is the same feeling that many people dream of walking on the steps of the kindergarten, or dreaming that they are on the cliff and then fall, it is a certain feeling of the brain."

"Actually, you have subconsciously connected 'God' and 'Fall'. You want to recall him, but you want to stop yourself. Because Lucifer's emotions are too simple, they are extremely complicated by time; and people The emotions of angels are too complicated, so they have been polished very purely in time. It is impossible to bear the emotions of angels with your 20 years of human life."

"So my suggestion may be the same as yours. Live your life well as a human being. What happens in this world has nothing to do with you...Even if this world is destroyed, you just need to stand before God again and start afresh. Just build the world."

I suddenly thought of a question.That question gave me chills.

"If the world is destroyed, what about you?"

"It will die. All your relatives, friends, and their reincarnations will die too. Ashes, souls, whatever you want to describe. Return to nothingness."

That's the only way the question is relevant.The destruction of the world after thousands of years is meaningless - but the people I know die forever, which is another concept.

I am such a selfish thing, you told me how many people died in the gun battle in the United States on the other side of the world, I have no idea at all; but you told me that the third child on the upper bunk would die—— This is much more terrifying than 1 deaths in the United States.

"Don't think so." Old Yang Shu rubbed my hair again, "It has nothing to do with you. Without Lucifer, none of this would exist; so Lucifer wants an ordinary life, father and mother , younger sister and cousin, want to use the most vulnerable way to feel the world, want to be a stupid ordinary person unscrupulously... In this world, there is no right to complain about his decision. He is really too tired to Choose to be you... so you don't have to be so tired."

"What's your relationship with Lucifer?"

Raguel—the old poplar stared at me for a long time, then shook his head.

"I'm your professor."

In fact, I didn't think about this issue until the end, that is, whether Lao Yangshu said so much that day to make me feel at ease, or to make me feel guilty and uneasy.

In short, I finally got out of bed at two o'clock in the morning, put on the thickest down jacket, and went downstairs in the dark alone.The sound of the elevator echoed in my ears alone, I left the dormitory building alone, walked around to the open space at the entrance of the library, and looked around.

Gabriel silently appeared in front of me.

"What should I do to save God?"

Gabriel frowned suspiciously, but I was really not in the mood to tangle with her, "I asked me what to do! I'm not here to say that Sesame is open!"

"Of course not, but why is it so sudden—"

"Stop talking nonsense, I've decided to save him now, you'd better seize the opportunity to take me there before I change my mind, and I don't guarantee that I won't be afraid when I get there."

That's why we're shivering now looking at a white mist.

Is it really cold, not even the clammy or dry cold with water vapor or wind in the air, but a chill like the pure soul being frozen. I can’t tell whether it’s the physical feeling or the spiritual feeling, and I can hear it clearly The sound of chattering teeth, both of us.

There was thunder in the distance, and the air was filled with small electric currents. Standing on the edge of this white fog, I felt that my own prediction was too accurate.

When I really came here, I was instantly discouraged.

My mind is full of "what the hell am I crazy about? Why did I come here? What does it have to do with my life? I want to run away."

Gabriel probably saw that I had this tendency, held my wrist without hesitation, narrowed his eyes, "Lucifer is not so dishonest."

"I'm not Lucifer..." I looked at her with a sad face, "I'm just a human being..."

"Why did Lucifer reincarnate as you?" She couldn't help asking.

"I want to know too!" On this point, I have exactly the same opinion as her.

"Since I don't know why," the voice of a third person came from the white mist, "then let him go back."

It was a girl with silver hair.She was wearing a black and white dress, her skin was fair, and she almost melted into the mist.One red and one blue eyes looked at us with indifference, as if they wanted to kill someone, "Human beings can't do this kind of thing, right? ——I'm Yanar." She turned to Gabriel in the second half of the sentence Say, "Just for the world, then I can do it too."

I almost fell down.She stood there, as if carrying the light of the whole heaven on her back, which made me want to shout out to the Virgin Mary, the living Bodhisattva.

"Angel's power is simply impossible—"

"I said yes, I can." She retorted extremely arrogantly, "Have you tried it, and just say no here?" She stroked her hands between the silver hair on her shoulders, with a contemptuous smile, "Get out, get out more The farther the better. I do this kind of thing—and the whole world bows down to me for it."

Gabriel narrowed his eyes severely.Yanar turned around briskly, her skirt drew a beautiful arc, and she walked straight into the mist with her back straight, and the electric current rubbed a tiny light on her skin.

"...Yanar."

I don't even know why I spoke.

"What is often masked by this tone is extreme self-sacrifice."

"I'm not going to die." She continued to walk forward without pausing.

Then I rushed up.

Without thinking, thinking has already stagnated since I saw this mist that does not belong to the human category.My instinct prompted me to grab her wrist and pull it hard, and then I saw that her face was full of tears.

She looked at me, blinked, and then wiped her tears with her wrist; but the tears were getting more and more, and she wiped stubbornly as if she didn't realize it.

"……What do you want to do?"

"I'm not going to die. I promise."

"What do you want to do?"

"They just didn't try. An angel isn't strong enough to bring a god out, but—"

"But are you still planning to come back? Even if you don't die?!" My voice became louder.She trembled and hung her head, large tears rolling down her eyelashes.

"...that's not your concern."

There is thunder coming from afar.

That distance seemed familiar.

"It's not your responsibility. They asked you to come because only you can get out, and now you don't have that power, so it has nothing to do with you. You have no obligation to save anyone who is weak."

Does it really have nothing to do with me?

God is imprisoned here, really has nothing to do with Lucifer?

Only ghosts will believe it.

"……What do you want to do?"

"Instead. I have the aura of God in me, and I can deceive the 'rules'. As long as I am imprisoned there instead of God."

When she said this, her tone was terrifyingly flat.

"Yanar." I called her, as if I had called her countless times, "You don't belong to this world, do you? How does this world have less to do with you?"

She finally wiped away her tears.When I looked up again, the light in her eyes made me realize that there was no way I could convince her.

"You are not me, how do you know that this world has nothing to do with me?"

I almost lashed out with a sentence that I don't know if I don't know Yu Zhile, but I suppressed the topic in time, "I know. The relationship between this world and you is that I have a relationship with this world."

"Yes. This is a big relationship. Even if it is wishful thinking, I will definitely block everything for you. Why do you have to ask? Can you stop me? If you can't, just don't ask, and then your conscience will not be affected Such a big condemnation."

I felt a severe pain in my heart.

But I can't tell whether it's because of her that my heart hurts, or if someone in the distance feels my heart hurts.

"...I don't believe that such a beautiful girl likes me."

"If there is such a beautiful intersex person who likes you, you will believe it."

I took a choke and pressed my temples, "Eh...you angels have unique tastes. I didn't force you to wear women's clothes, did I?"

"It's not true, but if you declare that you like women, there will be a transsexual frenzy in the Three Realms."

"..." To be honest, I can't adapt.

"If you have no other questions, can you let me go?"

I let go of her hand belatedly, she took another look at the mist and shook her head, "Impossible. This is the barrier given by the rules, even if you recover all your strength here, it is impossible to go there .I gave you my soul core, so I can guarantee immortality, and only I can split the soul core - after all, I am the only one among the seraphs who is a bisexual angel. So this is indeed only I can do, you I heard from God before I came back, and I have already made up my mind, there is no need for you to stop me at this time."

I glanced in the direction from which the thunder came.

Whatever the reason, I knew she was right: I couldn't get there.It is a minefield where nothing is allowed to enter, where thunder and thunderbolt proclaim their might.

But I swallowed.

"I go."

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I watched the lunar eclipse and saw eleven o'clock, then rushed to 02:30_(:з」∠)_ to sleep, good night, see you tomorrow afternoon (