After I became a shemale liar

The noisy world outside the glass window seems to have been muted, and only the noise from the receiver remains.I looked away, feeling the darkness in front of me was getting heavier and heavier, as if everything around me had gone out, only the phone screen was still on.

"Aren't you too reluctant to be with me?" He suddenly asked after an unknown amount of time.

"Don't talk nonsense." I interrupted him.

He was silent again for a long time.

"Forget it." I pinched the center of my brows, and broke the tormenting tug-of-war: "You don't need to pick me up, I'll go back by myself."

Fang Xiao didn't answer, I don't know if he listened, I continued: "I may not have time here during Chinese New Year, I have to visit my mother, I will go to Tianjin to stay for a few days."

After a long time, there finally came a "hmm".

I gently hung up the phone.

After sending the girl back, I gave Lu Xingcheng a series of fatal calls and asked him to come out for a drink.

Lu Xingcheng was so annoyed by me, he rode out on his broken electric scooter tremblingly.After entering the door, I looked left and right and found me. While taking off my gloves, I walked this way and gave me a slap in the face: "Why are you crazy at night?"

"Ask you a question." After he came over, I said suddenly: "What will you do when you have to hide something from Fluctlight?"

"What nonsense are you talking about!" Lu Xingcheng looked like an enemy: "I didn't hide anything from her."

I smile.

"Hey, if you want to hide it, do your best to hide it, don't let her know at all." Lu Xingcheng sat down and rubbed his hands.

"What if...she finds out by herself?"

"Seek good luck." Lu Xingcheng pondered for a while: "A friendly reminder to you to refer to the blank period between me and her for more than a year."

"..."

"Hey, wait a minute," Lu Xingcheng seemed to come to his senses: "Damn it, I actually heard you ask me this in my lifetime? What are you doing to commit crimes? Did you leave me with a peach blossom?"

I silently swallowed a sip of wine, feeling like I swallowed a ball of fire, burning all the way from my throat to my stomach, which was in serious contrast to the anxiety in my heart. Under the state of ice and fire, I didn't really want to talk.

"What do you mean by not talking, is it true? You can't break the curse in the past three months?"

"No," I explained with difficulty, "it's a long story."

"Let's make a long story short and pick the key points."

"Are you sure you want me to focus?"

"...Forget it, it's a bit embarrassing for you, an elderly mentally retarded, so let's talk about the current situation."

"Well, to put it abstractly, I lied to him about something and got bumped by him, and now it seems to be at an impasse."

"..." Lu Xingcheng was dumbfounded for two seconds: "Do you dare to be more mysterious?"

Reluctantly, I raised my head and took another sip.

"Drink, drink!" Lu Xingcheng snatched the cup from my hand: "What's wrong? Didn't you call me here to ask my opinion? I drank it again without explaining clearly!"

The cup was robbed, so I could only focus on the yellow liquid in the bottle, which was shimmering with crystal waves, which was very attractive.

"It seems to be nothing, but there are a lot of internal causes and external effects, I don't know how to say it."

Lu Xingcheng stared at me in disgust for a while, and it probably took his whole life to hold back my bear face: "Okay, then tell me, is it because you are guilty of hiding this matter?"

"No." I shook my head: "It's just that it's troublesome to explain, and everyone is a little emotionally clean, so I don't want him to know."

"Then he misunderstood you?"

"It doesn't seem to be." I supported my head, feeling like my skull was about to crack, so I didn't answer immediately.

"If he really misunderstood, he wouldn't tell me so much. I think he should have guessed the reason."

"Is it because I can't keep up with the times?" Lu Xingcheng looked confused after listening to my narration: "It means that you didn't do anything to apologize to him, and he understands, so why are you two suffering?"

"This is the uncomfortable point." I raised my sleepy eyelids and looked at him: "To you, to me, to him, homosexuality and heterosexuality are no different, but to my father, there is a difference, which is very uncomfortable. He understood my situation, so he didn't deliberately ask me what promise I wanted to make, even if it was verbal, I..."

Then I couldn't go on.

Looking over Lu Xingcheng's shoulders, I saw the red lanterns outside the window again, the bright colors made my eyes hurt, and I suddenly remembered that when I married Fang Xiao in the game a long time ago, he persistently pulled me to pray again.

In fact, he and I are not as indifferent as we appear to be. He must have thought about a lot of things.

As early as in the game, it was said that they were masters and apprentices, but in fact they had already crossed the line.I vaguely felt that his attitude towards me was a bit different, and I didn't know what kind of mentality he used to do those things, but I couldn't give it, and I couldn't take that step, so I wanted to avoid it.

But looking back now, there is no escape.

Even if his name just flashed by in the corner of my eye, my heart would jump like a grasshopper.

If a person's feelings can be completely controlled, how can the word impulsive appear?

How did I, who casually posted such an apprenticeship announcement, know that there would be so many bonds later, that I would hug, kiss, and even roll into bed with this person, and spend the night in the same bed.

And now, I'm tired of thinking about the future.

How many mistakes and coincidences are mixed in this, I can't tell myself.

Probably not many people are together because of this game. Compared with the three-dimensional real emotions, the game is still too beautiful and illusory. Once it falls from a dream to reality, the huge gap is not usually unbearable .

He is a man of the Son of Man, and so am I. I cannot live only for myself.

I can probably guess why Lao Li gave me a year. It's half a buffer and half a waste. Probably based on his understanding of me, he also feels that I can't last long with my troublesome personality. One day, he will decide in time. Stop loss and get out early.

"I said." The wine bottle in front of me was picked up and knocked twice, and I came back to my senses.

"If you haven't done anything well, you just have a gloomy look on your face. If you really feel sad, then there is nothing worse than death."

Me: "There is nothing wrong with everything else, but there is something wrong, I won't feel sad, I should howl."

Lu Xingcheng: "...It seems that you are too drunk, let's go and I will take you back, should we go back to your house?"

I said unhappily: "Do you want to go to him now to make him feel uncomfortable? I won't go home, I'll stay in a hotel."

Lu Xingcheng said hilariously: "Oh, I'll be considerate to you, your mother has a mine at home and lives in a hotel every day."

Me: "There are so many words, just watch your way."

The wind in the winter night is cool, and there is no chirping of insects and birds in the city with endless lights. I am still sitting in the back seat, and my whole consciousness has long been drifting away in the bright night scene.

The result of being out of mind is that he broke his arm halfway.

So I spent the night in the hospital.

Lao Li took the time to take a look the next day. After identifying whether I was silently confronting him and then left, or Qigou was a good boy, he brought a fried bag to feed me, and asked if there was a collision at home recently. Lu Xiaogui, such a wicked person, even if both father and son were broken, the same arm was injured.

I waved my still intact right hand and urged her to go back to read.

After everyone in the ward was gone, I finally took out the phone that I hadn't looked at all night.

There was not a single message in the background except for a few app push messages, and there were no missed calls.

The wine I drank the night before seemed to be still there, and the stamina was quite strong. The longer the time, the more empty I felt.

An unknown bird landed on the balcony. It probably stumbled into this tall building by mistake and couldn't find its way. It flew back and forth from several nearby windows in a daze, and finally curled up in a corner outside my ward. .

After spending two days in the hospital to make sure the bone was in the right place, I went home, rested and returned to Shanghai.

Oh, before I left, I met Ji Yan once.

I'm surprised, Guangzhou is such a big place, and I can meet him every few days.

I was waiting for the bus with my arms hanging, and I didn't know where he came from. Seeing my face, I didn't show much surprise, but kindly invited me to sit in the coffee shop.

To be honest, I don’t really want to go. I’m tired of visiting relatives during Chinese New Year, let alone having coffee with someone who clearly says I’m going to steal your man.

I looked at him for a few seconds, then nodded: "Let's go, where are you going?"

"Don't delay your business, right?" Ji Yan said politely after sitting down.

I had no choice but to reach out and not hit the smiling face: "No, I've been relatively free recently."

The waiter brought coffee and put it on the square log table in front of me. Through the steam, I asked, "Is there anything I can do for you?"

"Yes." Ji Yan stroked the wall of the cup with his fingers, and said seriously: "I find you very strange."

I raised my eyelids: "How?"

"I can't tell." Ji Yan hooked the corners of his mouth miserly: "Could it be a personality problem? You don't seem to care about anything."

"Maybe."

"What about him, don't you care about it too?"

"What do you want to say?"

"I don't know if I look shameless to you, but in my world, you are the one who broke in suddenly." Ji Yan said slowly: "I used to be ignorant, but I also recognize my heart I have wasted a lot of time on the Internet. I have many memories and pasts with him, and we also have a future that we can rely on each other. I thought he would wait for me, and when I came back from my master’s degree, my parents were gone long ago. He At home, I remember accepting that he was gay when I was in high school, and there would be no pressure to be together."

"As far as I know, you have had very little contact during this time." He finally picked up the porcelain cup and took a sip, his eyes glanced at my left arm: "Since you are so reluctant now, why don't you just let go?"

I think I probably have communication difficulties, and I really have nothing to say to these self-righteous young people.

In the end, I could only stand up speechlessly: "How are you and Fang Xiao? , do you still expect [-] million to wait for you at the same place?"

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