perfect mark

Ji Shao could only smile wryly.

Is it possible to find someone who is more suitable for him than Jiang Liaoyin? Leaving aside for now, can the permanent mark be tried casually?

Xu Songyan didn't want to force him like this, but he had no other choice.

In fact, he has serious mood swings now and then, and his mental state is not optimistic. He is not suitable for making decisions when he is easy to get into a dead end or have extreme thoughts.

But he had to make a decision as soon as possible.

"If both of you agree to planb, I have to take back all the medicines in Jiang Liaoyin's hands now. Prepare his body."

Xu Songyan said, "He has to stop B&R completely to make a permanent mark."

"...to stop completely?"

Ji Shao was hit hard one after another, unexpectedly, "He won't be able to hide his sexual symptoms after stopping the drug."

"Yes. Not only that, Yongbiao Hou has to stop completely."

Xu Songyan said, "B&R is only suitable for drugs before permanent labeling. After permanent labeling, the secretion of pheromone hormones in the body will undergo major changes. For both parties, continuing to take it will be harmful and useless."

"If he agrees to help you, he must be prepared to be an Alpha for the rest of his life."

**

When Jiang Liaoyin came to the laboratory, the conversation between the two had just ended.

"……how is he?"

"not too good."

Xu Songyan bit the bullet and came out to deal with Ji Shao, "He said he didn't want to see you. Let him be quiet first."

"If you really can't sit still, go and beat up that idiot brother to vent your anger. The equipment here is very difficult to get, so don't mess around."

Jiang Liaoyin was surprisingly quiet.When I heard him say "I don't want to see you", my whole body trembled, but I just shook my head and said, "Blame me."

Xu Songyan almost thought he heard it wrong, "What did you say?"

"It was my fault. Blame me."

Jiang Liaoyin said in a low voice, "Is he particularly angry with me?"

Seeing that something was wrong, Ji Jing immediately called him.He had difficulty breathing, and his mind seemed to explode.On the way here, I kept regretting, and even kept resenting myself.

If you can seriously instruct Ji Jing, if you can put away the medicine earlier, if you don't go to school but take care of him at home with peace of mind.

Ji Shao might not have to suffer such unexpected disasters.

"You... let me meet him, okay. I want to talk to him face to face."

Xu Songyan felt a little distressed, but still refused. "He needs the independent space now to sort out these emergencies."

"Well, then tell him, I'll wait for him here. When he comes out, we will go home together. "

When Cheng Peiqi heard the news, he also put down the experiment in his hand and came out to see him, and rubbed his shoulders to comfort him, "Don't be too discouraged, the situation is turning around."

Jiang Liaoyin plucked his hair and muttered to himself in a helpless tone, "...I'm sorry."

Since Ji Shao entered the cabin, he has seen how he counted the days day by day, and even survived minute by minute.

All that hard work and hard work has suddenly come to naught.Ji Shao will hate him, and it is right to ignore him.

Xu Songyan sighed, "There is necessity in all accidents. Even if there is no such thing, there may be other accidents. There are very few smooth and smooth situations. You don't have to blame yourself too much."

"Is there anything I can do to make it up? I don't want to just wait."

Jiang Liaoyin looked at him with a sincerity that he had never seen before, "As long as he can forgive me, I can do anything."

Xu Songyan paused for a moment, then suddenly asked, "Jiang Liaoyin, don't you really want to be an Alpha?"

Jiang Liaoyin was in a daze.Didn't expect him to say this, "...what?"

"In this world, everything has two sides. For an individual, there are advantages and disadvantages. No one will refuse the benefits that are close to them, unless there are hidden costs that they don't want to bear behind the so-called benefits."

"The benefits of being an Alpha have been touted by too many people. Then Jiang Liaoyin, what is the price you don't want to bear?"

It doesn't matter whether these two people can get to the step of permanent marking, or why they can get there.Even for the sake of their respective future lives, Xu Songyan watched for a long time, but finally couldn't help but say something here.

"It is very difficult to have the courage to accept yourself as you are, to face the world with your truest self. Sometimes, it is more difficult than hiding or disguising yourself. It is true for Ji Shao, and it is also true for you. For many Everyone is."

"But it's incredibly important," he said.

"I don't know why you don't accept your own sexuality. Everyone has their own little story. But figure out what is the most important, and figure out what kind of identity you should face difficulties. Maybe it will give you Some unexpected courage."

"The important thing is courage."

**

"I figured it out."

Xu Songyan just came back from Jiang Liaoyin's place.As soon as I entered the door, I heard Ji Shao say, "I won't choose either of the two paths you mentioned."

He could imagine what kind of situation the two known roads would lead to.

If he accepts the mark, even if the mark is successful, Jiang Liaoyin will be forced to restore his Alpha identity and lose the freedom he wants. What is the difference between that and being robbed of his life.If the marking failed, do they want them to be separated by the cabin for the rest of their lives, and be a pair of untouchable lovers?

If he doesn't accept the mark, he can carry it by himself - even if he can carry it, who can guarantee that he will be able to quit successfully next time?This time it was because of Ji Jing, next time it might be because of something else.This situation may happen again.Jiang Liaoyin didn't want to leave him, so he had to face his capriciousness, even making trouble for no reason.After a long time, the heart will always be tired.

His disaster should not be paid for by others.

"I don't want to be marked for something like this, let alone put him in a difficult situation. But I also feel...you're right, I probably can't take it anymore. I don't have that much confidence in my perseverance. "

"So I choose the third way."

Ji Shao said, "Can you do glandectomy here?"

Xu Songyan was taken aback for a moment, "...Why do you think so?"

"Your glands are part of your body. If you take them out, there are a lot of nasties."

The body is malfunctioning, the aging of the body is accelerating, and he has to take artificial pheromone drugs for intervention and regulation for the rest of his life... There are so many consequences to consider that he doesn't even know where to start.

But it is undeniable that this is indeed a one-stop solution.The most clean and neat, leaving no room for it.

"I know. In fact, I've wanted to do this for a long time. Sexual glands are all cumbersome. This is a kind of relief instead."

Ji Shao's tone was brisk, "It's okay. In the future, the worst thing is to carry the medicine with you at all times. Anyway, I've been doing that for many years, and I'm used to it."

"It's better to live a shorter life, at least it's free. We don't live by glands in this world, but by our own brains and hearts."

"Besides... maybe I don't really like him that much."

Ji Shao pursed the corners of his mouth hard, trying to maintain a relaxed expression, "It's just that this period of time... this is a special period, for me, you know, he happened to appear again, and he took good care of me, so... ..."

"So...so."

His voice gradually faded until he could speak no more.

"Songyan, I might really like him."

Ji Shao said softly, "I love him."

You can't lie to others, and you can't lie to yourself.

He felt indescribable, and he couldn't understand it.Obviously, I have warned myself from the very beginning, to leave two points of leeway, if there is really a day to say goodbye, I can leave more calmly.

Why did you still give your whole heart over.

He once thought that it would be difficult for him to express his heart firmly like Jiang Liaoyin, and to be so deeply involved in his relationship without hesitation.When he examines his heart, he always feels that his mind is so vague that it is difficult to distinguish, and he can't even understand it.

Until then, after experiencing such an accident, I suddenly understood it.You can see it clearly.

Him.

He got into more than less.

Xu Songyan opened his mouth, but no words came out.

He weighed the pros and cons so clearly that people didn't even know how to persuade him, "You have to... think about it."

"I've already thought about it. Didn't you also say that it's best to make a decision quickly?"

"But how do you tell Jiang Liaoyin about your decision? It should be difficult for him to accept."

"I'm not going to tell him."

Ji Shao smiled, "He still has so many good times, so he shouldn't waste them on me."

"I'd better...let him go."

He knew that someone was waiting outside, and he would definitely meet him as soon as he went out.So he calmly signed the documents required for the operation and waited for news from outside.It wasn't until it was getting late that Jiang Liaoyin couldn't bear the sleepiness and curled up on the sofa to take a nap, and then walked out lightly.

Holding his breath, the moment he passed by, his wrist was suddenly clamped.

Jiang Liaoyin quickly woke up from his doze, and looked at him with red eyes, "Where are you going?"

Ji Shao staggered back half a step, struggled twice but failed to shake off his hand, "Let go of me first."

"I won't let it go."

Jiang Liaoyin pulled him into her arms and hugged him tightly, her voice was whispered in his ears, "You will never come back after you leave, right? Blame me, get angry with me, why? You can punish me. I won’t let you go.”

After Xu Songyan came out to witness all this, he couldn't bear it, and told everyone in the laboratory to withdraw, leaving only the two of them here to talk.

"I'm not mad at you."

Ji Shao gently stroked his back, as gentle as usual.At this time, he returned to comfort him. "It's not your fault."

Jiang Liaoyin was filled with great fear.He would rather Ji Shao lose his temper, no matter how big his temper is, he can be beaten or scolded.

It's not like it is now, the tone and actions are the same as usual, but it seems that there are already prepared and unquestionable exit words hidden.The whole is pulling away from him, the determination is so frightening.

Ji Shao pulled him to the sofa and sat down, rubbed his face with both hands, and wiped away his tears with his fingertips.Looking at him with longing eyes, his tone was soft, "It's because of myself. I... am too tired."

"Then let's go home."

Jiang Liaoyin quickly raised his hands to cover his, trying to keep him with all his strength, "Let's go back, I'll cook something delicious for you, then take a hot bath and sleep comfortably, After waking up, after..."

"Jiang Liaoyin."

Ji Shao interrupted him, "I don't want to go back."

"...Okay, that's fine too."

Jiang Liaoyin's eyes followed him closely, unwilling to blink, and choked up intermittently, "Then let's break up, separate for a while, you have a good rest, it doesn't matter if you don't see me. I will never bother you, wait for you to rest. to appear in front of you again. I am waiting for you..."

Ji Shao shook his head, and slowly withdrew his hand, "You understand what I mean."

"I'm exhausted and I don't want to go on anymore."

"Ji Shao!"

He yelled in a low voice, his voice was already hoarse and painful, almost begging. "Do not say."

"……sorry."

Ji Shao's heart trembled violently.She gave him the last hug with all her strength, and pulled away before he returned the hug, stared at him deeply, and said in a low voice, "Don't hate me."

Jiang Liaoyin gritted her teeth, and still stretched out her hand to pull him, "If you dare to lose me like this, I will hate you forever."

Ji Shao avoids him.Standing in a place he couldn't reach, his eyes were sad and gentle.

"Stop, Jiang Liaoyin."

At that moment, there was a huge broken sound in his heart.In Jiang Liaoyin's eyes, he seemed to see the island where the migratory birds were anchored slowly sinking.

"I also... give you back your freedom."

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