martyrdom

When Yu'er arrived home, it was already the first lights of Wanjia.

She took the key and opened the door, but no one greeted her, and there was no light to greet her.The boxes in her hands were heavy, and her wrists were already sore, so she carefully placed them on the cabinet in the entrance, changed her shoes and walked into the house.

In the restaurant, Yuan Fei was sleeping at his desk, with exquisite dishes and a bronze candlestick on the table.The dripping solidified wax signified those times when no one was with us, and the lingering flames of the candle still struggled and danced, throwing Yuan Fei's slender figure onto the huge white wall behind him.

Her Yuan Fei is just like the solitary shadow dancing freely in this piece of pure white, beautiful and free and easy.Although entangled by the past and unable to blend into the secular world, it can also bloom gracefully in the night, dancing for itself an indelible and stable life.

However, there was someone who ran into her arms in a white dress, breaking her tranquility, touching her affection, reminding her of the sad past, and forcing her to move forward hand in hand with an optimistic attitude.

The man grasped her beauty and kindness tightly, but refused to forgive her willfulness and determination.

The man took her to taste the sweetest candy in the world, and then pierced her hard with ice and snow.

Gu Yuzhi, you finally let her down.

The person in light sleep woke up faintly, but at a glance, he saw Yu'er standing as a sculpture facing the candlelight.

"You're back... Well, what time is it? Have you already eaten?" He was about to get up, but Yu'er hurried over and hugged her into her arms.

With a snap, the candle wick exploded briskly, as if feeling the atmosphere of their reunion, and used an old proverb to send a festive signal.

The long-lost embrace made Yuan Fei's voice trembling with excitement: "The lights are blowing, and the happy event is here. Let me guess, what does my girl want to say to me?"

my girl.Yu'er resisted the soreness that rushed to her eyes, and said softly in a smooth and soft tone: "Happy birthday, my Yuan Fei."

The hug lasted a long time.There is no explanation, and there is no need to explain, because we both understand each other, one has relieved the knot in his heart, and the other has learned to be content. The alienation and indifference of more than a month has finally passed.

In the end, it was Yuan Fei who let go of her embrace first, stretched out her hands towards Yuer, and tilted her head with a smile: "Where's my gift?"

Originally, I thought that Yu'er must have been unprepared. Under such circumstances, she already felt extremely happy to be able to remember her birthday and wish her a happy birthday.But the girl never seemed to let her down.

The two boxes at the entrance were brought in by Yu'er.A cake box, a gift box.

The ribbon tied on the box was nimbly picked apart by Yu'er's slender fingers. As soon as the lid was removed, the sweetness of the cake came out immediately.Yuan Fei, who was already hungry after waiting for the girl for a long time, couldn't help swallowing.

Yu'er evoked a petty smile, but just took a few slender birthday candles, lit them and inserted them on the small and delicate cake.

Different from the lingering light of the previous candles, the newly lit candles immediately added brightness to the room.Finally seeing each other's appearance clearly, the corners of their eyes were flushed, but they couldn't hide their joy, and their gazes became charming again.

"Make a wish." Yu'er pushed her to sit on the chair, took her hands together, and made a gesture of clasping her hands in front of her chest.

Yuan Fei closed her eyes and heard the birthday song escaping from the girl's mouth.I heard big songs since I was a child, and was sung by that sweet voice, but it was as sweet as the sound of nature, and it was indifferent and distant, as if it came from the sky.

She was admiring Yu'er's wonderful singing, and for a moment she forgot to make a wish.But it didn't matter, she no longer needed this form of psychological comfort.Whatever expectations she has, she will make them come true through her own efforts.

Even if some people have to be betrayed or sacrificed, it doesn't matter.

After the song was over, she opened her eyes again, using the candlelight to burn the girl's smiling face deeply into her eyes, and then blew out all the candles on the cake.

Once again there were only candles left in the house.Yu'er didn't turn on the light, but just picked up the piece of chocolate with writing on it, and held it up to Yuan Fei's eyes.

Every year is like this.

Yuan Fei smirked, and bit off the word "Sui Sui" with her mouth open. "Ru Si" entered Yu'er's mouth.

The cream dipped on her fingertips touched the tip of Yuan Fei's nose, adding a touch of cute embellishment to her expression of enjoying the food.Yuan Fei didn't care, she put her arms around Yu'er's waist and let her sit on her lap.

The appetite has been temporarily filled with half a bar of chocolate, so that another kind of hunger is particularly obvious.As soon as Wen Xiangnunyu was in her arms, she couldn't wait to close her eyes and raise her head, obediently asking for a kiss.

A chuckle came from beside her ear, a pair of slightly cool hands held her cheeks, and then her lips met, kissing her gently.

After suppressing it for too long, a light kiss at this time can touch the heart of love, making people unable to help but tears of love in their eyes, and they are so attached to it that they are reluctant to let go no matter what.

The breathing of each other is already chaotic, and everything that follows seems to be logical, and it also makes people look forward to it.But Yu'er was still thinking about one thing, so before Yuan Fei hugged her horizontally, she reached out and took the beautiful gift box.

"Don't want to see... the gift I gave you first?"

Yuan Fei let go of her strength, glanced at her with a smile, and began to unwrap the presents.

The wrapping paper was a bit difficult to tear off, and Yu'er didn't help her, waiting for her clumsy approach to the surprise, while pretending to be mysterious to seduce her: "I have prepared for a long time, and I have failed many times. I don't have the foundation to do this too much." Difficult."

The moment the box lid was opened, Yuan Fei was stunned.The decoration lying quietly in the box was taken out by Yu'er, and proudly handed it to her eyes.

It was a pottery handicraft, made of a small boat and two little people.The shape and coloring can be seen to be unfamiliar, but if it is the first time to do it, it can be said that it is a talent to make it like this.And, it must have taken a lot of work.

So for the past few days, going out early and returning late, and disappearing for the whole afternoon are all preparing surprises for Yuan Fei.

Holding the work, Yu'er waited for Yuan Fei to take it over, waited for Yuan Fei's praise, and also waited for her happy smile, but nothing came.

A boat, two people, this is the beautiful blueprint that Yuan Fei promised Yuan Fei when she came home with her.But in Yuan Fei's eyes at this moment, it was like a nightmare, which made her feel horrified.

The force pushing her back, the cold sea water, the glaring sunlight, the temperature of holding her hands tightly, the ferocious smiles of the people on the boat, and the firm words "I will save you" in my ear... Scenes are in my mind Passing by, so real and so chaotic, like a dream, but also like a distant reality.

Severe pain came to my heart, Yuan Fei tried hard to close her eyes, trying to control the trembling of her body, but it was still in vain.

Consciousness is slackening, and the concerned voice of the girl next to her ear is gradually disappearing.There was only one thought left in her mind, no, she would never allow such a thing to happen again!

He swung his hand vigorously, and with a crisp snap, everything was over.

There was a long silence.The finger is burning hot, and it seems that there is still a viscous liquid dripping out. It was just too hard, and the skin was cut by the edge of the pottery.

Yuan Fei opened his eyes, saw the fragments on the ground, moved his gaze upwards, and saw the unconcealable complexity in Yu'er's expression.

After staring at each other for a while, the girl reluctantly hooked the corners of her lips, her voice trembling: "You don't like it...it's okay."

She is afraid of herself.Yuan Fei realized it sensitively.Maybe my face was ugly at this time, or maybe, those murderous words, those desperate schemes, and those seemingly crazy actions had long planted the seeds of fear in the girl's heart.

During this period of time, what Yu'er needs to overcome is probably not only the dissatisfaction of being deceived, but also the deep fear caused by subverting her impression.

How hard should this be?

Yuan Fei clenched her hand tightly, frowning because of the pain of the wound, Yu'er noticed her bleeding finger, took a few steps forward, hesitantly stretched out her hand to check, but she shrank her hand and hid.

Yu'er seemed to be startled by her again, her outstretched hand shook, and she quickly retracted it.He stood in front of her with his head bowed, looking very cramped.

Yuan Fei really couldn't bear to see her like this, so she found an excuse for her to calm down temporarily: "The band-aids are used up, go buy some."

The girl nodded as if she was pardoned, and left quickly.

The sound of opening and closing the door was so piercing, and at the same time, the last ray of light disappeared as the candle burned to the end.

In the darkness, Yuan Fei stood up, walked slowly to the fragments on the ground, and slowly knelt down again.

With her knees on the ground, her body leaned very low, and her blood-stained fingers picked up the surprises that the girl spent several days preparing for her one by one, brought them to her lips, kissed them, and put them into the gift box.The action of kissing the fragments is decisive and precious, not avoiding edges and corners, not afraid of sharp edges, as if to pin all the deep love and guilt for the girl on this ridiculous and humble move.

Blood dripped from his lips, mixed with tears, and outlined a scene of desolation on the floor.

--I did not do it on purpose.

His own voice resounded in the empty room.

--sorry.

The apology that should have been said earlier, but Yu'er still didn't hear it.

Late at night.Yuan Fei lay on the bed tossing and turning for a long time, and finally heard the voice of the girl coming back.The sound of footsteps stopped a few meters away from the bed, even the sound of breathing was held, and the nervousness was obvious.

Yuan Fei sighed, sat up and half chaired the head of the bed, and turned on the floor lamp.

Yu'er tightly held a box of Band-Aids in her hands, and the box was even deformed due to the force of her grip.

"I took care of the wound myself."

Yu'er lowered her head and said softly: "I'm sorry, I... came back too late."

The look of lowering eyebrows and drooping head has nothing to do with cuteness, it's all due to nervousness and fear.Afraid of provoking her, afraid of inadvertently bringing up some terrible memories in her, and even more afraid of her making unacceptable behavior again, making herself unbearable, and becoming the last straw that overwhelmed her.

This kind of carefulness started from the time of acquaintance, and until today, it has already shown the potential to destroy the world.

"Go to sleep."

"Okay." Yu'er agreed, took a change of clothes to wash up, and soon came back with steam, stood by the bed hesitating for a while, then knelt down on one knee.

Yuan Fei's voice sounded at this moment: "Don't force yourself, go to the guest room."

"I...I just..."

"Okay," Yuan Fei was still leaning on the head of the bed, her eyes didn't know where to fall, she just said softly, "It's okay, go to sleep, I hope you can have a good dream."

"Without you, where would I have such a sweet dream?" Yu'er asked sadly, piercing her heart like a sharp knife.Yuan Fei didn't respond, but just lay down by herself.

Back to Yu'er.

There was silence behind him for a while, and then a deep sigh, and the footsteps gradually went away.

This was the first time that the guest room was used for overnight stay, but it also witnessed the tossing and turning of the owner.Yu'er heard that Yuan Fei couldn't sleep well, first turned over frequently, then got up and turned on the computer, the mouse and keyboard rang softly throughout the night, but she gradually felt at ease, as if feeling company, and fell asleep steadily.

When I woke up, there was a file on the bedside cabinet.

It is a joint exchange program between the law school and foreign famous schools.Don't look at the usual grades, just organize a written test and interview for selection, and the conditions are good, and you can be exempted from graduate school directly after the exchange.

For Yu'er, who has failed a course but is capable, this is indeed a rare opportunity.She also knew it was happening, but she never thought about it, never even thought about it.

Because of the exchange student program, I went there for more than half a year.

Even though she was exhausted physically and mentally, she never thought of leaving Yuan Fei.Now, someone wanted to leave her.

Full of coldness that could not be relieved, she grabbed the document, walked straight into the master bedroom, and slapped it on the desk, in front of Yuan Fei.

Yuan Fei raised her head, and calmly dealt with the rage she had never had before.

"You really, want me to go?" Yu'er's voice was terribly low, like a furious beast molaring its teeth before erupting, ready to bite at any moment.

Yuan Fei just nodded.

"Why?" I hope to hear something like "For your own good, I can wait for you", so that even if she really wants to leave, she can make her feel nostalgic and caring.

"Didn't you tell me to think about it the day I came out of prison? Well, now, I've thought about it." Yuan Fei looked at her quietly, "It's really time for us to separate for a while."

Yu'er almost gritted her teeth in the last struggle: "I will not break up with you. No matter what the reason is. I can... forget it all, and never think about it again."

"Then forget about me, Gu Yuzhi."

The author has something to say:

Hit me, don't hit me in the face.

I may have to stop for a while, as exam week is next, which runs until mid-January.

See you on winter vacation.At that time, there will be a foreign copy, and there will be a he ending, you have to believe that everything will be fine.

[During my absence, please don’t forget me.wait for me