martyrdom

After returning from the hospital, Yu'er could clearly feel that Yuan Fei's mood was much better than before.She has been asked to stay in the parking lot, and she didn't go in with Yuan Fei, so she can't know what made her feel better, but seeing her return to her smiling face, Yu'er felt that those were not important anymore.

This smile is too difficult to protect now.

In the bedroom, Yuan Fei took out a psychiatric registration form from the medical record, and repeatedly looked at the words in the medical record declaring that she was all normal, and finally completely let go of her self-doubt.She put all these into a tattered bag, threw them into the wastebasket next to the desk, and went to the kitchen to watch Yu'er continue with the vegetables and noodles she hadn't finished in the morning.

Yu'er's craftsmanship is naturally better than hers.Two bowls of noodles with rich soup and attractive smell came out quickly, Yu'er ordered her to take the chopsticks, and brought them to the restaurant one by one in each hand, and started the half-day-late breakfast with her.

Yuan Fei held the chopsticks in her right hand and paused for a while, as if thinking of something, she glanced at her inexplicably.Yu'er has always been able to figure out her thoughts, but she just took a sip of the soup on her own, and then said slowly: "Do you want me to feed you? You hurt your left hand, so you don't meet the requirements."

She really thought of Yu'er's hand injury when she fed her with a smile, the girl's lips and teeth, and the skin on her neck that moved slightly when she swallowed.Recalling these were enough to make her cheeks blush, not to mention Yu Er's teasing.

But tit for tat is indispensable: "You should be more thoughtful. Next time—"

Before she finished speaking, the expression on Yu'er's face suddenly turned cold. Although she frowned and said nothing, it made her lose the courage to continue.After a while, she couldn't stand the coercion, and begged for mercy: "Okay, okay, there will be no next time."

Only then did Yu'er relax, and said lightly, "You said that."

An afternoon passed quickly, and this night, Yuan Fei slept soundly embraced by the person next to her pillow.Yu'er carefully hugged her in the dark, feeling her gradually steady and long breathing, but she never fell asleep.

One o'clock in the morning is when most people sleep the deepest.Either the sweet or the scary dream has not yet come, and the brain and body can be completely relaxed and rested. At this moment, Yu'er gently let go of her arms and got off the bed without a sound.

She was thinking about the things in the wastebasket, but she didn't notice that the person in her arms became uneasy immediately after leaving her embrace, as if she had entered a terrifying dream, with fine cold sweat breaking out on her forehead.

The things wrapped in plastic bags were taken out by Yu'er with a rustling sound.Just in this rustling sound, the person on the bed was short of breath, tears streaming down his face, as if he was deeply entangled in the dream and couldn't get rid of it.

Through the night outside the window, Yu'er saw clearly the psychiatric registration form and the reassuring professional judgment in the medical record.

Unable to tell what it was like, she clutched the thin registration slip, tears welling up in her eyes.She knew how desperate self-doubt her Yuan Fei had experienced, and how courageous she was to break the boat, in exchange for this result that reassured each other.

It is because I understand that I feel very distressed.

"What are you doing?" Yuan Fei's voice suddenly came from behind.She was so frightened that the registration slip in her hand fell to the ground, and she was a little surprised to see Yuan Fei sitting up from the bed when she turned her head.She was careful enough that the noise she made was not enough to wake anyone up, but Yuan Fei still woke up.

Seeing that Yuan Fei was just sitting like a puppet, she didn't make any unnecessary speech after asking, so she got up and turned on the lamp on the table, wanting to take a closer look at her.

After turning on the light, Yu'er realized that Yuan Fei was staring at the report card on the ground just now.She leaned over to pick it up as a cover-up, but this action made Yuan Fei see the face of the thing more clearly, and rushed over madly, snatching it from her hand.

Only then did Yu'er see her face covered with tears.

Yuan Fei's hand holding the registration form was already shaking badly, and when the key information came into his eyes, he looked terrified. He squatted down on the spot, hugged his head in pain and sobbed.The sobbing was also different from the sadness or sadness in the past, but it was like being strangled by a demon, fear filled every cell in his body, but he didn't dare to cry out loud.

Yu'er was frightened for a few seconds, then quickly squatted down with her, and hugged her.Before she could comfort her, she was pushed away by Yuan Fei with both hands.

Her waist bumped against the corner of the table, and it hurt her heart. The only thing she thought of was that Yuan Fei was injured. She didn't care about the cold sweat that broke out all over her body in an instant, and crawled over to protect her left hand that was pulling her hair.

Yuan Fei struggled fiercely, as if she didn't want Yu'er to touch her in the slightest.However, Yu'er was firm and insisted on taking her into his arms, and finally succeeded.

The person in his arms whimpered even more, his whole body was shaking, and he couldn't even cry: "Let me go... I..." It seemed that the despair had reached the extreme, and the second half of the sentence had the intention of abandoning himself, "I'm just a mental patient !"

"No, you're not." Yu'er tried to talk to her rationally, but found it impossible, because she started to struggle desperately again.Really unable to restrain her, Yu'er let go of her completely, stood up from the ground, spread out the medical records in front of her eyes, and raised her volume to attract her attention: "Look for yourself!"

Yuan Fei really looked up to see the conclusion in the medical record.Seeing that everything is normal, but not as calm as Yu'er imagined, she raised her hand and waved away in disbelief.The force of the swing was too great, and it hurt her wrist.

The medical record fell to the ground with a rude muffled sound.Yu'er felt physically and mentally exhausted, and could no longer utter a word of comfort with soft words.She looked at the person who was still sitting on the carpet for a long time, and said softly, "Yuan Fei, stop being ridiculous, and live a good life."

This should be regarded as the most important thing she has said to Yuan Fei so far.After I finished speaking, my eyes were red, but the people on the ground didn't seem to hear it, and they still sat there in a daze.

Yu'er stretched out her hand, trying to pull her up, but she didn't even change her gaze.Yu'er's hand stopped for a while, then retracted silently, and walked out of the bedroom without saying a word.

After standing in the dark living room for a while, she walked to the kitchen and took out two cans of beer from the depths of the refrigerator.That was the second surprise she left Yuan Fei for the New Year's Eve, and it seemed she hadn't discovered it yet.

The sound of the cans being opened was deafening in the silent night.She returned to the living room with the beer and gulped it down.

Before the can was finished, Yuan Fei's figure parted from the darkness and walked towards her.First he took the beer from her hand, then gently wiped away the tears on her face with his cold right hand, and then sat down beside her.

Both are silent.After a while, Yuan Fei said, "The wound is open, please help me re-bandage it."

Yu'er didn't say anything, got up and turned on the light, brought the medicine box over, saw that her lips were dry, went to pour another cup of hot water and put it by her hand.

Although he has not spoken, the action of treating the wound is extremely gentle.I don't know if it's because of the pain in the wound, or some other reason, Yuan Fei's hand holding the water glass trembled slightly again, Yu'er glanced at her distractedly, sighed helplessly, and said softly: "Hold on a little longer, almost done."

Yuan Fei handed the glass of hot water to her lips, begging in her voice, "Take a sip."

Yu'er's hands froze, and after waiting for a while, seeing that Yuan Fei didn't intend to take back her hand, she leaned forward and took a sip.The hot water fell into the stomach that had just been soaked in cold beer, and finally warmed the coldness of the heart a little.

"The next time you reach out, stop longer."

This sentence was like the last straw that broke the camel's back. It overwhelmed the girl who was already blaming herself for saying harsh words.Yuan Fei looked at Yu'er, who was lying on her lap in an extremely humble posture, resisted the desire to cry again, and continued with a trembling voice: "How ridiculous and bastard I am, you stop a little longer, I realized it."

Yu'er was speechless and just shook her head silently.Yuan Fei reached out and slowly lifted the hem of her pajamas, exposing the newly added large bruise on her lower back.She took some ointment for promoting blood circulation and removing stasis from the medicine box, and gently applied it on the bruise. The girl flinched in pain, but still lay quietly on her lap.After a while, she felt warmth and moisture on her lap.

Yuan Fei helped the girl up and hugged her tightly in her arms.

Hugging feels so good, why did I refuse a moment ago?

Never again.

Yu'er's voice sounded from her arms, with a tentative tone cautiously: "May I ask, what did you dream about before?"

Yuan Fei kissed her forehead and asked, "You want to know?"

Feather nodded.She smiled slightly: "I want to know, then I won't talk about it. Unless..."

The conversation was exactly the same, Yu'er didn't ask any more questions, but raised her head and kissed her all at once.

Lips and tongues pushed and entangled back and forth, unwilling to let go for a long time.Although the tears falling into their mouths were suffocating, they still swallowed them all, enjoying it.

Its daybreak.

There were no blackout curtains in the living room, Yuan Fei was awakened by the harsh sunlight, and found that she and Yu Er were sleeping on the sofa hugging each other.The sofa was no wider than the bed, and Yu'er was almost clinging to her arms. When she raised her hand, the girl also woke up, her opened eyes were still a little red and swollen, which made her feel pain in her heart.

"I... have morning classes."

Yu'er nodded, got up from her arms, rubbed her eyes and said, "I'm with you." After rubbing, she felt that something was wrong, so she hurried to the bathroom to look in the mirror, and came out with a sad face: "Everything is wrong." It's your fault, I can't go out to meet people today!"

Yuan Fei couldn't help laughing.Yu'er came over and held her face and looked at it for a while, then said bitterly: "You cry more than me, why aren't your eyes swollen?"

Yuan Fei raised her eyebrows proudly: "Because I'm made of water."

Feather: "..."

The author has something to say:

Both of these are very difficult...

I really admire myself, I can always write "Xiao Tianwen" like this...

No more talking, I went to face the wall.