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"Mom." A very delicate looking boy stood up straight, although he tried his best to get close to the woman, but was frightened back by the woman's casual eyes.The woman put down the book in her hand, seemed a little tired, raised her hand and took a sip of the cold coffee on the table.

"Don't call me that, I haven't fulfilled my responsibility as a mother, and you don't need to be so kind to me. There is nothing between us other than blood relationship." The woman said it too casually, and her eyes never stayed on the child for a moment , Only treat the people around you as air.

The child suppressed his voice and sobbed, looking very careful.

She was forced to raise this little boy back then, and she couldn't say whether she liked it or not, but she couldn't do anything to kill him.

Annoyed by the child's voice, he glanced away from the child, so fast that he didn't even see the tears in the child's eyes. "You are not young anymore, and you should understand some things. As for me, although you were born, it was actually an accident. If you really don't understand, you can say that your father didn't care about your own things. He thought it was inserted and he inserted it." , patting buttocks is still a gentleman."

"Mom..." The child looked like he was still in elementary school, and his cheeks were flushed by his mother's words.

Even a child can't understand it completely. The only thing he doesn't understand is why his mother treats him like this.

The woman finally stopped her eyes on him, and pinched his dripping hair, "Is it raining?"

"Well... I've been downloading since the morning..." "There's so much nonsense." The woman said angrily, and then smiled a little lonely, "You are such a little thing, just because I stuttered for you, you want to call me Is it meaningful to say "Mom"? I don't need you to die when I am old, and it has nothing to do with you whether it is good or bad now. What are you following me for?"

"Mom is very good to me..." The boy's voice became smaller and smaller, as if he was afraid that the woman would slap him out at any time.As soon as the woman raised her hand, he immediately lowered his head, trying to hide but standing stubbornly.

The woman looked at him with her hands raised, but she still couldn't bear to put it down, "You...why were you born here?"

Before He Yao and the others came, Chen Siqi woke up several times intermittently.Every time he would babble childish nonsense before going back to sleep, fearing that he would not remember when he really woke up.

Even if Chen Siqi talked nonsense, he still kept those few words. He was terribly afraid that people would treat him like a woman in his life, and he couldn't be pampered or kind.

Shen Jiuyan couldn't help feeling sorry for him, and carefully brushed the tattoo on his cheek with her fingers.

He thought that Chen Siqi might have been stimulated by his smile at that time, and normal people naturally wouldn't think there was any problem.But that smile is very hypocritical, he has seen too many people with different appearances, and he is probably most afraid of this kind of person who smiles on the surface and secretly wants to kill him.

But this is the first time Chen Siqi hurt him...

The wound on Shen Jiuyan's hand had already been treated, and he simply tied the gauze twice to ensure that the movement of the whole hand would not be affected.

Will he remember what just happened not long ago, and there is always an inexplicable powerlessness in the lingering.Even if you try your best to restore it, you are always fighting alone.

Chen Siqi looked like he was afraid that he would leave...

In the past three years, what kind of mood did he wait for him to come?

"Are you here?" The woman wore an off-the-shoulder long dress for a banquet, and waited for her son, who was already at the same height as him, to come over, "I'm going out to a party, maybe I'll marry the one I like, and you You are almost an adult, so hurry up and think of a way out for yourself."

There was no trace of surprise on the boy's face, "Mom...be careful."

"What do you want to say?" Looking at his hesitant expression, the woman suddenly had an ominous premonition.The boy lowered his head and didn't see the worry flashing across the woman's face.He licked his lips, trying to make his words as decent and reliable as possible, "Mom, can I make a bet with you? You are going to find that man today...but he only likes men...if I go to be His slave, until he doesn't want it..."

"What do you want to bet?" the woman asked impatiently.

"I bet... Mom likes me."

The woman didn't expect him to look up at her, and the surprise, helplessness, and a little bit of heartache on her face were caught by the boy.She turned around angrily and opened the anti-theft door, "It's up to you, don't come back if you're trashed."

Neither of them expressed their sincerity, and both of them hesitated to speak, but neither of them thought that there would be no future.

"I prescribed calming medicine for him and asked him to rest as much as possible." He Yao didn't scold Shen Jiuyan again when he came up, he came up to see Chen Siqi before he lit a cigarette and sat on the stone steps in front of the shop.When you look up, you can see dry tree trunks, no leaves, not even dry ones.There is no snow in this city in winter, and only the exposed ugliness remains. "Mi Jing's wife came to me and said that someone had thrown a sum of money on his husband's grave. The amount was not small, and it was enough to prodigal for a lifetime."

Shen Jiuyan was still a little worried about Chen Siqi, but he went downstairs seeing that he was in a deep sleep.

"Have you found out who gave it to you?"

"The person who put the money doesn't know, but the person who paid the money has already been found out." He Yao watched the smoke stick to the end and burned his fingers, but the heat was just a shock, and it wouldn't catch fire at all.He flicked the cigarette butt away, always feeling that Chen Siqi was very similar to the burnt cigarette. It seemed dangerous, but in fact it was just a show of pretension.

"It's Chen Siqi. He killed Mi Jing with a single shot and saved you. Do you think this counts as making amends? In the past three years, he has given sacrifices and money. I heard that once he knelt on Mi Jing's grave and fainted." Now... You said that he is so lacking in two people?" The difficulties that can be dealt with together must be overcome by one person. It is true that the right thing never comes to the fore, and the wrong thing is taken to his own head. I wish I could let everyone all hate him.

"He knows that Mi Jing is my friend, so he feels bad for killing someone and not paying for his life." Shen Jiuyan sat down next to him. He has made so many friends in his life. If he said that he would be with him for the rest of his life, if he said no, he would turn his face into an enemy. Yes, but there is no one like Chen Siqi.

"He is indeed out of his mind, and it's not just now. But if I just met him, maybe I can take medicine to control it. Now...he should have stayed in a mental hospital for the rest of his life." He Yao lit another cigarette , took a breath, "It can be said that what I said is too much. I don't know exactly what you said to him, but it stimulated him a lot. The three years of waiting without results is one aspect. Your attitude Another way."

Shen Jiu said that she didn't have a heart attack, but her heart ached.He said, "You don't believe it. In fact, Si Qi and Mi Jing have a very good relationship. On the surface, Mi Jing always doesn't want to see him, and he doesn't respond accordingly. Otherwise, they are together 24 hours a day, and they look at each other. Isn’t it uncomfortable? Si Qi likes to eat ice cream from a small store in the city, and Mi Jing ran away several times because of him, do you think these two people are at odds with each other?”

"..."

"That time when An Xian forced Chen Siqi to jump into the river, you gave him an electric shock, right? I made people chase you around, or he pretended to be me and fooled Ah Sha and them away."

I know, I don’t know, when a person gives, he is often not seen, and when people find out, that person may not be there.

"What did you tell him then?"

"I'll let him go." Some words lose their strength when they say too much, and eyes get sore every time they think about some words.The same is true for wounds, some will slowly heal if you don’t pay attention, some will hurt no matter whether you pay attention or not, the pain will last a lifetime, no matter how good the medicine is, it will not heal.

Shen Jiuyan went upstairs to see Chen Siqi, the man still didn't wake up, he was buried obediently under the heavy quilt, like a delicate doll.He'll be there forever waiting for him, but he won't necessarily be awake forever.

"Lu Xiao sent me a video, and I have asked Ah Sha to investigate his parents." He Yao came over and rubbed his back twice, "You have done a good job, and the rest will follow. It's natural."

"But he wants to know who he is, and no one will endure his blank life, let alone 20 years." Shen Jiuyan clicked on the video and handed it to He Yao, "Although I haven't said this sentence for a long time, it sounds too It is indeed cowardly and incompetent enough, but I still can't help but want to ask, He Yao, what should I do next?"

Shen Jiuyan looked at that person dejectedly, the difference between them was not their preferences, but the irretrievable time.

"Stay with him, if you are as familiar with him as he is with you, you will know what he really wants."

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The next chapter is high-energy, although it will not be updated today (?˙?˙?)