I say all wine is worse than you

Are you not tired?

How can you not be tired?You have to tense your nerves all the time, consider all the problems thoroughly, and show Du Shili what others want to see.It's like wearing a thick mask, sometimes it's so suffocating that you can't breathe.

But these are acceptable to Du Shili.

Because it has been like this since she was a child, she has long been used to it, and she can handle it with ease.If she was asked to get along with others in a different way, Du Shili might not be able to do it.

What really makes her feel tired is the kind of bewilderment caused by having nothing to rely on in the future.

I don't know why I am still persisting, and I don't know what the result of such persistence will be. I just move forward mechanically according to my own track.It was like traveling through a long dark night, with no end in sight, and no light for comfort.

Ji Chunfeng was right, Du Shili didn't believe her, or he didn't believe himself.

I don't believe that she can really settle down and live a normal life with me like this, and I don't believe that I can really hold this ray of freedom in the palm of my hand.

Because of uncertainty, I am cautious and anxious.

When the two were still together, Ji Chunfeng existed in all her plans, imagining that the white head would be concentric.But even she herself didn't believe that this could come true in her heart, it was more like a dream without scruples, she put all her heart into it, but she would wake up eventually.

Ji Chunfeng is careless about many things, but she is not slow, and it will be a matter of time before she discovers this.When Shili thought about it now, he didn't know if he was expecting her to mention this matter.

"I just hope you can relax a bit." She answered Chunfeng's question like this without looking back.

Chunfeng hugged her waist tightly, the tip of her nose was sore, "But I also hope you can relax a little..."

She has read Du Shili's letter.Sincere and enthusiastic, he also took the initiative to blame himself for the mistake, which made Chunfeng very ashamed.In fact, she yelled the phrase "You never thought about living with me for the rest of your life" during the day, with a bit of anger to change the subject.

Because of Du Shili's distrust, it just hit her heart.

Chunfeng knew very well that she really hadn't thought about her life. All she could be sure of was the present. As for how long she could be with Du Shili, Chunfeng didn't know, and couldn't give an exact guarantee.

Shili said that because of his experience from childhood to adulthood, he has no sense of security and is always worrying about gains and losses. In fact, why not Chunfeng?

But their personalities are different, so they are destined to choose different solutions when facing this problem.Shili grasps the only part that he can get, and refuses to let go, but Chunfeng chooses to abandon the so-called sense of security, and wants the freshness and excitement that is easier to get.If you don't pursue permanence, you don't have to be afraid of being left behind.

In fact, she clearly knew that such an approach would make everyone feel uneasy, but Chunfeng never seriously thought about it, and just muddled through.

So when this question broke out, she felt an indescribable shame.Being stabbed at the painful spot, he subconsciously bit back and attributed the mistake to Shili.After calming down and thinking about it, she felt even more that she was nothing. This kind of quarrel would definitely cause great harm to Shili.

But even so, Shili still took care of her emotions and attributed the mistake to himself.

Maybe it's because she's used to doing this, and she doesn't shirk or avoid it, but compared to her glamor and beauty, Chunfeng can't help but feel ashamed.

When she went to work in the afternoon, a thought suddenly crossed her mind: If the person Du Shili liked was not herself, her life might be completely different, right?This thought passed away in a flash, but it set off earth-shattering waves in her heart.

Ji Chunfeng refused to imagine such a scene, because she vaguely knew in her heart but was unwilling to admit that Shili might be better off without herself.

But without Du Shili, what would Ji Chunfeng be doing?

It was impossible to think deeply about this question, and it was only at this time that Chunfeng realized that in the relationship between the two of them, she was actually inseparable from Du Shili.The so-called unrestrained, free and uninhibited are nothing but a disguise she has wrapped up heavily for herself in order to cover up the truth.

In the final analysis, she is just afraid of getting hurt, so she is unwilling to be the one who loves deeper and gives more in the relationship, so she is passive.But when she thought so, she was already deeply involved.

Besides, will Du Shili hurt her?

This question doesn't need to be asked at all.If Ji Chunfeng's credit with Du Shili is average, then Du Shili's credit with her is undoubtedly excellent.

"I still can't promise you a lifetime." Chunfeng said slowly, "I may not have other advantages, but I will definitely do what I said, and if I'm not sure I can do it, I won't say it. A lifetime is too long, and no one knows what will happen in the future, but Shili, I’m with you without even thinking about it. Maybe I don’t have as many plans for the future as you do, but I live every day Very serious. Maybe just live, just for the rest of your life?"

Her last sentence was a little casual, but with a kind of simple beauty, Du Shili followed her words and thought about it, and a little smile appeared on his face, "I know."

If Ji Chunfeng just wanted to have fun, there wouldn't even be a beginning between them.This point, the initiative is in the hands of Du Shili, and she is naturally very clear.

Perhaps because he was distracted by thinking about the problem, Du Shili didn't notice the unevenness of the ground when he passed a turn, and the wheel of the bicycle stuck to it, and immediately swayed to the side.She quickly stretched out her foot and stepped on the ground to stabilize her center of gravity.

But it is probably because there are two people on the bike, so the force of the bike is a bit strong, and the place where the ten miles are stepped is also uneven, and when the foot falls, I feel a sharp pain.

The bicycle was stabilized, Chunfeng jumped down from the back seat, and asked nervously, "How are you?"

"A sprained ankle." Shili smiled wryly.

Chunfeng exclaimed in a low voice, and then blamed himself, "Blame me for talking to you on the road."

"It's okay." Shili carefully got off the bicycle, moved his feet and walked a few steps, "There should be no problem, it's just a little pain, take a rest and you'll be fine tomorrow."

Having said that, Chunfeng still squatted down and squeezed her ankle to make sure there was no dislocation or swelling. It was indeed just a slight sprain before he heaved a sigh of relief.She stood up and saw that Shili was looking at the bicycle worryingly, so she smiled and reached out to take the handlebar over, turned her head to Shili and said, "Then I will take you home?"

Shili didn't try to be brave, and nodded in agreement.

After the two got into the car and sat down, Chunfeng suddenly called her, "Shili."

"Ok?"

"I don't know how other couples get along, but for me, two people together are like riding a bicycle. You shouldn't always let you pedal the wheels hard in front, and occasionally sit in the back, let me take you For a while, trust me that I won't take you into a ditch, okay?"

Of course it's good.

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