I say all wine is worse than you

"I..." Probably Chunfeng's attitude changed too quickly, so Shili was also a little confused.

She opened her mouth to explain, but she didn't know what to say.She didn't even understand what made Chunfeng unhappy.

Chunfeng also felt that his anger was a little inexplicable.When I asked this question, I just wanted to make fun of it so that Shili would not have to spend so much on herself in the future, but what Shili said made her feel very uncomfortable.

What is "I don't want you to be with me and even care about how much money you spend every day"?In Du Shili's mind, isn't Ji Chunfeng a person who can share weal and woe?

"I'm sorry." She slowed down her tone, and tried her best to relax the expression on her face, "I just feel... Shili, what you said made me very sad. When two people are together, we shouldn't face all situations together You didn't want my money last time, and now you don't even want me to care about it, to be honest, I have a feeling that you don't seem to think that we can live forever. "

These last words were like a heavy hammer hitting Du Shili's heart, shaking her heart.

But... She couldn't even say a word of denial.

Although she seldom thinks about it, deep down in Du Shili's heart, she really doesn't believe that she can stay with Ji Chunfeng for a long time this time.

Of course, she felt that she was already mentally prepared for this. Even if Chunfeng wanted to end, as long as she didn't agree, the two of them could only continue to entangle like this.In her vision, the relationship between them always needs to be maintained by herself, and once she lets go, it will end.

This kind of feeling and idea came from no reason, maybe it was the answer I got instinctively after getting along with Ji Chunfeng for so many years, and there were too many incidents to prove it.So even though facing Chunfeng's questioning at this moment, Du Shili felt guilty, but he was not guilty.

"I just hope that you can keep the free and easy way before." She explained in a pale tone, "I don't want you to feel restricted and bound by my side."

Chunfeng felt that Shili's words were like a thorn piercing into her body. The sharp pain made her have to say something to vent, "Du Shili, you didn't think of me as wanting to be with you at all. A person who lives a life, right?"

She opened her eyes wide and tried hard to suppress the emotions in her heart, but her eyes were still filled with moisture, "Or...you don't have confidence in me, you think I can't live this kind of life at all, do you? Keep going Me, do you think you are particularly great?!"

The last sentence, when she said it, her voice was already a little unstable, and the ending was a little choked, almost broken, she quickly took a deep breath, and closed her mouth.

Shili admits that sometimes the spring breeze is so sharp that it is really overwhelming.

Even though she felt that her thoughts were not wrong, Shili never thought of forcing Chunfeng to admit it, let alone make her change, so it made her very embarrassed and embarrassing to say all these words so bluntly. uncomfortable.

She took the initiative to take a step back, "I didn't think carefully," she held Chunfeng's hand, "Chunfeng, let's not quarrel here."

The space in the shop is very small, only about [-] to [-] square meters, with four or five tables placed very close to each other, even if the two of them lowered their voices, they could easily be heard.Shili didn't want to argue with Chunfeng in front of outsiders, and let others look at them with strange eyes.

Chunfeng shook off her hand, turned his head away, but didn't say anything else.

The next meal was naturally tasteless.But Chunfeng didn't know whether he wanted to vent his emotions or he was really hungry, so he kept stuffing things into his mouth.Two people ordered a large pot of rice noodles and served them in bowls.Shili was afraid that she would eat too much, so he had to follow suit.When the pot of rice noodles was finished, the two of them leaned back in their chairs, both a little bit stretched.

Their eyes met inadvertently.

Maybe it's because they've had enough food and drink, and their emotions have almost settled down. Although the incident just now has not passed, no one is angry anymore.

All the way back to the residence in silence, after entering the house, Chunfeng took his things and was about to go to work.Shili quickly followed and stopped her at the door, "Chunfeng, let's talk."

"Wait until I get off work." Chunfeng straightened her hair and didn't look at Shili, "Calmly think about what to say first. If you think it's not good, write it down." She paused, and whispered, "Shili, I don't want to argue with you."

"I don't want to either." Shili leaned over and hugged her, "I love you."

"Foul you!" Chunfeng finally turned around and stared at her.Even if they don't quarrel, the two are still in a cold war, okay?Saying this kind of love words that will make people soft is not following the routine at all.

Shili smiled and said, "You can also foul."

"I'm late if I don't go." Chunfeng pretended not to hear her, pushed the person away, put on his shoes, opened the door and went out.

Shili stood at the door and smiled for a while, the expression on her face gradually settled down, she leaned against the shoe cabinet in a daze, thinking about this inexplicable quarrel, after much deliberation, she finally felt that it was not a bad thing.

How could it be possible for two people to get along without any problems at all?When a conflict breaks out, it is better to resolve it than for everyone to be bored and think that they are accommodating each other.

What's more, Chunfeng's sullenness just shows that she really attaches great importance to the relationship between the two, and has never thought of breaking up—at least for now.

Human affairs are impermanent and unpredictable, so-called eternity does not exist at all, and the only moment that everyone can care about is the moment in front of them.Now that both of them want to get better like this, it's good to work towards this common goal.Live every day well, maybe if you are not careful, it will be a lifetime.

She returned to the computer and wanted to continue working, but she couldn't concentrate anyway, so she simply followed what Chunfeng said, and began to think about how to write her a letter to express her thoughts frankly.

Because he needed to carefully consider every word, he had to go back and edit it from time to time, so this letter was written very slowly, but Du Shili spent an entire afternoon on it, which was only a few hundred words.It wasn't until it was completely dark that the keyboard could no longer be seen clearly, and she belatedly realized that so much time had passed.

Shili rubbed his eyes, got up and went to prepare dinner.On the way, he also sent a text message to Chunfeng, asking if he needed to deliver food by himself, and reported the progress of his ideological work by the way, and sent the letter to Chunfeng.

Chunfeng didn't reply, just said that he wanted to eat with the people in the store, and there was no need to send it.

At twelve o'clock at night, Chunfeng got off work, and saw Du Shili as soon as he went out.She was leaning on the bicycle, staring into the distance in a daze, not knowing what she was thinking, and she didn't even notice that the spring breeze was coming out.

Chunfeng stood at the door and watched her for a while, then walked over and patted her on the shoulder.

Cold to the touch.The weather in Beijing in March is still very cold. I don't know how long Shili has been waiting in the night wind, and there is hardly any warmth in his body.Chunfeng frowned and asked, "Have you been here for a long time? Why don't you go in."

"It's okay, blow some air here, and your mind will be clearer." Shili said.

"I'm more sober when I have a cold." Chunfeng complained, sighed again, sat on the back seat of the bicycle, put his arms around Shili's waist, "Let's go, go home."

The bicycle moved forward all the way, the neon lights all over the city retreated quickly, the cold wind hit the face, and even breathing was cold.Chunfeng leaned on Shili's back, stared at the street lamps that were quickly receding, and suddenly said, "Shili, do you know that I feel very safe when I'm with you."

For Ji Chunfeng, Shili is different, very special, since the day we first met.

But before that, she had never considered what this particularity represented. Only after reading Shili's letter today did she suddenly have a clear understanding.She didn't need Shili's answer, and continued on her own, "Because you know me, and even in some respects, you know me better than myself. You know what I want, just give me what I want, and always stand in front of me. The most suitable distance is not inappropriate."

Going back and thinking about the process of the two getting acquainted, it's not that Shili didn't show these things before, but she couldn't understand them at the time.

"But Shili," Chunfeng felt that he might have been staring at the light source for too long, his eyes were a little stinging, and tears were naturally secreted, "Aren't you tired like this?"