I say all wine is worse than you

In a blink of an eye, the New Year is here.

The rest of the group had gone home one after another, which meant that Ji Chunfeng would spend the next period of time with Du Shili.

Chunfeng feels that his mood every day is like half holding ice and half holding charcoal in his heart, and he is always in the double sky of ice and fire.She could only carefully maintain this fragile balance, hoping to keep this state going.

Fortunately, Du Shili obviously still maintains a tacit understanding with her. Since Chunfeng showed her appreciation for more people, she has never been tempted on New Year's Day, and she no longer looks at Ji Chunfeng as if wrapped in scorching heat. temperature.

But even so, no one proposed to avoid this state of living together under one roof.

She is not the only one who wants to maintain this balance.

Beijing is an international metropolis, but because it is the capital, it is politically correct to show a different state during traditional festivals.So when the Spring Festival is approaching, all kinds of decorations and activities make the "New Year flavor" suddenly strong.

Ji Chunfeng and Du Shili bought a lot of new year's goods, and they were busy from the 23rd of the twelfth lunar month, until the [-]th day of the new year, all the preparations were barely completed.

Ji Chunfeng called home in the afternoon, but no one answered.Since the last time I said I would not go back during the Chinese New Year, it has fallen into a one-sided cold war and refused to answer her calls.Even today is no exception.

This affected Chunfeng's originally good mood.

This call was made from the afternoon to more than nine o'clock in the evening. Even during dinner, Chunfeng didn't put down the phone.As a result, the dinner was naturally not very peaceful, and Du Shili was affected by this atmosphere, and became quieter than usual.

Fortunately, I guess I was almost out of anger. After 09:30, the phone was finally connected, and there were a few harsh words over there, which considered that the matter had been exposed.

Children from single-parent families will inevitably face control and dependence.

Chunfeng is very helpless about this, and sometimes when she thinks of her mother's life experience, she will feel that the other party is very pitiful, and there seems to be no support other than herself, but most of the time, the emotion in her heart is impatience.

But her mother is the responsibility she cannot get rid of, what else can she do?

She has already been regarded as a deviant, walking on a path completely different from what her mother arranged, so she can't help but feel guilty and guilty, and can only make up for her in other ways.So I was bored for a while, and I could only coax him patiently.

Before the phone call ended, my mother asked a question that Ji Chunfeng didn't expect: "Have you met any suitable people over there?"

Chunfeng was startled for a moment before realizing what she was asking.

Just like most children in China, Ji Chunfeng is not used to discussing such issues with his parents.Even though she herself thinks it's normal to fall in love in her teens, she still subconsciously hides it from her family.And when parents start asking related questions, there is no doubt that a signal is also released.

She has grown up and can consider the issue of starting a family.

But this problem is more complicated for her.Chunfeng subconsciously looked back at Du Shili who was also on the phone on the balcony, then lowered his eyes and said calmly, "No."

Chunfeng felt that her mother breathed a sigh of relief, and soon she realized that this was not an illusion.

Because the next topic turned to her work.In the past few years, my mother actually doesn't know what Chunfeng is doing outside, and Chunfeng doesn't know how to explain her frequently changing state to her, especially the current job in the bar. From the perspective of traditional elders, it is undoubtedly "unserious".

However, her purpose was not to ask about Chunfeng's work. After a brief inquiry, she finally revealed her real purpose, "You don't earn much now, and you must be very nervous to rent a house and live a life there. Before A few days ago, your aunt Zhou said that they were recruiting people, with a basic salary of [-] plus commission, if they lived at home, they could save a lot of money every month..."

Although he didn't directly say "you come back", that's what it meant.

"How can money be so easy to get?" Chunfeng interrupted her, "There must be problems of one kind or another at that time."

However, in her heart, she also had to face up to a question: what should I do in the future?

Want to stay in Beijing forever?With her current income, it is impossible to open her own store in Beijing even if she spends her whole life. With her skills and experience of becoming a monk, it is very difficult to get into a high-end dining hotel. I have been tossing and turning in the shop, and I have worked all my life, and there is no upward channel at all.

Besides, my mother is not too old now, and it is fine to live alone, but she always gets old and needs spring breeze to take care of her.

But can she go back?

Although the family house is old and dilapidated, the property rights are in her own hands, and she will inherit it in the future.But at the same time, they also have to face various problems, the most serious of which is forced marriage.Beijing is high and the water is far away, so it is impossible for my mother to come and interfere in her life. At most, she will say a few words on the phone, but it will be different when she goes back.

Not to mention the fact that she is now bent into a mosquito coil, even if her sexual orientation is still normal, Ji Chunfeng does not want to enter the grave of marriage.

But after going back, she couldn't help her.

This is something that can't be both, she is still young, but the future seems to have no way.It wasn't until Du Shili returned to the house from the balcony that he was in a daze today and asked questions, did Chunfeng break away from this kind of thought.

"What did Auntie say?" Du Shili asked.

"Let me go back to Linzhou to work." Chunfeng smiled wryly, "I also asked if I have met a suitable partner here."

Du Shili paused for a while in tidying up the table, and his mood, which was not very high at first, completely sank.She took an orange, peeled it, and put a piece into her mouth, feeling the sourness from her mouth to the bottom of her heart.She didn't ask Chunfeng's answer, but said, "Parents always care about these issues."

She leaned on the sofa, staring blankly at the wall not far in front of her, where there was an oil spot rubbed up at some point.The sourness in her mouth was still lingering, and Du Shili felt that this feeling seemed to flow into her blood continuously, making her feel cold all over.The surrounding air became stagnant, as if it had turned into an invisible rope, tightly wrapping her in place, unable to break free.

That year, she let Ji Chunfeng go in a small hotel that cost 30 yuan a night in Linzhou, precisely because she heard her mention her family.

She is different from herself.

There are still people in that family who look forward to her and love her. She should have a more normal marriage and happiness that is recognized and praised by ordinary people in the world.

So, so be it.