The Records of the Library

At the end of the movie screening, Lan Ting stood in the aisle to assist the audience to exit. The finishing work would be arranged by other members, and there were still half of the people in the hall staying in their seats. He had a keen premonition that something was going to happen. The accumulated carbon dioxide for hours made the room look unpleasant. After saying hello, he left the lecture hall early.

The night wind was noisy on the stairs, maybe because of this "Tuner", Lan Ting had a lot of thoughts in his mind. Once he did, he would go to the library to tidy up the bookshelves and put the books in their original places. The brain is then quiet, and the emotions are organized in an orderly manner.

The time in the library does not distinguish between day and night, everyone is busy with the A4-sized world in front of them, and the most ear-piercing sound is the air supply from the central air conditioner.Lan Ting rolled the cart to the cache shelf, the phone in his pocket vibrated suddenly, it was a message from Su Yisheng: [Quickly look at the forum. ]

I clicked on the link, and it was the most popular post recently—my roommate seemed like the person I was chatting with, and he didn't follow up after the unpalatable barbecue. I didn't expect that He Ai was still updating, and recognized him in high school.

The sword of Damocles finally fell.Lan Ting leaned against the cabinet and squatted on the cold floor, surprised that she was much calmer than expected.But he didn't understand, since He Ai already knew that he was the one who caused him to be bullied, why didn't he confront him face to face, and put up with it until this time.

Browsing down, he saw the confession in the live broadcast, so many people were watching this farce, moved by the carefully designed affection, eagerly waiting for another protagonist to appear, sayyes, holding hands, hugging, let the story have a clichéd and complete conclusion curtain down.

Is this the purpose of He Ai?Forcing him to show up, and agreeing to him in public under the voice of the masses.

However, it is irresponsible to oneself to act against one's will in order to meet the expectations of others.Lan Ting has his own principles, so he will never wrong himself like this.

He re-registered the forum account, posted a post as KL, and clearly reiterated his rejection.

In this way, it should be ok. If there is anything to do, let's go back to the dormitory. He just wants to stay by himself for a while now.

He Ai didn't think so, he called, Lan Ting hung up, he dialed again, was rejected again, and then sent a message: [Are you still in the library? ]

Lan Ting replied: [Well, I am tidying up the bookshelves.You go back to the dormitory first, do you have the key? ]

Before he finished editing, He Ai's text came: [I'll be waiting for you at the door, I have something to say to you. ]

Lan Ting presses and deletes for a long time, and the cursor engulfs the text in the input box one by one. He changes his route: [I think you are not emotionally stable right now.If you're in a hurry, say it on your phone. ]

[it is good. ]

He Ai seemed to be ready to speak, and sent a long audio directly. Lan Ting put on the earphones, and a familiar voice sounded like a whisper.

"The reason why I chose Friday night is because I invited you, but I don't want to watch a movie with me. Sorry, I can only choose it during your work time. You mentioned sunk costs that day, and the replies from netizens made me Thinking of "The Tuner" that we haven't finished watching, and my unfulfilled promise. I am really paranoid, even if it is badending, I have to stick to the last scene, can you understand this?"

Lan Ting got up and walked towards the corridor, He Ai's words continued: "Also, did you see the clarification at the beginning of the post? I want to explain to you again, what you heard at the door was my angry words , not the real idea, the stalker has always been me, I distorted the facts and hurt you. Brother, you may not know how happy I was when I found out that you were Lan Ting, your tenderness, smile, everything Far beyond my imagination, I am very happy to live within the same [-] square meters with you, and I can see you every day when I open my eyes. But how happy I was in the first second, how regretful and hated the next second There is no way to take back the words that hurt you. If my brother neglects me because of this, pretends that he doesn't know me, and wants to erase all the time we have been together, I will do it myself.

"I didn't understand at first why my brother refused to tell me about the past. I arrogantly thought of a possibility. Did my brother think that I was isolated by my classmates because of you? But you misunderstood me. I helped you that day, yes Because I want to help you, I hit someone because I want to hit someone. There is no causal relationship between these two things. Xue Li and I have been at odds for a long time. Brother can only be a catalyst, so don’t feel burdened, let alone be afraid I hate you for that.

"I'm sorry, brother, it was not my intention to hurt you, and I couldn't obediently let go. I still like you very much. You clearly feel the same way as me. We are only one step away. What are you afraid of, brother? "

Tears flowed to the corner of his mouth, and Lan Ting realized that he was crying. He stood at the end of the corridor, wiped away his tears and called He Ai back. He Ai answered almost immediately.

"He Ai, listen to me."

He Ai's breathing was a bit heavy, but she restrained herself when she heard him speak, and only Lan Ting's calm voice could be heard at both ends of the microphone.

"Two years ago, when you put the coat on me, I liked you. I thought it didn't matter how you used to treat me, like or hate, time can digest, but it turns out that's not the case, I try to become more Okay, just to stand in front of you one day, you are willing to look at me more. Knowing that you have become my younger brother, but I can't see you in the dormitory, out of selfishness, I checked your forum number and approached you through the forum , I didn't expect it to be right.

"On the second night after you went to Qinghai, I learned about your being bullied. You don't blame me, but I blame myself. If I could help you say a word, maybe you wouldn't have to bear so much What's more, you saved me. Based on this alone, I will always owe you a point. It is reasonable for you to do anything to me, so you don't need to apologize to me.

"Your words did make me sad for a while, but it also made me think clearly. My heart used to be the same as yours, but it's not anymore. The current promise can only reflect the current state of mind. We can't predict the future. I can't take the pain of losing you again, that's what I'm afraid of, so it might as well end here..."

He Ai interrupted: "I don't agree."

"Can you promise that you will never leave me, Xiao Ai?" Lan Ting asked, and there was a long silence in response to him, and he continued: "You see, we have been friends and kept one step apart during this time, it's not so It's hard to accept. I've been able to get used to not chasing you with my eyes anymore, and getting along with you with a peaceful mind..."

The busy tone came, and the call was hung up by He Ai, Lan Ting rubbed his eyebrows, put the phone back in his pocket, and returned to the bookshelf.

He tried his best to suppress it, but when he was alone, his guilty conscience was magnified countless times.Is this how it feels to lie?The chest was empty, as if a piece was missing.

He started arranging the bookshelves again.

He Ai's eyes were always so focused on her, which attracted him to look back involuntarily, but he would look away when he counted silently to three.Also avoid unnecessary physical contact, can't accept the food brought by He Ai, can't watch a movie with He Ai, even though you sleep on the same pillow, you must turn your back to He Ai.

Why are there so many strange rules?

I remembered.It seems to be like this, because the heartbeat will speed up if they look at each other for more than three seconds, and the place He Ai touches will become hot, and every time He Ai picks up his favorite dishes.He was afraid that he would lose control, and he hoped that he could become He Ai's friend, so he had to stop all overstepping behaviors in advance.

Lan Ting stood on tiptoe and pushed the book into its proper storage position.

He said silently in his heart that it is necessary to stop the loss in time, all of which are necessary.

He used to think that he was a principled person, but he was not. He trampled on his principles and trampled on himself at the same time.He didn't have any so-called principles at all, if he insisted on finding one, his principle would be He Ai.So he was taught the hard way twice.

Now it won't happen again.

Lan Ting turned back to pick up the book, and saw He Ai standing at the end of the aisle, staring at him panting, with red eyes.He squeezed through the narrow passage between the tall bookshelves and came to him, the familiar aura instantly enveloped Lan Ting and forced him to the side of the bookshelves.

He Ai looked down at him, there was a silent and turbulent undercurrent under the black eyelashes, and even his breath was muffled, and he said in a low voice: "Brother, look into my eyes, and tell me again, what have you adapted to?"

Lan Ting unconsciously held his breath and said, "I..."

He Ai didn't let him finish his sentence, she lowered her head and covered his lips, he touched them very hard and sealed them, afraid that something would break his heart from those two thin lips.Lan Ting pushed his shoulder, but was pulled deeper into his arms. He Ai didn't let him move, didn't let him struggle, and even closed his eyes, not to look at his rejection, but his brows followed him. The revolt twisted up.

Lan Ting opened his mouth to speak, He Ai's tongue slipped in, twirled in his mouth, and wrapped around his tongue. It was a kiss that didn't feel comfortable at all. The only two distinct features were possessiveness and resistance. Lan Ting Ting blushed, angry, or shy, or both, but no matter what, he couldn't bear to bite him, like a bridge in a TV series.He also simply closed his eyes, neither pandering nor resisting.At least one of them has to get what they want.

He Ai let him go.

Lan Ting opened his eyes, and He Ai's eyes became even redder. He reached out to wipe off the water stains on Lan Ting's lips, his nose fluttered twice, and his eyes fell to the ground, "I'm sorry."

He really felt sorry and regretted the impulsiveness. He bent his neck and lowered his head to see the hair whirling hidden in it. Lan Ting didn't speak, but the anger in his heart suddenly melted away. He raised his hand and patted He Ai's shoulder.

"Brother, is it too much to ask to hug me for a while?" He Ai asked.

Lan Ting's heart skipped a beat, "It doesn't count."

He Ai stretched her arms around him, and gently rubbed her head against Lan Ting's neck. Lan Ting felt his body trembling slightly, and reached out to caress He Ai's back.His neck was a little wet, and some water fell into his collar.

He Ai quietly sniffed at the side of his neck, and it still smelled like rose sugar. Before the countdown in Lan Ting's heart ended, he let go of his hand.