mayfly dream

Shi Nanyun has always been in poor health. After playing that day, his old illness relapsed due to fatigue, and he suffered from a bit of cold, and then lay in bed for a few days. Chanhe still came to deliver medicine every day and took good care of him.In the evening of that day, Chanhe came to deliver the medicine and saw that Shi Nanyun was still asleep without closing the door, and his arms were still exposed when he fell asleep. Chanhe frowned slightly, and gently Walked over, put his hands into the quilt, covered the corners of the quilt carefully, and then went out lightly with the medicine in his hand. The moment Zen He went out and closed the door, the person on the bed Suddenly opened his eyes, his eyes were clear, not like someone who just woke up, Shi Nanyun frowned and looked at the door that had just been closed, feeling something slowly melting in his heart.

About an hour later, Chan He came over again with warm medicine, and saw Shi Nanyun reading a Buddhist scripture by the bedside.

Zen and said: "Drink the medicine."

Shi Nanyun: "Okay."

Watching him drink the medicine, Zen and He didn't intend to leave, they sat face to face.

After a while, Shi Nanyun looked at Chan He and said, "Chan He, do you know how my illness came about?"

Zen and said: "I don't know."

Shi Nanyun looked away from Zen and his body, looked at the ceiling, his thoughts seemed to drift far away, and said: "I am an orphan. I have been alone since I can remember. I grew up among beggars. I am often bullied by them, and I can’t get enough to eat every day. Sometimes some kind people will give me some food. If other beggars see it, they will come and grab it. If I don’t give it to them, they will start beating me. Oh, being beaten is It often happens that I have no clothes to wear in winter, and I will be frozen, and I am so hungry that I will eat even grass roots and tree bark, as long as I can keep myself from starving to death, I will eat anything.” When talking about this , a tear flowed from the corner of Shi Nanyun's eye, but he still stubbornly raised his head, trying not to let more tears stay.

Zen He looked at him, his usually indifferent and distant eyes were now full of astonishment.

Shi Nanyun took a breath and continued: "In this way, when I was more than ten years old, one day I was beaten by a group of beggars again. At this time, a kind-hearted man came to help me drive away those beggars who were beating me, and gave me money back. A sum of money, let me find a job to earn a living. Then I listened to him, used part of the money he gave me to clean myself up, and went to find a job. Since then, I I desperately started saving money, because I knew that if I didn’t have money, I would go back to my previous life. I would not have enough food and clothing to keep warm, and I would not be treated as a human being. I was really afraid of going back to this kind of life again, so I worked like hell every day, after a few years, I finally saved a sum of money, enough for me to open a shop, so I quit my job, I opened a small shop by myself and made a lot of money later. I am really grateful to that kind man. Without him, I might still be a little beggar who is bullied by others. Without him, I might have died a long time ago. Maybe for For him, it was just a little effort to save a little beggar, but for me, it changed my life."

Speaking of this, Shi Nanyun looked at Chanhe, squeezed out a sad smile, and continued: "I thought I could live like this forever, but I didn't know that I had an incurable disease until more than a month ago, at most, there is nothing left. The next year of my life expectancy, the doctor said, I was the root cause of my illness because I didn’t get good care of my body when I was young. In addition, I worked hard in those years and my body didn’t get any rest, which dragged down my body. Actually, I can I felt that my body was getting weaker and weaker, maybe I was really going to run out of fuel. Later, I closed the shop and started to travel around. Anyway, I have no goal. I just go wherever I go, maybe I will leave someday It’s good to go to a place with beautiful scenery.”

Zen He looked at Shi Nanyun with a complicated expression, and opened his mouth slightly to say something, but he didn't say it in the end.

Shi Nanyun looked at Chanhe's hesitation to speak, twitched the corners of his mouth, and said, "Thank you, Chanhe, thank you for listening to me."

After a while, Chan He said: "You, have a good rest." After finishing speaking, he got up and wanted to go, but halfway there, he turned around as if remembering something, looked at Shi Nanyun and said seriously: "In the future If you need anything, come to me anytime."

Shi Nanyun raised his head and looked at him in surprise, his heart was very complicated for a while.