long thoughts

Cai Yujing never came back that day.

I guessed countless possibilities in my heart, the worst and the closest to reality is to be suspended by the school and go home to reflect.But I didn't know until the class teacher came to me after school that something worse happened——Cai Yujing ran away from home and disappeared.

The head teacher was looking for the monitor at the beginning. He knew from the monitor that Cai Yujing and I had the best relationship, so he wanted to ask me if I knew where Cai Yujing might go. A few place names flashed through my mind, and I hesitated for a while. I mentioned all the places except milk tea shops and Internet cafes.

The head teacher repeated what I said, took notes to confirm the name, and let me leave with a few words of comfort and told me not to worry.

I went home first, put down my schoolbag, found an excuse to go out, and joined the team looking for Cai Yujing.I'm not sure that I can find Cai Yujing, but I also have no way to stay at home and do nothing with peace of mind.

Milk tea shops, Internet cafes, parks, shopping malls, I went to Zheng Kexin's house downstairs and walked around a few times when I was in a hurry. I searched all the places I knew, asked the boss and passers-by, but still found nothing.

The sky gradually darkened, and the early autumn wind blew past with coolness, making people shiver.Frustrated emotions welled up in my heart, like a basin of cold water pouring down, pouring out the blood and eagerness all over my body.I, who is not good at dealing with strangers, probably spent all my courage today. Looking at the dark sky, I couldn't help but smile wryly at myself.

Maybe he has been found by his family and returned home?I turned to Cai Yujing's house as if grabbing the last straw. Before I got close, I saw Cai Yujing's family waiting anxiously outside the community from a long distance away. blank.

forget it.Feelings of exhaustion and loss rushed in my heart over and over again, he didn't care about himself, why should I work so hard for him?Unreasonable anger ignited, and in a trance, I felt that I was tightly grasped by a giant's hand, and the feeling of weightlessness and dizziness was so real that it made people sick to my stomach.

I took a few deep breaths to calm myself down, turned around and prepared to cross the road, and went to the opposite stop sign to wait for the bus home.Because there are many mid-to-high-end residential areas here, there are many people and cars at the stop signs, coming and going, and the noise is annoying.After walking for several hours, my legs finally protested, feeling sore and tired. I looked at the unused horizontal chair behind me, and I, who was always too dirty to sit down, walked over and sat down.

However, as soon as I sat down, I heard the person next to me call my name in surprise and with an uncertain tone. This voice is very familiar, and I seem to have heard it somewhere...

etc!I turned around quickly, and it was Cai Yujing's absolutely recognizable face that caught my eyes, and my mind started buzzing with a coax.Cai Yujing looked troubled, and opened his mouth to speak.But before that, without a word, I stood up and punched him hard.

Cai Yujing took it unpreparedly, took a painful breath, and yelled at me: "Xu Changnian, are you sick?!"

I sneered and wanted to walk away without even thinking about it.Cai Yujing grabbed me subconsciously, "Wait, don't go away!" I shook off his hand, thinking that he was afraid that I would tell the truth, and asked him with a sneer in an unprecedented tone, "Do you know how old you are, Cai Yujing?" Yu Jing? Is it fun to run away from home? Is it funny to sit here and watch people looking for you? Is it interesting?" I've been looking for you for hours, you know?Do you know how worried I am about you?

Cai Yujing lost his voice, and there were more and more people around, and some were whispering and discussing something.Looking around, Cai Yujing took my hand and ran away. I struggled a few times but couldn't break free, and he led me to run a long way.I'm not familiar with this area, and I don't know where Cai Yujing stopped. He bent down and supported his knees to breathe slowly, and all the words he wanted to say were blown away by the wind.Cai Yujing looked away as if she didn't dare to look at me directly, and sat down on a chair by the side of the road.I paused, then sat next to me.

"In the morning, my father, my mother, and Zheng Kexin's grandparents are all here, in the dean's office." Cai Yujing explained consciously, her voice was a little hoarse, and the unconscious grievance in her tone made my heart skip a beat. shoot.I didn't speak, and listened to him quietly, regretting that I punched him impulsively before.

"It was alright at first, but I didn't know why the quarrel started again. I was used to quarreling with my family members, and it didn't matter if I scolded. Zheng Kexin was different. Her family was strict, and the older generation was here, so she was very angry when she knew about it. , scold her for not learning well at such a young age..." Cai Yujing choked up a little after speaking, as if he didn't know how to say it, I patted him on the back and comforted him with the gesture of coaxing his sister at home.

Perhaps to some extent comforted his wounded heart, Cai Yujing quickly organized his words and continued: "I haven't told you about her situation. Her family is a bit complicated, her parents work outside, and her grandparents are at home. Her grandparents Patriarchal, control her strictly, only love her brother."

"At that time, what her grandparents said was so ugly that Zheng Kexin was about to cry. I answered her back, but her grandparents couldn't speak up to me." Cai Yujing smiled, and there was endless sarcasm in his smile, "What can I do if I can't say it?" Well, I had no choice but to give me a slap in the face."

Needless to say, I can imagine what happened next.I didn't know what to say, I just apologized for my previous behavior in a low voice, "I'm sorry." I'm sorry for getting angry with you, and I'm sorry for doing something to you.

Cai Yujing didn't respond. He looked up at the sky, put his hands behind his head, and continued as if he was talking to himself, "Zheng Kexin also said sorry to me later. I said it's okay, it's not your fault. I I don't blame her at all, I just feel sorry for her. She cried and shook her head, and finally she said, Cai Yujing, let's break up."

"I don't understand, I really don't understand. Isn't it generally written in stories that the protagonists go through all kinds of hardships and then live happily together? Why did everything go well before, but then it ended suddenly. Xu Changnian, you know a lot, Do you know why?" Cai Yujing finally looked at me, but I avoided his eyes in embarrassment.

I dare not look at the sadness in his eyes, the heaviness in his words alone is enough to overwhelm me.

Fortunately, he didn't really want me to answer. He glanced at it and took it back, "I didn't agree at first, but then she kept crying and crying, and there was nothing I could do about it."

"I don't know how I came back. Maybe I ran out because I was upset by my parents' quarrel. I just wanted to sit here and have a quiet time, but then I saw them come out to look for me." Cai Yujing smiled, "I didn't hide from them, I just sat here and didn't go anywhere. Why do you think they are so anxious to find me, but they can't see me right in front?"

I didn't speak because I didn't know what to say.I know that Cai Yujing is suffering, and I can understand this feeling, but I can't empathize with him.

Cai Yujing didn't speak anymore.I waited a long time to sneak a peek at him, only to be surprised to find that his face was covered in tears. "Cai Yujing." I tentatively called his name.

He didn't respond.

I took a pack of papers out of my pocket and stuffed it into his hand.Cai Yujing grabbed the paper and my hand, but I didn't dare to pull it away, so I hugged him and comforted him.Cai Yujing didn't refuse, and leaned half on my shoulder.Tears soaked my shirt, and wrapped my heart tightly like a fine net, making me breathless.

At that moment, I deeply felt that something was quietly changing.I found this Cai Yujing, who was different from usual. He was like a little beast licking his wound alone after being injured, and he carefully exposed his wound to ask for help after meeting a familiar person.

He needs me, the voice from the bottom of my heart tells me, but the pain and regret feel like needles pricking me.

He was crying and my heart was holding an umbrella for him.

The author has something to say:

Probably because the relationship has jumped from quantitative change to qualitative change...